desire to be loved

The morning sun penetrates the veil and casts a ray of light in the house. The place where the light reaches seems to be covered with a layer of golden veil. Fine dust floats in the air. The world inside the veil is surrounded by a sense of peace. This is an extremely ordinary one day.

The unique smoky flavor of bacon after high-temperature frying comes from the kitchen.

"Ding!" The oven made a sound.

Wearing heat-resistant gloves, Luo Jie took out the baking tray from the oven, placed the whole-wheat walnut meal buns baked until crispy on the outside and soft on the inside, one by one, in the bread basket, and brought them to the dining table.

Roy couldn't wait to take one. He tore the meal bag in half, and the faint scent of wheat spread to his nose along with the mist.

Take a bread knife to scrape a little cream and spread it on the meal bag. The soft golden yellow cream immediately melts into a glistening liquid, which makes people move their index fingers.

He took a big bite towards the meal bag, and the smooth fat covered the bread. Every time he chewed, the aroma of walnuts would come out from between his teeth. After chewing, only the natural sweetness of the food remained in his mouth.

Luo Jie handed him a cup of coffee at the right time.

He picked up the coffee and enjoyed it, the warm liquid slid down the esophagus into his body, and a comfortable pleasure spread throughout his body.

"Roy..."

A deep voice attracted Roy's attention, "Huh?" He looked up unpreparedly, and suddenly a pair of dark and deep eyes reflected into the depths of his soul.

Luo Jie stared at him, and slowly said from thin lips: "Last night...why did you kiss me?"

This question made all the blood in Roy's body stop flowing, and the blood color slowly faded from his face.

But he immediately responded with a smile: "That... was just joking with you." The coffee in his hand produced slight fluctuations.

"You are lying!"

Luo Jie held his hand, causing the liquid in the cup to slosh more violently, and the dark brown water droplets dripped onto the white marble table, forming a strong contrast.

"Do you think I didn't notice your mood? Actually, you like me!" Luo Jie said with a complicated expression.

A chill invaded his whole body, Roy's body shook, and the coffee cup in his hand fell to the ground instantly, and the crisp sound of porcelain shattering startled the people on the bed.

Roy opened his eyes, his eyes were dark, and he lay on his bed.

"It turned out to be a dream..." he muttered to himself.

The emotion called remorse tossed him all night, and he didn't fall asleep until early morning.

With sleepiness in his eyes, he turned over and planned to continue his sleep. At this time, there was a sound of metal impact outside the bedroom, which scared him away from sleepiness.

This time it was not a dream.

He immediately left the bed and walked to the door, the vague sound of conversation reached his ears, Luo Jie was watching the morning news.

Standing in front of the door, Roy didn't dare to turn the doorknob. Thinking that the dream just now might come true, his heart became so heavy that he didn't even have the courage to open a door.

A shadow flashed under the crack of the door, and the handle in his hand was hot like hot water. He quickly withdrew his hand, not daring to act rashly.

After hesitating for a while, Roy chose to lie back on the bed silently.

But lying on the bed, the more he thought about it, the more wrong it became, no matter what Luo Jie noticed, as long as he firmly denied it, it would be fine, why bother to hide in the room timidly.

When he overcomes the fear in his heart and steps out of the door, what responds to him is a silent and deserted house.

To be honest, he felt a sense of relief, but he was also a little disappointed. He still hoped to see Luo Jie in his heart.

Walking to the bar area, intending to make a cup of coffee to refresh himself, he inadvertently glanced towards the restaurant, and he was surprised by the sight he saw.

The table is full of hot side dishes and a pot of porridge.

Could it be that Luo Jie did this just now?Get up so early and prepare breakfast for yourself.

There is a note on the table.

Roy:

Sorry for leaving you alone at home yesterday, I will go back early today.

Everything at the moment seemed to imply to him: Luo Jie didn't notice that kiss at all, it was because he was worrying too much.

Perhaps that is the case.

After untying the knot in his heart, Roy swept away his dull mood and happily enjoyed the meal that Luo Jie prepared for him.

After filling his stomach, he sat in the living room to rest for a while, looking at the huge house, he suddenly had a question in his mind: he has been here for three days, but it seems that he has not seen any maids come to clean the house, such a big house Could it be that Luo Jie organized it all by himself! ?

But in my impression, Luo Jie never touches these housework...

After thinking for a moment, Roy asked himself not to dwell on this issue. Anyway, he had nothing to do, so he simply came to help Luo Jie tidy up the house.

Then he took two new rags from the kitchen drawer, wet one of them, and began to wipe the furniture. Wherever the wet rag had been wiped, he immediately wiped it again with a dry rag to prevent water marks from adhering.

After cleaning the furniture, he rolled up his trousers, and started his hands on the wooden floor instead. After cleaning the public space, only the study room remained untied.

Although Luo Jie said that he can use it at will, he will not move his personal items casually.

He took the dust-removing paper and carefully removed the dust between the interlayers of the bookcase. There were some vacancies on the cabinet, which should have been taken away by Luo Jie.

His sharp eyes noticed that there was a book on the bookcase that was not put away. He reached out and took it. It was a photo album. When he opened the photo album, it was a photo of him and Luo Jie in high school.

It turned out that Luo Jie still kept these photos with him.

In the photo, he and Luo Jie are leaning together and smiling brightly. The hairstyle that was popular at that time looks quite awkward now!

But since then, his smile has become less pure, because he realized that he has strange feelings for Luo Jie.

Whenever a female classmate approached Luo Jie, he would feel very angry and wanted to drive away everyone around him. At first he thought it was just pure possessiveness, but soon he understood that it was love.

And this mood has continued until now. In fact, his heart is already exhausted, but he can't restrain himself from not loving him.

Caressing Luo Jie in the photo with his fingertips, with a slight sadness on his face, he put away the photo album and put his mind back on cleaning.

After working all morning, after wringing out the rag in his hand and placing it on the balcony, Roy casually lay on the floor of the living room, his body and mind, which was tired from insomnia, became much more comfortable after sweating.

His stomach was full not long ago, but now he felt hungry again. Looking at the clock on the wall, it was past one o'clock in the afternoon. He decided to wash off his sweat before going out for lunch.

The bathroom was hazy with mist. With a wave of your hand, the blurred mirror surface clearly reflected a beautiful face. The fair skin was bathed in hot air, showing a faint pink color.

"If you seduce him, he will definitely take the bait."

Roy's mind jumped out of what his sister had said.

He observes himself through the mirror, unlike women with plump breasts and delicate skin, he only has a pale body and a flat chest that stays in the office without seeing the light of day.

Would Luo Jie become interested in such a self?

He shook his head, the answer is definitely not.

After all, the world he lives in is neither a manga nor a novel. How difficult it is for a normal man to fall in love with another man.

He hasn't had a word with Luo Jie in the past two days, and Luo Jie's figure is on his mind at this moment.

But he is really greedy, once he has tasted the sweetness, he wants to get more satisfaction, right now his whole body longs for Luo Jie's love.

He couldn't help but think of that kiss.

If Luo Jie's lips and warm tongue were intertwined with his own, what would it feel like?

His wild thoughts stirred up the fire of his own lust.

He couldn't help touching himself, imagining that it was Luo Jie's hand, touching every inch of his body.

The slender fingers moved between his abdomen, and suddenly passed through the dense jungle, gently enveloping his desire.

"Jie..." Shouting his name in a low voice, Roy couldn't help teasing his desire.

The bathroom was filled with his dirty desires. He closed his eyes and indulged in pleasure. As the twitching speed of his fingers gradually tightened, his desires reached their peak immediately.

The sound of gurgling water brought him back to reality, he sighed, washed the dirt off his hands, and turned off the faucet by the way.

After physical pleasure, what fills the heart is an endless emptiness.

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Four years have passed since that incident. Luo Jie thought that four years could change many things and a person, but he chose to change himself and forgive his brother.

After all, it would be embarrassing for two brothers to turn against each other for the sake of a woman, and he didn't want to continue this stalemate with his younger brother.

When Roy showed up at his sister's wedding, he was quite surprised. No matter how his parents tried to persuade him these years, Roy just refused to come back to Taiwan. Offered to let Roy live with him.

He wanted to make good use of this opportunity to resolve the knot between the brothers, but the new case in his hand suddenly had a major change. He originally decided to hand over the design rights to the company's builder, but suddenly changed his mind and asked them to cooperate with another business. Each institute puts forward the best design concept, and then selects one of them to contract the architectural design and planning.

After living peacefully with his younger brother for one day, he had to go to the company to discuss countermeasures the next day.

After working for two days in a row, the work finally came to an end. Thinking that he had no time to pay attention to his younger brother these days, and did not do what his parents told him to do, Luo Jie went home early this day and planned to invite him to have dinner together.

Opening the door of his house, he didn't expect to see Roy. He walked to his bedroom and shouted: "Xiaoyi." No one responded in the bedroom, so he went to the study to check.

Thinking that Roy had gone out, he went to the refrigerator and poured himself a glass of ice water to quench his thirst. When he turned around, he saw Roy appearing in front of him.

"Jie, when did you come back?" Roy only covered his lower body with a towel and looked at him in surprise.

Luo Jie responded with a smile: "Not long after I got home, today's work is over early." His eyes stayed on Roy.

At this time, a drop of water dripped from the tip of Roy's hair to his chest, and the drop of water slid down along the lines of his skin to his abdomen, leaving a water mark on his fair skin, which shone brightly under the light.

Luo Jie looked fascinated, "Did you just take a shower?"

He didn't understand how he blurted out this sentence, he just saw Roy coming out of the bathroom just a second ago.

Roy brushed his wet bangs behind his ears, and replied absent-mindedly: "Yeah." Thinking of what he did in the bathroom just now, facing the client now, he felt a strong sense of guilt in his heart.

Luo Jie's eyes followed that hand and settled on Roy's face. He suddenly felt that the younger brother in front of him seemed to be a different person.

From a man's point of view, Roy's appearance cannot be described as beautiful or beautiful. He is not as gorgeous as a woman. He has a fresh and refined temperament, and he is the type that makes people want to love him.

Luo Jie's mind went blank, he was very surprised that he would compare his brother with a woman.

No, it must be because he hasn't had a girlfriend for too long, and he found an excuse for his abnormality.

"Quickly dry your hair!"

This sentence made Roy realize the state he was in, and his cheeks suddenly felt hot.

"I'm going to get dressed." After leaving a sentence, he walked quickly towards his bedroom.

Even the ears are red.

Luo Jie stared at his back, the corners of his mouth slightly raised.

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In the blink of an eye, Roy finished dressing and came to the living room, where Luo Jie was reading today's newspaper.

He passed behind Luo Jie, opened the refrigerator in the dining room, and got milk.

"Tingting called yesterday." He didn't intend to have a conversation with Luo Jie, but he just said it casually when he suddenly thought of it.

"How rare! You still think of us."

Luo Jie's posture remained unchanged, but judging from his tone, he should have a smile on his face now.

Roy returned to the living room with a glass of milk, sat down on the single sofa next to Luo Jie, looked at his side face, and said tentatively: "Listen to what she said is delicious and fun, it hurts me I want to fly to Japan immediately."

"Anyway, you're not working right now. You can go to Japan anytime you want, but don't choose this week, because Mom told me to bring you home on Sunday."

Hearing Luo Jie's response, Roy suddenly felt that he was so naive, thinking that he could hear what he expected from him.

"Let's wait until we have a lover." He teased himself.

Unaware of Roy's mood, Luo Jie continued what he said just now: "Tingting and Qingfeng just came back that day, and Mom probably prepared a big table of sumptuous food."

Roy was very clear about her mother's intentions. It was hard for the family to reunite, and of course there was going to be a big family dinner.

"I should eat until my stomach bursts!"

"I'm afraid I'll eat it until my belly bursts!"

The two said it in unison, stared at each other, and smiled at the same time.

"Gulu~" There was a sound from Roy's stomach in an instant.

"Could it be that you haven't eaten lunch yet?" Luo Jie put away his smiling face and looked a little serious.

Stared at by those black eyes, Roy told the truth: "I just tidied up the house. I thought I would go out to eat after taking a shower, but it turned out like what you saw."

"From now on, I don't need to help me tidy up the house. A helper will come to clean the house every Friday." Luo Jie said displeased.

"Um……"

Seeing Roy's disappointed expression, Luo Jie knew that he had overreacted, "What do you want to eat? I'll cook it for you." He tried to ease the atmosphere.

Roy forced a smile and responded, "You don't need to prepare for me, I'll just go out and eat." Fearing that Luo Jie would insist on helping him cook Chinese food, he quickly got up and walked towards the door.

Seeing Luo Jie following behind him, he said in a panic, "I just told you no need."

"Actually, I haven't eaten Chinese food yet, so let's go out to eat together! I'm treating you." Luo Jie stood at the entrance and put on his leather shoes first.

"Really?" He stared at Luo Jie suspiciously.

"I doubt it." Luo Jie imitated the words of the locomotive squad leader in the squad leader.

Roy couldn't help laughing.

"Okay! Since you want to treat guests, I want to eat teppanyaki." He showed a look of resignation.

"Xiaoyi...you have a really big appetite." Luo Jie stretched out his hand to stroke his head, and then fiddled with his hair.

Roy froze in place, letting him make fun of him.

At this moment, he thought that they had returned to their school days and had no grudges against each other.

Although it was just a small action, it made his heart tremble uncontrollably. It was the first time in four years that Roy showed a genuinely happy smile.