Feeding equation

Wu Si didn't tell Hua Lin what happened between us, this was what he said when I was lying on the bed with his arms around me that day when I was about to fall asleep.

"It doesn't matter..." I heard my own voice, and for some reason, I felt so sad at that second that I wanted to cry.

I am not a cowardly person, on the contrary I am very strong.I am obsessed with Hualin, and sometimes even I find it a bit unbelievable.

Strictly speaking, Hualin is like a relative to me.When I met Hua Lin, I was at a low point in all aspects.At that time, her father had just passed away, and Haishen had mental problems because of her father's relationship.Hua Lin has always been by my side, saddened by me, and shed tears by my side.If it wasn't for her firm support behind me at that time, I'm afraid I would have fallen to the bottom.

Perhaps, it was at that time that I had the idea of ​​wanting to grow old with Hua Lin.When I look at her, I always keep repeating in the back of my heart: "Ah, so this is the person." Although we don't necessarily love each other deeply, we understand each other and complement each other.Hua Lin always said that we are the most suitable couple in the world, and I always think so in my heart.

That's why, the moment I learned that Hua Lin had betrayed me, I had a feeling that my trust had completely collapsed.I feel like my world has suddenly changed, like the sadness of suddenly learning about the death of a loved one.But this kind of sadness is far more than just a blow.She fell in love with another man and wanted to abandon me for another man.Although we didn't say we broke up, maybe she has found someone who is far more suitable for her than me, hasn't she?

The corners of his mouth slowly curled up in a self-deprecating manner, feeling in his heart that this was really a great irony.

My woman flirted with another man while she was pregnant with my child.And I can only watch helplessly, and I don't even have the courage to take the initiative to show my cards.

Maybe, I just want to wait for a result.I want Hua Lin to tell me in person: "Haixi, let's break up", "Haixi, we are not suitable." Maybe, then I can really give up and let go.This is my cowardice, I admit it.

The warrior behind him tightly hugged my waist and pulled me into his arms, his chin resting on the top of my head, his domineering posture prevented me from even the simplest turning over.

It's a night that's neither cold nor cold, nor hot.The man's body temperature brought bursts of scorching heat behind him, that kind of temperature seemed to melt the person completely, extending from every place where the skin connected to all the limbs.It's hard to bear, but I can't bear to let go, just like the stove I'm used to holding in my hands in winter.

It is somewhat strange to compare Wusi to a stove.

He opened his sleepy eyes and thought for a while, then closed them again.

There is a man's familiar scent all around, which is different from the fragrance of a woman's body, but it is unexpected and reassuring.

"Why doesn't it matter, don't you want to fight?" The lips attached to my ears moved again, the voice was very small, but it was especially clear in the silent night.

I don't know why Wu Si must keep me to sleep here, although my physical condition is indeed not suitable for running around on the way home.But in fact, in my heart, I would rather sleep on the sofa than sleep with him, but there is no way, Wu Si is so tough sometimes.

He tilted his ears uncomfortably, avoiding the itchy, wet breath in his ears.I opened my eyes again, but I didn't answer.It's not that I don't want to tell him, but that I really don't know how to speak.

My fiancée ran away with others while pregnant with my child. It is always more useless to hear about such a thing than to experience it myself.

About 5 minutes later, when I thought Wu Si was almost asleep, he spoke again.

"She doesn't love you." Very short, very sure.But I don't know why he said that.

The feeling of being debunked is like being sprinkled with fine salt on the open wound in the heart.When the salt penetrated, it was actually more painful than when it was just injured.

I subconsciously wanted to cover my heart, but the moment I moved, I touched a hand that didn't belong to me.

It's warm and slightly rough.But I seemed to have touched the switch, and it flicked open.

"No..." said.However, the dryness of my throat suddenly made me speechless.

Can't help but smile wryly, as if suddenly resigned to fate, then sighed: "You guessed right..."

It would be futile to explain further.The feeling that is gone is gone, without any reason, it will not come back.

"That woman is not suitable for you." Feeling Wu Si hugging me tightly, I couldn't help frowning.

"She is suitable." Her heart was trembling, but her mouth was still firm.At least, we used to be fit for...

"Hehe." Wu Si didn't refute, but let out a laugh without any emotion.I didn't know what this smile represented, and I couldn't help feeling a burst of restlessness in my heart, so I raised my arms and wanted to get up.

"What's wrong?" Sensing my movements, Wu Si asked slowly.

"I want to go to the bathroom." Lied casually, just to get out of his embrace earlier.Compared with Hua Lin, our current hug is the most inappropriate.

"Then I'll go with you." Standing up involuntarily, Wu Si stretched out his hand and prepared to hug me horizontally.

"I'll go by myself!" I said hastily, but accidentally affected the injuries all over my body.Especially the pain there, I couldn't help grimacing, this is the retribution of indulgence, but Wu Si smiled very rarely.

"Let me go with you!" In a tone that could not be refused, "I need to take full responsibility for you!"

"I'm not a woman!" I said angrily, but I no longer refused his support.

He did it there several times, even with some lacerations.Although he was on medicine, he really hurts!

After all, it doesn't mean much to defecate, especially when being helped to go to the toilet by Wu Si, a wicked and disgusting guy.It's not that I've been paralyzed in bed for many years. Could it be that I'm so powerless that I can't even lift my little friend up? !

It was really embarrassing and indignant, so I casually thought about it, and asked Wu Si to carry me back to the bed.

Since someone is willing to be a free labor force, why not do it?

only……

"Hai Xi, Hua Lin..." Wu Si suddenly opened his mouth when he was covering me with the quilt, but he seemed to think of something, so he didn't continue.

I know Wu Si, he is not a person who talks half and leaves half.Either he said it all, or he didn't say it at all.He suddenly changed his way of speaking now, which made my appetite whetted and at the same time I felt at a loss.

"She's my girlfriend, and she's pregnant with my child..." Seeing that Wu Si didn't continue, I sighed and said silently, "I won't give up on her unless she... I really don’t want me!” I don’t know why he expressed his position to Wu Si, but judging from the content of his conversation with me just now, he probably wants me to get rid of Hua Lin.For a man like Wu Si, changing women is as diligent as changing clothes. He doesn't understand how precious the relationship that rises to the level of family affection is.He is a bad man with a heart, but I am not.

Seeing what I said, Wu Si didn't refute anything.The desk lamp in the corner of the room was shining brightly. He frowned and walked over, and pressed the switch.

Once again I couldn't see my fingers in the thick darkness, I couldn't see his expression, I only guessed his movements when he returned to the bed, and then in the blink of an eye, I was embraced by him from behind again.

I suddenly had a feeling that I had become a living person's pillow, and I only hated that I was occupying my body. If not, I would really like to hug myself.Maybe I will be unexpectedly good at hugging.

"What if the child is not yours?" Wu Si breathed wetly.The moment it poured into the ear canal, I heard my heart beating irregularly.

He's holding me too tight.

I opened my eyes wide, but forgot to move the moment I wanted to break free from him.After a while, he frowns into a nonchalant smile.

"How is it possible, could it be that the child is not mine but could be yours?" I broke away from his embrace, but turned around and hugged his waist when he was surprised.

Sure enough, it was very warm.

……

Sitting on the bench outside the ward, playing with the new mobile phone in his hand.I don't know why lately, but I'm always attached to the newest cell phone.It's a pity that I'm an electronic idiot. Apart from the most basic functions, I really don't know what a mobile phone can do other than make and receive calls.

The hospital on weekends is not quiet when people come and go, although the word "quiet" used for warning can be seen everywhere on the white walls.The air is full of the smell of disinfectant, not strong, but not necessarily weak.

After waiting for nearly a quarter of an hour, I saw Hua Lin walking slowly from the end of the corridor with the support of the nurse.I just heard from the doctor that Hua Lin had to go for a routine checkup, but I didn't expect it to take so long.

Standing up to meet her, an unknown fire burst into my heart.

"Why didn't you tell me? The child belongs to both of us, why do you decide on your own?!" Before I got to her side, I yelled angrily.Hua Lin and the nurse didn't seem to expect that someone would suddenly rush out and yell at them, and they froze for a moment before reacting.

"What are you doing here?" Hua Lin frowned when he saw me.

She used to be gentle and calm in front of me, with a faint smile that seemed to make me feel happy.This is the first time she has seen me show such an expression, and to be honest, it hit me hard.

I glared at her, fighting back the excess pain in my heart.

"If your attending doctor hadn't called, would you still have to hide it from me?" I walked over and wanted to grab her by the shoulder, but when I approached, the nurse next to me reminded me to be careful.

This morning, Hua Lin's attending doctor called to say that she was going to have an early caesarean section, and I came here straight away as soon as I heard the news.

I remember that Hua Lin filled in my name in the column of the child's father.Since she knows that it is also my child, I can't let her make decisions easily.

Hua Lin shook off my hand that was holding her arm, and there was a little disgust in his eyes.

"What are you doing!" She raised her eyebrows and stared at me.

I didn't expect that one day I would be treated like this in front of her, and my heart was full of gaps, which aggravated the dull pain in my heart.So I stopped talking nonsense with her and got straight to the point.

"I don't allow you to give birth to a child now!"

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