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drunken state.

He felt that his drinking capacity was average, but he didn't expect that Lu Qingguang's drinking capacity was worse than him.

Gao Yan saw that his face was flushed, and his cute thoughts took root.

"Master Lu, you don't usually drink alcohol, do you?" Gao Yan poked his face with his finger.

Lu Qingguang grabbed his hand and approached him breathing alcohol.The two were so close that their breaths were entangled together.

"Boss Gao, don't provoke me." Lu Qingguang narrowed his eyes and rubbed his face in his palm, "I don't know why, as soon as I touch you, my heart beats so fast, it's almost here I thought it was going to break."

Gao Yan froze, as if the alcohol had slackened his strength, and he felt limp.

"I have never looked forward to a customer so much," Lu Qingguang raised his face and "stared" at him, "but after that day, you never came to the store again, and I felt very... uncomfortable. Even one night, I dreamed of you, although I don't know your appearance, but I think the person in the dream is you. You walked so fast in the dream, I couldn't keep up, and I bumped and fell a few times Somersault. Then you stopped, turned back, and helped me up."

Gao Yan's eyes widened, not knowing how to react.

"Actually, you are a very gentle person, aren't you?" Lu Qingguang held his face at some point, and "stared" at him affectionately.

Gao Yan panicked completely, feeling that the scene in front of him was too ridiculous.

He suddenly realized that he was expecting something, expecting that Lu Qingguang would do something more extraordinary to him.

The body betrayed the heart, and he was nailed to the spot and could not move.

"Would you like to be my friend?" Lu Qingguang asked cautiously.

Gao Yan wakes up like a dream, and finally returns to his soul.

He bounced off the couch and rushed into the kitchen for water.He had to use water to extinguish the flames that had just started in his body.

"Boss Gao?" Lu Qingguang groped to the kitchen door, stopped, and called in again, "Are you in the kitchen?"

Gao Yan wiped the water stains on his lips, walked to his side, and said calmly: "Okay, we can be friends."

After speaking, he patted Lu Qingguang on the back, brushed his shoulders and walked out.

Lu Qingguang didn't move where he was, the corners of his lips curled up irresistibly, as if he was planning something.

05.

Half a month after meeting Lu Qingguang, Gao Yan still didn't go to the massage parlor.

On the one hand, he took another job, and the deadline was very tight; on the other hand, he was inexplicably irritable.I don't know why, ever since he realized that Lu Qingguang was a high school classmate, he was a little afraid of him, as if as long as he faced him, his dark past would pop up without warning, and be bloody dissected under the blue sky.

From the moment he agreed to be friends, almost at the same time, he regretted it.

Lu Qingguang will send him WeChat voice, infrequent, restrained and polite.Like every adult who is good at creating a sense of distance, it will not be annoying or worrying.

He would chat with him about his family's troubles, discuss his troubles at work... all the trivial, insignificant and ordinary daily life.

Gao Yan would sometimes turn back, and sometimes ignore it.Lu Qingguang didn't mind his fits and starts.In this way, we talked about National Day, autumn, and early winter.

Years of life experience have tempered his ability to adapt to loneliness, and he does not have any expectations for interpersonal communication, but Lu Qingguang is like a screwdriver regardless of his care, slowly digging in his closed world, chiseling a fine line. Let the warm light scramble to overflow in.

It would break his heart even if it overflowed.

Once, for some reason, Gao Yan walked to the door of the massage parlor, and he was about to open the door and go in.As a result, through the glass, I saw Lu Qingguang bowing his head and talking intimately with a girl. The two stood facing each other, and they were a perfect match.The girl's eyes were watery, and she didn't hide her admiration at all.I don't know what the two of them talked about, but Lu Qingguang laughed suddenly, and his smile was shining brightly.

Gao Yan was burned by this smile, his steps became timid, and his heart became cold.

He knows that the current self is like a full bow, which is stretched tightly. It only needs a little pressure, and the straight string will "swish" or break.

He didn't know what the outcome would be, and Gao Yan didn't have the courage to imagine it.

What's even more unbearable is that because of this overly caring emotion, he developed an unspeakable frustration with Lu Qingguang.

Like love, like hate.

Because he is afraid, he is afraid that his heart has already exceeded the rules.

One night, Lu Qingguang rarely sent a WeChat message and called directly.

He heard Lu Qingguang feed, his voice was a little hoarse, as if it had been polished by sandpaper.

"Gao Yan, what are you, what are you doing?" Lu Qingguang slurred his speech, with a trance of drunkenness.

"Have you been drinking?" Gao Yan asked back.

"No, I didn't drink much, I'm still, very sober!"

"Are you alone? Or with others?" Gao Yan asked reflexively.

"You, are you caring about me?" Lu Qingguang giggled, "I'm so happy, Yanyan."

Gao Yan was taken aback by the sound of "Yan Yan", a circle of fine and dense ripples appeared in the heart lake, and a montage appeared in front of his eyes, Lu Qingguang's voice turned into a transparent bell-shaped jar, enveloping him in it, twitching Take oxygen, blurred consciousness.

"Yanyan," Lu Qingguang said with a big tongue, "I am very happy today, do you know why?"

Gao Yan's stuck mind suddenly became clear again. He approached the speaker and asked calmly, "Why?"

"Because today is my birthday."

"Happy birthday."

After Gao Yan finished blessing, he thought to himself, let's send a red envelope later.

"Thank you, then can I ask you for a birthday present?"

Gao Yan pinched the phone with a trembling fingertip, and asked, "What do you want?"

"I want you……"

The air froze for a moment on the phone, and Gao Yan's pupils shrank suddenly.

"... Be my forever friend." Lu Qingguang said the second half of the sentence slowly.

Gao Yan's face was sullen, and he didn't speak for a long time.

"Yanyan?" Lu Qingguang thought the line was disconnected, "Are you still there..."

"I'm here." Gao Yan said coldly, then hung up the phone with a snap.

He was a deserter, and he was defeated before he reached the battlefield.

A few seconds later, the mechanical female voice was reading the screen, and Lu Qingguang received a WeChat transfer with the note "Choose any birthday present".

Holding the mobile phone, Lu Qingguang's drunkenness disappeared in an instant. He shook his head with a wry smile, and murmured, "Idiot, why didn't I realize what I really wanted..."

The next day, Gao Yan stayed up all night, sleeping until the afternoon before waking up.

He originally planned to order takeaway, but suddenly remembered that when Lu Qingguang came, he bought a bag of quick-frozen fried dumplings in the supermarket.

Gao Yan got out of bed, casually put on a sweater, pulled on his slippers, and entered the kitchen.

As soon as the oil in the pot was hot, there was a "sizzling" sound, and the doorbell rang loudly.Gao Yan turned off the fire, and went to open the door with question marks all over his head.

He has almost no relatives and friends who come to the door, and it is very likely that he is engaged in sales.

At the end of the year, everyone's life is not easy.

Maybe it's because he just woke up, and Gao Yan's vigilance has weakened a lot, he didn't ask through the door beforehand, and opened the door aggressively, fortunately, there was an acquaintance outside the door.

"What... are you here for?" Gao Yan stared at Lu Qingguang in disbelief.

"Make up my birthday." Lu Qingguang walked in with a blind stick and a big bag.

"Are you going to cook?" Lu Qingguang wrinkled his nose and asked.

Gao Yan suddenly came back to his senses, let out an "ah", and admitted, "That's right, you... don't you have to go to work today?"

"The shift has been changed," Lu Qingguang smiled, and handed the bag to Gao Yan, "That's just right, I brought food and cakes."

Gao Yan was stunned for a moment, Lu Qingguang shook the arm carrying the bag, "Yanyan, what's the matter? Catch it, hurry up and set the plate!"

Gao Yan was speechless, took the food, and went into the kitchen silently.

Did Lu Qingguang have this kind of personality before?Easy to cook?

What about himself?Before reuniting with Lu Qingguang, it was not what it is now.If it was him before, he would definitely raise his eyebrows and tell Lu Qingguang to go back immediately.

"You don't like ginger?" Lu Qingguang suddenly asked while holding a bowl.

At this moment, Gao Yan was gnawing on the ribs vigorously, and gave an indistinct "hmm".

"What don't you like to eat?"

"Chinese chives."

"It's really like a child." Lu Qingguang muttered.

Gao Yan was not convinced: "This is a matter of personal taste acceptance."

"Okay, okay, remember, I will pay attention to it in the future."

Lu Qingguang "looked" at him and smiled slightly.Even with the dust under his eyes, his smile is contagious and very pleasing to the eye.

After the two finished their meal, Gao Yan brought out the cake.

"Wait," Lu Qingguang blocked Gao Yan's hand that was about to cut the cake, "Light a candle and let me make a wish."

"You're really greedy," Gao Yan muttered, he pulled out a candle and lit it, "Not to mention two birthdays, but also two wishes."

"Once, only this time this year...with you..."

Lu Qingguang's voice seemed to flash from the depths of his throat, followed by the extinguished candle turning into smoke and dissipating.

06.

After frequent contacts with Lu Qingguang, Gao Yan discovered that this man was actually very domineering, even a little stubborn.

He would make decisions for him on his own, would ignore his objections as always, and would approach him shyly, pretending to be innocent, and deliberately ask, "Yanyan, why are you angry again?"

However, Gao Yan has nothing to do with his behavior like chewing brown sugar, so he can only let people pull and fumble to lead him away from Dokdo where he has been hiding for a long time.

In the last month, Lu Qingguang has always encouraged him to come to the store, saying that there are promotional activities, and if there is a bargain, he will not pick it up for nothing.Gao Yan didn't really want to go, but he couldn't stand Lu Qingguang