love you as i wish

更新时间：2013-04-2509:59:54字数：3853

The time seems to be flowing slowly, drop by drop.

The campus of Z University is lush and green. On the green leaves four or five meters high, there are huge green fruits hanging everywhere, exuding a green and seductive fragrance.

In June, when the mangoes are not yet ripe, Sri Lankan people will go.As usual, he crazily vented the sadness of his upcoming departure. After waves of farewell parties and reunions, Z University also gained the initial peace.

In July, the noise is far away, and the buildings are empty.The faint green mangoes swayed on the branches, waiting for another wave of noise to come two months later.

You should go, you should stay.The scenery will not change when people leave.If it is really necessary to change, it is people's state of mind.When all emotions are placed in nature, there will be sad spring and sad autumn.

Under the fruit tree outside the student apartment, there was a figure standing blankly, who had been in samadhi for nearly two hours with no expression on his face.Only the occasional melancholy eyes reveal that Fang Zi can make people sure that he is not a wax figure.

Although people stand still, their minds are surging.

After graduation, I will never have the chance to see that child again.

Feeling deeply sad, Yan Nuo twitched the corners of his mouth, revealing an ugly smile.He was the one who drove the child away, why is he reluctant to part now?

It's a contradiction in life.Deep down in his heart, he also hoped that Fang Bofan would come back to find him, right?Regardless of whether he is angry or sarcastic, if Fang Bofan can come back, it shows that he really exists in his heart, so he cares.

Oh, he hoped so too.But not once.

Since the last time he left with his computer in his arms, Fang Bofan seemed to disappear from his eyes.Even if he deliberately ran out of the classroom of the senior mechanical and electrical department during class time, hoping to bump into Fang Bofan by accident when class was over.However, failed to do so.After struggling for a long time, he still couldn't turn a blind eye to the child.Finally, at the graduation ceremony, he met Fang Bofan as he wished, but he could only stand far away in the corner, watching him chatting and joking with his friends, it made my heart ache!The kid seemed completely oblivious to his existence.

In the end, he was not cruel enough, or Fang Bofan had no intentions at all, and only used the time when the two of them got together as a pastime to adjust their lives.

Although Fang Bofan kept saying that Fang Bofan was just a fledgling mentality towards him, in fact, he still hoped that the child would accept him sincerely, didn't he?Otherwise, why would he stand outside the student apartment in the scorching sun of July, even though he knew that the building was already empty.

Just because he hoped that Fang Bofan could truly accept him, instead of taking the No.1 he saw after opening his eyes as his favorite object, he rejected the childish love show from that child.

That's not love, that's gratitude.

Alas... miss, as always.

There are wood in the mountains and branches in the wood, and the heart is happy and the king does not know.

Falling in love with the same kind is... a taboo after all.

Of course, Yan Nuo didn't have so much time to divide the peach-broken sleeves and embroider the quilt to E Jun; he just wanted to use the long vacation to mourn his first heartbeat, and by the way, study what that shit love is, which made people feel sick. Tiancha doesn't think about food or taste.See, he's the perfect example.

On the grounds of physical discomfort, he politely declined the invitation of the psychological guidance of Falcon Yang Enterprises, and also informed his parents as the reason for his refusal to go home. Sitting staring at the book till midnight.

From beginning to end, he loved Fang Bofan.He sure.

Why didn't Fang Bofan feel the slightest joy when Fang Bofan said he loved him?After all, he was still afraid... afraid that Fang Bofan would hate him.

For all things in the world, people always love to be divided into two, and they call it good and bad.Therefore, same-sex love is also true.It's either natural or artificial.Natural sexual orientation has not had any outstanding achievements in the medical field so far, so of course he doesn't know how to study it; but there are many human factors, such as environment, interests, temptations from others, special encounters, etc., may lead people to the same-sex track.

What Yan Nuo was afraid of was his seduction from Fang Bofan.

Although there are people who cannot make assumptions about life, history cannot be rewritten; but Yan Nuo's sluggish mind flashed countless hypotheses.

If he hadn't drawn a note from the Department of Mechanical and Electrical Engineering in his junior year, he wouldn't have met Fang Bofan, and of course it was even more impossible to fall in love with him.Unfortunately, he won.If Fang Bofan hadn't been ordered to go to the office at the beginning, he wouldn't have talked about his hobbies with that child, and the two of them wouldn't have become acquainted from strangers.Unfortunately, he called names.If he hadn't instructed Fang Bofan in the final exam, the child wouldn't have gone to thank him, and the two of them would have gotten to know each other better.Sorry, he leaked the question.If he hadn't taken the initiative to invite Fang Bofan to spend the New Year together, then the child would not have regarded him as a friend, and even said that he liked him.Very... heart palpitations, he took the initiative to surprise himself even thinking about it.

If at first...

"God!" Lamenting, Yan Nuo helplessly covered his face, not daring to continue.

If he really wanted to investigate, he would indeed have a mountain of evidence and an unforgivable crime.The premise of all kinds of "if" is all created by him. Apart from lamenting "God", what position does he have to defend himself?

Indeed he seduced the boy!Regardless of whether the behavior at that time was impulsive or active, deep in his subconscious mind, there was always the idea of ​​"let him know that I love him", which was reflected in the actual behavior, that is, the relationship between the two of them changed from unfamiliar to increasingly familiar, until...

So, he was afraid.He was afraid that once Fang Bofan learned the truth, his constant love for him would turn into hatred with resentment and anger.

"SHIT." Curled up on the sofa cross-legged, Yan Nuo squeezed out words that he hadn't used for several years.

Thoughts flutter and flicker, shooting far into the starry sky.Leaving a portrait in the house, in a daze.

"Professor, Morning."

"Afan, what's the matter?" Pulling up the towel on his shoulders, Yan Nuo wiped off the sweat from his forehead, staring at an unknown spot on the road and opening his mouth.This child has been silent for several months, but now it suddenly appears, I don't know...

Staring deeply at his movement of wiping his sweat, Fang Bofan said for a while, "Should I still call you a professor?"

"What?" Yan Nuo didn't understand his words that came from outside.

"Arnold." Called softly, Fang Bofan seemed to be whispering.

Trembling all over, Yan Nuoru received an electric shock.Hastily raised his head, letting the people in front of him see the disbelief in his pupils.

"After all, I've already graduated. It's not appropriate to call you a professor, are you right?" Fang Bofan smiled without a smile, and there was no emotion in Fang Bofan's deep eyes. "Why do you always think I'm looking for you when I have something to do? I've made you feel very troublesome!" Fang Bofan laughed at himself with the corners of his mouth raised.

"No..." whispered, Yan Nuo suppressed the pain in his eyes, and looked up at Fang Bofan.

"What are you afraid of?" Ignoring his wandering eyes, Fang Bofan began to ask questions.After a few months, not only did his self-cultivation not improve, but it tended to get worse. "Do you have time?" he asked.

"Is there something wrong?" Yan Nuo dodged as if being told something important.

"Ha, is that again?" The irony was cold, Fang Bofan was embarrassed.How can Yan Nuo accept him?When you say you love him, he treats you as a fledgling; when you say you like him, he treats you as gratitude; when you talk about living together, he treats you coldly.He even gave up his self-esteem and came to him, but he still said "I have something to do", what a shame! "Do you have time tonight, come and have a look at this place."

Looking greedily at the pale face, Fang Bofan took out a card from his pocket and handed it to him.

"Where is it?" Yan Nuo asked after receiving the card, scanning the address.

"A place you can't imagine." He said playfully, and he smiled, but there was no ambiguity.

Just like this, you stared at me, and I stared at the card. After the two of them stood in a stiff confrontation for 10 minutes, Fang Bofan suddenly said, "I want to ask, you...is what you said in the office that day true?"

"Which day?" Yan Nuo looked up inexplicably, and met the eyes with thick eyebrows.

"When you and Professor Xiao were in the office." Taking a step closer, Fang Bofan stared closely.

"And Xiao Lao?" His closeness made Yan Nuo's hot cheeks even hotter.Backing away without showing a trace, Yan Nuo was powerless to think.

Taking his retreat into his eyes, Fang Bofan found that the person in front of him seemed to be really afraid of his approach. "You are really afraid!" It was not doubt, but affirmation.

"What am I afraid of..." Before he could figure out the answer to the first question, he was even more confused by his sudden second question.

"Forget it, are you free at night? It opens at dusk, so don't come too early. You can only do it after seven o'clock." Fang Bofan turned and left without saying anything else.

Yan Nuo, who was almost half dragged, stared in disbelief, and had never been conscious since entering this "Qing Bar".This... this... What kind of bar is it? Why does he feel the cold air rising from the soles of his feet.

Here in the end...Looking around without showing any traces, Yan Nuo's back was covered with cold sweat.If he was right, there would be a reasonable explanation for the strange feeling he had just entered the door and the interested eyes of the waiter in front of the door.

Guessing, he guessed: "Here...is..."

"That's right, as you can see, this is Gaybar." Fang Bofan whispered in his ear.

"Afan?" Staring in surprise, Yan Nuo couldn't believe that Fang Bofan suggested him to come to this kind of place.Is this kid really obsessed with same-sex love?Even... started to fall?

"Let's go back." Pulling Fang Bofan suddenly, Yan Nuo pulled the corners of his mouth, and nodded to a couple of lovers present with an unsmiling arc, intending to pull them away.Unexpectedly, Fang Bofan followed his strength and fell into the wide embrace that had been prepared.

"Since you're here, why don't you play a little longer." Yan Nuo shuddered as the warm breath brushed against his ears.

"Hey!" Disdainfully averted his eyes, Yan Nuo broke away from the iron arm around his waist, his handsome face was burning with anger.Seeing the almost crazy faces in the surrounding field, and the aggressive eyes flickering in the dark looking for prey, his face became more serious.

"Afan, what are you doing?" Suddenly bumping into a hard chest, Yan Nuo could only cry helplessly while his eyes were dizzy.

"I like you." Fang Bofan whispered in his ear, Fang Bofan didn't care about other people's eyes.It's been four months, four months of depression, and finally embraced this professor who made him love and hate.At the beginning, he left in anger because his words were too hurtful; after thinking about it, he finally realized that he really fell in love with this careful professor who regarded him as a baby bird.It seems that there is no reason, so I fell in love with it.Therefore, I can't help but want to get close to him and hold him in my arms.Every time I came to his house unconsciously, just to take a look at him, so that I would not feel too uncomfortable when I missed him.

In order to be able to stand on the same horizon as him, in just two months after graduation, not only did the security program he designed earlier pass the revision test, but his work performance even made his boss smile.Let him come to this bar tonight, just want to tell him that he is not a baby bird in his mouth, he will grow up, he will fly by himself, he can also fly by himself, and, moreover, he can... love him.

"I love you."

"I don't come to this bar often. You can rest assured." Sitting on the swing in the park, Fang Bofan gently swayed the cable.