young and frivolous

"Get up, I'll go," Zhixian said when he saw his mother and stepfather coming in, "Mom, don't go, I'm fine, I'll be back soon, I just have a fever and play around."

"Don't go." The stepfather also said.

"Don't go either." Zhixian looked at his stepfather and said.

The stepfather thought for a while, then nodded.

On the second day in the hospital, Xiaoyan, Xiaobai and Li Zhiyu came.

When they saw Chen Chen, no one said a word, but the three went directly to beat Chen Chen in a tacit understanding.If Zhixian hadn't pulled out the needle he was infusion and the nurses were dead, Chen Chen would probably have to be hospitalized this time.

"Are you still a fucking human?" Xiaobai scolded, "You still fucking say that Zhixian is your younger brother every day?! Damn, why didn't you fight back!"

"Shut up!" Zhi Xian's voice was not loud, but several people could hear it.

"Zhixian, are you okay?" Xiaoyan asked concerned, "Hanhan went to Guangdong, you know?"

Zhi Xian really didn't know, but at this moment he didn't have the heart to think about those issues.

"Don't blame Chen Chen, it was my fault last night, I seduced him." Zhi Xian said weakly, because of a fever, Zhi Xian seldom eats in the past few days, and he almost lost the strength to speak .

"Zhixian, don't excuse him anymore!" After Li Zhiyu said this, he quickly shut up and walked behind Xiaobai. Maybe he felt that he was the least qualified person to say this!

Zhi Xian laughed, no one could figure out what exactly he was laughing at.

"I'm fine, really, it's just a fever. I'm so happy to see you guys fighting. I've never seen you fight before, ha ha." Zhi Xian smiled helplessly.

"Stop talking, we've all seen your case." Xiao Bai said.

"Okay, I want to have a quiet meeting, is that okay?" Zhi Xian was giving the order to evict the guests.

"Come out, let's talk." Xiaoyan pulled Chen Chen and said.

After they all went out, Zhixian stared at the ceiling and muttered something in a daze, which couldn't be heard clearly.

"Can you give me a reason?" Xiao Bai stared at Chen Chen and asked.

"No reason, I love him." Chen Chen said briefly.

"Does he love you? Is he willing to have sex with you? Do you know that you have a girlfriend?" Xiao Bai shouted in an atmosphere.

"You can do this just because you love him? Then I love him too, can I do it too?" Li Zhiyu said this so that people can't figure out what it means.

"Fuck you, what do you mean?" Xiaoyan scolded Li Zhiyu as soon as she heard him say that.

"I..." Before Li Zhiyu could say anything, Zhixian came out with a hanging bottle and said, "I'm going to the bathroom, someone help me." Even Xiaoyan rushed ahead this time, but They were all blocked by Chen Chen.

"I'll go and explain to them." Zhi Xian said in the toilet.

"No, they didn't misunderstand anything, it's my fault," Chen Chen said, "I love you, I can still bear this matter, trust me, I will handle it properly."

Zhixian smiled, maybe he was laughing at himself.

Zhi Xian lay back on the bed again, and the few of them were still talking outside.

Zhi Xian closed his eyes, he didn't want to think about anything, in his opinion, he needs to lie down quietly by himself now, without using his brain.He didn't expect that the few of them knew what happened that night so quickly. Did he underestimate Xiaobai's ability? !What's the point of saying this now?

"What are you going to do?" Li Zhiyu asked Chen Chen.

"I love him, and I will be responsible for him to the end." Chen Chen replied calmly.

"You are responsible for your mother?! How can you be responsible?" Xiaobai scolded, "Does Zhixian love you? He doesn't like you at all!"

"That's right, don't talk about being responsible, how Zhixian can face you in the future is another matter!" Xiaoyan said, "Isn't it a little late to say being responsible now? Why did you go earlier?!"

"I'm not in your so-called circle, but I know what it's like in your circle." Xiaobai said, "To me, Zhixian is a very good and rare friend. , no matter what, I don’t want my relationship with him to become embarrassing in the future, and so do you, I hope you can handle it properly! We won’t say anything else, you can figure it out yourself!”

"I will." Chen Chen said lonely.

In fact, fever is not a serious illness, but Zhixian's is a bit special, because the wound was not treated in time, and there was a little infection, but fortunately, he stayed in the hospital for three days, and was discharged on the fourth day.

It was still Chen Chen who sent Zhi Xian home, Xiaobai and the others all came that day, and they left after sending Zhi Xian to Chen Chen's car.

As soon as I arrived at the door, there was a burst of aroma.Mother is stewing pork ribs, which is Zhixian's favorite dish.Chen Chen led Zhi Xian's things and stood behind, Zhi Xian was opening the door.

The mother came out of the kitchen when she heard the sound, and said, "Wait a little longer, the food will be ready soon. Let Chen Chen stay and eat together!"

"Ah, auntie, no, I'd better go back." Chen Chen said politely and a little guilty, he was afraid that Zhi Xian's mother would know about it.

"Stay here, I'll tell you something after dinner." Zhi Xian's mother insisted.

Now Chen Chen was even more confused.For Chen Chen, this meal was too chewy to taste.

After dinner, my mother simply cleared the table and called Chen Chen to the study.Bored, Zhixian went back to his bedroom to surf the Internet, while his stepfather went to take a lunch break.

About an hour later, Zhi Xian sensed that someone came in, and looked up, it was Chen Chen.

"My mother knows, right?" Zhi Xian said with a smile, "It doesn't matter, she must be very disappointed in me."

"Zhixian, I'm sorry." Chen Chen said in a low voice.

"It's okay, anyway, my mother never had any hope for me, no matter how good my grades are, no matter how obedient I am, she will always look like that, and I'm used to it." Zhixian said indifferently, "Go, Leave me alone."

Chen Chen wanted to say something more, but when he saw Zhi Xian's firm eyes, he decided to go back first and talk to him when he had a chance.

Zhixian spent the whole afternoon surfing the Internet in the bedroom, and then he was really tired. He took out his wallet and looked at a photo of his father when he was young. Still holding a cigarette, smiling and looking ahead. . .This is still a black and white photo. At that time, my father was still young and handsome.Looking at Zhixian's eye sockets became moist unconsciously.

If you were still here, I think I might not be what I am now.Zhixian thought in his heart.

The dinner mother cooks is very simple. In her opinion, dinner should not be too much or too rich. This is her consistent cooking habit.

"Zhixian, tell me yourself." Mother said seriously.

"What did you say?" Zhixian looked at his mother innocently, "Since you already know, why are you asking me? Is it interesting?"

"I just want to hear you give me an explanation!" Mother said coldly.

"You don't need it!?" Zhi Xian retorted.

After hearing these words, the mother stood up without hesitation and slapped Zhixian across the face.

This time Zhi Xian was beaten, he never thought that his mother would beat him.

"Calm down, calm down!" the stepfather yelled. "What are you doing? Will you solve the problem by hitting him?"

Zhixian looked at his stepfather coldly, at this moment, in Zhixian's opinion, his stepfather must have told his mother about this matter, and he must know that his mother will never let this matter go , and will not forgive Zhixian.Then why did he tell his mother?Is it because you are not your own?But he said that he would treat himself like his own son if he didn't have a son? !

Zhi Xian couldn't figure it out, but he felt that half of his face was numb, looking at his mother without any emotion.

"I want you to tell me why yourself." My mother was still chasing after her.

"Don't you feel that this is unnecessary?" Zhi Xian replied with a sneer.

Another slap came over, Zhixian didn't dodge, he felt that something had flowed into his mouth, it was fishy, ​​he wiped it with his hand, it was blood.

Zhi Xian laughed, insolently, tears fell down involuntarily while smiling.He walked to the kitchen very calmly, and calmly picked up the kitchen knife that his mother often used. . .

"If you have the ability, you kill me!" Zhi Xian put the kitchen knife on the dining table expressionlessly.

Mother picked up the kitchen knife and chopped it directly on the table.He said fiercely: "What do you mean? I can't control you anymore, can I?! Did I treat you badly? What shameful things you have done yourself, things that violate ethics and morals, I can't control you Did you?!"

"Yes, you are kind to me and care about me, hehe," Zhixian said with a sneer, "No matter what grades I get in the exam, you always have the same expression. In order to please you, I study hard, but you are so good. What's the use of grades? Have you said a good word once? Yes, you care about me, look at the shoes you bought for me! Tell me, which one fits?! Look at the clothes you bought for me! Which One for me to wear to fit?!"

"You're still reasonable, aren't you!" Mother was about to reach out to hit her again, but Zhi Xian didn't dodge, but went straight to meet her.

"Hit! Hit hard!" Zhixian yelled frantically, "You care about me, you have never been to a parent meeting, you care about me, but you don't know what I need! Is this your concern?!"

After finishing speaking, Zhi Xian went to his bedroom without turning back, buried his head deeply in the quilt, and burst into tears.For so many years, no matter what happened to him, he endured it silently by himself.

He is used to this kind of suffering alone, but he is also afraid of this loneliness!

It is this kind of feeling that makes him unwilling to rely on his family too much. It is also because of this feeling that he feels that he owes others too much outside, and he can't figure out what it is. .