gender doesn't matter

Lan left, he left with Lin Mo.

When leaving, Lin Mo walked up to me, "Xiaozhi, I'm sorry." He said, a rare trace of guilt appeared on that haughty and arrogant face, and he looked somewhat similar to Lin Yue.

Until this moment, seeing their quite similar expressions, I didn't feel that Lin Yue and Lin Mo were brothers or twins.

But what about guilt?

Nothing will change.

Just like my stalemate relationship with Lin Yue.

Immediately after Lin Mo, Lin Yue also left.

Like Lin Mo, he also said sorry to me when he left, but what he said was: "Ean, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for you."

Ean, it's Ean...

I said, "It's okay."

But, how could it be okay.

God knows how scared I was, scared to death, afraid that I would never see him again.

Although I see it now, but...

I didn't expect things to turn out like this in the end.

"I'm sorry, Ean." With Lin Yue's sorry, his figure disappeared into the crowd; with his departure, I became the laughing stock of others after dinner.

Not only in reality, but also on the Internet, there was a climax of insulting me and vilifying homosexuality: what a disgusting pervert;

Of course, there are some people who support me, but the voices of support are obviously much weaker than the voices of abuse, and this few voices of support also accumulate when I don’t know who broke my experience in the art troupe.

I have completely become a negative example, what is cheap; weapons.

Even with a thick skin like me, I was a little out of breath from being stabbed.

In the past, I didn’t surf the Internet or use Weibo, so I didn’t think it was a big deal, but now…

Seeing everyone's vicious words when attacking me, watching them follow my Weibo in order to abuse me, watching the number of followers increase steadily.

Suddenly, I feel that the world is impermanent and extremely absurd.

Fortunately, in such a bad environment, Gu Dao, Qin Dong, Gu Qingyu... They actually texted and called me to cheer for the rally.

Director Gu said: "Ean, I want to invite you to play the male lead in my next TV show. He is an indifferent young man who has gone through the world. I think you can play it well."

Qin Dong said: "Ean, don't care what others say, just live your life. I believe you don't care what you were like before."

Gu Qingyu said: "Xiaozhi, I'm sorry, I couldn't help you with anything."

……

Lan said: "Ean, if you can't take it anymore, come to me."

Ye Xi was afraid that I would be sad and hid my mobile phone, but he himself was furious and cursed at every turn: Those idiots don't know anything, they know nothing in a day.

Stupid, stupid...

Ye Xi's appearance is as silly as it is, but it adds a bit of fun to the boring life.

"Ye Xi, if you keep shaking like this, I will be dizzy from your shaking." I was very helpless.In fact, I am not as sad as everyone imagined. I don't care at all what others think of me. What I care about is what I will never get.

Ye Xi stood up abruptly, and said fiercely, "It's their group of people who bullied people too much."

"How can you control other people's speech?" The most uncontrollable thing in this world is probably the speech of people.

I knew this from a very young age, when I was so young, those adults used such vicious words to attack me, and they didn't care that I was a child at all...

In their eyes, I am a disgusting transvestite, not a child.

"Ye Xi, there is no need to be angry. You have been in the art troupe for so many years, why haven't you learned it yet?"

What I said was Ye Xi, but I knew in my heart that I was the same: I have been in the art troupe for so many years, and I have seen so many dirty deals, I thought I would never fall in love with anyone again, but when I met Lin Yue... …

Facing his gentleness, facing his meticulous care... In the end, I still fell.

For us, to fall means to be destroyed, and this sentence is indeed true.

It's just that I still can't figure it out: He was fine the day before, but why he became so strange the next day, saying sorry all the time, but he didn't say why he was sorry.

Even the footsteps when I left at the end were a little wobbly, but I didn't pay much attention to it because I was angry with him at the time, and now thinking about it, I feel that everything is wrong.

First of all: Lin Yue is not a person who faces Qin Muchu, and with his character, even if he wants to leave, he will tell me clearly.

What's more, there are bloodshot eyes in Lin Yue's eyes, and the sound is like a murmur in his mouth: Ean, I'm sorry; I'm sorry, Ean...

It sounds so sad, even a little helpless.

There is also Director Gu's reaction, although he said that he took good care of me and treated me well during filming, and recognized my acting skills, but I know that our relationship is not good enough for him to risk being boycotted by the majority of netizens. Choose me as the hero.

There is also the cell phone that Ye Xi hid and refused to give me.

……

All of the above, and my calm heart.

I always feel that things are not as simple as I see them.

Or rather I was kept in the dark by their ganging up.

So, I stole Ye Xi's cell phone while Ye Xi was not paying attention, and opened Weibo to see the recent uproar of hundreds of worker casualties.

Brightly ranking first on the hot search list for a long time, it seems to have replaced the turmoil caused by my matter.

I looked down a little bit, and saw the words Dongsheng Real Estate under the Ln Group, and a bad premonition was about to come out.Suppressing my uneasy mood, I looked down a little bit and saw the big characters of the project leader Lin Yue, which were specially marked in bold fonts to emphasize the effect.

I was in a trance for a while, and the text on the screen turned into dense letters... I couldn't see what was written.

My heart twitched, it turned out that it wasn't Lin Yue who abandoned me at all, but... something happened to him.

Something happened to him, not only did I fail to help him, but I was still blaming him here, feeling sorry for myself...

The hand holding the mobile phone suddenly released without warning, and the mobile phone fell to the ground, and I didn't know it.

It was Ye Xi who rushed in from the door, picked up the phone when she saw it lying at my feet, and said in a low voice: "Xiaozhi, I'm sorry." Then she bowed her head as if confessing, as if she was waiting for my answer. punish.

But, how could I punish him? If I say punishment, I should also punish myself...

Obviously, Lin Yue is so kind to me, but I don't believe that he often doubted him and said such vicious things to him.

Although I know that I am not a good person, I have never felt so vicious at that moment as I do now.

More vicious than those pointing people on the road, than those commenting on the Internet...

Until this moment, I finally understood that Lin Yue's words were sorry, and those words were I'm sorry for you. #####