desire to be loved

Roy had just stepped out of the bathroom when he heard a knock on the door. When he opened the door, it was Tingting.

"How could you sneak into another man's room on the wedding night? My husband will be jealous." Roy slammed his sister's head hard.

Luo Tingting has changed her dress, and she is wearing a T-shirt with Mickey Mouse and ultra-short shorts, which is very different from the bride's appearance earlier.

She rubbed her head, pouted and responded, "You are no other man, you are my brother."

She swaggered into the room, threw herself on the huge bed, and lay down in a comfortable position.

"Today, your old lady is almost exhausted."

Roy frowned and said, "I'm married, and I still speak so rudely." He walked to Tingting and sat down, and massaged her legs naturally.

Tingting asked directly, "I just saw you on the balcony, what did the two of you talk about?" She was so focused on those two people that night that she completely forgot that this was her wedding banquet.

"He forgave me." Roy answered her softly.

"What?" Tingting was lying down gracefully like a noble concubine, but after hearing his words, her whole body bounced up.

She sat cross-legged, ready to listen.

Roy explained the conversation between the two just now to his sister.

After learning the details, Tingting said excitedly: "Why don't you use this to express your heart? Tell him your heart."

Roy would really be pissed off, and it was so hard to untie each other's knots, why didn't he seize the opportunity to confess.

Roy responded indifferently: "I don't want to ruin our relationship again."

He didn't dare to think about whether God gave him this opportunity to play the role of his younger brother well, or whether he had other intentions.

If a normal person knew that his brother liked a man, he would be shocked, but Luo Tingting's reaction was different from ordinary people. Her eyes shone brightly, and she even asked him who he liked with great interest.

Roy blamed the BL novels for her unusual behavior.

When he was in high school, one day he entered his sister's room, saw her staring down at the book and thought she was concentrating on her study, but picked up the book on the table at random, only to find that she was reading a novel or a BL novel, Roy said Only then did I realize that the term "homosexuality" is no longer a taboo topic in society.

And when he plucked up the courage to tell his sister that the person he likes is Luo Jie, she not only did not object, but also said that she would definitely support him, even if the person was her elder brother.

Whenever he was struggling, Roy would talk to his sister, and her sister had always been his best listener, and he always believed that he could hide this love in his heart.

But his thoughts only lasted until one day before graduating from college, and then his world began to change.

That day Luo Jie came back with a girl and introduced her to his family: "This is my girlfriend Jingying." They met at the company and dated for half a year.

He and Luo Jie were inseparable from childhood to adulthood. They went to the same high school and university, studied together, played together, and for a while they were crazy about online games. He participated in everything Luo Jie did.

Although he knew that Luo Jie would marry and have children one day, when he saw that girl, he realized that he couldn't bear the shock.

Roy was jealous of that girl, and entered Luo Jie's private world in just half a year. Being able to hug and kiss him was something he could never have in his life, no matter how much he longed for it.

Jealousy made Roy lose himself, and he made a bold plan to let Luo Jie see that the woman didn't really love him.

He let that girl leave Luo Jie, but in return Luo Jie said: "I don't want to see you again."

At that moment, his heart felt as if he had been stabbed with a knife, and with every breath, his chest felt a sharp stabbing pain.

Luo Jie's indifference to each other made him decide to go to the United States for a study tour as soon as he graduated from university, regardless of his parents' opposition.

Although he ran away, Luo Jie's disgusted eyes remained in his heart.

He really didn't know how he survived these four years, maybe he still hoped that one day he and Luo Jie could return to their previous relationship.

"I think it's a good idea to come here this time. The second brother looks so beautiful, and the eldest brother will definitely be hooked." Tingting was very excited about the coup she thought of.

It was the first time he heard someone praise him for his beauty, and Roy's face turned green and then pale.

"I think you're disappointed. I just came back to attend your wedding this time because I happened to be on vacation. I may be returning to the United States in a few days."

His words quenched Tingting's high spirits.

"Brother, how can you escape." Tingting said dissatisfied.

"You don't tell them that." Roy told her to keep her mouth shut.

"I know!" Tingting knows Roy's personality very well, the more you restrain him, the farther he will run away.

Roy glanced at his watch.

"It's already 10:30, if you don't go back, be careful that your husband divorces you."

"Okay! Alright! You're going to live at the eldest brother's house tomorrow, so please report to me anytime you have any progress!" Tingting reminded, then waved her hand and went back to her room.

Roy, who was exhausted after a whole day, just wanted to lie down and rest, but he was tossing and turning in bed.

Luo Jie's figure appeared in front of his eyes. He was wearing a silver-gray suit, a white shirt with a blue and silver stripe tie, his hair was combed back casually, highlighting his handsome facial features, and his slightly curved thin lips were sexy. With a mysterious atmosphere, just one look makes me fall into fascination again.

No, stop thinking about him.

Roy covered his eyes with his hands, but there was still a salty taste in the corner of his mouth.

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As the saying goes, "the early bird gets the worm", but he is "the early worm gets eaten by the bird", Luo Jie has occupied his thoughts all night.

The lingering figure in his mind made him pour out all the thoughts he had suppressed for four years last night, but accompanied by the thoughts came a loneliness that was so thick that it could not be resolved.

After a sleepless night, Roy looked at himself in the mirror, with two circles of panda eyes and a pale and bloodless face, which was really scary. He held cold water in his hand and patted his cheeks, trying to wake himself up with ice water to make himself look more energetic .

"Roy, you are really in a mess." He laughed at himself who was insomnia because of Luo Jie.

Walking out of the bathroom, he changed into an off-white casual suit and whitewashed jeans. He chose not to eat breakfast, and went directly to the entrance of the hall to wait for Luo Jie's arrival.

Ignoring the attention of passing passengers, the blurred eyes seemed to be looking for something.

In less than a moment, a white SUV drove slowly and stopped at the entrance of the hotel. After the door opened, it happened that Luo Jie was also dressed in beige casual clothes.

Seeing Roy on the right side of the door, Luo Jie called out to him, "Xiao Yi's side."

Hearing Luo Jie call him like before, Roy's joy was greater than surprise.

This nickname is a bit feminine for men, especially because it doesn't match his height of [-], but he likes Luo Jie to call him this, like calling him a kitten or a puppy, and he is willing to be Luo Jie's Pet, so you can touch him as much as you want.

When I was a child, there was a dog at home. Luo Jie always held it in his arms and stroked its hair gently. On the contrary, Luo Jie always liked to tease him, messing up his hair like a bird's nest.

After placing the luggage in the back seat, Roy sat in the passenger seat.

Luo Jie held the steering wheel with one hand and easily turned around to get out of the hotel. Seeing that Roy's complexion was not very good, he asked concerned: "Have you had breakfast?".

Roy shook his head.

"Why don't you come down after breakfast, it doesn't matter if you let me wait a while." There was a bit of reproach and reluctance in his tone.

Roy responded with a forced smile: "I don't have any appetite." It should be said that because of seeing him, he was so nervous that his stomach hurt.

Luo Jie thought that his younger brother might not be used to the jet lag, so he planned to cook some light dishes after returning home, and let him eat some food.

I left my hometown and moved to the United States alone, and did not accept the support of my parents. I must have failed to take good care of myself. Thinking of this, Luo Jie couldn't help but blame himself.

Looking sideways at Roy's sharp chin, he frowned and ordered forcefully: "You can't skip breakfast. I'll go to the supermarket to buy some food later. I'll make something for you."

"When will you be able to cook!?" Roy opened his eyes wide and looked at him in disbelief.

Seeing his younger brother's cute expression, he even boasted, "I've lived outside for a long time, and I've learned some cooking skills. Not to mention, as long as I'm more serious, even a five-star chef is no match for me."

As soon as the words were finished, even he thought it was funny, Luo Jie and his younger brother looked at each other, and raised the corners of their mouths in a tacit understanding.

After parking the car in the parking lot of the supermarket, Luo Jie turned around and explained to his younger brother: "Go and buy some toiletries first, I'll smoke a cigarette outside, and I'll go in to find you later."

After Roy selected a few products, he met Luo Jie in the fresh food area. At this time, the shopping cart in Luo Jie's hand was already full of food, including vegetables, pork and seafood, as well as a dozen of instant noodles, beer and other beverages. There was enough food in the pile to last them for days.

"You...will you buy too much?" Roy reminded him.

"Mom specifically told me to take good care of you and make you fatter."

Luo Jie started at the food in the freezer again, his movements were very neat, like a shrewd housewife.

Seeing Roy's surprised face, he explained: "I've been busy recently and don't have time to go out for shopping. It just so happens that the food at home is gone, so I bought so much."

In fact, what surprised Roy was how Luo Jie could forget about that incident so quickly, and even chatted with him happily.

Probably trying to resolve the embarrassing atmosphere by making jokes!

On TV, just a friend robbed his girlfriend, and there was a hot scene, let alone his own brother, even if he chose to forgive, he would still feel pimples in his heart.

He would rather scold him and beat him, just don't show him a smile on him. Luo Yan is good to him, and will only make him more obsessed with him.

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After driving for about 10 minutes, the car entered a quiet community and stopped in front of a red apartment building. Luo Jie rolled down the car window and said to the man in the management office: "This is my brother: Roy, I will be there in the future." live here."

"Okay, Mr. Luo." Administrator Lin Bo nodded to Roy

After notifying the administrator, Luo Jie parked the car in the parking lot on the second basement floor, and then took the elevator to the residence on the eighth floor.

Luo Jie's house is about fifty square meters in size. The spacious space of three bedrooms, two living rooms, and two bathrooms is a luxury for single people. Even if there are more Roys, it is more than enough to live in.

There is a floor-to-ceiling window on the south side of the living room, which brings in abundant sunlight. The floor made of Burmese teak has a smooth color under the light.

The simple black leather sofa set is paired with dark brown furniture, which shows that the owner has a good taste. The TV cabinet with chocolate carved white texture stone sets off the overall vision.

After introducing the living room and kitchen, Luo Jie took his younger brother to the bedroom prepared for him.

"This room was originally a guest room, but since you've moved in, this room is your own private space."

Roy looked around the room, the overall decoration was mainly blue, and the mahogany furniture exuded a faint fragrance, which made people feel very comfortable.

"My room is opposite to yours, and the bathroom is behind that wooden door." He pointed to the wall with a landscape painting hanging on it. The seemingly ordinary wall concealed a mystery.

Then Luo Jie opened the door at the end of the corridor. This room was the study and his studio.

"You can come in and do what you want while I'm away."

After quickly introducing his home, Luo Jie didn't forget that his younger brother hadn't eaten breakfast yet, so he went into the kitchen to prepare food.

I took out fresh eggs from the shopping bag in the supermarket, and skillfully beat the eggs in a small bowl, planning to make Western-style scrambled eggs.

"You like to eat hard-boiled eggs." He turned around and confirmed to Roy.

"kindness."

Roy guessed: Luo Jie would ask himself this, maybe because he remembered that incident.

Since I was a child, I didn’t like the viscous feeling of uncooked eggs, but one day Luo Jie deliberately smashed a half-boiled egg with chopsticks, and directly sucked the egg yolk from the plate, so that the whole mouth was covered with egg liquid , and seeing this scene, he actually vomited, and afterwards Luo Jie was severely beaten by his mother.

After that incident, Luo Jie no longer dared to tease him with food.

With his chin propped on his hands, Roy leaned against the cooking table and stared at Luo Jie's back. He hadn't seen him in four years, and the body hidden under that layer of fabric seemed stronger and stronger than he remembered.

Until a plate of hot scrambled eggs and hot milk appeared in front of his eyes, he quickly put away the love in his eyes and played the role of a good brother.

"Aren't you going to eat?"

Luo Jie responded with a smile: "No, I have already eaten."

The air is filled with the rich aroma of butter and the umami taste of seafood. The fried eggs are soft and soft, and the shrimps are full of elasticity, arousing Roy's appetite.

He raised the fork to take a sip, and instantly all the sensory perceptions were integrated in his mouth, sending a "delicious" message to the brain.

"It's delicious." He praised.

The smile on his younger brother's face has already satisfied Luo Jie.

While his brother was eating, he casually asked, "How are you doing in America? How long do you plan to stay this time?" Last night, his mother listed a long list of questions and asked him to ask Roy.

"I haven't decided how long I want to stay yet." Roy responded lightly.

Knowing that Roy deliberately avoided his question, Luo Jie expressed his thoughts directly.

"Just stay in Taiwan! After all, this is your country. In this way, parents don't have to worry about you anymore. Remember Guanhao?"

Roy nodded. He remembered that he seemed to be Uncle Qin's son.

"Two years ago, he asked me to switch to Yaoyu to work. I was responsible for the design of the shopping mall that opened in the East District earlier this year. If you plan to stay, I can help you arrange a place in Yaoyu."

Roy is happy for his success. In college, Luo Jie's performance has always been outstanding, and he was recruited by many firms before graduation.

Yaoyu has always been the goal that the two brothers yearn for, and it is also expected that Luo Jie will work there.

But if Luo Jie knew that he was working in Amber, how would he react?

Seeing that his younger brother didn't respond and buried himself in his breakfast, Luo Jie decided not to disturb him and looked at him quietly.

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Roy got up late the next day, and there was no sign of Luo Jie in the inspection room, but there were simple sandwiches and a note on the kitchen table.

Xiao Yi: The company is in a hurry, so call me, there is milk in the refrigerator, remember to eat the breakfast on the table.

Being under the same roof with Luo Jie, although he pretends to be calm on the outside, he is in a panic in his heart. As long as the distance between Luo Jie and him is less than one meter, his heart will feel the deer bumping, and even the blood in his blood Oxygen becomes thinner.

Knowing that he has something urgent to go to the company and will not be back in a short time today, he is much more at ease left alone in the house.

Two or three bites settled the breakfast and lunch sandwiches, and he made a cup of hot drink and walked into the study.

He was very interested in this place when he visited the house yesterday. There are many books and CDs on the custom-made bookcase. It can be concluded that Luo Jie has lived a fulfilling life in the past few years.

He took a sip of the hot drink, and the unique bitterness and unique aroma emanated from his throat, "It's still the same taste." A satisfied smile hangs on his face.

Since developing in the United States, it has become a habit to have a cup of coffee in the morning. If Jie knows that he has contracted this bad habit, he will definitely be read badly.

With sharp eyes, I can see the bookcase in the corner, and there are several cooking books "You can start a business by yourself", "Easy to learn cooking", etc. It is hard to imagine that a masculine person like Luo Jie can cook in an apron, but yesterday I I have seen it with my own eyes.

Those slender fingers were stirring the pasta with a wooden spoon, adding a little fresh herbs at the right time, rolling up a small bite with a fork for him to taste, thinking that this is his own privilege, a warm current arose in his heart.

Then Roy chose a few books and sat on the window sill to read them. After reading Haruki Murakami's "Norwegian Wood", he then read the famous best-selling novel "The Hunger Games". spend.

After the sun went down, he changed his location, leaned lazily on the sofa, and flipped through the current issue of the architectural magazine with his hands on his cheeks.

During this one-month vacation, he can't be lazy. After all, the market is highly competitive, and he will be eliminated if he is not careful. The same is true in the construction industry. What customers want is to introduce new designs.

Indulging in the pile of books, it was already past eight o'clock before he knew it, he was too lazy to go out, so he ate instant noodles to satisfy his hunger.

Although he won't be staying for a long time, Roy decided to organize the luggage he brought. He opened the medium-sized suitcase and hung the clothes on the shelf of the closet.

At this time, the indoor phone in the room rang. He hesitated for a while, but thinking that it might be Luo Jie's call, he still reached out to answer it.

"I'm Roy."

"Second brother~" Tingting's sweet voice came from the other end of the phone.

Hearing his sister's coquettish cry, Roy breathed a sigh of relief, "I'm only thinking of my second brother now, I'm crazy about honeymoon trips." He teased her with ulterior motives.

Tingting said innocently: "I miss you every day. The scenery here is really beautiful. You can come to Japan with your brother some other day!"

"Are you trying to tell me that I'm envious?" he said.

Why doesn't he want to travel with Luo Jie, as long as he can be with Luo Jie, he is willing to go anywhere.

It has been eight years since the last trip with Luo Jie. At that time, he and Luo Jie slept on the same bed. Luo Jie's sleeping appearance and the breath sprayed in his nose made his heart crazy .

Being so close to the one he loves is the happiest moment for him.

"So I said to take this opportunity to capture the heart of the eldest brother in one fell swoop. What progress has been made recently?" The point of her call is this. If you don't ask clearly, you will be absent-minded during the entire honeymoon trip.

"I'm sorry to disappoint you, Jie went to the company early in the morning."

"No way~"

Tingting's disappointed cry made Roy laugh dumbfounded.

"If you seduce him, he will definitely take the bait." She proposed another whimsical trick.

Roy's appearance is the type that the eldest brother likes. According to her observation, all the girlfriends he has had in recent years are somewhat similar to Roy, but they are far from Roy.

Listening to his sister publish a long list of teaching rules through the microphone, Roy thought to himself: She might have learned this trick from comics again!

He sighed and said, "Focus on your husband!" He didn't want to receive a complaint call from Qingfeng.

"Brother, I sincerely hope that you and Big Brother can be happy. I know what you are afraid of, but you have survived the worst. Why don't you give it a go and make good use of these 25 days."

Roy was silent for a long time, and responded in a very cold tone: "Let everything take its course."

Thanks to his younger sister who supported him all the way, he had the courage to come back to Taiwan to face Luo Jie, but now he just wants to cherish the time spent with Luo Jie.

Feelings cannot be forced. He and Luo Jie are like the sun and the earth, and he is the earth. Although he revolves around the sun, he cannot control everything about him, but because of him, his life is complete.

After finishing talking with his sister, Roy looked at the time. Luo Jie didn't say that he would spend the night outside, but it was almost ten o'clock, and there was still no movement at the gate.

Could it be that my voice on the phone was too loud, so I didn't hear it?

He knocked on Luo Jie's door, but no one answered.

Maybe in the study?

He opened the door, and it was pitch black.

When he was about to leave, he heard a slight exhalation sound. He turned on the small light and found a figure lying on the sofa.

Luo Jie was sleeping on his back, the cuffs of both hands were rolled up to the elbows indiscriminately, the collar of his shirt was open, and his thick chest rose and fell regularly with his breathing.

Probably because I was too tired after get off work and accidentally fell asleep.

"Jet."

Seeing that Luo Jie didn't respond, Roy shouted again, but the pair of eyes were still closed.

Fearing that Luo Jie would catch a cold, Roy took a quilt to cover him.

Looking at the face that made him think about it day and night, Roy was reluctant to leave. He knelt beside Luo Jie and gently touched his face with his fingertips.

Just one click is all it takes, let him imprint Luo Jie's appearance in his heart, and let him survive the days to come by relying on his memories.

Working in a big company must be very busy. After a whole day, the stubble that was shaved in the morning grows back.

Caressing Luo Jie's newly grown beard stubble, the thick touch, if kissed, it would definitely be itchy.

When he came back to his senses, he had already kissed Luo Jie.

Luo Jie's warm thin lips aroused his long-suppressed longing. What started as a light kiss turned into a burning passion. He boldly stretched out his tongue, but when he touched the tip of Luo Jie's tongue, he timidly withdrew it.

He held his breath and stared at Luo Jie, fearing that he would wake up because of his actions.

Seeing that Luo Jie was still asleep, he fled out of the study in a hurry, his heart beating violently because of his transgression.

Locking himself in the room, Roy sat on the bed at a loss.

"He probably didn't find out, right?...Well! Because he didn't." He tried to comfort himself.

But after comforting himself, he couldn't help but blame himself for being so impulsive?Does he want to lose Luo Jie again?

There was still a faint smell of tobacco in his mouth, which was Luo Jie's taste, but it turned into a sour taste after swallowing it in his body.

That night, he lost sleep again.