love you as i wish

更新时间：2013-04-2509:59:54字数：5397

The kid has been clinging to him lately.

Yan Nuo has been obsessed with this idea for the past three months.Except when the two of them had their own class time, Fang Bofan would always sit in his office and chat in the name of chatting, so as to relieve the psychological phobia before graduation.This is the scenario from Monday to Friday.On weekends, the kid would come to his house and say he wanted to develop an app. His place was well lit and quiet.He was naturally more than happy to help him, and looked forward to his weekly visits.The child's laptop has been stored in the room where he used to live, and he is reluctant to clean it, just wanting to keep traces of the child's living.

This kid really considers him a friend!During the winter vacation last semester, he could faintly feel Fang Bofan's defense against him.It feels like he's just a professor with a lot of love.Now...it seems that something different happened between the two of them. Not only did they take the initiative to make some harmless jokes on him, but they also occasionally talked about their parents in their spare time, and even yelled at him, like a three-year-old child.

Hearing Fang Bofan talking about his parents openly to him, Yan Nuo naturally admired him. He also knew the reason why the child looked at the world with indifferent eyes. His heart ached beyond measure, but he also admired the child's strength.Such parents, children who grow up in such an environment, can face life with a calm attitude instead of cynical indulgence, and their self-control cannot be underestimated.

It's no wonder that when it comes to going home, the child has a face of reluctance, probably because he wants to be quiet out of sight.

Judging from the child's tone, it seems that he was very happy in that company.Seeing him smiling while designing the program made him happy for no reason.However, apart from being happy, there is always a touch of astringent bitterness in my heart, which is unforgettable.

From the beginning to the end, he loved this child, he was close at hand, but he couldn't love, why did he come here?

What made him even more embarrassed was that Fang Bofan held up three or four small pink envelopes a few days ago and told him like a treasure that a freshman girl sent him a love letter.Apart from rolling his eyes unnaturally and laughing a few times, does he have the right to make other remarks?

Fortunately, the holiday is coming soon, Fang Bofan is busy reviewing books, he is busy preparing lessons and highlighting key points, this topic has been forgotten in the neglect of the two of them.

The remaining time is less than half a year.The kid will graduate, leave school, and the chances of the two seeing each other will dwindle.After all, he will only be the professor in Fang Bofan's memory.At most, but friends.

He should be satisfied.But why, my heart is always astringent.

The third day of winter vacation.

Because Yan Nuo had to deal with the examination results before the holiday, Yan Nuo still reported to the school every day. Apart from counting the results, he also had to listen to long and small meetings held by the principal, the director, and the dean of a certain school. He couldn't go home until eight o'clock every day.

Fang Bofan has moved to Yan Nuo's house since the suspension of classes. Seeing that he is still busy during the winter vacation, scolding the principal, he still carefully prepares dinner, so that Yan Nuo will have something to eat when he comes home.His cooking skills are not good, so he always slacks off to the restaurants on the street to pack a few dishes and use them as dinner.

When classes were suspended, he had already dropped a phone call to his mother at home, chatted politely as usual, said hello, and explained that he would not go back for the holiday.His mother was also unfamiliar and polite, and she was used to his long-term non-return.

It's only seven o'clock, and Fang Bofan twisted the three small fry that he had packed, humming and walking on the boulevard leading to Yan Nuo's house.The bright street lamps cast mottled tree shadows on the concrete road, forming a row of long shadows in the dark.

Just as he was about to turn the corner, Fang Bofan turned his head inadvertently, and happened to see the tall and thin figure of Yan Nuo under the opposite streetlight.He wanted to raise his voice to greet him, but he stopped when he saw a figure running out of the shadows across the street.

Yan Nuo patted the man's shoulder affectionately, bowed his head and said something.The man seemed to be in the same school as him in the jacket, half a head shorter than Yan Nuo, and he was a man.

Suddenly, Yan Nuo leaned over and hugged the man with an ambiguous gesture.

Squinting his gray eyes coldly, Fang Bofan subconsciously clenched his fists.If he is doing psychological counseling, is it necessary for him to sacrifice his hue?Or, Yan Nuo's heroic devotion, and all consultants practiced it?Even, including Fang Bofan.

Staring at the two who hugged and then separated, Fang Bofan's anger surged instantly.And the man's backhand around Yan Nuo's movement added fuel to the flames, burning him almost to the point of losing his mind.Just looking at the two of you hugging and hugging me, he almost gritted his white teeth.

He was very, very angry to see this scene.Did Yan Nuo always pretend that he didn't exist?Or he didn't express it clearly enough.They all said they were going to take care of him, isn't that obvious enough?Could it be...

Yan Nuo just took it literally?

Turning around angrily, Fang Bofan felt the need to explain again, as for the time... after dinner.He didn't want Yan Nuo to starve.Although he was calm enough to control his impulse, he couldn't just watch Yan Nuo hugging another without feeling it.Not for women, not for men... let alone.

He didn't rush over to reprimand him, because he didn't want to embarrass Yan Nuo.Anyway, the two live under the same roof, so there is plenty of time and space.

Venting his anger, he pressed the elevator button on the [-]th floor, and the anger in Fang Bofanying's eyes has not dissipated until now, causing the manager at the elevator entrance to spy on him, wondering if it was because he didn't do his job well, for no reason Seeing his frowning, he even muttered in his heart, why is this new boy so hot-tempered.

What a shame!

Yan Nuo smacked his lips after sweeping away the green vegetables on the plate.Appetite is too good to come out of the west.Fang Bofan, on the other hand, swallowed a bowl of rice like chewing wax, picked out a few green vegetables without interest, and sipped the soup one by one, thoughtfully.

"I'll do the dishes." After clearing the table, Yan Nuo walked into the kitchen with greasy dishes.

After wiping the table, Fang Bofan followed closely behind.

"Professor, you have a good appetite today." He pointedly.

"Yeah." Touching his stomach, Yan Nuo admitted.

"I... just saw a man talking to you by the side of the road." Leaning against the pool, Fang Bofan asked lightly.

"Hey, can you see it here?" He wondered.Standing on the balcony, he can never see people or things clearly on the side of the road.Mistakenly thinking that Fang Bofan's eyes are better than his, Yan Nuo doesn't care.

"I saw you hugging him." Dangerously approaching, hot breath sprayed on the side of his white face, Fang Bofan's arms passed through Yan Nuo's armpit, covering the dishes he was cleaning.

Frightened by his sudden approach, Yan Nuo stiffened his hands and turned his face hastily.Unexpectedly, the lips just brushed against the cheeks that were close to each other, causing both of them to startle at the same time.

After staring at each other in embarrassment for a moment, Fang Bofan came back to his senses first.Clearing his throat, he quickly washed the remaining dishes, and then rushed back to the living room with Yan Nuo.

Some things are better said clearly.Otherwise, I will be confused if I am not ambiguous, which will make both of them feel uncomfortable.

When the two sat down, Yan Nuo was still oblivious to the sudden questioning, still immersed in a numb feeling.

"I heard it." After a moment of silence, Fang Bofan said abruptly.

"What did you hear?" Dodging his deep gaze, Yan Nuo looked away and stared at a certain point on the wall opposite the sofa without blinking.

"Tsk, the wall is bare, what's there to see." Huo furiously turned his face away, and the two looked directly at each other. "I heard what you said that day." Fang Bofan emphasized again.

"When?" Yan Nuo was at a loss as he broke free from the big palm that was pinching his chin.

"The day you said you loved me." Regardless of the traditional virtue of the Chinese nation, Fang Bofan went straight to Huanglong. "During last semester." He added.

"I...I said..." The word love lingered in his heart, but Yan Nuo couldn't utter it.The blood faded from his face, as if he had seen a ghost, and his eyes were covered with thunderbolts.His body was stiff, and he only felt his hands and feet were cold.This kid knows he's gay?

"Don't you know that I know?" Fang Bofan's heart ached when he saw his angry eyes and pale face.Stretching out a big hand to support his snow-white cheek, trying to rub some blood.But what he said next made Yan Nuo jump up from the sofa in shock, and no other expression was expressed except staring.because--

"Don't you know that I decided to like you too?"

Isn't this kid talking amazingly and endlessly, trying to match Du Fu and his elders.

Pulling the corners of his lips far-fetched, Yan Nuo smiled like Kasimov, the Hunchback of Notre Dame described by Hugo, which can only be described as ugly.

"Afan, you, are you kidding me?" That's right, this kid always likes to make jokes indiscriminately these days, and this time must be no exception.

"No." The clear syllables crackled and slid out of his lips, and Fang Bofan grinned out a frightening but persuasive smile, with an evil look on his face. "I know you like me, and I like you too. So I decided to take care of you in the future. We will live together after graduation."

"I'm a man." Yelled impatiently, Yan Nuo was startled by his change.What is the reason for this child to become surly and paranoid, and he actually fell in love with this man.He completely forgot that the object of his love is also a man.

"It doesn't matter." He stretched out his arms, pulled him into his arms, and adjusted to a comfortable sitting position. Fang Bofan smiled Pipi, talking about the weather and moving to a leisurely place.

"This... this won't work." Yan Nuo blushed, shocked.The kid actually heard what he said.Last semester?Did he talk to anyone about the kid last term?I have always kept this child in my heart, burned it in the deepest part of my mind, and I am reluctant to share it with others.There was only one time when I was exhausted by longing and wanted to talk to someone, so I asked my former mentor Xiao Lingshu when there was no one after get off work.Although the mentor didn't give him feasible suggestions, his humorous and unconventional optimism and cheerfulness made him calm down a lot.Thinking about it, I feel a little ashamed. I am studying psychology, but I still have to use others to enlighten myself. It can be seen that his knowledge is not deep enough.

What the kid heard...

"That day...you were outside?" Yan Nuo tilted his head in panic, his heart palpitating.

"Yes." Nodding satisfied, Fang Bofan was glad that he remembered.Usually it's just hugging shoulders, but today it feels good to hug her, it's very warm, he likes it.

"I...you...ah!" Yan Nuo pursed his lips in pain, and it was the first time in his life that Yan Nuo bit his tongue while speaking.

"What's wrong?" Fang Bofan anxiously visited with his body tensed up.

"It's all right." Tilting his head to avoid the finger that he intended to caress his upper lip, Yan Nuo forced himself to calm down, and the painful tongue just cooled his mind.In any case, he would never let the child ruin his career on impulse. "Afan, I think...you misunderstood."

"What misunderstanding? Do you want to explain what happened downstairs just now?" The scene of Yan Nuo embracing and laughing with the unknown boy came into his mind, and Fang Bofan squinted his eyes.

"Downstairs?" He wanted to correct the child's thoughts and behavior, what's wrong with downstairs. "It's not what you heard..."

"I can hear you clearly. Since you love me, you can't love others. I'll be jealous." Finally understanding the weird feeling of gurgling in his heart, Fang Bofan tightened his arms in displeasure, and said abruptly.

"Eating...jealous? What kind of jealousy?" Yan Nuo realized that the two of them might not be thinking about the same topic when his words were cut off.

"Hold him." Fang Bofan thought he was being sloppy on purpose, and leaned close to his ear, teasing him with a tease.When the unknown boy was mentioned, Yan Nuo's expressionless expression neutralized the acid bubbles in his heart, the effect was no less than pouring sodium hydroxide into sulfuric acid.

"Him?" Yan Nuo, who had worked so hard to calm down, was warmed up by his unguarded actions, and Yan Nuo thought dizzily for a long time, and finally remembered. "Oh, that's a student doing psychological counseling. Hey, I'm in the same department as you, a freshman."

"That's why you hug him?" It's better not to explain, but Fang Bofan's heart burned when he heard the explanation.You can cuddle with him casually.

"No." Hearing his gloomy and depressed tone, Yan Nuo resisted, and had to work hard to keep the distance from each other too close. "He is just an enlightened student. He has a slight autistic tendency, doesn't like to socialize with others, and has no friends. He can accept my hug today, and finally he no longer rejects others. The child also approached me proactively, which shows that he is It is a good sign to overcome alienation from strangers. I..."

"You treat every student so... meticulous?" Cutting off his words, Fang Bofan still didn't like it.

"Huh?" Thinking carefully, Yan Nuo nodded. "Almost. If Yang really guides them, the tiny and detailed link is the best entry point."

"What about me? I'm also one of them?" You're sick, he's eating, and Yan Nuo is still talking about what's in it or not.What's more, he remembered clearly that he never took the initiative to find Yan Nuo.

"You...you..." Qiqi Aiai, Yan Nuo tried to move from his knees to the sofa.Being held like a doll by a boy, he was disgraced again.

"You said you loved me." Seeing him dodging, Fang Bofan suddenly roared, his face darkening.

"That's..." Before the words of misunderstanding came out, he was defeated by Waterloo again.

"It doesn't matter, you love me, and I love you too. Let's be a couple." Hastily interrupted him, Fang Bofan grabbed the white.

"Couples?" Yan Nuo was startled.

"Yes." Putting aside the few mouthfuls of vinegar that he ate just now, Fang Bofan hugged forcefully, and kissed Yan Nuo's red cheeks at will.Since someone took the initiative to care about him and love him, why didn't he accept it; besides, he didn't hate this person, so he accepted it and fell in love with Luo at the same time.

"No." After being stunned for a moment by his sudden kiss, Yan Nuo yelled.At the same time, he stepped up his strength and jumped out of his arms. "I am male."

"It doesn't matter." Frightened by his angry expression, Fang Bofan came back to his senses for a while.It really doesn't matter to him whether it's a man or a woman, as long as he likes it, doesn't it?

"I don't care." His cynical tone angered him, and Yan Nuo roared angrily. "What does it mean that I love you and you love me too? What does it mean that it doesn't matter? Do you know what it means to be a couple? I like you and care about you, that's because my career has developed a stereotype. And you The reason why you like me is simply a fledgling mentality, treating the first creature you see when you open your eyes as your mother. You just touch someone who cares about you, that is touch, not love, understand?"

Knowing that the child had an unfortunate family life since he was a child, the mother was indifferent to each other, and the father had been sailing overseas for many years, so when someone expressed active concern for the child, the child thought that he was full of love for the person who cared for him.This... is no different from a chick that just came out of its shell.He was the first person to get close to him, and gave all his long-suppressed emotions to No.1, and mistakenly thought that he fell in love with this person who opened the door of emotion for him.

It's a pity, if Yan Nuo didn't study psychology, Fang Bofan's sudden confession would definitely be overrated, no less than the millionaire prize.However, by chance, he not only studies psychology, but also likes to analyze the superficial speech and actions of human beings to explore the deep-seated desires of human beings.It is indeed quite interesting to be able to study the primitive desires and social adaptations of the biological group Homo sapiens.Therefore, he did not think that the "love" that Fang Bofan said was his love for him.The child just regarded him as a carrier of emotional sustenance, impulsively thinking that it was love for him.Actually not.

Even he himself failed to understand how his love for this child came about.How could he mislead this child for his own selfishness.

Rejection is the best way.