My Tang You

Tang You watched Zhou Quan's car merge into the traffic flow from a distance, like a drop of water melting into a river and never being seen again.

He may have once complained about Zhou Quan, but later felt that the complaint was unreasonable.

He is an adult, so it doesn't make sense to pretend to be a giant baby, to imitate a child, and ask her for love.Everyone has their own life, Zhou Quan has suffered a lot in the past, there is no reason why he cannot live a good life in the future.

As for him, he can only be called his parents.

Cars passing by one after another on the noisy street, Tang You turned and turned back, unilaterally drawing an end to this mother-child relationship.

He went back to the company to pack his things, and the lady next door probably heard the news, and came to him with a face full of disapproval, and asked him, "You can become a full-time employee, why are you resigning at this juncture! I know you don't have to worry about it." Looking for a job, you can’t be so capricious! In terms of salary, which other company can compare to ours?”

Tang You smiled at her.

The young lady felt that it was a pity, but she also felt that there was no way to interfere with other people's thoughts, so she could only talk to him bitterly, "Hey, there are so many people in our company who can't get in, how good you continue to work here. Don't say In addition, once you leave, the average appearance of our office will be pulled down a lot, I am really worried..."

Another colleague answered, "I'm also very sad..."

We have been working together in the same office for more than half a year, asking a few questions about this and that about it, but unfortunately we didn't ask which city Tang You is going to develop in. Within a few minutes, the topic simply went elsewhere.

For example, which drama has exploded, such as which star is getting divorced, such as which pianist recently got engaged——

"Wow, this is the first time I heard that Xu Qinchen's ancestral home is our city A. The Luo family is a medical family, and the youngest daughter is a painter. I heard that she is very talented. It is not easy to buy her a painting."

"Are you also looking at their hot search for engagement? They are both talented and beautiful, so good for each other."

"Wow! Xu Qinchen painted by Luoxiang is really amazing! Why is someone so beautiful, so rich, and able to marry Xu Qinchen?"

"It is because she is so beautiful and so rich that she can marry Xu Qinchen."

"Don't say it, don't say it, it's already sour..."

Colleagues were talking about the engagement between Xu Qinchen and Luo Xiang, but Tang You seemed not interested and didn't respond to it.

He already knew.

Regarding Xu Qinchen's engagement, there were many rumors on the Internet before.He can often find a little trace in Luo Xiang's friend updates.

Last month, Luo Xin got his number from somewhere, so she called him and asked him what happened with Xu Qinchen, and why Xu Qinchen agreed to get engaged to Luo Xiang.

why?

He has no way of knowing, and he doesn't want to know, after all, Xu Qinchen has nothing to do with him.in various senses.

After resigning, there is no free time, Tang You needs to clean up the dormitory and clear out all his things.But he was really tired and didn't have the energy to do these things, so he hired a housekeeping company to help clean up, and stayed away by himself.

The housekeeping is done so meticulously that the dormitory is empty within a day.Except for some old photos that he really didn't want to throw away, he put them in the small building of his hometown, and everything else was cleaned up.

However, there are still bedding, a change of clothes, toothbrushes and so on, which are even cleaner than when he first moved in.

That night Tang You had a dream.

He and one person were walking side by side on the beach. Someone was holding a bonfire party in the distance, laughing and laughing, and the excitement was indescribable.

The wind is blowing quietly, a little gentle.

The man asked: "Why don't you tell him the truth, you miss him so much."

Tang You looked at the dancing bonfire and said, "I don't want him."

The man said, "You don't need to give him evidence to convince him, maybe you just need to tell him."

Tang You shook his head, "It's boring. No one has been looking for anyone for so long, which means that we are not important to each other and can be separated. Besides, he is engaged."

"But you love him."

"I don't love him."

"Don't you want to take revenge on the Xu family? They treated you like that."

"I can't do anything."

"You're just sick, try another medicine and stick to it, okay?"

"No, the medicine doesn't work."

As the bonfire on the shore dimmed, the man finally asked, "Is it really decided?"

The wind stopped at this moment, and Tang You said, "Yes."

The campfire was completely extinguished.

Tang You turned around, trying to see who that person was, but saw his own face.

When I woke up, there was lightning and thunder outside the house, and it was raining.Tang You opened his eyes and listened to the half-night rain, and it was dawn.

This is a beautiful Sunday. After a night of heavy rain, the sky began to clear up. It is the kind of clear blue sky that can make people feel happy at a glance.

This was also the day of Xu Qinchen's engagement banquet.

Before going out, Tang You glanced back at the dormitory where he lived for more than half a year, and gently closed the door.

Feeling a bit craving for something sweet, he went to the store and bought a piece of strawberry cake, which was surprisingly not sweet at all. He ordered another piece of Black Forest cake, but he didn't taste much, so he could only put down the spoon in disinterest.

After that, Tang You wandered aimlessly in the street.A few hours later, he appeared near a villa hotel - that was the venue of Xu Qinchen's engagement banquet - it seems that it is not accurate to say that he was wandering aimlessly, maybe he subconsciously wanted to see it, so he came here unknowingly.

This villa hotel can be regarded as a landmark building in City A. It was built on a hill with an elegant and magnificent style.

At this moment, the sky is sunny, and the buildings are in harmony with all kinds of trees, so beautiful that anyone is willing to stop and stay.

Tang You stopped and walked, walked up and down several escalators, and finally found a satisfactory place and stopped.

At his feet is a jade white staircase with 20 steps. The width of this staircase is [-] meters, straight up and down, and the position is relatively biased.The role of connecting the hotel up and down the road has long been replaced by escalators and winding lanes hidden by trees, and now it is more of a viewing point.

Standing here and looking down, people who are afraid of heights will have weak legs, and those who are not afraid of heights will have a sense of heights.

Tang You sat down on the spot while the wind was blowing, and carefully kept the cat still.

He watched the scenery for a long time, and finally made a phone call to Xu Qinchen by accident.I didn't hold out hope, but I didn't expect it to be connected.

Now that it's connected, let's say a few words, Tang You said, "It's me."

Xu Qinchen on the opposite side: "I know."

How long has it been since I heard this man's voice?Sixteen or seventeen months, I can't remember.

Hearing it again, my heart still hurts to the point of convulsions, which is an exaggeration to think about.

Tang You stuck to the phone and said softly, "Let's meet."

Xu Qinchen: "Okay."

Being able to answer the phone is already unexpected, and agreeing to meet is something Tang You never thought about.

After hanging up the phone, Tang You heard footsteps coming from beside him in a trance. He looked back and saw a pair of shoes two meters away. He looked up and saw Xu Qinchen's face clearly.

Suddenly he seemed unable to breathe.

Xu Qinchen even had a polite smile on his face, "Long time no see."

Tang You's hands and feet were cold, "Long time no see."

Compared with Xu Qinchen's casual and appropriate body language, Tang You stood up a bit unnaturally, but soon, he returned to his normal appearance, "The scenery here is nice, come with me for a walk?"

The two walked down the stairs slowly.

Tang You didn't mention anything about the engagement, he seemed to have no interest in it, he just asked: "When we broke up, I sent you many messages, did you see them?"

Xu Qinchen replied calmly: "I see."

In those messages, Tang You explained throughout, saying that he didn't know what was going on.

But in Xu Qinchen's eyes, everything is lies and sophistry, no matter how the video is analyzed, there is no trace of PS.On the contrary, Tang You's proactive actions couldn't be more real. He even has sunburn marks left by them when they went to Y City.

Tang You lowered his eyelashes, "Then why didn't you reply?"

Xu Qinchen was silent, and this silence revealed a sense of distance that made people unable to get close.

Tang You glanced quickly, and from Xu Qinchen's slightly tensed lips, he read his meaning: Why should I respond to lies?

Tang You said softly: "During that time, I have been waiting, but you didn't respond."

He helped the railing vaguely, and then said: "Xu Qinchen, don't you know that the Xu family wanted us to divide up at that time?"

The atmosphere of chatting with friends as if nothing had happened was broken, revealing the old scars that were not decent and not fully grown.

Xu Qinchen frowned slightly, "I have your video in my hand."

Yes, video.

Seeing is believing, that's right.

Tang You nodded, expressing his understanding: "'You are so active in the video, is that also arranged by the Xu family?' You want to ask this, right?"

Xu Qinchen didn't speak, as if waiting for him to argue.

The atmosphere shifted toward a confrontation.

Tang You smelled this atmosphere, fled away gently, and raised an almost absurd topic at will, "Although today is your engagement banquet, I want to ask you, do you want to get back together with me?"

Xu Qinchen turned to look at Tang You, he opened his mouth, and suddenly realized that he was about to blurt out the word "good".

But Tang You's expression was very casual, as if he asked lightly, "What did you eat today".It can be seen that Tang You is definitely not really seeking to get back together, it is more like a casual question for entertainment.

Xu Qinchen stopped in his tracks and said restrainedly, "No need."

This was the expected answer. Tang You reflexively mobilized his facial muscles and made a smile.

As if he was afraid of being seen in distress, he walked down several steps, then turned his head slightly, and said in a brisk tone: "I'm just kidding you."

Xu Qinchen could see his upturned nose and the slightly raised corners of his lips, but he couldn't see his eyes hidden under the black shattered hair.

I don't know why, at that moment, Xu Qinchen's heart tightened for no reason, and he suddenly realized that he might have read it wrong. The expression on Tang You's face was not casual, and that sentence was not just a casual question.

If not these, then what is it?Xu Qinchen looked at Tang You.

The setting sun struggled for a long time, and finally returned to the light, tied with the clouds that had been blocking it, bursting out brilliant orange-red rays from the gaps in the clouds, pulling Tang You's shadow onto Xu Qinchen one by one.

It's like snuggling.

Tang You turned his head in the afterglow of the setting sun, and smiled at Xu Qinchen, his eyes curved slightly, "I'm a little thirsty. Can you buy me a bottle?"

Xu Qinchen finally did not refuse: "Okay."

Tang You thought for a while, and asked again: "I want strawberry flavor."

Xu Qinchen paused, then replied, "Yes." Then he turned around and went up the stairs.

When the wind blows, the branches and leaves of the trees in the distance are luxuriant, and occasionally a few birdsong escape from it.

It was a very leisurely evening - two couples came here to play, one was thirsty, and the other went to buy some drinks and came back.Maybe they will continue to walk and chat here, or they may go home to eat something because it is getting late, then read a book or play games, and finally take a rest together-it is really a beautiful day just thinking about it.

Tang You stood where he was, watching the wind fill Xu Qinchen's shirt, watching him go further and further away, taking away the scent of lime and smoke in the wind.

"So be it."

He stretched out his hand, and traced the outline of Xu Qinchen carefully, then retracted his fingertips, and fell back.

Everything was silent.

He hated Xu Qinchen countless times for once loving him so deeply, yet he gave up on him without hesitation.

But what about himself?In the end, he just gave up on himself.

Tang You rolled all the way down the remaining 200 steps, leaving little bloodstains behind.

He heard the sound of the wind, the sound of his own bones breaking, and seemed to hear someone calling his name, the sound was really heart-piercing.

The severe pain hit, unbearable.

Fortunately, he thought, there would be no more pain in the future.

Time slowly stagnated, and everything gradually lost its voice.

Finally, Tang You stopped at the end of the stairs, a pool of blood slowly oozing out from under his head.

The setting sun sinks completely, taking away the twilight of midsummer.

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Rewrite date: 21/11/4