Feeding equation

How long can the relationship between people last?One year, two years, ten years, 20 years?

I remember that I have been with Hualin for eight years.I met her when I was the youngest, and now at the age of 26, I still have nothing to do, when I think of her, I can only think of parting.

I think I should be a long-lasting person, just as my love is not too strong, I like the love that flows slowly and slowly, bit by bit, seeping into life.When I met Hualin, I thought I met the same kind. We have many common topics and hobbies. We like each other and fit in with each other. Even if the love is not so passionate, we still have come to this day.I can't accept the fact that Hua Lin suddenly moved on. I thought that the time we were together could surpass all feelings. I thought that our relationship was perfect for each other, but it seems that I was wrong. .

I felt a little sad in my heart, although it was not to the point where I could be hysterical, but I was still so shocked by the facts before me that I wanted to cry.

After I got out of the apartment, I drove aimlessly on the street. Because it was summer, although it was already 10:30 in the evening, there was still an endless stream of people outside enjoying the cool.The bustling shops are still clamoring for business, and there are also temporary barbecue stalls on the side of the road. A few men, a dozen beers, are simply satisfied and full of shuttles on the streets of the city.

Sitting in the driver's seat and watching the traffic of people and vehicles coming and going, I suddenly felt so lonely and alone in this world.And the frustration that suddenly rose from it also made me realize that whether it is in my career or in my relationship, I have always been the same as nothing!

The bitter taste lingered in my heart, so I let out a heavy sigh.Although I tried my best to restrain myself from asking Hualin for the facts, I still couldn't help taking out my phone when I encountered the red light at the second intersection.But at this time, I no longer knew what kind of mood I was using to talk to Hua Lin.If Hua Lin really had the motive of cheating, then my position will only be embarrassing.I can't help thinking that she has rejected my marriage proposal more than once. Has she been unfaithful to me since then?

I smiled wryly, and Hua Lin's lazy voice came from the other end of the phone at this moment.

"Hai Xi, are you not coming back tonight?" She is well aware that my schedule is quite irregular. Although I have no real power, I am still the nominal boss of Hongxia Street after all. Regardless of Hongxia Street.Besides, it's not my style to be a hands-off shopkeeper.

I didn't speak, she seemed to have taken it as my acquiescence, and didn't pursue the question any further, she only said something like asking me to add clothes at night to be careful of catching cold, as warm and caring as usual.

There was a tingling pain in my heart, listening to Hua Lin's soft and caring words, my heart was like being filled with steel needles.

"Aren't you asleep yet?" I couldn't find a topic, so I had to find this unnutritious sentence to support the table blindly.In fact, I don't understand that I obviously don't want to think about it and ask so many questions, but I just can't control it.

I really don't understand why Hua Lin is so entangled with other men.I have always been very good to her, and I will try my best to meet all her requests.And I am also a very gentle man, because I have a younger sister, I will try my best to consider issues from the perspective of women.I remember that during the eight years between Hua Lin and me, we were so harmonious that we never blushed once.I really don't know what she is dissatisfied with. Is the other party really a lover who is many times better than me?

I thought of what Hua Lin said on the phone that the child was innocent, and guessed that the other party was not a very perfect man.If I were that man, I would definitely tolerate each other, including her children.It is conceivable that that man is not a good thing!

I gritted my teeth, but Hua Lin on the other end of the phone laughed softly.

"I fell asleep just now, but you woke me up again!" She deliberately scolded me, but I knew that although she said that, she didn't mean it.But, my heart is still cold.

"Did you just sleep all the time? No wonder I can't get through the phone..." I don't know why I lied, if I really want to ask something, maybe I just want to try Hua Lin's reaction.

But Hua Lin didn't respond at all, as if the person who was crying on the phone in the bedroom just now wasn't her.

"Maybe it's because the signal is too weak. I didn't receive the call you made." Her words were very gentle and light, just like her usual tone of voice, which made people feel like they were in the spring breeze.

I clenched the phone subconsciously, my throat felt a little dry.

"Hua Lin, do you love me?" I suddenly asked her.And my heart was pounding when I asked this sentence.

I clearly felt the silence on the other end of the phone. After a long while, Hua Lin said slowly, "Haixi, what's wrong with you?"

"Let's get married! Hua Lin, I solemnly ask you to marry me!" I really don't know what happened to me.Although this is not the first time I have proposed to Hua Lin, it seems very inappropriate to ask such a question on such an occasion.

At this moment, several cars behind me were honking their horns at me.I just made a call to Hua Lin when I encountered a red light at the intersection, and now the green light has passed many seconds, no wonder the car behind me keeps urging.

But I didn't mean to start the car.Although I can connect the headset and continue talking on the phone, but now my mood is so complicated that I have no energy to care about anything else.I just want Hua Lin to marry me now, and I just want to hear her say "OK, I'm willing to marry you".

The heart was beating non-stop.It was so alive it wanted to jump out of its throat.However, no matter how energetic things are, there will be times when their energy is exhausted. For example, a sentence that seems calm and calm may have full lethality.

"Haishi, getting married doesn't mean forever. You know I don't value these things all the time. Besides, I'm not ready to get married now. I..."

In an instant, I was like a poor creature being pushed off a high cliff.I felt like my body, along with my heart, was suddenly smashed to pieces.

Before Hua Lin finished speaking, I resolutely hung up the phone.

There was endless abuse from drivers behind me, because I caused them to wait for two red lights on the one-way street, and some people even got out of the car and knocked on my window glass in a fit of anger.

But it doesn't matter anymore.At this moment, I only felt the pain in my heart as if it had been lingering, and the pain of being broken piece by piece with a sharp knife after being broken, finally made me shed tears a little bit unbearably.

I don't want to cry, and I'm not a weak person, but I'm really distressed and uncomfortable.I know that Hua Lin and I are finished, our eight years of relationship, just today, right now, it's all over!

What kind of love, what kind of love, it's all fart, everything is fart!

After I was urged by the driver behind me for the first time, I suddenly started the car, regardless of whether there was a red light ahead, stepped on the accelerator and drove away...

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The clubhouse at night is always extremely lively. Men and women chasing desire linger here. Amidst the passion and wildness, they forget themselves and indulge themselves. Even the air is full of obscene and unrestrained atmosphere.

I drank the expensive foreign wine in front of me glass by glass, and my empty stomach, which hadn't eaten much, was throbbing with pain and convulsions under the pouring of alcohol.But my heartache seemed to outweigh my stomachache.

Think of Hua Lin, think of our meeting, think of her brilliant smile to me.

"Hai Xi, we are the same kind of people, so we are the best match..." She smiled happily and threw herself into my arms.Although I know that maybe we are not really in love, but we are compatible with each other, I think our warm love can last forever.

But I seem to be wrong!

Thinking of this, I poured myself another glass of the strongest vodka, and the stimulating feeling made my taste buds and all senses bloom here.

Sitting on the high-end leather sofa, the dim lights in the VIP room made my heart feel as lonely as this scene.Although I turned on the explosive music that I least like to listen to on weekdays, for some reason, those notes that kept shaking and beating just made me unable to be active.So I simply closed my eyes and leaned on the sofa to meditate. It wasn't until the corners of my eyes were wet with tears that I realized how useless I was.I hurriedly wiped away my tears and poured another glass of wine. I was so drunk that I couldn't even hold the beautiful wine bottle properly, so the bottle fell to the ground with a bang, and the half bottle of vodka together Fill it in the leather shoes I just bought a few days ago.

People are so unlucky that even drinking cold water will clog their teeth!

Angrily, I kicked the wine bottle that fell on the floor to the beautiful pure leather-wrapped velvet wooden frame door of the private room. Unexpectedly, the wine bottle had just touched the foot of the door, but at this moment, the door of the private room was broken open. Pushed away.

"You are indeed here!" Although I was already drunk a little bit and couldn't tell the north from the south, but I still clearly recognized the three shadows of Ben Liang in front of me.

"Hey, I have an important guest today, you, a drunk, can't monopolize the VIP room!" Ben Liang stood far away with some contempt, and said gesticulating while watching me.I know he never liked me. His father was originally the boss of Hongxia Street. If he hadn't been recruited into the orthodox gang by the Chi Gang, maybe his father would still be the most feared overlord in this area.But what's the use of saying so much now?The current boss is me, and Ben Liang has always made mistakes from the bottom to the top, this is wrong, this is wrong!

I looked at him without speaking, my feet were a little soft under the influence of alcohol.But I still struggled to stand up, staggered to his side, and punched him in the face when he was surprised.

This is what he forced me to do.He has always been the most dissatisfied with me among the hypocrisy, and he will oppose me in everything.I wanted to take him into surgery a long time ago, but it was He Sang'an who begged me in every possible way to let me not have the same knowledge as him, and I sold He Sang'an's favor so I didn't do it for a long time.But right now I am in a fit of anger, I have a cavity of anger that I have nowhere to vent, Ben Liang just happened to hit the muzzle of the gun, this is his bad luck!

But Ben Liang was young and energetic after all, and he was able to stand up quickly after being punched hard by me.

"Damn..." He was already gnashing his teeth.I thought that he had a fiery temper in the first place, and now he just had a good time venting it with me.He simply raised his hand to receive the punch he fought back, but before he could make a move, his hand was forcibly robbed.

"Ben Liang, what are you doing!" I saw He Sang'an also standing in front of me with a double image, he hugged Ben Liang who was angry and had red eyes, blocking the distance between Ben Liang and me.

"Don't pull me, I'm going to beat him to death!" Ben Liang panted heavily.He must have been extremely upset when he suddenly punched me just now.

But the more unhappy he was, the happier I was. I looked at him with a smile on my face, and walked out of the private room with a smile in the situation where he was so angry that he wanted to pounce on me.

"Haixi!" He Sang'an called out my name behind me.When I walked past him just now, I saw his worried face.But I subconsciously felt that he should be more worried about Ben Liang than me, so I didn't look back angrily, and staggered out while leaning on the corner of the wall.

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