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At 3 o'clock in the morning, Shen Junhuai sat silently in the living room smoking a cigarette without saying a word.He just came back from the outside, his shirt had two buttons unbuttoned, his hem was ripped out of his trousers, his shoes were not changed, his trouser legs were covered with mud, he was rarely in a state of embarrassment.

"The search has expanded to the outskirts of the city, and there is no sign of him leaving the urban area of ​​Pingzhou." Opposite Shen Junhuai sat a man on the sofa, wearing glasses, polite and polite, but every word he uttered was like a knife , inserted into Shen Jun's bosom, and kept digging.

After one cigarette was burned out, he instinctively took out another one, and the lighter did not ignite after pressing it a few times.

The person opposite sighed, took the other party's lighter and ignited it with a snap.

"Don't worry too much. The surveillance shows that he got on the bus by himself, and there is no sign of coercion." The man continued, "Don't go out to look for it anymore, just wait at home, maybe he figured it out I'll be back soon." They all understood that a large number of people had already gone out to look for them, and Shen Junhuai was no exception, and it was the best choice for him to stay at home and wait for news.

Had he figured he'd be back soon?

For some reason, there was a voice in Shen Junhuai's mind, which kept whispering that he would not come back.

He will not come back!

Lu Qingchen left the door at 8 o'clock in the evening, and normally should return home around 8:40.However, at 9 o'clock, he did not come back.Shen Junhuai went out to look for him, but he searched all over the neighborhood and couldn't find him, so he was a little panicked, but at that time he comforted himself, maybe he came back slowly after walking far away.

At 10 o'clock, he comforted himself, maybe he was feeding stray cats somewhere, and forgot the time.

At 11 o'clock, the anxiety in his heart reached its peak, and he went to the property to check the surveillance, and found that he had walked out of the community, and then walked east.He didn't care much, mobilized all his connections in Pingzhou, and started looking for someone.

The case cannot be filed within 24 hours of being out of contact, and Shen Junhuai can't wait even if the case is filed.He contacted the security company and the search and rescue team, no matter how much it cost, he only hoped to find someone that night, and he only hoped that he was a false alarm.

Su Changxian was called again in the middle of the night, this time he didn't complain at all.He had never seen Shen Junhuai like this, he was out of his mind and heartbroken.

They finally found a surveillance camera near the community. In the screen, Lu Qingchen boarded a bus at a stop shortly after leaving the community.Then search all the way along the monitoring of the bus line, and finally saw Lu Qingchen getting off the bus again at a certain intersection.

The intersection was very remote. After he got off the car and walked for a while, he completely walked out of the surveillance coverage area and disappeared.The time at that time was 10:30pm.

Shen Junhuai's heart was beating fast, and his mind was in unprecedented confusion. He repeated what the psychiatrist and Zhan Yue had said to him: PTSD patients would have suicidal tendencies... He once went to Broken Arm Cliff alone...

He didn't want to think about the most terrifying outcome, and kept replaying Lu Qingchen's demeanor, smile, and words before going out, and then comforted himself that he seemed emotionally stable.

He called everyone Lu Qingchen knew. Zhan Yue was surprised, but he calmed down quickly, saying that Xiao Lu had not contacted him, and that he would help find someone.

He even called Xiao Mo, with the last illusion, hoping that Xiao Mo would pick him up.Xiao Mo almost yelled when he heard the news: "Shen Junhuai, what did you do to him again? Make him run away from home?"

"...If he contacts you, please tell me." Shen Junhuai squeezed his palm, nails digging into the flesh.

Who else can I call?

Shen Junhuai held the phone and looked at the address book in vain.It wasn't until this moment that he realized that there was no one around Lu Qingchen. Relatives, friends, and social connections were pitifully few, and it seemed that they had revolved around him all these years.

Lu Qingchen's only friends, Xiao Mo, and Zhan Yue, had been asked by Shen Junhuai not to meet them alone again.

Everything in Lu Qingchen's life was filled with Shen Junhuai.And the whole of Shen Junhuai's life included Lu Qingchen.

He looked at the figure of Lu Qingchen in the surveillance, still the same as before going out, gray sweater and black trousers, alone, without anything.

It has been 7 hours since he left, no, even after 70 hours, 700 hours, he will not come back.

Shen Junhuai's eyes were reddened by the thought in his mind.

"I didn't bring my phone or money. Where did he go? What exactly is he going to do?" Su Changxian also lost his usual calm, pacing back and forth in the living room.

"It's not that he didn't bring anything. He took a garbage bag before going out." Shen Junhuai stood up suddenly, speaking very fast, picked up the tablet in front of him, and turned on the surveillance video again.

In the monitoring, when Lu Qingchen walked out of the community, he carried a plastic bag in his hand. It was a cake shop bag with a cartoon LOGO printed on it. It was not clear what was inside, but it could be seen that the weight was very small.

When he got on the bus again, the bag was gone.He put his hands in the pockets of his sweater, lowered his head, and walked slowly.

"He said to throw out the garbage..." Shen Junhuai muttered to himself, he suddenly thought of something, turned around and ran out.

It didn't take much effort for them to find the garbage bag that Lu Qingchen was carrying in the video in a trash can outside the gate of the community.He seemed to have thrown the bag away as soon as he went out, not intending to keep it for long.

The bag had a slipknot so it could be torn apart in a snap.Shen Junhuai took out the contents one by one: ID card, passport, graduation certificate, and a six-inch photo frame with a photo of a family of three on it.

"Throw it... all away?" Su Changxian looked at the contents in the bag dumbfounded, and he looked up at Shen Junhuai in surprise.

The street lights in the early morning are dim and dim, hidden among the dense and dense street trees, with mottled light and shadow.

Holding the photo frame, Shen Junhuai stared at the smiling face of the child on it, as if his mind had just been blasted by lightning, the fleeting feeling suddenly became clear, and even hit him right in front of his face.He heard the voice in his brain again, this time it was much clearer, like thunder.

—he will not come back!

The two stayed up all night.

Early in the morning, Su Changxian hurriedly hired another search and rescue team to search along the place where Lu Qingchen disappeared.At 7 o'clock in the morning, Chen Ying and his colleagues knocked on the door with the equipment.

"I checked all the monitoring in the urban area, but I couldn't find it." Chen Ying said that the next step is to expand the search area to the outskirts of the city.He looked at the man in front of him, and felt a little pitiful in his heart.He knew who this person was. In the early hours of yesterday morning, a phone call from above pulled him out of bed and asked him to find someone at any cost.He didn't go through the formal process, and the special approval to apply for Internet supervision was all to find the same-sex lover of the person in front of him.

Holding a certificate in his hand, Shen Junhuai nodded to Chen Ying to express his gratitude.

His eyes were bloodshot, and the stubble that hadn't been shaved overnight made his face dark and haggard. "Before he left, he threw these away." Shen Junhuai slowly pushed the things on the table in front of Chen Ying, "Captain Chen, tell me, what does he mean?"

In fact, before Chen Ying came, he was a little bit resistant in his heart. No matter what the background of the other party was, the little boyfriend had only disappeared for about 10 hours. As for such a big fight?In his opinion, it might be that there was a quarrel between the lovers and one of them ran away from home, or hid deliberately so that they could not be found.Even if the other party paid the cost for this, Chen Ying still somewhat disdains this kind of thing.

But now he doesn't think so.

The objects on the table can be seen at a glance. These are extremely important things to the individual. If they can abandon them, then this person will not only leave home.

He had a bad feeling right now.

He already knew about Lu Qingchen's medical history, what he said and what he did before he left, so he spoke carefully: "He just threw away his identity." He took out his mobile phone and dialed a number : "Go ahead and focus on seaside parks, ports, and the foot of the mountain, and then check hospitals or rescue stations, and check whether there have been any patients who have committed suicide since last night..."

Chen Ying was still making phone calls one after another.

Shen Junhuai stood where he was, his eyes were red.

Why doesn't he know what it means to throw these things away?But when he saw Chen Ying today, a policeman with more than 20 years of criminal investigation experience, he put all his hopes on him.He has never trusted and relied on others since he was a child, but now he forces himself to trust Chen Ying, hoping that the other party will give him an answer, an answer that Lu Qingchen will come back.

"Will he come back?" Shen Junhuai gritted his teeth and looked at the other party with correct eyes.

Chen Ying sighed, he would become numb after seeing this kind of scene too much, but the deep fear and sadness of the man in front of him were so obvious, it seemed that if he didn't give him a hopeful answer, he would collapse on the spot.

"As long as we hurry up, we can find him sooner," Chen Ying said.

More than an hour later, they saw Lu Qingchen in another surveillance.

It was a small seaside park, and there was a surveillance camera at the entrance. The screen showed that Lu Qingchen walked in alone at 2:12 in the morning, and never came out again.

Shen Junhuai and Chen Ying arrived at the park half an hour later.

The search and rescue team has someone waiting there.Shen Junhuai rushed over and grabbed the man's shoulders, trying to control his emotions and asked, "Where's the man?"

"We've searched every corner of the park, but we haven't found him," said the man.They have been searching since they were ordered, but have found nothing.

Chen Ying asked: "Is there any other exit?"

"There are two exits, one is an abandoned small door, which can lead to the mountains in the east, but we found no trace of people." He paused, and then said: "There is another exit, which leads directly to the reef beach. "

Below the reef beach is the sea, and there is no way to go.

Unless... people have jumped into the sea.

The reef beach is about ten meters above the sea surface, with jagged rocks underneath and surging waves, it is impossible for people to jump off and survive.

Chen Ying left a small group of people to continue searching the lower reaches of the reef beach, while the rest were on standby.

"He must have left from the small gate and searched along the Dongshan Ridge." Shen Junhuai gritted his teeth and repeated, "As long as you look along the Dongshan Ridge, you will definitely find him."

Shen Junhuai went to Dongshanling with the search and rescue team.

Two days later still no results.

Chen Ying had already asked people to prepare for salvage work, but he didn't dare to say this to Shen Junhuai.After a few days, Shen Junhuai barely ate or slept, his whole body was tense, and he kept searching for Lu Qingchen's whereabouts.

Chen Ying knew that this person had reached his limit, and if he continued like this, he would collapse before he was found.

So there are some things he has to say.

"Mr. Shen, judging from the existing evidence, the possibility of him leaving from Dongshanling is very small, and there is no point in continuing to search." Chen Ying sighed and patted Shen Junhuai on the shoulder.

"Mr. Shen, you have to be mentally prepared. It is very likely that he... has already jumped off the rocky beach."

If he just ran away from home, he would have no reason to walk to this seaside park for more than two hours in the middle of the night, and there is no reason to throw away his ID card as soon as he went out.

I don't have anything long on my body, and I don't bring a penny.

He left with the determination to die.

Suddenly there was a muffled sound in Shen Junhuai's ear, it was the sound of someone entering the water.

Then, the whole world fell into silence with this muffled sound.

Shen Junhuai lowered his head and looked at his hands, with tears dripping down his palms.

He finally threw away the trash in his hand.

I left my most important person in the cold night