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Repeatedly mentioned, he simply followed his enthusiasm.

He directly made an appointment with Lu Qingguang.

He arrived earlier than the agreed time, and Lu Qingguang hadn't rung the bell yet.The boss saw that he was bored, so he came over and handed him a cigarette, and started chatting.

"Boss Gao is a local, right?"

Gao Yan nodded with a cigarette in his mouth.

"In our shop, Xiao Lu and I are also locals."

Gao Yan was cold-tempered, so he could only say "Oh" dryly.

The boss seemed to be in a good mood, and chatted to himself: "Xiao Lu is a young man, but the signboard of our shop is not only good in craftsmanship, but also very attractive to girls, and young male customers also like him. Recently there was a The male guest has been here for three consecutive days..."

Gao Yan frowned imperceptibly.

Later, the boss was talking to himself, and Gao Yan occasionally echoed a few words, and his mind was already wandering away.

There was a noise in Box No. 5. The boss raised his eyebrows and said in a low voice, "Here, Boss Gao, this is the only customer who has been ordering Xiao Lu for the past few days."

Gao Yan saw a vigorous man walking out of the room, suddenly paused, and said loudly: "Master Lu, thank you, I will come to see you some other day!"

Compared with six years ago, Li Kai has changed a lot, he is stronger and more decent, except for the faint scar on his face, which still reminds him of his frivolity in the past.There is a string of Xingyue Bodhi hanging on his chest. I don't know if it is well-encrusted or smoky all day long. From the beads to the "tee links", they are all yellow.In the past, I would have sneered at this kind of pretentious attire.

As time goes by, no matter people or things, they will become uncontrollable and even look very different.

Li Kai went straight to the front desk, somehow, as if he had eyes behind him, he suddenly turned around and looked at Gao Yan who was stupefied, his eyes lit up.

Li Kai came over in surprise, with a joyful expression on his face, "Why are you here?"

He called Gao Yan by his original name, and the boss gave them a suspicious look.

Gao Yan dodges, wishing he could run away.

"Boss Gao is here?" At some point, Lu Qingguang walked up to him, put his hands on his shoulders, and said softly, "Go ahead and wait for me, I'll be right there."

Gao Yan, as if he had received an amnesty, quickly hid in the No. 3 box.

Li Kai squinted his eyes and looked towards Box 3, which was also in the direction of Gao Yan.After a while, he looked at Lu Qingguang who was getting ready again, raised the corners of his lips, and smiled meaningfully.

From the moment Li Kai recognized him, Gao Yan fell into a cold cave.In his derailed past, Li Kai was a witness.

He is afraid of Li Kai, just like he is afraid of fire, earthquake, and typhoon instinctively. It is an objective harm that cannot be rejected, and an unpredictable time bomb.Li Kai is an evil symbol, representing that unbearable experience: the cold prison cell, the rotten smell, the vicious violence and the almost desperate mind.

He wanted to forget the darkness, but the darkness followed him like a shadow.

"Yanyan?" Lu Qingguang entered the room, locked the lock abnormally, and touched the massage table, "Yanyan, why aren't you lying on your stomach?"

Gao Yan stood at the end of the bed, moved his lips, but couldn't make a sound.

"Yanyan?" Lu Qingguang called him again standing on the spot, poking his head around uneasily.

"...I, I'd better go back today..."

As soon as the words fell, Lu Qingguang jumped at him accurately, grabbed his wrist, pulled him into his arms, and said firmly, "Don't go!"

Gao Yan froze all over, as if being poured down by scalding boiling water, the ice turned into hot mist, steaming him to nowhere, and Lu Qingguang hugged him tighter and tighter.

"What happened? Can you tell me?" Lu Qingguang pressed close to his ear, coaxing with a very soft and soft voice.

With a rapid heartbeat, backflow of blood, and a trance, Gao Yan felt that he was going crazy.In Lu Qingguang's strong and gentle embrace, he briefly forgot about Li Kai.Now, his mind was full of associations that he was ashamed to talk about, and he was so ashamed that he couldn't move.

"Let, let me go..." Gao Yan blushed, and his voice was like a mosquito.

Lu Qingguang smiled slightly, rubbed his chin on his forehead, and then let go of his hand neatly.

Because the other party was too decisive, Gao Yan's whole body suddenly emptied, his body was still warm from contact, but his mood was inexplicably lost.

"Speak, Yanyan, I will listen carefully."

Lu Qingguang's eyebrows stretched, and he "watched" him gently as he did every time we get along.He has no sharp eyes, no oppressive eyes, no scrutinizing eyes.

He was fortunate that Lu Qingguang's poor eyesight prevented him from seeing his gaffes, allowing him to retain the little bit of poor self-esteem that remained.

Maybe it was the aroma in the house that played a catalytic role, maybe Lu Qingguang's "gaze" was too gentle, maybe it was a matter of course, Gao Yan let go of his defense in a daze.

Words that I didn't dare to think about before, and words that I couldn't say even if I wanted to say, came to my lips like a flood. As long as I opened my mouth lightly, the flood would be released at any time and the strong dam would be washed away.

"I... made mistakes, very serious mistakes, which cost me the rest of my life," Gao Yan suddenly stopped talking, watching Lu Qingguang's reaction nervously.

Lu Qingguang frowned slightly, "Yeah".There was doubt and worry in the "hmm".

Gao Yan breathed a sigh of relief, as long as he didn't show disgust, he would have the courage to continue talking.

After he finished speaking, Lu Qingguang did not speak for a long time.

The room was eerily silent.The atmosphere was tense to the extreme.

Gao Yan regretted it.

Lu Qingguang's enthusiasm and gentleness made him lose his judgment, and he didn't think carefully about the feelings of ordinary people at all, and what position he should stand on to accept himself.

It's all right now, although it's very refreshing to speak up quickly, and he doesn't need to cover up and tell more lies to complete the lie, but the consequences, he didn't think about it at all.

...to be so irresponsible.Gao Yan thought dejectedly.

"Yanyan," Lu Qingguang finally said, with a troubled expression on his face, "It's been...fortunate for you these years."

Gao Yan looked at him in surprise, a sudden soreness surged from his chest to his nasal cavity, and he choked up a few times: "You, won't you be afraid of me?"

Lu Qingguang shook his head firmly, stretched out his arms, and made a half hug, "Come here, Yanyan."

Gao Yan heard his heart beat unstoppably faster, loudly clamoring to leave his body, to collide with another heart that was beating equally vigorously.

It turned out that it was not that difficult to tear off the mask and remove the armor.These years of loneliness and obscurity without any support can finally be understood and tolerated.There is indeed hope that will come before us.

This recognition made him feel an unprecedented sense of security.

With red eyes, he slammed into Hope's arms.

Lu Qingguang hugged him tightly with both arms, and whispered in his ear like a baby: "Hey, my Yanyan."

07.

Gao Yan confessed most of himself to Lu Qingguang, but only omitted his high school days.He uses a pseudonym for external use, and his real name has been abandoned since the day he was released from prison.

He believes that when they were in high school, the relationship between the two was not good, they were almost strangers, and each had black material, so getting to know each other would only lead to embarrassment.When chatting with Lu Qingguang, he would subconsciously avoid mentioning this topic.

What he and he have is cruel youth, why not let everything be dusty in memory, leaving a seemingly beautiful outline.

They are all new people now.

When Han Wei went to the massage shop again, there were scattered snowflakes falling in the sky.

He was wrapped in rain and snow and was welcomed into the box by Lu Qingguang, and then a warm white towel was handed to him. Lu Qingguang smiled appropriately and gently: "I heard from the guests that it was raining and snowing outside. face."

Gao Yan's heart was filled with emotion, it was sweet.

The room was well heated, and during the massage, Gao Yan fell into a drowsy sleep.

He had a spring'dream.In the dream, someone was gently touching his body, sliding from the chest to the back, cruising from the back to the lower abdomen, and then meandering down to the root of the thigh.With the cooperation of the nimble fingers and the warm palm, he intentionally rubbed the skin near the important parts of his inner thighs, heavy and light, deep and light, the stimulation made the muscles tense and anxious, and the important parts quickly received the pleasant feeling. The signal...he was shamefully hard.

A wave of heat covered his place through the underwear, and then rubbed it step by step, making the desire' grow bigger, harder and hotter.

He let out two very light, very light groans impatiently.

Immediately afterwards, there was a spasm that made the toes curl up, and the tip sprayed out a wet and greasy liquid, and climbed to the top in an instant.In the aftertaste of the climax, there was an indistinct voice, suspended in the air, calling him "Yanyan".

He woke up suddenly, and broke out in a cold sweat all his life.Straightened up and looked around, Lu Qingguang sat beside him as usual.

"What's wrong?" Lu Qingguang asked worriedly when he heard the huge movement, "Yanyan, are you awake? I feel that you are quite tired, so I didn't call you after it was over."

"How long have I been asleep?" Gao Yan wiped his face carelessly.

"I fell asleep without pressing it for 10 minutes, counting an hour and a half after I finished pressing it."

Why did you sleep so deeply?Still shamelessly having that kind of dream?

Thanks to Lu Qingguang who couldn't see it, wouldn't it be extremely embarrassing if someone found out that he reacted during the massage.

While Gao Yan condemned himself in his heart, he couldn't help recalling the dream just now.To be honest, it's still a bit unsatisfying.

Perhaps human beings are such sad animals, and pleasure can steal away reason at any time.

Gao Yan got out of bed and straightened his clothes. Lu Qingguang came over and brushed his hair affectionately.The fingertips slid across the ends of the hair, and the fingertips rolled over the forehead, touching the sensitive skin.

Gao Yan was startled, there was still a face behind his ears and neck.