He does not love me

He Na said: "You have to pretend to be deaf and dumb and live well!"

He Na said: "You must find a way to leave Zhong's house!"

He Na said: "He is Zhong Mingcheng's uncle, not your uncle."

He Na said: "I know what you want, but those are not practical."

……

The older Zhong Xiao gets, the more he understands that getting rid of the Zhong family is much easier than getting rid of Zhang Yi.He ran away again and again, but approached again and again.

Finally, he had the closest chance to Zhang Yi, how could he give up.He pushed the nurse away and said to the doctor, "I can, I can do it, I want to save him!"

The doctor said, "You will be in danger if you lose too much blood!"

Zhong Xiao shook his head: "It doesn't matter."

As long as Zhang Yi can be saved, as long as the relationship between the two is not severed.That means seeing the light, even if only a little bit, is fine.

The chaos in his mind slowly engulfed Zhong Xiao, he saw the thin and frail He Na, sitting on the head of his bed in a white dress, looking at him with a smile.

He reached out to touch her, but there was always a distance.He yelled, "Mom, come here."

He Na just smiled, didn't speak, and didn't approach him.Zhong Xiao stretched out his hand desperately, but he couldn't reach her.He cried anxiously: "Mom, do you hate me for not listening to you?"

"Mom, I didn't mean to, I can't do it."

"Mom, I also have something I want, and I want to fight for it too."

"Mom, I'm very sad, I'm very unwilling."

……

Zhong Xiao had a long dream. In the dream, there was a world of ice and snow. He wandered round and round in the knee-deep snow, but he couldn't find his way.He cried and yelled helplessly.

When he woke up, he found himself lying on the hospital bed with tears streaming down his face. The single ward was quiet and empty, with sunshine in the window.He wiped away his tears and struggled to sit up. Just as he was about to get off the bed, the door was pushed open. Seeing him wake up, the nurse holding the medicine said happily: "You finally woke up!"

Zhong Xiao was a little at a loss.

The nurse said, "You have been in a coma for two days."

two days?Zhong Xiao grabbed the nurse: "Is he okay?"

"Are you talking about the person who saved you?" The nurse's eyes seemed a little pity.

Zhong Xiao held his breath.

The nurse saw his nervousness and smiled lightly: "He's not in good condition, and his family has transferred him to another hospital."

"Is it serious?"

"Maybe amputation!"

The nurse's words pierced Zhong Xiao's heart like an ice knife, making him feel cold all over.He shivered.The nurse pushed him back to the bed and lay down again.

"It's not guaranteed to be amputated. You don't have to worry too much. His family doesn't look like ordinary people. There may be a way without amputation." The nurse comforted him.

Zhong Xiao covered his chest and asked her, "Then do you know where he went?"

The nurse shook her head and said she didn't know.

Zhong Xiao smiled wryly, feeling that he was very ridiculous, and in the end he couldn't even know what happened to Zhang Yi.

Before leaving the hospital in the afternoon, Zhong Xiao wanted to call Zhong Mingcheng, but after finding out his phone, he found that he had no phone number for a long time.Neither did Zhang Yi.After changing the new number, he deleted all previous contact information.

In order to protect himself, he turned himself into an isolated island, using a self-abuse method.It would have been nice if Zhang Yi hadn't found him, if only he had left the city resolutely.if……

There is no if in life.Wouldn't it be better if he didn't exist.Zhong Xiao often imagines this way.

But no matter how imaginary, real life continues.No matter sad or happy, no matter caring or letting go.Zhong Xiao feels that his life is like a pool of water that no longer flows, lying there quietly, waiting to be evaporated and exhausted.

After completely losing news of Zhang Yi.

Zhong Xiao began to really believe in fate, he felt that what He Na said was right, some things were really unrealistic.So what if you are not reconciled?Just like when he wanted to get Zhong Jianyang's affirmation when he was a child, if he couldn't get it, he couldn't get it, and if he couldn't help it, he couldn't help it.

Working hard is not suitable for asking for things that don't belong to you.

Zhong Xiao really began to believe in fate.He continued to devote himself to the work of the bakery without complaint, earnestly learning the bread crafts of the German boss.He began to be able to converse proficiently with deaf shop assistants in sign language.Encouraged by the female boss, he signed up for a pastry class and began to learn how to make beautiful cakes.He adopted a feral cat with a broken leg, and he began to teach himself English.

Winter goes to spring, and spring returns to summer solstice.Grass withered grass green, soon half a year.

One day, the German boss asked him: "Have you ever thought about opening your own shop?"

Zhong Xiao said no, and the German boss said, "You can think about it."

He asked why, and the German boss said that his craftsmanship was on par with his, and that his wife had the idea of ​​opening another store.

"If you want, you can become our partner." The German boss issued an invitation.

Maybe half a year ago, Zhong Xiao would be excited because of this.But now, he just feels dull.He didn't immediately reject the boss, he just said to think about it.

It's another half a month after thinking about it.Heading into July, the temperature rises and the sun bursts.The German boss asked him several times, but he finally refused, saying that he was not suitable.

He has lost hope for the future.He works hard and studies hard, just to be able to smile hard.He was afraid that if he didn't work hard, he would be like the last He Na.Without such a tone, anything can be done, such as giving up on yourself.

He also has a cat with a broken leg. The doctor said that it is eight years old, so it is considered an old cat, and it may die in a few years.He has to spend the last few years with the old cat well.

Back then He Na had a lot of helplessness, but his helplessness was not as much as hers.It's good for him to accompany the cat.

There was a thunderstorm that night, and the air smelled of washed earth.The originally steamy streets became very refreshing.

Zhong Xiao waited for the rain to stop before returning home. He walked along the wet street, making one bend and another.

For the old cat, he changed to an old house on the first floor with a small yard.There is an old tree at the gate of the yard.From a distance, he saw a tall figure standing under the old tree, dressed in white.

Before Zhong Xiao got close, he saw the figure slowly coming out from under the tree, and stopped where the light was shining.There was a sad smile on his face.

He called: "Zhong Xiao."

He said, "Long time no see."

Really long time no see, Zhong Xiao burst into tears.