desire to be loved

On the way home, both of them were silent, and Roy could see that Luo Jie was holding back the raging anger.

A solemn air condensed between the brows, the pair of eyes that always gazed at him softly, now covered with a dark and dangerous atmosphere, as deep as a huge black hole, although it was full of temptation, but it would be smashed to pieces when approached.

Roy clasped his hands tightly and stared at the scenery outside the car window. Unfortunately, the speed of the car was too fast, and the flashing neon lights stayed in his eyes for less than a second before they flew by.

The 10-minute drive seemed like a century to him, and he compressed all his uneasiness and fear into a heart less than the size of a palm, and he tried not to show his emotions.

He was thinking about how to face Luo Jie's questioning later, but he knew very well that no matter how he explained, Jill's words had brought his unknown privacy to the surface.

After parking the car in the indoor parking lot, the two stepped into the elevator one after the other, and the small, enclosed space was filled with a tense atmosphere.

Even with his back to Luo Jie, Roy could still feel a cold gaze piercing through his clothes and piercing into his heart.

As soon as he closed the door of the house, Luo Jie asked with a gloomy face: "Is that the relationship between you two?" People say "seeing is believing", but he wanted to hear Roy admit it in person.

Roy lowered his head and changed into floor slippers, passed him without saying a word, and headed towards his bedroom.

Luo Jie grabbed him with a stride, and said angrily, "Why didn't you answer my question? In the restaurant just now, didn't you say you would explain it to me? Are you lying to me?" Roy obviously said While avoiding him, his brain automatically associates this behavior with "lying".

The restrained wrist was tingling sharply, forcing Roy to turn around and face Luo Jie, "What do you think is the relationship between two men kissing?" He pretended to be stupid and asked back.

Luo Jie frowned and said, "Are you in love with him?" He asked Roy with interrogative sentences because he was still unwilling to accept this fact. If Roy denied it, he would choose to believe him.

Roy finally understands that Jill's careful arrangement of this scene is actually to "test" Luo Jie.

To be honest, seeing Luo Jie being violent for him, a glimmer of hope surged in his heart, and he couldn't help interpreting Luo Jie's behavior as jealousy.

This hope also made him decide to take a risk for himself, "What if my answer is yes?" He knew that after saying this sentence, he would have to take a huge risk, but he didn't regret it.

Hearing Roy's disguised affirmation, Luo Jie was quite shocked, he let go of his hand, "I can't accept it, I want you to break up with him immediately."

Seeing the contempt in his eyes, Roy had the urge to go all out, "I'm already 27 years old, I don't need your consent to date anyone I want to date."

Luo Jie tried to communicate with him, "I am your brother and I am responsible for disciplining you. You should stop associating with that person." Driven by ethics, he could not agree with Roy's sexual orientation. He believed that Roy must be influenced by American thinking. Only by brainwashing him, will he go against him again and again.

"Even if we break up with him, the fact that I like men will not change." Roy looked very firm.

It seems that Jill guessed wrong this time. Luo Jie only cared for him out of family affection, and did not have any other affection, let alone love.

Luo Jie's expression darkened and became angry, "Are you crazy? There are so many women in this world, why do you want to fall in love with a man?"

I'm crazy, that's right, I would fall in love with my brother.Roy suddenly changed his face.

He stared at Luo Jie, showing a bitter smile, "I don't know why I became like this? But I just can't control my heart and not love that person, so leave me alone."

Facing Roy's uncompromising, Luo Jie was furious and said vicious words for a while: "If you don't talk about having sex with my girlfriend first, and now you are with a man, what embarrassing thing will you do?"

The ruthless accusation made Roy lose face, his lips trembled involuntarily, "Do you... feel ashamed to have a homosexual brother?"

Luo Jie, I beg you to stop looking at me with that disgusting look.He begged silently.

"Yes, I feel ashamed to have a younger brother like you. If you can't recover your sexuality, then don't show up in front of me again." As soon as the words came out, Luo Jie knew that he was wrong, seeing Roy's hurt expression , but he couldn't bear to apologize.

One sentence seemed to declare that Roy's end of the world was coming. He faced his sexuality frankly, but Luo Jie despised him so much that he threw his heart on the ground and trampled on it.

There was a silent wail from his chest, and he clenched his teeth tightly to suppress the grief that was about to spread throughout his body.

"I'm so amazing that I can make you say the same thing." He silently walked towards the door, and the moment he closed the door, his vision was hazy.

After Roy left, there was a sudden heavy rain, and the sound of thumping on the window was like hitting Luo Jie's heart. Roy's face that was about to cry before he left appeared in his mind, and his heart was shocked and pursued. out.

He convinced himself that he went out to find Roy in order to explain to his parents.

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Roy finished drinking the beer in his hand and summoned the bartender, "Give me a glass of the most drunk wine in your store."

I heard that when you are sad, drinking alcohol can make people forget all the pain, so can it also make him forget a person?If he could, he would drink to his heart's content, so that Luo Jie would not be dangling in his mind.

Hearing the guest's request, the bartender immediately mixed a cocktail for him, "This is Around The World." The cocktail is made by mixing various alcohols. There are three gradient layers. The lower layer is blue mint wine and gin, and the middle is yellow orange juice. , The upper layer is blue blue citrus wine, and finally it is lit in the glass, which has great visual effects.

After drinking the wine in one gulp, Roy felt a burst of heat burning from his throat to his abdomen, making his cold body instantly warm up.

"This wine is really good, help me make two glasses."

The bartender glanced at him when he heard the words, and sighed inwardly: Another person who got drunk.

After a few glasses of Around The World, Roy's slightly drunk face exuded a charming style, and a pair of misty eyes that were full of water vapor attracted people to commit crimes.

Suddenly a man approached him, put his hands on his waist intimately, and said with a disgusted expression: "Beauty is in a bad mood, do you want me to accompany you?"

Before Roy could speak, a young man in yuppie attire stepped forward and shook off his hand: "Keep away from he."

The disgusting man choked back in displeasure: "You dead foreign devil, I saw him first, you go find someone else!" I have been to this PUB so many times, and this is the first time I have encountered such a good product, no matter how halfway Whatever happened to Cheng Yaojin, he would definitely get him.

He put his hands back on Roy's waist, but the next second his face was hit by a flying fist, and blood soon gushed out of his nose. He covered his nose and looked at the assailant in horror.

"Getout!" Jill spoke sternly, his eyes were fixed on him like sharp swords, and the man fled in panic.

At this time, the two burly men received the notification from other guests and came forward to deal with it: "Don't make trouble here, please leave immediately."

"Okay."

Hearing the noisy voice, Roy turned his head and looked, "Gill, why are you here?" Seeing a familiar face, he smiled innocently.

Jill responded dumbfounded: "You called me, did you forget?" It was only 15 minutes ago, and Roy could forget it all.

Glancing at the empty wine glass on the table, he shook his head and sighed, "Don't drink anymore, drinking blindly like this will hurt your health." He quickly snatched the wine glass that was about to touch Roy's lips.

"No, I still want to drink, give it back to me quickly." Roy made trouble like a child.

Jill comforted him, "Hey, it's late now, I'll take you home." He had expected to see this kind of scene, and when Roy called him, he had a premonition: his plan should be It was a failure!

Roy blinked his eyes and asked curiously: "Go home? Which home do you want to go to? Is it the home of the United States?" He was really lucky. He had just finished drinking Around The World, and immediately someone said he would fly from Taiwan to the United States. He felt that his whole body was light and light, as if he was really about to fly.

Seeing Roy lying on his back with his hands spread out, Jill quickly supported him from behind with sharp eyesight.

"Of course where you live now."

Hearing Jill's response, Roy suddenly raised his head and laughed, "I can't go back to that place."

Jill asked in puzzlement, "Why can't you go back?" Could it be that Roy was kicked out of the house by that man.

Roy turned to face him and stretched out his index finger, "No, I was wrong. It's not that I can't go back to that place, but... I can't go back to Luo Jie anymore." But full of extreme desolation.