the moon in the attic

Han Yu was quite drunk, and fell asleep after saying that sentence, the pain was so painful that Yan Yang's slightly rapid breathing could only be heard in the car.

Yan Yangfu leaned on the steering wheel, thinking that he too was in pain.

He felt that he was trying to die, convulsed, and still refused to let go at this time, which made Han Yu so uncomfortable, but he really didn't want to have that kind of love again.

Han Yu said that he could still see the scene of breaking up in a blink of an eye. He knew that Han Yu had no choice but to let go, but when Han Yu let go, who could be as sad as Yan Yang.

When he opened his eyes, he felt he saw Yan Haichuan, Chen Jingru, Yan Wei, and Lin Yang, but he turned his eyes away, and saw Han Yu's hand hanging by his side.

Moving his gaze up, he saw the face that he missed day and night, the person he had missed for so many years.

After a long time, Yan Yang tightly closed his eyes, thinking, "I can't control that much anymore."

He got out of the car and went around, took Han Yu from the co-pilot and put it on his back, and said in a low voice, "If you dare to let go again, I really don't want you."

Han Yu must have not heard what he said, and he was paralyzed on his back, so heavy that Yan Yang couldn't straighten up.

Fortunately, there was an elevator, Yan Yang pressed the elevator according to the floor Gao Chen said, turned his head and called Han Yu, "Wake up."

Han Yu didn't respond, Yan Yang called him symbolically, and walked out with him on his back as soon as the elevator stopped.

The place where Han Yu lived was a fingerprint lock. Yan Yang put one hand behind his back and put his arms around Han Yu's waist, and took his right hand with the other to try them one by one.

The right hand didn't open, so I changed the left hand.

Yan Yangzheng pulled his left hand, and Han Yu woke up drunk, "Huh?"

Yan Yang patted his hand angrily, "Well, what, open the door, I can't carry you on my back."

Han Yu talked too much just now, maybe he used up his vocabulary, and now he can't understand the words again, he only knows to hold Yan Yang's shoulder hard.

Yan Yang simply stopped asking him, and took his left hand again, ready to try one by one.

It’s okay if Han Yu is obedient, but he is not very obedient when he is drunk. Seeing Yan Yang pulling his hand, he retracted it. Yan Yang couldn’t carry him on his back at all. to the ground.

Only then did Han Yu wake up, turned over and sat up, and wanted to hug Yan Yang in a panic.

Yan Yang immediately thought of Han Yu who was drunk back then.

At that time, the two of them couldn't get a taxi, and he took Han Yu back home half-supported and half-carrying like today, but Yinghui Road was far from being so bright back then, and Han Yu's stature was far from being so long.

There was a long period of separation between them, and each of them grew into the adults they had been looking forward to at that time, and then staggered one day and fell back to the past.

Yan Yang sat on the floor, with his back against the door, and asked in a low voice, "Are you awake?"

Han Yu sat on one side, his eyes were full of red threads, "I don't know."

Yan Yang turned his head to look at him, "I don't know?"

Han Yu blinked, stretched out his hand hesitantly, but retracted when he was about to touch Yan Yang, he repeated several times with trembling hands, and finally pulled Yan Yang's hand.

Yan Yang didn't move, and Han Yu pulled him without saying a word.

The voice-activated lights in the corridor went out, and there was silence, except for two beating hearts.

Han Yu pulled Yan Yang for a while, and asked softly, "Are you still leaving?"

This is the only good thing about the new community, the lighting is quick, and the hall will brighten up with the slightest movement.

Yan Yang looked at Han Yu's cautious look, he seemed drunk even though he hadn't drunk, "Didn't you go first?"

It's okay not to talk, but I couldn't stand it anymore after I started this conversation.

He sat up straight, "You let go first, you talk about breaking up first, you have thought about what you said, why are you pushing it on me now?"

The second half of his words were already steamy, and his voice was trembling, "You are the one who is difficult, the one who can't hold on, the one who is great, if you are really for my own good, and you really don't want to part with me, can't you wait any longer!"

He took his hand out of Han Yu's hand and asked Han Yu in a hoarse voice, "Why?"

Why did he justify this sentence? He asked Han Yu, himself, and all the people and things that prevented them from being together back then.He also spread all his grievances over the years to the surface.

Han Yu was pushed away by him, and panicked to coax him, his voice was equally hoarse, "It was me, I let go first, and I drove you away."

Yan Yang leaned back against the door again, looked up at the flickering lights in the corridor, and said softly, "Coward."

Han Yu admitted the accusation, sobered up to eight minutes, and sat beside Yan Yang.

Their outstretched legs took up half of the corridor, and Han Yu recalled that time in the attic, Yan Yang said, "Compare whose legs are longer."

As the man said so, he stepped on another place, which made Han Yu react, and teased him again, "Why are you so angry?"

At that time Yan Yang was with him, always smiling.

Yan Yang had very few worries, and never lost his temper with Han Yu. When they were together, it seemed that Han Yu was coaxing him all the time, but in fact, Yan Yang was always accommodating Han Yu.

The young master who has been hugged by others since he was a child, in order to spend more time with Han Yu, he also eats hot noodles with clear soup and little water, lives in an attic without a fan, and sells the precious bicycle that he rides everywhere.

When the two quarreled over this matter, it was Yan Yang who lowered his head first, and even when he was so angry, he could ask in a soft voice, "Aren't you coaxing me?"

In the saddest few days, Yan Yang ran into Fenghuali with a load of luggage, clamoring to elope with Han Yu, but in fact, he was afraid that he would not be able to see him, so Han Yu let go.

But he watched so closely that Han Yu also broke up.

Han Yu thought, what Yan Yang said was right, he is a complete coward, far less brave than Yan Yang.

Han Yu also leaned back against the door, his shoulders sticking to Yan Yang, "baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and Han and one who doesn't like it.

Yan Yang responded, "En."

"I..." Han Yu started, and then said after a long pause, "Actually, at that time, from when we were together to when we parted, there was not a single day when I really kept my heart in my stomach."

He just used this sentence, and he said that Yan Yang was covered with cuts, and the blood in his whole body was cold.

Han Yu didn't realize it, and became calm instead.

This is completely different from the calm and self-possessed he was when he was in school. At that time, no matter how he could hold it, that is, a boy of seventeen or eighteen years old, his eyes would tremble first when encountering something that would blush.

Now that I have experienced a lot, it has really become the appearance that I couldn't pretend to be in the past.

"When I wasn't with you, I just looked at you, and I didn't think about chasing you one day. I just thought this person was good, and I took it to heart."

"After getting in touch with you later, I couldn't suppress my thoughts. I also restrained them, but it didn't work. I felt that I was wishful thinking. Who would have thought that I would really think about it."

Han Yu spoke very slowly, "I also want to not think about anything, but as long as I live in that house, I can't help but think about it. Every morning when I open my eyes, I find it difficult."

"It's not that I haven't thought about changing, but no matter how far I go, I will be pulled back. I can only get used to it. I will drag you down when I am with you. At that time, I knew that you sold the car and killed Han Zhiyong. There is."

"At that time, you celebrated your birthday. I worked part-time at Cheng Zhuona and got a commission of 5 yuan. My first thought was to buy you the car back."

Han Yu smiled lightly when he said this, as if he was laughing at himself, "But within a night, I calmed down, because I still owe Li Dai a sum of money, I have to support my grandma, and I have to save tuition fees. Ten thousand yuan...too little."

Yan Yang turned his head to look at him, and the two of them met their eyes. Yan Yang said, "Brother Han Han, stop talking."

Han Yu rolled his eyes, "I'm too materialistic, too realistic, aren't I?"

Yan Yang opened his mouth, before he had time to say anything, Han Yu continued, "I want you to have no pressure all the time, and I want to give you a lot of good things, but I really didn't have the ability at that time, you are right, I am cowardly, so I dare not insist."

Han Yu is already 28 years old, he has grown up long ago, ahead of the embarrassment of the year, but still feels like a stick in his throat, "All the things I worry about, I just watch them happen like this, there is nothing I can do about it."

Yan Yang was told by him as if he had hundreds of fine needles buried in his lungs, which made him suffocate.

He angrily said that Han Yu was a coward, but in fact he was even weaker than Han Yu, and because of Han Yusong's retaliation, he was too scared to go any further.

At that time, he hated Han Yu to the core and felt that he was too heartless. After Yan Yang told him so much, he still wanted to break up.

He also hated himself to the core, he selfishly made everyone worry about him, and even kidnapped Han Yu without authorization, Han Yu would be strangled by him even if he wanted to separate.

He is far inferior to Han Yu. He is arrogant and arrogant. He doesn't care when it comes to love. He thinks he is omnipotent, but in fact he can't do anything.

What Han Yu needs to face, what he himself needs to face, every single thing, cannot be solved by 18-year-old Yan Yang alone.

In fact, he regretted it a long time ago, and now listening to Han Yu digging out his heart and soul to tell him what he thought in those years, he doesn't feel happy at all.

He has long admitted that he has been angry all these years, and those things in those years are nothing to bring out now, their wings have already hardened.

Yan Yang sat up and gave Han Yu another hand.

Han Yu put his doubts on it, stood up, and looked at Yan Yang with a good look.

Yan Yang asked, "Do you still want to be with me?"

Han Yu's eyes were red, and he couldn't speak, so he just nodded vigorously.

Yan Yang looked at him with a smile, his eyes became wet as he watched, "Then why don't you coax me?"

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Happy Mid-Autumn Festival everyone