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"Brother, you are back."

"Ah."

It was just after dark when Qi Nuliang came back.It's early today.He carried a large bag of things in each hand, and kicked his shoes against the door a few times.

Jiang Yu hurried to help: "What did you buy, so much?"

"Bought some vegetables." Qi Nuliang handed him one of the bags, "Xiao Wu gave me a few grapefruits, saying they were grown at home, you peel one and try it."

Jiang Yu peeled off a grapefruit, tore off the inner skin, and fed it to Qi Nuliang in the kitchen.

With a cigarette in his mouth and a spoon in his hand, Qi Nuliang waved his head: "Eat by yourself, I'm busy right now, so I don't have time."

"If there is anything else to do, I will help you."

"No, just stir-fry two dishes and do your homework. The kitchen is too hot."

"I can't write, the range hood is noisy."

"Then I'll close the kitchen door."

Jiang Yu pressed Qi Nuliang's hand to close the door: "I don't have much homework, and there is still time to write after dinner."

"Then don't stay here, this kitchen is airtight, it's too uncomfortable."

"It's okay, let me chat with you for a while."

"...Okay, let's talk, what to talk about."

Jiang Yu stopped talking again, and only looked at Qi Nuliang's naked back that was sweating.

Beads of sweat slid down the spine, and all of them accumulated in the two dimples of the back waist.There is also the arm that is strong when turning the pot, and the arm with the pattern is like a human body glass, so beautiful that people can't take their eyes off.

After waiting for a long time, the people who said they wanted to chat fell silent. Qi Nuliang asked, "It's been a while since school started. How do you feel in Hongzhong? Is there a lot of pressure?"

"No pressure."

"I think so, and you're sure to be all right."

Jiang Yu stared at the two dimples on his waist obsessively: "Many classmates in high school fall in love."

Upon hearing this, Qi Nuliang felt a "thump" in his heart.It was he who told Jiang Yu that if you want to fall in love, you have to wait until the end of the high school entrance examination. Now that the high school entrance examination is over, I didn't expect the kid to remember this.

He doesn't want the children to be distracted by other things, besides, most of the love affairs of high school students will not end well, on the contrary, they will have some adverse effects on their studies.But it was he who said it, and it was too late to take it back now.

"Why, the girl you like is also admitted to Hongzhong?"

"I don't have a girl I like."

Qi Nuliang breathed a sigh of relief: "Then you don't care whether others talk about it or not.

"There are only three years in high school, and there will be plenty of time for college in the future, so why worry." He turned around and handed a plate of food to Jiang Yu, "Take it out first."

"Brother, you don't care about my relationship at all?" Jiang Yu took the bowl and chopsticks and put them on the table.

"Why don't you care? If you want me to say that you are not allowed to talk now, do you hear me?"

"I heard."

Jiang Yu lowered his eyes and smiled secretly and implicitly, but before he could feel the taste of the words carefully, he heard Qi Nuliang say: "At least wait until the college entrance examination is over. When you go to college and make a girlfriend, remember to bring Come home and show me."

The corner of the mouth that was raised just now, fell down again.

After dinner, Jiang Yu took out his homework and continued writing.

Qi Nuliang cleaned up the bowls and chopsticks, and saw the uneaten grapefruits in the fruit basket, took them and sat opposite Jiang Yu.

"It's quite sweet and full of moisture." Qi Nuliang stuffed a flap into his mouth, then peeled it off and brought it to Jiang Yu's mouth.

Jiang Yu looked up at him.

"Look what I'm doing, open your mouth."

Jiang Yu put down his pen: "I will do it myself."

Qi Nuliang avoided his hand: "You better do your homework quickly, I'll feed you."

He lowered his eyelashes, swallowed, and opened his mouth.

I can't taste grapefruit at all, I just chew and swallow mechanically, my mind is full of the couple in the classroom during the day.

"Is there still much homework?"

"not much."

"Hurry up and finish writing soon, and rest early."

As soon as the one in my mouth was finished, a new one was brought over.

The male classmates at the school also fed his girlfriend in the same way. They were full of eyes and eyes on each other, and they couldn't hide their admiration.Then, he kissed her.

he kissed her...

Jiang Yu, who was only thinking about this scene, bit Qi Nuliang's finger anxiously, and his teeth and the tip of his tongue passed over his fingertips.

Qi Nuliang groaned, and subconsciously withdrew his hand and shook it: "Did you not eat enough tonight, kid?"

Jiang Yu sat dumbly.

Seeing his strange expression, Qi Nuliang asked: "What's wrong? I washed my hands, they are clean."

Jiang Yu suddenly closed the exercise book and stuffed it into his schoolbag.

"Finished?"

"Well, I'm done. I'm going to take a shower first." After speaking, he went to the bathroom first.

"Okay, you go wash first, I'll turn on the air conditioner in your room to cool down first."

The cold water hit Jiang Yu's body, but it didn't lower his body temperature at all.He supported the slippery tiles of the bathroom wall, closed his eyes and shrouded himself under the cold water curtain.The feeling that he knew he couldn't do anything but couldn't restrain himself made him painful.He didn't know why he became like this, ugly, dark, with only dirty desires in his heart.

The room was cool with the air conditioner turned on for a while, and there was a faint smell of mosquito coils.It was Qi Nuliang who took mosquito coils and smoked before turning on the air conditioner.The mosquito net on the bed was also put down, indicating that he had driven away all the mosquitoes in the net.

Jiang Yu lay down in the white gauze tent, and was much calmer now.

He didn't know what kind of emotion he felt about Qi Nuliang, was it liking and love?

But truly loving someone will make him happy, and everything he does is for his own good.Just like Qi Nuliang's affection for his mother, it is a kind of emotion that is willing to give everything for it without asking for anything in return. It is admiration and respect from the heart, and never has any thoughts of blasphemy.

But his feelings are just the opposite. There are only selfish possession and shady desires, without the slightest respect for the other party's choice and the intention to let him be free.

Or maybe it's just a strong possessiveness caused by insecurity. Because I'm afraid that I'll be left alone after losing the other person, so I have to try my best to keep the person by my side.But what is that strong desire that bursts out at the same time?

Do men have the kind of liking and love between men and women?

Zhang Xiaoqiang said that he liked him.But that just makes people feel sick.

If he did the same, would Qi Nuliang only find him disgusting?

Jiang Yu fell into a predicament of thinking, he couldn't persuade or clarify himself, he just felt that his heart was distorted and dark, and those emotions that couldn't be seen were all mosquitoes churning in the gutter.

"Xiao Yu..." Qi Nuliang's voice came from the bathroom.

Jiang Yu got up and went to the bathroom door: "What's wrong?"

Qi Nuliang poked out a wet head from the crack in the door: "Did you see the underwear I hung on the wall? I hung it in before I took a shower. If you said you wash it first, I'll let you do it. I can't find it right now." arrive."

"I just picked up my clothes and accidentally tore them on the floor. I've already washed them and hung them up to dry."

"Oh, then go to the house and get me another one."

Xiao Wu gave too many grapefruits to finish, so Qi Nuliang planned to give some to Bamei Rong.

After what happened last time, Qi Nuliang knew that she had developed a deep prejudice against Jiang Yu, and because of this, she was blaming herself, so she never bothered to blame him.

No matter what, he and Bamei Rong have always had a relationship, some things are not enough to just know, they have to be explained clearly.And this matter was also their fault, so he should apologize.

But when he came to her door, Qi Nuliang felt embarrassed again, always feeling that he had failed Bamei Rong.

Bamei Rong didn't have such awkwardness. When she saw someone, she greeted him across the counter: "Old Qi, what do you want to buy?"

Qi Nuliang had no choice but to enter the store, and nodded at the counter: "Take a pack of cigarettes."

Bamei Rong took out the Huangshan he usually smokes.

Qi Nuliang took out the money, Bamei Rong waved her hand: "Forget it."

He still took out one hundred yuan, and Bamei Rong pushed it back to him: "I'll give you all the change, what should I do next? For the five yuan, let's owe it first."

He had no choice but to take the money back.Immediately, he opened the cigarette case and handed Bamei Rong a cigarette.

Bamei Rong lit it up and took two puffs: "There is no shortage of five or ten yuan, why is it still so cheap?"

"I'm used to it." Qi Nuliang also took two puffs, "I'm not used to smoking good cigarettes."

"you really……"

"By the way, Xiao Wu gave me some grapefruits, and we couldn't finish them, so I brought some for you."

Rong Bamei was also polite, pointing to the corner of the wall: "Just put it there."

Qi Nuliang took out half a sack of grapefruit from the trunk, put it in the corner, and asked, "Where is the little girl?"

"I'm still in school." Followed Bamei Rong and sighed, "I'm in junior high school this semester, it's still the same, I can't read."

"Some people are not suitable for studying. They will have their own way out in the future. Don't worry too much."

"I'm too lazy to worry about these useless thoughts."

After exchanging pleasantries for a while, it seemed that everything that should be said had been said, and both of them were a little silent.

Qi Nuliang cleared his throat, and said awkwardly: "I'm really sorry about Xiaodie before..."

"What are you talking about?" Rong Bamei lit the cigarette ash and interrupted his apology, "It has nothing to do with you, it's because you helped me so much at that time, I should thank you."

"I didn't do anything, it's fine." He scratched his hair, "Actually Xiaoyu didn't mean it, that kid..."

Upon hearing Jiang Yu, Rong Bamei's face changed instantly: "You don't need to defend him, I know better than you who he is."

Qi Nuliang was even more embarrassed, thinking that Bamei Rong must have a deep prejudice against Jiang Yu now: "I'm not trying to defend him, but I just don't want you to have a grudge, so I don't want to look up and look down."

"He doesn't care about himself. Why do you come to say this for him? All right, I don't want to hear it, so don't say it either."

Qi Nuliang had no choice but to shut up.

Seeing that he stopped talking, Rong Bamei's expression also eased: "You should pretend that I didn't say what I said to you before, and we are indeed not very suitable."

"I know, I'm sorry for you."

"Is there anything to be sorry about? No matter how big it is, we will still be friends in the future. If you have anything that my Eighth Sister Rong can help, feel free to ask, except for Jiang Yu."

Hearing this, Qi Nuliang could only smile wryly and nod.

Just as he was about to leave, Bamei Rong stopped him again and beckoned him to come closer.

She lowered her voice, and said to Qi Nuliang: "Someone was asking about you two days ago, and they all came to me. People don't come from this area, and their accent doesn't sound like people from Hongcheng. Be careful these days, those of you' The business' is also closed."

Qi Nu's conscience sank, he nodded and said, "I know."