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He didn't tell anyone about this little thing, originally he had no one to tell except Tao Huainan.Tao Huainan, a senior in high school, is having a hard time. Only Xiao Zhuo knows Tao Huainan's secret.

Xiao Zhuo skipped class and took Tao Huainan to see a doctor. Tao Huainan's face was as white as the paper in their hands. Xiao Zhuo worriedly clutched his hand, feeling that he was living a hard life.

After graduating from high school, his unspeakable hopes were cut off.However, during that time, Pan Xiaozhuo couldn't even concentrate on feeling sorry for his own concerns. At that time, he was worried about Tao Huainan most of the time.Pan Xiaozhuo would send him one or two messages every day, without saying much, just asking "how are you?"Pan Xiaozhuo was very afraid that from some day he would never return.

Xiao Zhuo has never had any good luck. After completing the college entrance examination volunteers, he failed to get into the major he applied for, but was transferred to a very unpopular major.But he still chose to go to school.

Occasionally, when I see something or hear something, I will touch the soft place in my heart that has been hidden all the time. Every time I encounter it, my heart will still soften, and I feel lucky, and feel that the flying boy is passionate and arrogant.I hope he will always be wanton, and there will always be light in his eyes when he smiles.

Pan Xiaozhuo often looks at each other's circle of friends, and he will memorize those dynamics.But he never liked it, not even a word of greeting during festivals.

One day at the beginning of his junior year, when Pan Xiaozhuo picked up his phone and saw the profile picture in the unread message, he was in a daze for a moment.

Kai: Are you there?Xiao Zhuo?

Pan Xiaozhuo blinked for a few seconds, then quickly replied: Yes.

The other party hadn't said anything else, Xiao Zhuo was afraid that he would look cold if he came back late, so he followed another: What's the matter?

Kai: Are you busy recently?I have something to trouble you.

Xiao Zhuo replied as quickly as possible: "Okay, tell me, I'm not busy."

Pan Xiaozhuo went to wash up just now, and now he didn't put the towel on, but still hung it around his neck. He just put the toothbrush cup aside, and kept standing there waiting for news.

It took about half a minute for Shi Kai's news to arrive.

Kay: I'm a little embarrassed to say, it's embarrassing. [cover face/]

Pan Xiaozhuo looked at the message, laughed unconsciously, and replied: It's okay, what's the matter.

Shi Kai has a little cousin who also transferred to Pan Xiaozhuo's major this year. She cried four times in the first three days of school. She was not assigned to a dormitory with students of the same major.The family is usually spoiled and spoiled, but now I go to school by myself and my mentality collapses.

My aunt called Shi Kai to ask him if there were any classmates going to school here, and to help her take care of her for a few days to help her get used to it.

Shi Kai felt that typing was long-winded, so he made a voice call to Xiaozhuo directly.Xiao Zhuo went to the balcony to pick him up, and when he heard Shi Kai's voice, he felt familiar but in a daze.

He still doesn't talk much, but he's much better than he was in high school.When Shi Kai spoke, he would say "um, um" at the intervals to show that he was listening, and he laughed along with Shi Kai's speechless complaints.

"Okay, okay." Xiao Zhuo leaned on the window and said with a smile, "I'll go find her tomorrow and take her to identify each building."

"Don't bother, let her find it by herself," Shi Kai said, "I'll let her add you? Just tell her when she can't find it, and don't worry about her normally."

"It's okay, I don't have class tomorrow anyway." Xiao Zhuo leaned on the window sill with his elbows, the phone stuck to his ear, "Don't worry."

"I'm not worried at all. If my aunt hadn't called, who would care about it?" Shi Kai complained.

Xiao Zhuo laughed again, Shi Kai said, "Thank you Xiao Zhuo."

Pan Xiaozhuo first said "You're welcome", and then remembered Shi Kai's "Thank you Brother Kai" every time Shi Kai asked him to say before. The hand that was not holding the phone was hanging outside the window, and the cool wind was hanging on it. Xiao Zhuo bent his eyes, feeling that the temperature in September was really comfortable.

They haven't been in touch for more than two years, but after this phone call, they seem to know each other very well, even more so than when they were in high school.Pan Xiaozhuo is not always nervous and restrained then, but now he smiles more than then.Pan Xiaozhuo smiled when listening to every sentence.

Although the socially phobic teenagers at the time are not afraid anymore, they are not very cheerful.But in the matter of Shi Kai's cousin, he behaved as a completely reliable senior. That cousin was not as arrogant as Xiao Zhuo thought, and she was actually quite nice and polite when she got in touch with him, and she kept saying thank you.

Because of this matter, Shi Kai and Pan Xiaozhuo are often in contact. With the help of Xiaozhuo, the cousin regained her good expectations for college life and sent a message to Shi Kai.

Shi Kai turned around and called Xiao Zhuo. The cousin kept saying thank you very politely to Xiao Zhuo. Shi Kai has been in touch with Xiao Zhuo a lot these days, so I can't thank you.Talking about something irrelevant on the phone, Shi Kai said that when he came back, he asked Xiaozhuo to come out for dinner.

Pan Xiaozhuo laughed every time he talked to him, now he smiled and said to Shi Kai: "You have to say thank you."

Shi Kai said "Yo" on the phone.

Pan Xiaozhuo laughed again and said, "You're welcome."

Shi Kai also laughed, and said to him: "Thank you, I'm going to class."

"Yeah," Xiao Zhuo said, "Bye."

Even Tao Huainan found that Pan Xiaozhuo was in a good mood recently and was always very happy.He asked Xiao Zhuo what he was happy about, but Xiao Zhuo hesitated and didn't tell him.Tao Huainan smiled gently, saying that it's good to see you getting more and more cheerful.

After the nightmarish period in the third year of high school, Tao Huainan was always alone.Chi Cheng, who used to hold his hand and take him to school every day, is gone, and Tao Huainan has become much more independent than before.

Pan Xiaozhuo often went to see him, watching Tao Huainan slowly recovering from his depression, and he was always very peaceful until now.

He never told Tao Huainan what was on his mind. He didn't have the time to talk about it before, but later on it was unnecessary.

To Pan Xiaozhuo, this incident was like a lively episode in his ordinary life, and it passed quickly.I'm happy when I'm connected, and I'm not lost when I don't.Maybe because I never had any extra expectations, I was able to treat it very calmly.

Shi Kai's cousin Cong Anran often contacted Pan Xiaozhuo, and every time Pan Xiaozhuo answered her questions carefully.After a long time, she no longer cared about Xiao Zhuo being called senior, and called him Xiao Zhuo regardless of his age.

The two were in class in the same building that day, and Cong An asked Xiao Zhuo to have lunch together, and Xiao Zhuo agreed.

Cong Anran was waiting for him downstairs. When Xiao Zhuo came out, she handed him the coffee that had just been delivered, and said, "My brother told me not to bother you all the time, lest you be embarrassed to refuse me."

Xiao Zhuo took the coffee and said thank you, then said it was okay.

"If you think I'm annoying, you can tell me tactfully! Don't be shy!" Cong Anran said, "For example, if I invite you to dinner, you just say you have a date! Or go to the library! I'll get it! But don't just say you're bothering me, save some face!"

Pan Xiaozhuo asked her to joke, and said, "Okay."

Cong Anran has a similar part to Shi Kai in his personality, and it's not tiring to get in touch with, they are the kind of generous people.Thinking back to when he was in high school, Pan Xiaozhuo only regrets that he spent more time on social terror. In the past two years, he just wanted to hide from Shi Kai.

When I grow up, I realize that it is really unnecessary, and a lot of good time was wasted.

Cong Anran often mentioned her brother, they were not much different in age, and they often played together since they were young.Cong Anran said that Shi Kai was very naughty when he was a child, and he ran around every day. He didn't learn well in junior high school. Her uncle knew about his smoking and almost broke his leg.

"Don't mention how happy I was at that time!" Cong Anran said with relief, "During that time, I hated him to death! In the second term, we played handsome all day long, and we went to grandma's house together and didn't play with me. Very! My uncle beat him and I slipped by, right!"

Pan Xiaozhuo was very happy to hear that, and said with a smile, "Brother Kai is fine."

"It's very good, but he always dislikes me, but he is very good to me, I know." Cong Anran added, "So I don't bother him now!"

Pan Xiaozhuo thought with a smile, why bother him, how nice he is.

That winter, Shi Kai came back for the New Year's holiday, and Xiao Zhuo was also on winter vacation and was studying in the dormitory for the postgraduate entrance examination.He applied to stay in school and did not return to his aunt's house.There are two tutoring classes in the morning every day, and sometimes there will be a temporary part-time job in the afternoon.

When Shi Kai sent the message, Xiaozhuo was studying, and the dormitory building was basically empty, deserted and unpopular, and the dormitory was very cold.Xiao Zhuo hugged a hot water bottle and wrapped it in a blanket. His phone rang for a long time before he picked it up to look at it.

Kai: No Xiaozhuo during the holiday?

Pan Xiaozhuo looked at the message, put down his pen and replied with both hands: It's a holiday.

Kai: Then you have some time to come out for a meal recently?

Pan Xiaozhuo had always been calm when he received his news before. He was very happy, but he was not too nervous.I haven't seen him since graduating from high school, and I'm actually a little nervous about meeting him now.

Xiaozhuo replied after a long time: OK.

Shi Kai arrived more than half an hour early for the scheduled meeting at [-]:[-] p.m., and called Xiao Zhuo to say that he was downstairs in his dormitory.

Xiao Zhuo was taken aback, looked at the time and said, "It's so early...I'll be down right away!"

"I'm going to pick up some things next to your school, and I'll come over on the way, so don't worry if you have nothing to worry about." Shi Kai said on the phone.

"Wait!" Pan Xiaozhuo had already put on his shoes when he spoke, grabbed the key and went out.

When Xiao Zhuo went downstairs, his heartbeat was similar to the rhythm of his stepping on the steps, pounding.

Shi Kai stood at the foot of the steps with his back to the dormitory building, and when he heard the voice, he looked back and saw Xiao Zhuo laughing: "Have you grown taller?"

Xiao Zhuo ran in a hurry, still panting a bit, exhaled and said, "It's grown a bit."

"In my impression you are much shorter than this," Shi Kai said with a smile, "you are always shrinking to one side."

Pan Xiaozhuo thought it was because I saw you were afraid, after all, I owed you money.

It was a bit early for dinner at this time, Shi Kai asked Pan Xiaozhuo where there is a CCB nearby, and he wanted to change the bound mobile phone number.Pan Xiaozhuo took Shi Kai there, and Shi Kai talked to him while walking. Surprisingly, Pan Xiaozhuo was very different from the impression he had in his mind. He talked more than before, and he was able to find topics on his own initiative.

"Can you see each other often?" Xiao Zhuo asked.

"Who am I with? Brother Chi?" Shi Kai said, "See you occasionally."

"Is he still not coming back?" Xiao Zhuo raised his head slightly, looked at him and asked.

"No." Shi Kai knew that Pan Xiaozhuo and Tao Huainan had been doing well, "He is very busy."

Xiao Zhuo looked at him from this angle, the line of his jaw was neat and beautiful, he seemed to be the same as before, he was still a handsome and handsome boy.

"What's wrong?" Shi Kai felt Xiao Zhuo's gaze, and asked with a glance at him.

Xiao Zhuo shook his head and said, "No."

When entering the room from the outside in winter, Pan Xiaozhuo's glasses are always covered with frost, and he can't see clearly.He stepped forward in a daze, and bumped into Shi Kai directly.

"Look carefully," Shi Kai laughed, saw his glasses, and grabbed his arm and pulled him aside, "Can't see clearly, can you?"

Pan Xiaozhuo took off his glasses, shook them in his hands, and his eyes became hazy all of a sudden. He got used to wearing glasses, and he would squint his eyes unconsciously when he took them off. gone."

After calling the number, Shi Kai took Pan Xiaozhuo by the arm and led him to sit on the chair, asking him, "How much is it?"

"The glasses are [-], and I don't know too well. They should be higher." Pan Xiaozhuo sat next to him, smiled and said, "One time when I was going out with Huainan, someone knocked me down before getting on the subway, and my glasses fell off. Outside the subway, the two of us searched for glasses for more than an hour that day, Huainan said that I would not come out with me if I didn’t bring a spare pair of glasses.”

"He still hates it." Shi Kai said with a smile, "I must have been talking about it all the time."

"No, he's not so talkative now." Pan Xiaozhuo sat there, thinking about Tao Huainan's changes, and said, "Be quiet."

Pan Xiaozhuo suffered from insomnia that night.

In fact, he didn't think about a lot of things, he didn't think about Shi Kai very excitedly all the time, and he even studied for a while after eating, as usual.Chatting and eating with Shi Kai makes people feel very relaxed. Even if Pan Xiaozhuo has those secret little thoughts in his heart, he will not feel particularly nervous when facing Shi Kai. He is a comfortable person.

The insomnia, he thought, might have come from drinking a large cup of coffee after dinner.

Pan Xiaozhuo touched the phone from the pillow and checked the time. It was 01:30, and he was still very energetic, with his eyes shining.

He climbed out of bed in his pajamas, didn't bother to put on his coat, stepped on his slippers and went to the bathroom.After that, I didn't rush back to bed, but sat down below, put on the earphones and listened to English for a while.

A few times between listening to English, Shi Kai's handsome smile flashed through his mind during the day when he was speaking, and Pan Xiaozhuo followed suit. Although he suffered from insomnia, he still felt in a good mood.

I listened to four 10-minute English speeches in my pajamas at night, and the result was easy to guess.

There was a tutoring class in the morning, but Pan Xiaozhuo refused to get up.The phone's alarm rang countless times, Pan Xiaozhuo opened his eyes in a daze to check the time, it was seven forty.

He sat up suddenly, and felt his head was very heavy when he got up.While breathing, the lips could feel the heat. Pan Xiaozhuo touched his neck with his hand, and for a moment he didn't know whether it was the palm of the hand or the neck that was hotter.

Even if he had a fever, he couldn't delay being a tutor to teach students. Pan Xiaozhuo got out of bed, washed and dressed, dizzy and stuffy, and walked out of the dormitory listlessly.

This state of malaise lasted for two days. I took the medicine that night and went to bed early. I didn't sweat all night, and I found it difficult to even open my eyes the next morning.

He heard the phone ringing in the drowsiness, but he was unable to speak when he connected, his voice was so hoarse that he almost lost his voice.

It was the parent of the student who called and asked him if his fever had subsided. If not, go get an injection immediately and don't go to class.

Pan Xiaozhuo couldn't attend class in this state, asked his parents for leave, hung up the phone, closed his eyes and fell asleep again.

After a long and drowsy sleep, it was past ten o'clock when he opened his eyes again. Pan Xiaozhuo got up and tidied up briefly, put on a thick down jacket, and headed lightly to the off-campus clinic for an injection.

The students are all on vacation, and there are not many people in the clinic. There are a few patients lying on the sofa and lying on the bed, all quietly drinking water.The doctor prescribed medicine to Pan Xiaozhuo, and then the nurse came to give him an injection.Tao Huainan sent a message asking what he was doing, and Pan Xiaozhuo replied with difficulty with one hand, saying that he was getting an injection because he had a cold.

Tao Huainan: "Why is your voice so hoarse? It's so serious? Can you do it yourself? Do you want me to accompany you?"

Pan Xiaozhuo: "No, it snowed yesterday and the road was slippery, so just wait and don't come out."

Tao Huainan: "Oh."

Pan Xiaozhuo: "I don't mean to discriminate against the blind."

Tao Huainan: "Oh, I don't think so until you tell me."

Pan Xiaozhuo replied with a smile: "It's really unnecessary, I will get an injection at the school gate, and then go back to sleep."

Tao Huainan: "Understood! I just asked intentionally, but I didn't really want to go!"

Pan Xiaozhuo smiled for a while, put on the earphones and played soft music, closed his eyes and continued to sleep.People are always sleepy when they have a fever. Pan Xiaozhuo seems to have been sleeping for the past two days when he was sick.

After a while, the phone vibrated again in his pocket. Pan Xiaozhuo thought it was Tao Huainan, so he connected it directly through the headset.

A sleepy voice: "Huh?"

However, it was not Tao Huainan's voice that came over: "Zhuo'er? Are you at school?"

As soon as Pan Xiaozhuo heard the address, he became energetic in an instant, and sat up straight on the sofa.

"Kai..." He opened his mouth and his voice went silent, Pan Xiaozhuo cleared his throat, "Brother Kai?"

"Hey, where are you going to sleep?" Shi Kai sounded like he was outside, and the surroundings were a little noisy.

"No, what's the matter?" Pan Xiaozhuo asked.

"It's okay, I asked you if you have eaten. I'm near your school. Ji Nan, the son of a bitch, asked me to have dinner. When I arrived, he said he couldn't make it. I finished ordering the set menu. Come over and let's eat?" Shi Kai Ji Nan was left speechless, and his tone of voice was a little dumbfounding.

Pan Xiaozhuo looked up at the unfinished bottle of water, there were still two small bottles left after finishing this bottle.Pan Xiaozhuo had no choice but to say, "I can't go, brother Kai."

Shi Kai asked him: "What's wrong with your throat? I thought you didn't wake up just now. Have a cold?"

Pan Xiaozhuo was afraid that Shi Kai would think he was pushing back, so he explained: "Yes, I'm getting an injection. There are still two bottles left, and it will be too late for me to finish the injection."

"Where did you get the injection? Did you have breakfast?" Shi Kai asked over the phone.

"No, it's right here outside my dormitory building." Every time Shi Kai asked, Pan Xiaozhuo answered very seriously and listened honestly.

Shi Kai said: "That's fine, you can sleep a little longer."

"Okay." Pan Xiaozhuo felt a little sorry for not being able to have dinner with Shi Kai, and pursed his lips, "Then I hang up?"

"Well, hang up." Shi Kai responded.

Pan Xiaozhuo said "goodbye" again, and only after hearing Shi Kai's response did he hang up the phone slowly.

Pan Xiaozhuo lay back and leaned back in the chair, blinked at the ceiling, and exhaled softly.The soothing light music in the earphones also sounded inexplicably irritating at the moment, Pan Xiaozhuo took off the earphones and put them in his pocket.

After that, Pan Xiaozhuo didn't fall asleep again, and was half asleep and half awake in the drowsy period.He felt that the nurse came to change the bottle of medicine for him, and heard someone coming in from a distance, talking to someone at the door, and then sat on the sofa two seats away.

When he became conscious again, he heard someone sitting down next to him.The fine rubbing sound of clothing and sofa leather came into the ear, very close, but the surrounding air was not cool.Being too close to others would make Pan Xiaozhuo feel insecure, so he opened his eyes this time.

The moment he opened his eyes, Pan Xiaozhuo felt that he was really burnt out.

He directly met Shi Kai's eyes. Shi Kai's handsome eyes, with a smile on his face, directly met Pan Xiaozhuo's bewildered vision.

Pan Xiaozhuo stared blankly, his reaction was a little slow, and then he closed his eyes.

It took a few seconds for Pan Xiaozhuo to open his eyes, and he met Shi Kai's gaze again.Shi Kai laughed this time and asked, "Are you awake? Or are you still awake?"

Pan Xiaozhuo blinked blankly.

"Anyway, no one eats with me. I just packed up and came to see the patient. Do you want to have some porridge when you wake up?" Shi Kai spoke in a very low voice, probably because he was in such an environment.Coupled with a little relaxed smile in his voice, it made him sound very gentle, like coaxing a child.

Pan Xiaozhuo's eyes turned around, and it was only then that he came back to his senses that Shi Kai had really come.

Shi Kai looked at him in a daze and found it amusing. When Pan Xiaozhuo's eyes circled around and returned to Shi Kai's face, Shi Kai was looking at him with a slightly raised eyebrow and a smile. The expression was asking him if he would eat or not. Porridge.

At that moment, Pan Xiaozhuo felt a huge, strong, uncontrollable heartbeat bursting from his chest.