the moon in the attic

After Han Yu finished speaking, there was no more sound in the room.

They are like two small boats side by side in the port, without freedom, they can only wait silently.

It was the time when the light was brightest in the afternoon, the attic was stuffy, Yan Yang was sweating a little, Han Yu sat beside him, and only looked at him a few times at the beginning.

They sat until the moon rose and set, and sat until the morning light came in, and no one spoke.

Yan Yang didn't sleep all night, Yan Yang's hair was a little messy, and the dark circles under his eyes were particularly obvious.

His legs were a little numb from sitting, so he stretched his legs and stood up while leaning on the edge of the bed.

He was very tall and couldn't straighten his waist at all, so he could only bend aggrievedly.

Han Yu looked up at him.

Yan Yang lowered his head and stared at Han Yu, still speaking very softly, like he used to, "Have you thought about it yet?"

Han Yu said, "Think about it."

Yan Yang stood for a while, and then spoke with a hoarse voice, "Han Yu, let me ask you one last time, have you made up your mind?"

He looked very fragile, Han Yu stared at his chin with a little stubble, his thoughts wandered, he thought, doesn't it mean that if you grow a beard, you are an adult.

Why is it so difficult for adults.

Han Yu said, "Yan Yang, let's break up."

Yan Yang nodded, "If you want to separate, break up with me, then you won't have a chance to be with me again."

He sternly said harsh words that made him feel uncomfortable, trying to make Han Yu change his mind, but Han Yu said, "Baa, I'm sorry."

Yan Yang watched him for a long time, then turned and left.

The last words he said to Han Yu came over the creak of the wooden floor when he went downstairs, he said, "I don't want to see you again."

After Yan Yang left, Han Yu made two calls, one to Cheng Zhuo and the other to Li Dai.

Li Dai came as fast as he could, the door was unlocked, and Han Yu was sitting in the attic in a daze, staring at the half-packed luggage.

Li Dai tentatively asked, "Yan Yang is gone?"

Han Yu said, "Let's go."

Li Dai walked over and sat down, "Are you really going to sell the house?"

"Yeah." Han Yu nodded.

"But Han Zhiyong's name is on the house book," Li Dai said, "he may not agree."

"He will," Han Yu said, "he needs money."

Li Dai nodded, "I will help you pay attention in the next few days."

Han Yu said softly, "Thank you brother."

He kept his head down when he spoke, Li Dai sighed, "Are you really willing to part with Yan Yang?"

Only then did Han Yu raise his head to look at Li Dai, and said bluntly, "I can't bear it."

Li Dai: "Then you..."

"Yan Yang is leaving too," Han Yu smiled self-deprecatingly, "and I'm here, he will never be able to feel better."

"Then what about your school?" Li Dai asked.

"Let's suspend school first," Han Yu said, "I don't have the energy to go back to school now."

Li Dai had a lot of questions today, "Have you discussed it with your cousin?"

When Han Yu said on the phone that he was going to sell the house, Li Dai was actually very supportive. Han Yu was forced to this point, and there seemed to be no other better way than to leave with his grandma.

Let him figure out what happened to Han Zhiyong, and if he drags him down, Han Yu will never be able to turn around in his life.

"Let him rent a house for me," Han Yu said, "Grandma can't follow me around."

Li Dai didn't ask any more questions, sat with him for a while and left.

Cheng Zhuo came the next day, and the old lady was as quiet as a bottle of ornaments, letting others arrange her.

After sending grandma away, Han Yu sold everything that could be sold in the house, and threw away everything that could not be sold.

After all, this home has become a house with nothing,

Han Yu sat in the empty attic in a daze, hearing all kinds of auditory hallucinations.

The woman's cry, Han Zhiyong's beating and scolding, grandma's obstruction, the debt collector's snatching and smashing, and finally Yan Yang cried, "I don't feel any pain at all."

Han Yu raised his hand and touched his heart, he thought, how could it not hurt.

But after all, no one can keep this narrow attic.

After Yan Yang returned home, he locked himself in his room for a few days. On the first day of school, Yan Haichuan came up and knocked on his door. This time, Yan Yang didn't lose his temper and obediently followed him down.

Yan Yang refused to speak, and Yan Haichuan's suppressed anger seemed to rise, but he turned off the fire after seeing the gauze on Yan Yang's forehead, and asked Yan Yang, "When are you going to make trouble?"

Yan Yang said, "I didn't make trouble."

"You didn't make trouble?" Yan Haichuan raised his hand and rubbed the center of his brows, "Yan Yang, how old are you? Because of you, everyone's life is in turmoil. Don't tell me you don't feel anything at all."

Yan Yang remained silent.

He even took some time to think about it. He had been with Han Yu for a long time, and at some point he began to learn to solve problems with silence.

"You said you didn't make trouble, so is the result what you want to see now?" Yan Haichuan said, "I want to ask you, is there only one person in your heart now?"

Yan Yang opened his mouth to refute, but couldn't say a word.

Yan Haichuan is right, because of his affairs, everyone's life is in a mess.

Chen Jingru couldn't sleep the whole night, and she is still sick. With so many things going on in the company, Yan Haichuan never went back.

Everyone, even Han Yu, left because he couldn't do well.

Yan Haichuan knew how to make Yan Yang feel uncomfortable. He said, "Yan Yang, aren't you too naive? You have everything, of course you are not afraid of anything, what about Han Yu?"

Yan Yang stared at him, "What do you mean?"

"You don't have to look at me like this," Yan Haichuan said, "I'm not going to embarrass a student, I just want to tell you that not everyone is like you, and it's the biggest thing to fall in love with, you Go ask Han Yu, is it more important to fall in love, or to live well."

Yan Yang opened his mouth and said without any threat, "If you don't understand him, don't talk nonsense."

Yan Haichuan snorted, "You know him, do you know what he's thinking now? Do you know what he's going to do next?"

"We have already separated, so don't hold on to this matter anymore." Yan Haichuan said, "You will follow me these few days."

Since the incident with Yan Yang, Yan Haichuan has changed from being furious to being helpless now, and I don't know if he has missed a few nights of sleep.

He left after leaving these words, Yan Yang looked at his somewhat collapsed back, and began to agree with Han Yu's words.

He might be really wrong.

He stubbornly thought that as long as he was persistent enough, he could go to the end with the person he liked, but he forgot that he had no courage.

In the eyes of adults, he is a child who needs protection, and in Han Yu's eyes, he is someone Han Yu is reluctant to let him suffer together.

But Yan Yang couldn't help complaining, he thought, why can't he persist.

He wanted to say that you all underestimated me, I am actually very powerful, but in the end, he heard the adults tell him, "When are you going to make trouble", and then watched Han Yu let go of his hand.

Yan Haichuan kept his word and said he would take Yan Yang with him and left.

Yan Yang arrived at the school, signed a few words mechanically, and heard Feng Yujie say, "Class [-] Han Yu came to suspend school yesterday, and the Rockets class lost two champions at once."

Yan Yang had no unnecessary reaction, but felt a little empty in his heart.

He got in the car to the airport, and the weather was unbelievably sunny, which seemed to evaporate all Yan Yang's emotions.

Halfway through the drive, Yan Yang received a call from Gao Chen. Gao Chen said on the phone, "Brother Yu sold the house and sent all your things to me."

Yan Yang was stunned, secretly exerting force on the hand holding the phone.

Looking out from the car window, he could see the pristine blue sky with thick clouds hanging heavily. He looked back and said, "Throw it away."

The car drove past the bustling urban area, leaving Yan Yang's 18-year-old behind.

His passionate, desperate, and relentless likings are not worth mentioning at all, and Han Yu just doesn't want to.

And he no longer has a second 18-year-old.

He is a fool who is strong on the outside and works on the inside, and he persisted until the end, and he has nothing left.