let him land

As the end of the year is approaching, both Xie Chuan and Zhuo Lidong are getting busier.Xie Chuan was busy with work, Zhuo Lidong was busy with entertainment.On the night of December [-]th, Zhuo Lidong went to drink and socialize again, but did not return for a long time.Xie Chuan called Zhuo Lidong five or six times, but no one answered the phone.

The temperature was already close to zero, and it was late at night, Xie Chuan couldn't help becoming anxious, wondering if Zhuo Lidong was drunk and robbed?I also thought of the robbery and murder case of taxi drivers I heard about a few years ago, specifically targeting people who were drunk late at night, robbing them of valuables, and then dragging them to the suburbs to kill them.

The more he thought about it, the more frightened Xie Chuan became. Besides, it was almost the Chinese New Year, and the law and order were indeed not as good as usual.

Until after twelve o'clock, no one answered Zhuo Lidong's phone call.Xie Chuan couldn't hold back any longer, and called Zhuo Lidong's subordinate.The mobile phone number of this subordinate was not given to Xie Chuan by Zhuo Lidong, but Zhuo Lidong's mobile phone was broken some time ago, and he was in a hurry to contact his subordinate, so he used Xie Chuan's mobile phone.

Xie Chuan knew that what he was doing was a bit out of bounds - but at this time, he couldn't care less about going beyond the bounds.

Soon the phone was picked up: "Hello? Who is it?" A drunken male voice.

"I'm Manager Zhuo's friend," Xie Chuan said nervously, "I need to find him urgently, but I can't get through to him. Are you two together?"

"Manager Zhuo?" There was a pause on the other end, with a difficult tone: "He...we are together, but Manager Zhuo can't leave now. I'll tell him later and ask him to call you back, okay?"

Xie Chuan was stunned: "...Oh, that's good, then please let him call back when you have time, my name is Xie. Please."

"Okay, you're welcome, no problem."

Xie Chuan put down his phone, stared blankly for a while, then climbed onto the bed and tucked into the quilt.At this time, Zhuo Lidong "can't walk away", what could be the reason for "can't walk away"?It's nothing more than those things - and he is so guilty that he doesn't even answer the phone.

Having been in the society for so long, Xie Chuan can actually understand it, but it is a little awkward to accept it.He felt that he and Zhuo Lidong could be regarded as fixed partners during this period of time. For the sake of safety and hygiene, Zhuo Lidong shouldn't go out to find others, right?And entertainment needs—forget it, I hope he remembers to wear a condom.

Xie Chuan slept on a double bed, but it was not big, and it was a bit crowded when he and Zhuo Lidong lay on the bed.It had been a long time since Xie Chuan had not slept on this bed alone.Although the heater is burning hot, Xie Chuan still feels a little uncomfortable.He secretly laughed at himself, it's only been a few days, and he can't sleep alone?It's hard to go from extravagance to frugality. After sleeping with a handsome guy, I really become picky, which is not good.Just thinking about it like this, Xie Chuan gradually fell asleep.

He had a dream, and it was strange to say that in the dream he knew clearly that it was a dream.Maybe it's because he met his parents.As an adult, he was wearing a school uniform, as if he was coming home from his study next night, and saw that the dining table was full of steaming dishes. There seemed to be fried chicken gizzards, fried crispy meat, cold white meat, meatball soup... In short, it was a big table vegetable.

Both father and mother are sitting at the table, father is holding a float in his hand, and is tinkering with his fishing equipment; mother is propping her chin and chattering, Chuanchuan, be good, study hard?There are also many universities in Chongqing, so you should try to get into a school in Chongqing. Your father and I have discussed it. When you go to university, we will go back to Yongchuan to buy a house. First pay a down payment, and you can take it slowly later. repay the loan.Your father will be able to retire in seven or eight years, and you will graduate by then, and we will all go back to Chongqing, how wonderful!

Xie Chuan wanted to say, Mom, but I didn’t go back to Chongqing. My first choice, Chongqing University, fell short by three points, so I slipped to my second choice, which is in Changsha.In fact, Changsha is not bad, but the winter is too cold - but the winter in Chongqing is not much warmer, right?In fact, it doesn’t matter. I graduated from university and went to Chongqing to find a job. Mom——

But I didn’t say these words, because my mother went on to say, Chuan Chuan’s birthday, I wanted to order a cake for you, but I saw on TV that the current cream is full of trans fatty acids, which is not good for your health!Let's skip the cake, shall we?You see, your dad and I have cooked so many dishes. This meatball is a beef meatball. The beef this time was bought well. It is...

Dad, Mom—Xie Chuan wanted to rush forward to give them a hug, but his body was pinned in place and he couldn't move.He was so anxious that tears came to his eyes, and the heart-piercing feeling from six years ago swept through his soul again.Xie Chuan knew that this was a dream, so he wailed without restraint. He cried and said, Mom and Dad, are you coming back? I am sorry for my mistake. I really miss you.

My mother couldn't hear what he said, and she still said with a smile, Chuanchuan, we're going back to Yongchuan the next day, so I have to take you to Songji to have a look. Your dad and I grew up there. Mom rolled her eyes at Dad, who was still fiddling with his fishing gear in confusion, and Mom continued, the houses over there are all old houses, much nicer than the newly built ancient towns now, Chuan Chuan, didn’t you say that you want to go to the ancient town of Lijiang? Our ancient town in Songji is no worse than Lijiang. There are many earth buildings in our place. Chuanchuan...

"Chuan Chuan, Chuan Chuan?" Zhuo Lidong shook Xie Chuan's shoulder vigorously.

Xie Chuan woke up with tears in his eyes and face.He wiped his eyes to see the scene in front of him clearly.The lights in the room were not turned on, but the lights in the living room were on. Zhuo Lidong held Xie Chuan's shoulders tightly with an anxious expression on his face.

"Did you have a nightmare?" Zhuo Lidong's voice was muddy, and he was quite drunk when he heard it, "Why are you still crying?"

Xie Chuan was silent for a few seconds, then smiled awkwardly: "Ah, I dreamed that the world is ending, so scary."

Then he asked again: "Why are you back?"

Zhuo Lidong moved his hand away from Xie Chuan's shoulder, and turned to hold his hand gently: "Why don't I come back?"

"Aren't you... entertained?"

"The leader of the headquarters is here. He's too busy. He's going to sing again after dinner." Zhuo Lidong rubbed his brows wearily, and paused while rubbing, "What do you think I'm doing?"

"...What can you do with this point?"

"Xie Chuan," Zhuo Lidong frowned, "We...we are like this now, how could I go out to find someone else?"

"I called you after twelve o'clock and you didn't answer it. Call your colleague and say you can't leave."

"At that time, I was really entangled. Those people seemed to be fucking sick when they were drunk."

Zhuo Lidong didn't even take off his coat, and there was a faint smell of cigarettes on his body.He squatted beside the bed, his tall body folded into a short ball, and his voice became hoarse due to drunkenness, as if he had returned to the voice-changing period in junior high school.

Xie Chuan glanced at his phone, it was 45:[-] in the morning.

A blur of moonlight fell through the window into the room.

Xie Chuan looked at Zhuo Lidong and felt his heart swell, as if something had broken out of the ground and filled his chest that had been shriveled for a long time.Just distracted for a moment, he stretched out his hand and caressed Zhuo Lidong's face that had been blown cold by the night wind.The stubble is a bit tricky.

Zhuo Lidong grabbed Xie Chuan's hand and kissed his palm.

"What is our relationship?" Xie Chuan felt that he was talking stupidly.

"...What you say is what it is." Zhuo Lidong was drunk and smart, and threw the question back.

"Zhuo Lidong," Xie Chuan leaned over, with wet tears on his face, he kissed Zhuo Lidong's lips, "I think I love you."

Zhuo Lidong: "Can I ask a question?"

"Ah."

"After you graduated, why did you return to Gancheng?"

"Shouldn't you be back?"

"Students who pass the exam generally don't go back to Gancheng, right? And your family doesn't live here either."

Xie Chuan hugged Zhuo Lidong's neck and shook his head: "I don't know where my family is from, Yongchuan? But I grew up in Gancheng. But you say Gancheng? Gancheng—now Gancheng has only I am alone, only me, myself. I have a favorite writer, she said that she is like a bat, a bat is not a bird or a beast, in fact, I am the same.”

Zhuo Lidong's chin rested on the top of Xie Chuan's head, and he said after a long time: "I felt the same way when I first returned to Yibin. Yibin is my hometown, but I am completely unfamiliar with it. The teacher speaks Sichuan dialect in class. I half understood and half understood. Even if I wanted to go back to Gancheng, I couldn’t go back. The house at home was sold. Then my parents divorced again at that time. It’s really... For a while, I woke up every day in a daze for a long time, I don’t know Where are you?"

He sighed softly, and said, "That writer also said that the place where relatives die is the hometown."

Xie Chuan shivered suddenly: "You have read her book..."

""The Brothers Who Miss My Family Village", "Zhuo Lidong tightened his arms and hugged Xie Chuan tightly, "What kind of relationship do you say we are, I think no matter what the relationship is now or what the relationship will be in the future, we are all family members Children in the hospital, right?"

Yes, they are all children in the family home. They have a common memory, a common confusion, and a common hometown that is not their hometown.Even if they can't be lovers, even if they can't even be friends, they will always be the same kind, and because of the existence of each other, they will always understand that it is not just themselves who cannot land, forever and ever.

Xie Chuan's heart suddenly sank, it was not loss, but a kind of deep satisfaction, he felt like a bat, slowly landing on Zhuo Lidong's shoulder.