planted in her hands

The last time I cried on the side of the road and was recorded by Jiang Linyan, I was a little concerned about this matter. I am also a person who cares about face, how could I allow myself to be so embarrassingly recorded, so after the last video I asked Jiang Linyan to delete it, and now I shed tears because of Meng Qingyao. Fortunately, Jiang Linyan is not with me, so there is no possibility of being recorded in the video.

This red wine is really not very good.

After drinking three glasses, I opened another bottle of my favorite fruit wine, and then I felt more comfortable, but when I turned my eyes, I saw the two paintings on the coffee table.

My vision is a little blurry, but not the level of my heartache.

How could I feel that a person who has been straight for so many years is bent because of me?I know that there must be such a thing, but I still don't believe that such a thing will happen to me.

I am a non-emirate, and I bought drinks so many times when I was a child, and "one more bottle" never appeared once, and it was all "thank you for coming".

I shouldn't be so confident.

- She told me in the afternoon that she would be less busy at night.

-Otherwise, I would have revealed the news in advance, and she would tell me.

-I'm afraid that she will find out that I leaked the news in advance.

……

Those words of Bai Feixu during the dinner danced in my heart word by word, I closed my eyes, my mind was in chaos.

I think of Meng Qingyao who made flower cakes for me, I think of Meng Qingyao who let me touch my vest line, I think of Meng Qingyao who made an awkward fight with me and apologized to me earnestly, I think of hugging me Meng Qingyao, I think of Meng Qingyao at many moments, and only then did I turn around and realize that her actions that I misunderstood were all very reasonable.

She didn't receive much kindness because of her figure before, but now she doesn't stingy with her kindness. She cares about me and takes care of me. It's really what I thought before, it's all because of her kindness.

She is really good.

I squeezed the wine glass, raised my head and took another big sip, and the glass of wine bottomed out.

I didn't cry anymore, but the pain didn't lessen.

My heartache seemed to intensify every time I realized that her affection for me was just one of sisterhood.

When I didn't follow up with Yu Wenshan before, I didn't do that either.

Not even when I broke up with my first love.

Meng Qingyao lowered my vulnerability.

I don’t know how long it’s been like this. I opened bottle after bottle of wine, and I ran to the toilet several times. The feeling of dizziness trapped me. My eyes were blurred and shaking, as if there was The shape of the wind.

The phone on the side lit up at this time, I squinted my eyes, and touched it in my hand.

I could see the color on it clearly, so I clicked green without hesitation.

It was Jiang Linyan who called: "A'Du, are you tired yet?"

"I've already eaten." I squeezed the space between my eyebrows.

Now I don't use "drunk" to describe me, but I am a little dizzy, and my consciousness is still relatively clear.

"That's fine."

"You drink steadily."

"Jiang Jiang." I couldn't help asking, "Aren't you stupid for saying that others like you too?"

"How could it be? Isn't this just a beautiful expectation." Jiang Linyan paused, "Do you think Miss Xiao Meng doesn't like you?"

My eye sockets immediately became sour again: "I don't think so, this is the truth."

I sorted out my own thoughts: "The man she liked before came to our place. Tonight I had dinner with my friends. The man made a video for her, and the note was his fiancee, and she sent him a text message in the afternoon. She got the message, but didn't send it to me, and she also said that she had to deal with some other things..."

"Based on the above, and many other things, it's me anyway, Chi Du, Chi Xiaodu, I'm too confident in myself, thinking that people who send you flowers mean that they like you, that they have a secret sign with you, that means they like you, and that hugging you means that they like you." I like you, but many straight girls would do such a thing, I think in her eyes, I'm just a clingy sister..."

I talked a lot, and finally turned on the speakerphone, covered my face with tears, and said in a muffled voice, "But it's all my problem. I insisted that this beautiful expectation would become a reality, but the reality is She gave me a slap in the face, how am I going to face her in the future? I don’t think I can hide my thoughts. She will still have an engagement banquet with that man, and she will get married in the future. She must look special in a wedding dress Beautiful, you know, she is super beautiful, I drank with her that day, she was wearing a floral dress, I couldn't take my eyes off, if she put on a wedding dress, I, I..."

I couldn't go on, sobbed.

Jiang Linyan didn't say anything for a long time.

This is the first time I cry tonight. I don't know, but the more I suffer, the more uncomfortable I feel.

I randomly tore the tissue and wiped it on my face. With a lot of strength, I threw a pile of tissue around the coffee table.

I'm not in the mood to clean up now.

"A'Du..." Jiang Linyan sighed, "Resign."

I was taken aback, and then I heard her voice: "It seems that you will feel better only if you leave there, and you haven't traveled for a long time, if you want to, I'll ask for leave, do you want to go to the beach? I haven't seen the sea for a long time."

"Her home is in Nancheng, near the sea."

"I don't want to see the sea."

"Then go to those big gourmet cities..."

I brushed my hair, and said in a strong nasal voice, "You're right, Jiang Jiang."

"I have to resign."

"I'm resigning tomorrow."

"it is good!"

"I'll go to the bathroom again, hang up first, don't worry about me, see you tomorrow night."

"it is good!"

I stare at the rest of the wine on the table, several bottles.

What Jiang Linyan said is correct, since I don't want to see all that in the future, then I will cut off contact with Meng Qingyao, so that I don't have to worry about whether I will attend her wedding and see her in a wedding dress.

even if...

Even if I am very reluctant.

I went to the bathroom, came back and poured out the rest of the wine.

Drinking it together will indeed make me dizzy quickly, my consciousness is getting thinner and thinner, and my vision is getting more and more hazy. In a daze, I touched the phone.

I can't read the words clearly.

There are only three words "Meng Qingyao" in my mind.

I found Meng Qingyao's phone note from memory, and dialed it directly, and I also collapsed on the sofa, with the phone stuck to the side.

Meng Qingyao's voice is also very weak to me, I can't hear it clearly.

I couldn't hear what I said, or I didn't know what I said at all.

My eyelids were getting heavier and I didn't have much strength left to open my mouth until my consciousness was overwhelmed by sleepiness.

But in fact, the feeling of being drunk is not very good, because at about three o'clock in the morning, I was so uncomfortable that I immediately got up on the sofa and went straight to the bathroom. Until dawn, I vomited several times. It's as messy as untended weeds.

I took a shower, tidied things up a bit, then got a pen and paper at the desk, and wrote a simple letter of resignation.

There was still a farewell ceremony for Xiao Li's departure, and my departure was truly silent.

The content of the resignation letter is simple. In addition to the basic format and title, I just said "thank you for your care during this time, please forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye".

When I first came here, I was very decisive, without much hesitation, and I was quite chic when I left.

The garbage at home was thrown away by me.

I put the resignation letter and the key on the painting table.

I drove back to the city.

This time I was determined to cut off everything related to Meng Qingyao, I stopped saying hello to Meng Qingyao, I quit the group "The three of us see Qingshan", and deleted all the friends over there that should be deleted Pulling black, this also includes Meng Qingyao.

My eyes were red, and I couldn't help but feel so cruel.

It's as if I've never had the happy times over at Wicker Lane.

But have I really never owned it?

But it's definitely not going to work in this state. I thought about it and called my mother.

It just so happened that she had just returned from a business trip recently, and she was at home, idle and bored.

I went back to Chi's house directly.

After a day of rest, my complexion looks much better, but my mother has given birth to me and raised me for so many years, so she still has a basic understanding of me. After seeing me, she didn't say anything at first, and waited until it was quiet. After I got down, she came over and touched my hair: "Did something happen? Baby."

I shook my head: "It's nothing." I looked at her in disbelief, and bit the bullet, "It's just that I will never see some people again, so I'm a little sad."

"The one that made you happy at your last birthday?"

I was startled, but I didn't deny it: "Mom, don't worry about me, I will recover on my own. It just so happens that you have nothing to do these days." I tilted my head, "Why don't we go around, Mom, you can also take the opportunity Rest."

My mother patted the back of my hand, smiled and nodded: "Okay."

As a result, except for my dad who was busy with work, all my family members were dispatched, among other things, a car full of people was just right.

There are a lot of beautiful scenery around the province. My parents used to have a tight time for business, but once they had extra time, they would take me and my brother around for a walk. However, as we got older, the places we went to also changed from the province. I have been outside the province, and I have been to many cities in China, and the number of times the family plays together is much less.

On the first day we climbed a famous mountain nearby, I was so tired that I was panting, and my expression was even more exaggerated than the expression of the delivery boy who brought me wine.

The next day we went rafting again, bought small basins at tourist attractions, scooped up water and poured water on the strangers next to us, like a war.

On the third day we came to the hot spring village, stayed in the hotel and soaked in the hot spring comfortably, and there was an open-air swimming pool on the top. I also had a swimming competition with my sister-in-law. In the end, I won and won one of my nephew’s kiss face.

I don't know how Meng Qingyao will feel when she finds out that she can't get in touch with me. I also don't know what kind of expression Fang Suyue and the others will have when they see my resignation letter.

I don't want to think about it, and I don't dare to think about it.

But when I go back to the hotel and open the photo album on my phone, I can see many photos of my life there.

Yixie, Xixi's school entrance banquet, my birthday party...

When I look at it, my eyes will turn red.

And I dreamed of Meng Qingyao for several days in a row.

It's a nightmare for me.

The background music of "You Will Marry Me Today" was playing in the dream, and she was wearing a wedding dress and passing in front of me.

I woke up straight away.

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