The last time to say I love you

Gao Li said the morning star...

The daisy that Li Su said...

It really looks like... it all symbolizes hope.

Obviously, the temperature from Gao Lu's body was as warm as the noon sun, and his words were filled with endless tenderness, but he still couldn't break through the smog that covered his heart, and couldn't warm his heart, let alone pick up his long-lost love. Heart bruised and bruised.

Gao Li was the second person to say these words to him, his heart is not made of stone, what's more, he heard these words when he was in the most embarrassing situation, when he heard Gao Li say that there is no light, I will light his head for you My heart can still feel the long-lost warmth for a moment.

He admitted that he was moved at that moment, but it disappeared after just a moment, and there were countless feelings of guilt at the same time as the move.

Li Su also said these things to him once, those words were just Li Su's casual words, but he regarded them as beliefs and believed in them for a long time...

It's been so long that he still believes him now, so long that he's numb to Gao Li's words except for a moment's touch, and it's been so long that when those people hold knives on his neck, he still feels that he is sorry for him.

The person who has been occupying his heart for so long is still Li Su, the irreplaceable and unique Li Su.

In the final analysis, the touch at that moment was probably because it was too long since I heard these words, and it was too long since I felt the hug from others when he was in a mess, that's all.

When Xu Zhisheng pushed Gao Lv away, Gao Lv saw that Xu Zhisheng's dim eyes were full of sadness, and the eyes filled with tears reflected his blurred appearance,

"The starry sky in Chuanjiang...the flowers all over the mountains..."

Seeing Gao Lv, Xu Zhisheng suddenly laughed, his lips were trembling up and down, hot tears covered his face, and the blurred eye sockets made him unable to see the expression on Gao Lv's face clearly.

His tears fell not only on his face but also on his broken heart. The insignificant injuries in those people's eyes shattered his fantasies one after another.

He no longer dared to look forward to the sight of thousands of stars, and no longer looked forward to the morning sun.

The starry sky in Chuanjiang, the flowers all over the mountains, these words are so strange to him, since his father passed away, he has no longing for these things, so long that he can't even remember what they are.

Some people will never feel the cruelty of this world, just as he will never feel the beauty of the world.

Let him feel cold from head to toe every day as if he lived in the remote snow field of Dugu.

He is working hard to suppress the shady illness, he is taking medicine for treatment, his rationality has not been overwhelmed, and he has not done anything outrageous. They say he is sick, and he admits it. He was wrong, and he also admitted...

You have tried your best to forgive all of them, why don't you let him go?Why do you always make fun of his liking as a joke?Why do you have to magnify his pain?

Sometimes he really hates his illness, why should he leave him with a little faith?Why not completely destroy his sanity?

If he really committed a heinous crime in his previous life, can he not use such a cruel criminal law?

He would rather disappear completely in this world and sink into the dark abyss to live forever without reincarnation, or cut off all his souls at once and let him be wiped out. He doesn't want to face the criminal law of facing humanity.

He was ruthless like a ghost with human skin crawling out of hell, with a human face and a heart like a snake.

Xu Zhisheng wiped away the tears on his face with his hands, wiped off his embarrassment, and said what had been hidden in his heart for a long time:

"I really envy you."

I envy that you can chat and laugh happily with your friends, go to class and finish class together, and play and fight together.

I envy you at the same age to use your best self to like someone.

I envy you who can stand in the sun and live a carefree life.

I envy you who can live like monsters in front of everyone without forcing a smile, envy the life you have never experienced, and envy all the things I don’t have.

Xu Zhisheng lowered his head and his voice was a little choked up, holding a bag of medicine tightly in his hand, he was finally defeated.

"Gao Li, I beg you this time...take me away...anywhere is fine...I don't want to see them again this time."

I don't want to see any of them.

"I'll take you away, Xu Zhisheng, let's go to a place where we won't see them."

Gao Li's words are always magical, every sentence is as warm as the morning sun.

Gao Lu didn't take Xu Zhisheng out of the school gate, but took Xu Zhisheng out over the wall, and Xu Zhisheng also cooperated with him over the wall and ran out.

Gao Lu led Xu Zhisheng aimlessly through the streets and alleys of Chuanjiang, walking wherever he wanted without planning a route.

When passing by a lively and unfamiliar small street, Gao Li bought a bunch of candied haws and gave them to Xu Zhisheng.

"I don't like sugar..."

Too sweet...don't really like it.

Gao Lv followed Xu Zhisheng's hand holding the candied haws and saw Xu Zhisheng's dazzling array of scars without any cover. They appeared criss-cross on Xu Zhisheng's white and beautiful wrist, which looked so dazzling.

It's like a piece of white paper suddenly stained with ink, obviously out of place.

Gao Lv had never been to this kind of place, and he looked around and didn't see any clinics nearby. He bought a wristband from a small stall at 21 and put it on for Xu Zhisheng, covering the scars on his hands tightly. up.

Xu Zhisheng, you don't want others to see these scars, it's okay, then we won't let others see them.

Gao Lv asked out of habit, "Does it hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt."

He wasn't surprised by Xu Zhisheng's answer, he didn't need to think about it to know that Xu Zhisheng would say that.

Gao Lv suddenly didn't know what to say, his eyes lit up when he caught a glimpse of a stall not far away from the corner of his eye, and made Xu Zhisheng stand still and run over by himself.

Xu Zhisheng didn't know what Gao Lu was going to do, Gao Lu told him to stand where he was, and he listened, looking down at the wristband and candied haws in his hand, fascinated.

Just as he was drifting to nowhere, a bunch of sunflowers wrapped in newspaper appeared in front of his eyes.

"Xu Zhisheng sent you off."

Sunflowers yearn for the sun, and I yearn for you.

If you are a sunflower, then I will be the sun that revolves around you.

If you are the sun, then I will be the sunflower yearning for you, and you will be everywhere in my eyes and no one else will be around until I die.

Gao Lv's palms were sweating while holding the sunflower, he faltered and said:

"If... I mean if, Xu Zhisheng, if I met you earlier than Li Su, would you like me a little bit?"

As if time stood still, Xu Zhisheng only heard Gao Lu's voice in the noisy crowd, and Gao Lu's nervous and panicked look was also in his eyes.

Xu Zhisheng heard Gao Lu say these words twice in a row, but did not dare to meet Gao Lu's fiery eyes, looked down at the large bunch of sunflowers Gao Lu was holding in his hand, and suddenly remembered his humble side when facing Li Su.

If I met you earlier than Li Su, would you like me a little bit?

can you look back at me

If there is no light, I will light it for you.

Xu Zhisheng has heard Gao Li say these words more than once, and it turns out that he would feel at a loss if he is wrongly affectionate by someone he doesn't like.

"meeting."

If his liking has not been exhausted, if he meets such a gentle Gao Li first, he thinks he will be tempted by Gao Li.

But everything will not go backwards and there will be no ifs. If time goes back, without Li Su, he would just die in that river, and he would not have the chance to know Gao Lv.

If he had met Gao Lu in junior high school earlier than Li Su, then he would have given him his life.

The only one worthy of Gao Lv's affection is the ignorant Xu Zhisheng, not the present him.

Li Su's encounter is redemption, and Gao Lu's affection is the moonlight that cannot be slandered.

The pure moonlight accompanied by thousands of stars should not be stained.

Gao Lu's eyes were slightly hot, and he didn't know whether it was excitement or sadness. The excitement was because he heard the response he wanted to hear, and the sadness was why he didn't meet Xu Zhisheng earlier.

There was something obviously wrong with his tone, and he said hoarsely to Xu Zhisheng:

"If this is the case, one day you will treat him lightly, right?"

"One year is not enough, five years is not enough, ten years is not enough, then I will wait until enough."

But Xu Zhisheng, you can't even give me a chance.

"I don't know what's wrong with me... It's the first time I'm chasing someone, and I don't know how to please you, but I can learn... I can change what you don't like. Bow your head, my fault...I'll change..."

He said before that he doesn't like people who are as thin as Xu Zhisheng the most, sorry, he made a mistake and he changed it.

Xu Zhisheng's whole body trembled, he held on tightly to the things in his hands, and remained silent, he didn't know what he liked about Gao Lv, which made him feel full of affection.

There is no part of his body that he is satisfied with. If he were Gao Li, he would definitely not fancy himself.

While Xu Zhisheng was still silent, a bunch of sunflowers fell to the ground and caught his eyes. Before he could realize what happened, a big warm hand held his hand tightly and ran forward.

But he still heard hurried footsteps behind him that seemed to be running towards them.

Xu Zhisheng wanted to look back to see what happened, but Gao Lv guessed his intention and said in a muffled voice:

"Don't look back, Xu Zhisheng."

After hearing this, Xu Zhisheng didn't dare to turn back and let Gao Lu lead him to run. Gao Lu usually likes to play and is in good physical condition, but he has been in poor health since he was a child. After running for a long time, he was a little out of breath and his heart began to hurt.

Gao Lv was also aware of Xu Zhisheng's situation, so he dragged Xu Zhisheng along an unknown road, not daring to let Xu Zhisheng see that person.

Just now, the person who beat up Xu Zhisheng in the video game city and a few guys who didn't look like very good people appeared in front of him.

He didn't show up when he was searching everywhere, but he popped up at this time, he wasn't afraid of those people but now is not the time, the most important thing is not to let Xu Zhisheng see that person.

Xu Zhisheng will be afraid...

But the more he was afraid, he would come here, and he was unfamiliar with the terrain here, and suddenly he walked into a dead end.

Gao Lu had no choice but to run away, protecting Xu Zhisheng behind him, and staring at the person standing in front of him.

The building was too high, the light was poor, and the small alley was not fully illuminated. Gao Li stood in the sun and protected the boy who was hiding in the shadow.

The person who came was not in a hurry, without the slightest embarrassment from running, he stood still and looked at Gao Lu and the person behind him, because it was too dark, he had time to not recognize that person as Xu Zhisheng.

"Gao Lu, so it's you? You are really easy for me to find."

Xu Yuan's hand holding the stick was slightly exerting force, as long as Gao Lu was killed, everything would be over, and he could avenge his brother!

"If you want to blame, blame you for offending someone who shouldn't be offended!"

Who told your mother to be a lawyer and help He Qi's deadly rival win He Qi's lawsuit? He Qi is a well-prepared revenge. Even if it wasn't him, someone else would come to take Gao Li's life. In his hands, it can also bring him a little value.

Since Xu Yuan was released from prison, he had no hope of surviving, so he faked his death and escaped. He would not be able to escape when Yangcheng found out. Before he died, he would drag the beast that killed Xu Yi to hell! ! !

at all costs!

Gao Lu saw that Xu Yuan was the only one who was relieved. He saw Xu Yuan push Xu Zhisheng into the darker place when he saw Xu Yuan walking towards him.

"Hide, don't make a sound, nothing will happen."

Xu Zhisheng himself was afraid of the dark when he saw Xu Yuan. He couldn't say a word, and couldn't hear what Gao Lv was saying. He just collapsed on the ground and looked at the half of the water pipe that Gao Lv picked up from nowhere. Fighting with Xu Yuan.

Gao Lv hit Xu Yuan's back with a water pipe, then kicked Xu Yuan's stomach and cursed:

"How dare you appear, you bastard!!!"

After all, Xu Yuan had spent time in prison, and his physical strength was not for bragging rights. In addition, the water pipe that Gao Lu held was hollow and didn’t hurt much, so he fought back. Soon, Xu Yuan caught Gao Lu's shoulder with a stick, and Gao Lu fell to the ground due to inertia.

Gao Lv felt that his whole body had lost all strength. The stick had obviously used enough strength. He could feel a heart-piercing pain from his shoulder as soon as he moved. A little tear.

The sound of the solid wooden stick hitting Gao Lu's shoulder reached Xu Zhisheng's ears, and Gao Lu's painful groan penetrated Xu Zhisheng's eardrums like thunder.

Gao Lv clenched his lips in pain and wanted to stand up from the ground, but he was stepped on his back by a foot, and the body that was originally propped up fell heavily back to the ground.

"Cast a good baby in the next life!"

Seeing that Xu Yuan was about to hit Gao Lu on the head with a stick, Xu Zhisheng threw a bag of medicine aside in a hurry and ran towards Xu Yuan.

"Master!!!"

After yelling, he rolled and crawled and hugged Xu Yuan's thigh tightly to prevent him from falling down.

Xu Yuan was obviously also dumbfounded by Xu Zhisheng's call of senior brother, but he realized it after a while.

"Sound of Xu? Huh."

"Go away! When I get rid of him, you won't be able to run away, Xu Zhisheng."

Xu Zhisheng stated that he was very scared, but he kept begging Xu Yuan for help:

"Brother...Brother, let him go, let him go...it's none of his business, he's innocent..."