Hanyu's dream of rebirth

Just when he figured everything out, the space seemed to freeze, the air stopped flowing, the thick fog slowly dissipated, the dark light became brighter, and the cold temperature became warmer. He opened his eyes again, and the surrounding The all-white color made him dazed for a moment, and then he realized that he should be lying in the hospital at this time.

Turning his head sideways, An Keru saw Jin Zaizhong lying on the side of the hospital bed in a light sleep, his eyes suddenly softened, and the corners of his mouth raised up uncontrollably. He guessed right, and he loved him right. This person seems to be real. A person worthy of being loved by myself, he did not give up on himself, he did not shrink back, he really loved himself, he made the right bet.

In the future, what should I do...

In a daze, he opened his eyes dimly.

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Since An Keru woke up, Jin Zaizhong came to visit early every day, and every time he brought a pot of tonic soup, which made An Keru feel distressed and moved. He knew that Jin Zaizhong was actually very busy recently, but Jin Zaizhong I insist on making soup for myself every day, because I have no free time during the day, so I only rush to come here very early in the morning. As a result, Jin Jaejoong's work and rest are not normal, he goes to bed late at night, and has to be so early in the morning Wake up, now Jin Zaizhong looks thinner again, although he is in good spirits, but An Keru loves him very much.

"Brother Zaizhong, have you been busy lately?" An Ke was half lying on the hospital bed, looking at Jin Zaizhong, his eyes were full of love, with hidden reluctance and pain.

Jin Zaizhong looked at him and smiled, "Fortunately, because it is the first month of the new year, there are more shows to be on, and there are more people participating in the scene everywhere, but it is quite exciting and fun."

"Oh, that's very tiring, isn't it? When Zaizhong is so busy, Brother Zaizhong still cooks soup and breakfast for me every day. I'm so happy." An Keru said with a smile.

Jin Jaejoong just laughed, but he suppressed the tears that were about to pop out sadly in his heart, suppressing the urge to hug An Keru's thin body fiercely, he took a deep breath secretly.

His lover, in order not to worry himself, didn't even tell himself that something serious had happened to his body, and forced a smile on his face, smiling like a normal person. Does he know what kind of disease he is suffering from? ? !Does he know how terrible this disease is? !Does he know what kind of situation he will face if it is a few months later? !How difficult is the operation for advanced brain tumors? The doctor clearly said that there is only less than [-]% to [-]% chance. If... If the operation is not successful, he will die, he will die!Every time Jin Jaejoong thinks of this, it feels like a knife is cutting his flesh in his heart, he really wants to punch this idiot hard!

"Brother Zaizhong, you don't have to come so early tomorrow, I still want to sleep well." An Keru blinked mischievously, stuck out her tongue, and looked at Jin Zaizhong, coquettishly.

Jin Zaizhong suppressed the thoughts in his heart, calmly scooped up the stewed soup and put it into the bowl, he was stunned for a moment when he heard the words, and then he knew the intention of An Keru, looked at An Keru for a while, and then smiled lightly, "Okay Ah, I won't come tomorrow, but actually..." After a pause, Jin Zaizhong frowned, hesitating in embarrassment, and said in a low voice, "But, we have to go to Japan tomorrow. , I'm afraid I really can't come to see you."

An Ke stunned for a moment, stunned, then relieved, and chuckled, "Brother Zaizhong, don't act like this, as if you are unhappy, you have developed very well in Japan, and the market is huge, so you can't just give up and throw it away. Oh, I'm fine, it's just that I can't come to see me, we can still make phone calls and surf the Internet, hehe, it's just that I can't see you off, it's a pity."

"But, I can't bear you. You are like this. I can't stay by your side. It's really..." Jin Zaizhong pinched the porcelain bowl in his hand, panicking in his heart. He knew it was work and the company's arrangement. He didn't method, not to mention not delaying other members because of him alone, he can't be so selfish.But he just felt blocked!It's because he has no choice, it's because he can't do anything, he can't accompany or take care of his beloved one who has a car accident or cancer. Consolation, but...he still has to let his lover smile and comfort himself and say it's okay, and let himself work hard, don't worry about him, this is his Jin Jaejoong's incompetence!

He hated himself for being powerless, hating himself for being so weak and incapable of making decisions.When he first heard the news of going to Japan, he subconsciously wanted to resist the rejection, but when he thought about the development and future of other members, he hesitated again.

He's sorry for An Keru, and now An Keru still hasn't told himself that he has cancer. Isn't it because he doesn't want to delay his future and make himself worry?In order not to distract himself, how much pressure did An Keru bear in his heart?He knew, but he was powerless and could only accept An Keru's kindness and deceit. Sometimes at night without An Keru's company, he would have the idea and urge to elope with An Keru and leave everything behind. He doesn't want to care about anything, he doesn't want to care about anything, as long as An Keru is doing well, he is willing to do anything.

But reason suppressed these unrealistic thoughts.

"It doesn't matter. I know you are very sad in Zhongge, and I can't bear you, but we don't just live for each other, don't we? We also have other meanings of existence. I want to be in Zhongge for my own. Live with ideals and dreams, I want to see the dazzling and dazzling Brother Zaizhong, don’t ruin Brother Zaizhong’s talent because of me, or I will become a sinner.” An Keru couldn’t help but want to drop Tears, but said with a smile, the red eyes made Jin Zaijoong a little distressed.

He let go of the things in his hands, hugged An Keru's thin body, and kissed An Keru's forehead and cheek sideways, "I'm sorry, I'm not a good lover, Keru, you will be fine, right?"

"Of course, of course I'll be fine. I'm not alone now. I still have brother Zaizhong. Don't worry." An Ke was stunned for a moment, his thoughts changed, and he suddenly realized that Jin Zaizhong must know his illness. Otherwise, I wouldn't tell myself these things, and I wouldn't look so painful, but it's good to know.

Closing his eyes, An Keru was immersed in this kind of comfort and happiness. He really wanted to live like this for a lifetime, but tears fell quietly.

He thought, holding back the tears, but still laughing, the pain and sadness in his heart can only be hidden, this feeling is so fucking uncomfortable!However, no matter how reluctant each other is, he can only smile and say, let Jin Zaizhong feel at ease, let Jin Zaizhong have no worries.

Well, he's actually a good lover, right?Look, he thinks of his lover wholeheartedly!An Keru comforted himself, smiling all over his face, how could Kim Jaejoong give up on such a good lover?So, they are destined to be together, who made Kim Jaejoong like him?

Pressing a kiss on Jin Zaizhong's trembling lips, An Ke leaned in his arms like comforting, enjoying the rare peace and quiet at this moment.Even if we know we have to separate, we both know each other's intentions.

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Gosh!Calvin's gone! ! !so sad...