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Losing him, I don’t want to lose anything anymore, “Don’t ever care about me.” I hugged him tightly and said at that time, and at that time I knew that one day it would be like what he said, even the complaints between each other Not left, goodbye is just a passerby.
How much love does it take to break my heart?
How much love do you have to be willing to love so that you will no longer miss it?
Only on that day, I had the unprecedented confirmation that he loved me so much, just that day.And we, formed a state of being irrelevant to each other, he played his outside, I played mine, satirizing each other, waiting for the other to turn around and leave, losing nothing.
Most of the time it was just me. Su Chen was still angry with me and didn't come to see me for a long time. Yu Xiao would come and sit down from time to time. I heard from him that their quarrel was very fierce and almost caused a big incident.
I laughed at him, "Can't you let him go? Can't help it this time?" In fact, it looks like Su Chen will take care of him, but in fact, Yu Xiao doesn't care about him more often.
"You don't come here, it's too shameless to gloat." He put out his cigarette and put his hand on my shoulder, "Hey, do you think I should be more aggressive?"
"...What do you mean?" Seeing his bright eyes and sinister smile, I have a bad feeling. Is it doomed to be unlucky to be his friend?
"Don't act like you were raped by me. I haven't said anything yet." He stared at me helplessly. Did I write everything on my face?no?I can only deny with a dry smile.
"You said that if he can't control himself again next time, how about I use force to fix him?"
"...it's kind of like a gamble."
"What do you mean?"
"Maybe it was anti-repaired, don't you think he likes to do this way of solving problems without using his brain?"
"Yes, he likes to fuck."
"...Actually, you think it's good too, don't you?" The topic seriously stretched in another direction.
"... Do you think personality or something is contagious?"
"It will be affected after a long time." I frightened him. In fact, their personalities are quite complementary. Yu Xiao belongs to the kind that I said is ugly, but I won't be really angry if he makes a serious mistake. He is more aggressive and straightforward.
As for Su Chen, he is the kind of person who insists on keeping things in mind even if he doesn't say them. He likes to think about every outcome before making a decision.
Hearing what I said, Yu Xiao suddenly looked at the sky at a 45° angle, showing a handsome and charming profile, "It's over, will I be influenced by him to like women one day?"
"...I don't think this is going to work. After so many years, you are still bent to the end as always, but it's hard to say whether Su Chen's sex with men was influenced by you."
"No, it just means that nothing is straight and firm about him." He shook his finger and patted my shoulder, "Xu Chun, why do I feel that your mind has turned bad recently?"
"I'm taking supplements." He told a cold joke, just as the bartender approached mysteriously, knowing our relationship, he didn't deliberately avoid speaking,
"Someone is looking for it again, and now more and more people want this."
"I see."
Yu Xiao glanced at the mysterious expression on the bartender's face, "Is anyone thinking about high medicine?"
"You know all this? Have you ever played?"
He raised his middle finger at me contemptuously, "Is there anything I don't know about this, haven't you seen a piglet and eaten a piglet?" This sounds really awkward, did he really say that?
"Do you know anyone who does this?"
"Want to do it?" He raised his eyebrows, making me feel guilty.
"what."
"It's not impossible, how can there be no such thing in the current nightclub." He whispered close to me, "Do you still remember Cheng Lang?"
101. Xu Chunpian is Just a Friend ([-])
"That tall and skinny circus?" It's hard not to remember, this person has always looked at me annoyed, "What is he doing now?"
"What do you think? Why does Su Chen seldom contact him?" He glanced at me, and he didn't like Cheng Lang's appearance very much.
"It's not that you don't like him mixing with Cheng Lang and the others?"
"Do you believe it?" He pursed his lips, and made a contemptuous look with his hand holding the cigarette, "He knew it in his heart and used me as a cover." He turned the bar chair and faced me, "If you want to do this , I can help you find him, but don't tell Su Chen."
When he said that, I was a little skeptical, whether he knew the one-way thing, but it was not like him, if he knew, he would have said it long ago.
"why?"
"It's impossible for him to be willing to let you do this business. He will probably turn against me."
"Are you still afraid that he will turn against you?" I rolled his eyes at him, although I said that Su Chen was unreasonable for a while, but it will be fine after a while.
"You don't understand, I found that people have a particularly good memory, and they always remember those bad things clearly." He said, turning to look at the crowd on the dance floor, the background music made his voice sound very Fuzzy, "How many feelings can withstand the constant quarrel, and one day it will be polished, thinking of it is a thorn in my heart."
I started to be dazed again, thinking about what he said carefully, yes, I really can't stand the noise, isn't that what Qi Sheng and I are like?I thought it was fine if I quarreled, but in fact, why don't I hate it?
"You and Qi Sheng should either break up altogether, or stop making trouble. What do you mean?"
"What do you think of Qisheng people?"
"How do I know? I don't know him very well, so there's no need for you to ask Su Chen, he's so cautious! I guess he still remembers what he suffered when he was at the hands of Qi Sheng, so what can you say about him?" He looked After a little hesitation, he sighed and said,
"Is it good to ask yourself, if you think it's worth it, be more mature, don't be endlessly childish."
I was guilty of what he said, so I quickly changed the subject, "If Su Chen knew that you were speaking ill of him behind his back, she might really turn against you."
"Is he embarrassed? I told him about it yesterday." He laughed, which was very warm and soft, unlike the one to me. "He almost turned against me, and then I said, 'You Don’t get angry from embarrassment, why are you hiding from me with your petty eyes?” In the end, he was also quite embarrassed.
I also laughed along with him, it's good to see them like this, I know that the reason why he can say "bad things" about Su Chen in front of me is because he is not afraid that he will know, and it is somewhat teasing, Yu Xiao is just talking Whether he admits it or not, in his heart, Su Chen is good no matter what.
"He asked you yesterday, didn't he get close to Qi Sheng recently? I also asked him what he thought of Qi Sheng."
"How did he say?"
"He said it's okay to be friends."
"That's all?" I thought there was something else to say, Yu Xiao habitually touched the tip of his nose and told me that he was hesitating.
After about 2 minutes, he said again, "He said that Qi Sheng was pretty good to you, but you want too much, and not everyone can give it to you." Is there too much?Just want him to be by my side forever or is it too hard for him?Also, he never thought of spending his whole life with a man.
Nothing can bear the seriousness of every detail, maybe I grasped it too tightly to make it like this today.
"Hey!" He waved his hand in front of my eyes, interrupting me to sit there like a fool, "But he also said that it's not good to fight with you, and he doesn't look as strong as his cousin." He chuckled , and began to look me up and down, "Are you reluctant to eat? Or are you pursuing skinny beauty?"
"Don't go too far!" I slapped him on the back, "It's as if you don't do anything!"
"Don't tell me, there was such a time a few days ago, Su Chen can pretend, pretending to be asleep, and slapped me on the head, in retaliation for the fact that I usually slap him on the head, and I pretended not to know that he was awake , I saw him snickering within 2 minutes."
"...like what he did."
"But I locked him inside after he got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom." Seeing him laughing, I suddenly felt that Su Chen was also quite pitiful. Su Chen also said that Yu Xiao always tried to punish him secretly. The girlfriend caught getting entangled with her ex-girlfriend, the first time she was caught asking someone to do her homework for her, and the first time she was punished by the teacher for cleaning the toilet, all thanks to Yu Xiao.
"He's not even angry. It seems that he still has a good temper with you." I wondered if I would secretly find a time to collect Yu Xiao's criminal evidence and hand them to Su Chen. Maybe I could see the World War or something. .
"No, he's angry." Yu Xiao waved his hand and said very easily, "The next day, he also wanted to lock me in the bathroom."
When he said this, he started laughing, lying on the bar with his hair trembling back and forth, "I knew he would do this! Remove the lock early!"
"...It's really clever." I felt a little helpless. Who were they calling naive? I couldn't tell. This kind of thing that I have been doing since high school is still doing it now.When I was in college, this kind of behavior has reached an irresistible level. After so many years, I haven't played enough.
I don't usually hear them mention it, is it just for fun?
I was really stupid and asked Yu Xiao, but he told me that I was free, otherwise what would I do?You can't have sex all day long, so let's just make a joke!
"Hey, have you noticed that you've mentioned Su Chen a lot lately?" He looked at me with a straight face, pretending to be drinking, and held back for a long time,
"What's the matter! I know him best!"
“啧啧啧,别解释了啊,于潇你怎么跟热恋的小姑娘似得。”我故意摆出欠揍的表情,想揶揄他两句可不容易,机不可失啊。
He darkened his face, and after a few seconds, he smiled extremely softly, "That's much better than the little girl who was broken in love." After finishing speaking, he picked up his coat and walked away smartly. He added, " Wait for my news, Cheng Lang will help you out."
He is still very neat in his work, and it took only two days to get this matter done, but he was also in a hurry to 'get away' and told me to go directly to Cheng Lang next time, it seems that he is still very concerned about Su Chen idea.
The solo business was surprisingly good in those few days. I don’t know when it started. People have become more and more presumptuous, and the solo is no longer what it used to be. Seeing their confused expressions on the dance floor, their bodies that are constantly tight suddenly feel tired , and deep loneliness.
Qi Sheng went on a business trip four days ago and came back today.Thinking of what Yu Xiao said, maybe we still have room for relaxation.
102. Xu Chunpian is Just a Friend ([-])
I still don't understand what kind of coincidence exists, whether it promotes many good things, or it makes too many people regret in their lives.
What is the explanation?How many people will believe it, or have already stopped believing it, just waiting for this coincidence to say the last goodbye.
I called him that day and told him that I wanted to meet him, and I even had too much expectation for this matter like when I was a child.I just realized that the past is the past after all, and now I find that I love him, very much.
I didn't know that another guy would come to me, the funny thing is I can't even remember his name, I just seem to have slept with him, that's all.
This should be a vulgar story, Qi Sheng opened the door and saw us, he froze for a moment, then laughed.He smiled easily, not even the slightest bit of anger.
I am so familiar with his eyebrows and eyes, even if I don't look at them or touch them, I can easily outline his outline in my heart, "Is this why you came to me?" He said, his face was full of indifference, He nodded, "I understand Xu Chun, I understand."
I should chase it out and explain it clearly, but there doesn't seem to be any nostalgia in his eyes, just like he once said, 'until' there is no more nostalgia, and it will be gone.
He should be talking about now.
Suddenly I felt so scared that I was about to die. If he left like this, would I really have nothing left?
My head is empty, I think I am stupid, always insisting on what should not be insisted on, but I believe that now is already doomed.But I really feel that some things cannot be changed by manpower, we can only follow the so-called arrangement step by step to the end.
Old songs from more than ten years ago were constantly playing on the TV, and even these didn’t remind me of anything. I was just affected by it in my mind, and I kept repeating those lyrics, which didn’t make any sense.
I heard the sound of the door being opened, who could it be in the early morning.I turned my head, but felt sore eye sockets for a moment, Qi Sheng walked in, and stood in front of me with a night snack.
"You're hungry." He said, not a question but an affirmation, he always remembered, and I couldn't forget how long ago this was, it was too long.
He didn't speak anymore, and walked straight to the kitchen. His back was tall and tall, and it even reminded me that I used to rely on him. I hope he can help me make many decisions.
I wanted to tell him back, but he just lowered his head and kept helping me with food, as if he didn't want me to speak at all.I hope he can give me a little courage, even if he doesn't say anything, it's just a look, a look that still cares and misses.
"Qi Sheng!" I called his name, but he seemed to avoid it deliberately, turned his head and lit a cigarette silently.I really want to touch his face, his resolute outline, and those eyes that are always indifferent, "Can you listen to my explanation of what happened just now? It was a misunderstanding!"
Don't be silly, Xu Chun, self-esteem and face, that thing is too ridiculous.
"What do you want to say?" He finally raised his head to look at me, the indifference hidden under his carelessness made me dare not speak, but I still mustered up the courage, this is the last chance.
"We have nothing now, it was just a misunderstanding, I don't know, I don't know that he will come to me at this time, I want to see you because I want to say..."
"Misunderstanding?" He sneered, "There is always only a misunderstanding between us, but this misunderstanding is too deep, and there is no way to solve it forever."
Why doesn't he believe it?I have begged him humbly, why still refuse to believe?I didn't know what was wrong with me, I just threw everything on the table on the ground, "Because of who? Su Chen? I can..."
"It's not because of him! Xu Chun, you never understand, it's not because of anyone! It's because you don't love me at all!" He kept panting, and for a moment I thought we would continue what we had done before, quarreling, Fight, turn and leave.
And he suddenly squatted on the ground, picking up the scattered things on the ground one by one, "Don't make noise, I'm tired." He said, constantly tidying up, I saw his fingers were cut by broken glass, Bleeding red blood, he continued to do so,
"Look, I just want to leave some good memories when we finally broke up. Why do you have to make it like this?"
He packed everything in silence, ignored my crying, and begged, "Break up, Xu Chun, don't see each other again." He said, with his back to me and opened the door, "Quiet, I'll be with you in the future." Not by your side, pay attention to yourself."
When he said that, he even gave me a little hope. He still cared about me, but his back was so decisive that he didn't leave any room for it.
"You'll regret it! Qi Sheng, I'll make you regret it!" I just wanted to keep him, and I did whatever it took. His figure stopped there, and I saw the hand he was holding tightened, and he simply hugged him tightly from behind. Stop him, "Don't go, don't leave me alone."
He stood there without moving for a long time. I wanted to see his expression so much, but he never turned around. "This is not the first time I will regret it, nor is it the only one." He shook off my hand so easily. Is he too unfeeling and determined, or I have begun to hesitate.
I don't know, it's just that he just left, the air still smelled of him, and I couldn't stop the smell from dissipating, and finally disappeared without a trace.
He was right, no one will accompany me in the future.
In fact, I can't blame Yu Xiao for taking drugs. As early as a month ago, I didn't have any resistance to it, which is why I'm sure many people need it.
There are no worries anymore, the white powder makes me have no resistance at all.
During that time, I was in such a numb and empty state that I didn't even know what I had done.After taking drugs, my consciousness is not very clear, maybe I made a call to Qi Sheng, and another man answered it.I don't know why I went to him, I just vaguely wanted to find him and let him come back.
He was at another gay bar, chatting and laughing with other men.I hit him and he just sat there and let me do it, as indifferent as he was that day, telling me: he won't regret it, never will.
I felt like I really wanted to kill him, I even picked up the bottle and threw it on his head, I don't remember what happened afterwards, it seems that the man who was with him touched me.
I'm not sure, I just feel very painful, but very happy, as if this is the only way to awaken my senses.
Later, it was Qi Sheng who took me to the hospital. Su Chen came that day, and that was the last time we met, but I'm not sure if it was the last time with Qi Sheng.
The person in the mirror is so strange, why is he living in such a mess? Why are he still alive?I was terrified by the thought at that moment, of course I have to live, otherwise there would really be nothing left.
But I want to return the single line to Su Chen, and then leave here, so he will miss me?
Before I left, I had a dream, Qi Sheng was sitting on the sofa at my house, this time I was standing at the door with my suitcase, "It's good that you are leaving, I don't need to remember you." When he said that He kept his back to me all the time. Surprisingly, in just a few days, I couldn't even remember his expression.
What about him, did he forget all about it?
There seems to be a hole in my heart that can never be filled, empty and uncomfortable.I don't want him to forget me just like that, even if we will be separated.
what is this?Struggling with that last bit?
That day I thought I would die in that pile of white powder, I stared at myself in the mirror, and suddenly thought of a good way, if I die, will he remember me forever?
I don't even know where I got the courage to do this, it's like a multiple-choice question suddenly presented in front of me, my mind is chaotic and there is only one answer.
I want him to watch me go so he must remember me.
When the sharp blade cuts through the skin, I don't even feel the pain. The hot water qi floats back and forth in the small space, it's really like a dream.
I suddenly felt scared. It wasn't that I was dying of pain, but that I was dying of fear. Only my own feeling was really terrible.I regret it, there are so many people in my mind, too many to count, and there are so many unfinished things.
I want to get out of this predicament, I want to live, but I don't have the strength to leave.I still chose to call Su Chen for the first call. I understand that I don't have much time left. I just want to tell him that we are really just friends, but I hope he can live well, and I hope Yu Xiao will too.
But no matter what I did, there was always a busy tone on the phone, and I didn't even have time to say my blessings, just like many times before, he ignored it.
I don't actually hate him, I just feel like letting go.
But what is there to worry about? It is what I care about most. This should be the last phone call in my life. I choose to call Qi Sheng. Who else is there besides him? "Where are you?" Even if you lie in hot water, The body is also cold.
He didn't speak, but he didn't hang up the phone. The sound of electric current came into his mind, and he was in a daze. I couldn't even control my lips. It took me a long time to say a word, "If I die, will you still forget me?" In fact, I just want to tell him that I love him the most, but I didn't find out earlier, if I die, forget about me.
And I just wanted to find a chance to end it all.
Why did he speak, without leaving me a little fantasy, "No matter what I do, even if you die, I will forget you." This was his answer, which even made me hate him so much.
"Won't Qisheng, you can't forget me, for example, I'm about to die, but you turn a blind eye." These words are so angry and sad when I say them, and I don't have the extra strength to express this emotion, I couldn't even convince him that he was really going to die.But I was always so cowardly, I heard my weak breath, "Will you come?"
I just wanted to see him again, this time I got a busy signal and he hung up the call.I was so scared that I was going to die, so I called Su Chen again. I just hoped to hear someone's voice just before I died, so that I wouldn't die so lonely, and don't hate them until I die.
I lied. In fact, I hate each of them, and I hate myself so much. This is the ending I gave myself, and it is also the indifferent answer they gave.
My fingers had no strength, and I couldn't even hold the phone. It fell to the ground. I seemed to hear a sound, but it was vague, and it seemed like there was nothing.
The water is red, which is very beautiful.
At that moment, I knew that I was really going to leave this world, but many things flashed in my mind, the laughter when I was a child, and the most heart-piercing cry in my memory.
"Xu Xiaochun, why are you always so serious?"
"Xu Chun, in fact, you don't love me at all."
"When I don't care about it, let's go." Qi Sheng's words kept echoing in my mind, and I felt as if I was standing outside this world, as an 'outsider' walking through those things that I have experienced. of.
I stood outside those memories, clearly remembering what was right and what was wrong, but I couldn't change it.I pushed open the door in front of me and walked in. It was me and Qi Sheng.
He sat there quietly, with my favorite food on the table.
By the way, he must be waiting for me, I hurriedly sat in front of him, but he suddenly disappeared, disappearing into my world out of thin air.That was the last memory, and then it was pitch black, and I couldn't see anything.
At the last moment, I seemed to be able to feel something. Someone was calling me, but I couldn’t hear anything clearly. It was an illusion, and no one would come.
And they will never forget me.They will remember what they did today, and choose to ignore it cruelly, or simply ignore it.
This is the end.
Yeah.
Xu Chun finished
103. Yu Xiao's deep love ([-])
I will always love him until one day he doesn't.
"I'm tired, take a nap." He said, closing the bedroom door, I didn't follow in, even though he knew he was in a bad state, but he didn't like being disturbed at this time.
I never told him that his temper really sucks.What I want to ask more is, what am I in his heart, and what is Xu Chun? That day he beat me because of Xu Chun. I don't care, but I admit that I can't ignore Xu Chun's position in his heart.
It is more clear that now is not the time, someday he will give me the answer, not now.
When he returned to the bedroom, he seemed to be asleep, with his back turned to me, he was faking it, even if I was not as smart as him, I would know that his heart was blocked, and he couldn't fall asleep at all.
Sometimes he always said to me, what are you doing so bluntly, I have to say something like a child.I also want to tell him, don't keep everything in your heart, just speak out if you are unhappy.
He's not narrow-minded, it's just that he doesn't want to let go of many things. I mean forget it. He often can't sleep in the middle of the night because of one thing, and he looks quite nervous.
He didn't attend Xu Chun's burial today, but I'm sure he went back, and I saw him wandering around outside the cemetery, and then took him home.I wasn't sure if he needed me, he didn't say a word on the way.Like now, he always makes me feel insecure.
The only thing that can be given to him is to let him be quiet for a while, one night may be enough for him to think clearly.I know I'm stupid, how could Su Chen, who has always been reluctant to part with a single hair of his own, do something stupid?
Even if he knew that I still didn't dare to sleep all night, and didn't fall asleep until dawn, I knew he blamed himself and me.
The next morning I was woken up by the alarm clock, he was not around, so I kind of panicked, ran out of the bedroom shouting his name, and finally found him in the kitchen.
He had just finished serving breakfast, and there was no difference except that his eyes were a little swollen, as if nothing had happened at all, so I didn't dare to talk nonsense.
We had breakfast boringly, and he even asked, "Should I take you to work? I still have time."
It's so weird, and I really can't hold back, "You come back early from get off work today, I have something to tell you." We have to talk.He didn't say anything, just glanced at me and turned to clear the table.
I really want to crush him to death. This person depends on his mood when he speaks. When he is happy, he will cope with your boring words. If he is not happy, he will pretend to be dumb and not speak.No, it was pretending not to hear.
I didn't look for him during the lunch break, but went to Xu Chun's cemetery. I didn't understand why he did this, and what was the meaning of the call to Su Chen at the end. I knew it was meaningless, for Xu Chun It doesn't make sense anymore, but it matters to us all.
No one knows exactly what he died of, a drug overdose or a scar on his wrist.
Su Chen asked me that day, "Do you really hope that Xu Chun is okay?" Of course I hope he is okay, and no one wants to pretend that nothing happened while carrying other people's lives.
And during that phone call, I wanted to ask, did he want to say that he hated Su Chen, or did he want him to live a good life.I don't know what has caused Xu Chun to let it go for so many years, but he loves Qi Sheng, doesn't he?
The human heart is really difficult to understand. I am not him, and the place in my heart will only be given to one person, so I will never understand what he is up to.
And I went to see him because I regarded him as a friend.Except for Su Chen, he has nothing to make me unhappy. Objectively speaking, as a friend, he is no worse than anyone else.
The weather is no longer so cold, but it is rare to see a sunny day. Recently, it has always been cloudy, and the fine light rain is more likely to affect the mood, as if it will always be so dull.
Sure enough, I saw Qi Sheng in front of Xu Chun's tomb. He was sitting on the ground, as if he didn't care about the tall and expensive suit he was wearing. He was sitting there smoking, just keeping his head down, not knowing what he was thinking.
The photo on the tombstone is so young, sometimes I wonder, Xu Chun doesn't seem to have changed at all, just like the first time we met, he still looks like a child, and he really can only be like this forever.
Will he feel sorry?
In the past few days, I always think of the recent days when I was alone. We walked very close, and we sat together for a while, drinking a glass of wine, or chatting about something casually.
Although there are more people in contact, I always feel that I have fewer and fewer friends.So if you have it, you should cherish it, right?Looking at his photo, I suddenly remembered the day when he smiled at me with two rabbit teeth, "People, the most feared thing is not having nothing, but that everyone will forget you without hesitation, as if you never existed .”
Suddenly he seemed to understand again, maybe he just wanted someone to remember him.But he is really stupid, so what if we really can't forget?It has stopped, and the memory of him also stops here.
"Will you forget him?" I knew that Xu Chun must want to hear Qi Sheng's answer the most. As a friend, the only thing I can do is to ask him here, even if he can't hear it.
Qi Sheng sat and looked at me, suddenly sniffed, but didn't say anything, I was waiting for his answer, so I just sat on the ground like him, he handed me the cigarette and smiled, "Help me tell Su Chen I'm sorry, I was the one who said something serious that day."
"What did you say?" Sure enough, it was completely wrong for him to tell me to leave, so how could he and Qi Sheng stay there?
"I don't remember either. At that time, it seemed like I couldn't think. It must have been too much."
Qi Sheng didn't have a good opinion, the most important thing is because of Su Chen, they don't like each other, of course I have no reason to help Qi Sheng, from any standpoint, but now, I can't find a reason to hate him.
"Will you forget him?"
"I can't forget him." Qi Sheng said, took a deep puff of his cigarette, turned his head to look at the photo on the tombstone, his eyes suddenly turned red, I saw tears rolling in his eyes, but they never fell, " But I will not regret it, if it is his choice, I just need to remember him."
Qi Sheng sat for a while, then left.And I wanted to say sorry to Xu Chun, because Su Chen couldn't come to see him off that day.Afterwards, I cried here without image, for Xu Chun and for me, men's lacrimal glands are not for display.
I just hope this matter can end, I know that I have always only favored one person in the choice, and Xu Chun, I will say goodbye to him, since we will not meet again, I would rather believe that the last call he made was to let Su Chen lived a good life.
Su Chen always said to me, don't be soft-hearted to everyone, he doesn't know, never understand, I only soft-hearted for him.
104. Yu Xiao's Deep Love ([-])
I waited until about ten o'clock that night, but he still didn't come back. This man just needs a beating. If only I could hit him casually, and then he could run back like a pug with a wave of my hand. .
But he is not, it has always been my responsibility to find him.
He called him almost without any complaints, and the person who answered was Wang Meng. In Su Chen's words, he was a man who was wearing a green hat by his wife without knowing it.
Generally speaking, people are not bad.Every time Su Chen commented on a person like this, I felt sorry for him. What he meant was: this person is stupid and honest, and bullying is more enjoyable.
"Why don't you come back?"
"Huh? You, who are you?" Before I could speak, Wang Meng gave the answer himself, "Aren't you Brother Chen's father? Are you looking for something with him?"
It would be a lie to say that you are not angry, but then again, who else is the same-sex who is looking for someone to go home in the middle of the night besides Lao Tzu? "Wrong! I am his son and he is my father!" I told him angrily.
I knew that if he didn't come back in the middle of the night, there was an event, and Ula Ula's singing could be heard over there, "Where are you?"
"Brother Zai Chen is on the phone!" Wang Meng shouted over there, then turned his head and said to the phone, "He went to the bathroom."
This is definitely fart. I can hear the magic sound through the phone. It must be Su Chen's two voices, and a woman's voice. It's sweet and greasy. I'm overthinking. Too busy flirting with women.
It's silly, what's the point of asking, there are only a few places where their unit often goes to party, let's find it, in case if he drinks too much and makes others lose their dignity, it's a small thing, and he will feel relieved if his stomach hurts.
I felt that I was really mighty. I found the second one along the route I planned, and I bet on the treasure. As soon as I inquired, I knew that they were regular customers from the Education Bureau. How could they not be high-spending?I really don't know where they all come from for their leisure, co-authors are like Su Chen who don't support their families and have extra money.
He pays for the single line, I knew earlier, the income there is certainly enough for him to live a corrupt life.Even if he didn't, his mother wouldn't want to see him 'not corrupt', even though it was before.
I pushed the door open and walked in, not because I was shy, but Wang Meng is really a good person. When he saw me, he gave me a step down, "Yu Xiao? What a coincidence, did you enter the wrong room!"
I stood where I was and resisted the urge to roll my eyes, "You've seen it all."
But I don't have the time to talk to him. I just want to find him in a group of people. He is sitting on the sofa in the corner with a woman sitting next to him. She is his colleague. I have been talking to him, but I haven't seen him say anything. That woman I don't hate myself
How much love does it take to break my heart?
How much love do you have to be willing to love so that you will no longer miss it?
Only on that day, I had the unprecedented confirmation that he loved me so much, just that day.And we, formed a state of being irrelevant to each other, he played his outside, I played mine, satirizing each other, waiting for the other to turn around and leave, losing nothing.
Most of the time it was just me. Su Chen was still angry with me and didn't come to see me for a long time. Yu Xiao would come and sit down from time to time. I heard from him that their quarrel was very fierce and almost caused a big incident.
I laughed at him, "Can't you let him go? Can't help it this time?" In fact, it looks like Su Chen will take care of him, but in fact, Yu Xiao doesn't care about him more often.
"You don't come here, it's too shameless to gloat." He put out his cigarette and put his hand on my shoulder, "Hey, do you think I should be more aggressive?"
"...What do you mean?" Seeing his bright eyes and sinister smile, I have a bad feeling. Is it doomed to be unlucky to be his friend?
"Don't act like you were raped by me. I haven't said anything yet." He stared at me helplessly. Did I write everything on my face?no?I can only deny with a dry smile.
"You said that if he can't control himself again next time, how about I use force to fix him?"
"...it's kind of like a gamble."
"What do you mean?"
"Maybe it was anti-repaired, don't you think he likes to do this way of solving problems without using his brain?"
"Yes, he likes to fuck."
"...Actually, you think it's good too, don't you?" The topic seriously stretched in another direction.
"... Do you think personality or something is contagious?"
"It will be affected after a long time." I frightened him. In fact, their personalities are quite complementary. Yu Xiao belongs to the kind that I said is ugly, but I won't be really angry if he makes a serious mistake. He is more aggressive and straightforward.
As for Su Chen, he is the kind of person who insists on keeping things in mind even if he doesn't say them. He likes to think about every outcome before making a decision.
Hearing what I said, Yu Xiao suddenly looked at the sky at a 45° angle, showing a handsome and charming profile, "It's over, will I be influenced by him to like women one day?"
"...I don't think this is going to work. After so many years, you are still bent to the end as always, but it's hard to say whether Su Chen's sex with men was influenced by you."
"No, it just means that nothing is straight and firm about him." He shook his finger and patted my shoulder, "Xu Chun, why do I feel that your mind has turned bad recently?"
"I'm taking supplements." He told a cold joke, just as the bartender approached mysteriously, knowing our relationship, he didn't deliberately avoid speaking,
"Someone is looking for it again, and now more and more people want this."
"I see."
Yu Xiao glanced at the mysterious expression on the bartender's face, "Is anyone thinking about high medicine?"
"You know all this? Have you ever played?"
He raised his middle finger at me contemptuously, "Is there anything I don't know about this, haven't you seen a piglet and eaten a piglet?" This sounds really awkward, did he really say that?
"Do you know anyone who does this?"
"Want to do it?" He raised his eyebrows, making me feel guilty.
"what."
"It's not impossible, how can there be no such thing in the current nightclub." He whispered close to me, "Do you still remember Cheng Lang?"
101. Xu Chunpian is Just a Friend ([-])
"That tall and skinny circus?" It's hard not to remember, this person has always looked at me annoyed, "What is he doing now?"
"What do you think? Why does Su Chen seldom contact him?" He glanced at me, and he didn't like Cheng Lang's appearance very much.
"It's not that you don't like him mixing with Cheng Lang and the others?"
"Do you believe it?" He pursed his lips, and made a contemptuous look with his hand holding the cigarette, "He knew it in his heart and used me as a cover." He turned the bar chair and faced me, "If you want to do this , I can help you find him, but don't tell Su Chen."
When he said that, I was a little skeptical, whether he knew the one-way thing, but it was not like him, if he knew, he would have said it long ago.
"why?"
"It's impossible for him to be willing to let you do this business. He will probably turn against me."
"Are you still afraid that he will turn against you?" I rolled his eyes at him, although I said that Su Chen was unreasonable for a while, but it will be fine after a while.
"You don't understand, I found that people have a particularly good memory, and they always remember those bad things clearly." He said, turning to look at the crowd on the dance floor, the background music made his voice sound very Fuzzy, "How many feelings can withstand the constant quarrel, and one day it will be polished, thinking of it is a thorn in my heart."
I started to be dazed again, thinking about what he said carefully, yes, I really can't stand the noise, isn't that what Qi Sheng and I are like?I thought it was fine if I quarreled, but in fact, why don't I hate it?
"You and Qi Sheng should either break up altogether, or stop making trouble. What do you mean?"
"What do you think of Qisheng people?"
"How do I know? I don't know him very well, so there's no need for you to ask Su Chen, he's so cautious! I guess he still remembers what he suffered when he was at the hands of Qi Sheng, so what can you say about him?" He looked After a little hesitation, he sighed and said,
"Is it good to ask yourself, if you think it's worth it, be more mature, don't be endlessly childish."
I was guilty of what he said, so I quickly changed the subject, "If Su Chen knew that you were speaking ill of him behind his back, she might really turn against you."
"Is he embarrassed? I told him about it yesterday." He laughed, which was very warm and soft, unlike the one to me. "He almost turned against me, and then I said, 'You Don’t get angry from embarrassment, why are you hiding from me with your petty eyes?” In the end, he was also quite embarrassed.
I also laughed along with him, it's good to see them like this, I know that the reason why he can say "bad things" about Su Chen in front of me is because he is not afraid that he will know, and it is somewhat teasing, Yu Xiao is just talking Whether he admits it or not, in his heart, Su Chen is good no matter what.
"He asked you yesterday, didn't he get close to Qi Sheng recently? I also asked him what he thought of Qi Sheng."
"How did he say?"
"He said it's okay to be friends."
"That's all?" I thought there was something else to say, Yu Xiao habitually touched the tip of his nose and told me that he was hesitating.
After about 2 minutes, he said again, "He said that Qi Sheng was pretty good to you, but you want too much, and not everyone can give it to you." Is there too much?Just want him to be by my side forever or is it too hard for him?Also, he never thought of spending his whole life with a man.
Nothing can bear the seriousness of every detail, maybe I grasped it too tightly to make it like this today.
"Hey!" He waved his hand in front of my eyes, interrupting me to sit there like a fool, "But he also said that it's not good to fight with you, and he doesn't look as strong as his cousin." He chuckled , and began to look me up and down, "Are you reluctant to eat? Or are you pursuing skinny beauty?"
"Don't go too far!" I slapped him on the back, "It's as if you don't do anything!"
"Don't tell me, there was such a time a few days ago, Su Chen can pretend, pretending to be asleep, and slapped me on the head, in retaliation for the fact that I usually slap him on the head, and I pretended not to know that he was awake , I saw him snickering within 2 minutes."
"...like what he did."
"But I locked him inside after he got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom." Seeing him laughing, I suddenly felt that Su Chen was also quite pitiful. Su Chen also said that Yu Xiao always tried to punish him secretly. The girlfriend caught getting entangled with her ex-girlfriend, the first time she was caught asking someone to do her homework for her, and the first time she was punished by the teacher for cleaning the toilet, all thanks to Yu Xiao.
"He's not even angry. It seems that he still has a good temper with you." I wondered if I would secretly find a time to collect Yu Xiao's criminal evidence and hand them to Su Chen. Maybe I could see the World War or something. .
"No, he's angry." Yu Xiao waved his hand and said very easily, "The next day, he also wanted to lock me in the bathroom."
When he said this, he started laughing, lying on the bar with his hair trembling back and forth, "I knew he would do this! Remove the lock early!"
"...It's really clever." I felt a little helpless. Who were they calling naive? I couldn't tell. This kind of thing that I have been doing since high school is still doing it now.When I was in college, this kind of behavior has reached an irresistible level. After so many years, I haven't played enough.
I don't usually hear them mention it, is it just for fun?
I was really stupid and asked Yu Xiao, but he told me that I was free, otherwise what would I do?You can't have sex all day long, so let's just make a joke!
"Hey, have you noticed that you've mentioned Su Chen a lot lately?" He looked at me with a straight face, pretending to be drinking, and held back for a long time,
"What's the matter! I know him best!"
“啧啧啧,别解释了啊,于潇你怎么跟热恋的小姑娘似得。”我故意摆出欠揍的表情,想揶揄他两句可不容易,机不可失啊。
He darkened his face, and after a few seconds, he smiled extremely softly, "That's much better than the little girl who was broken in love." After finishing speaking, he picked up his coat and walked away smartly. He added, " Wait for my news, Cheng Lang will help you out."
He is still very neat in his work, and it took only two days to get this matter done, but he was also in a hurry to 'get away' and told me to go directly to Cheng Lang next time, it seems that he is still very concerned about Su Chen idea.
The solo business was surprisingly good in those few days. I don’t know when it started. People have become more and more presumptuous, and the solo is no longer what it used to be. Seeing their confused expressions on the dance floor, their bodies that are constantly tight suddenly feel tired , and deep loneliness.
Qi Sheng went on a business trip four days ago and came back today.Thinking of what Yu Xiao said, maybe we still have room for relaxation.
102. Xu Chunpian is Just a Friend ([-])
I still don't understand what kind of coincidence exists, whether it promotes many good things, or it makes too many people regret in their lives.
What is the explanation?How many people will believe it, or have already stopped believing it, just waiting for this coincidence to say the last goodbye.
I called him that day and told him that I wanted to meet him, and I even had too much expectation for this matter like when I was a child.I just realized that the past is the past after all, and now I find that I love him, very much.
I didn't know that another guy would come to me, the funny thing is I can't even remember his name, I just seem to have slept with him, that's all.
This should be a vulgar story, Qi Sheng opened the door and saw us, he froze for a moment, then laughed.He smiled easily, not even the slightest bit of anger.
I am so familiar with his eyebrows and eyes, even if I don't look at them or touch them, I can easily outline his outline in my heart, "Is this why you came to me?" He said, his face was full of indifference, He nodded, "I understand Xu Chun, I understand."
I should chase it out and explain it clearly, but there doesn't seem to be any nostalgia in his eyes, just like he once said, 'until' there is no more nostalgia, and it will be gone.
He should be talking about now.
Suddenly I felt so scared that I was about to die. If he left like this, would I really have nothing left?
My head is empty, I think I am stupid, always insisting on what should not be insisted on, but I believe that now is already doomed.But I really feel that some things cannot be changed by manpower, we can only follow the so-called arrangement step by step to the end.
Old songs from more than ten years ago were constantly playing on the TV, and even these didn’t remind me of anything. I was just affected by it in my mind, and I kept repeating those lyrics, which didn’t make any sense.
I heard the sound of the door being opened, who could it be in the early morning.I turned my head, but felt sore eye sockets for a moment, Qi Sheng walked in, and stood in front of me with a night snack.
"You're hungry." He said, not a question but an affirmation, he always remembered, and I couldn't forget how long ago this was, it was too long.
He didn't speak anymore, and walked straight to the kitchen. His back was tall and tall, and it even reminded me that I used to rely on him. I hope he can help me make many decisions.
I wanted to tell him back, but he just lowered his head and kept helping me with food, as if he didn't want me to speak at all.I hope he can give me a little courage, even if he doesn't say anything, it's just a look, a look that still cares and misses.
"Qi Sheng!" I called his name, but he seemed to avoid it deliberately, turned his head and lit a cigarette silently.I really want to touch his face, his resolute outline, and those eyes that are always indifferent, "Can you listen to my explanation of what happened just now? It was a misunderstanding!"
Don't be silly, Xu Chun, self-esteem and face, that thing is too ridiculous.
"What do you want to say?" He finally raised his head to look at me, the indifference hidden under his carelessness made me dare not speak, but I still mustered up the courage, this is the last chance.
"We have nothing now, it was just a misunderstanding, I don't know, I don't know that he will come to me at this time, I want to see you because I want to say..."
"Misunderstanding?" He sneered, "There is always only a misunderstanding between us, but this misunderstanding is too deep, and there is no way to solve it forever."
Why doesn't he believe it?I have begged him humbly, why still refuse to believe?I didn't know what was wrong with me, I just threw everything on the table on the ground, "Because of who? Su Chen? I can..."
"It's not because of him! Xu Chun, you never understand, it's not because of anyone! It's because you don't love me at all!" He kept panting, and for a moment I thought we would continue what we had done before, quarreling, Fight, turn and leave.
And he suddenly squatted on the ground, picking up the scattered things on the ground one by one, "Don't make noise, I'm tired." He said, constantly tidying up, I saw his fingers were cut by broken glass, Bleeding red blood, he continued to do so,
"Look, I just want to leave some good memories when we finally broke up. Why do you have to make it like this?"
He packed everything in silence, ignored my crying, and begged, "Break up, Xu Chun, don't see each other again." He said, with his back to me and opened the door, "Quiet, I'll be with you in the future." Not by your side, pay attention to yourself."
When he said that, he even gave me a little hope. He still cared about me, but his back was so decisive that he didn't leave any room for it.
"You'll regret it! Qi Sheng, I'll make you regret it!" I just wanted to keep him, and I did whatever it took. His figure stopped there, and I saw the hand he was holding tightened, and he simply hugged him tightly from behind. Stop him, "Don't go, don't leave me alone."
He stood there without moving for a long time. I wanted to see his expression so much, but he never turned around. "This is not the first time I will regret it, nor is it the only one." He shook off my hand so easily. Is he too unfeeling and determined, or I have begun to hesitate.
I don't know, it's just that he just left, the air still smelled of him, and I couldn't stop the smell from dissipating, and finally disappeared without a trace.
He was right, no one will accompany me in the future.
In fact, I can't blame Yu Xiao for taking drugs. As early as a month ago, I didn't have any resistance to it, which is why I'm sure many people need it.
There are no worries anymore, the white powder makes me have no resistance at all.
During that time, I was in such a numb and empty state that I didn't even know what I had done.After taking drugs, my consciousness is not very clear, maybe I made a call to Qi Sheng, and another man answered it.I don't know why I went to him, I just vaguely wanted to find him and let him come back.
He was at another gay bar, chatting and laughing with other men.I hit him and he just sat there and let me do it, as indifferent as he was that day, telling me: he won't regret it, never will.
I felt like I really wanted to kill him, I even picked up the bottle and threw it on his head, I don't remember what happened afterwards, it seems that the man who was with him touched me.
I'm not sure, I just feel very painful, but very happy, as if this is the only way to awaken my senses.
Later, it was Qi Sheng who took me to the hospital. Su Chen came that day, and that was the last time we met, but I'm not sure if it was the last time with Qi Sheng.
The person in the mirror is so strange, why is he living in such a mess? Why are he still alive?I was terrified by the thought at that moment, of course I have to live, otherwise there would really be nothing left.
But I want to return the single line to Su Chen, and then leave here, so he will miss me?
Before I left, I had a dream, Qi Sheng was sitting on the sofa at my house, this time I was standing at the door with my suitcase, "It's good that you are leaving, I don't need to remember you." When he said that He kept his back to me all the time. Surprisingly, in just a few days, I couldn't even remember his expression.
What about him, did he forget all about it?
There seems to be a hole in my heart that can never be filled, empty and uncomfortable.I don't want him to forget me just like that, even if we will be separated.
what is this?Struggling with that last bit?
That day I thought I would die in that pile of white powder, I stared at myself in the mirror, and suddenly thought of a good way, if I die, will he remember me forever?
I don't even know where I got the courage to do this, it's like a multiple-choice question suddenly presented in front of me, my mind is chaotic and there is only one answer.
I want him to watch me go so he must remember me.
When the sharp blade cuts through the skin, I don't even feel the pain. The hot water qi floats back and forth in the small space, it's really like a dream.
I suddenly felt scared. It wasn't that I was dying of pain, but that I was dying of fear. Only my own feeling was really terrible.I regret it, there are so many people in my mind, too many to count, and there are so many unfinished things.
I want to get out of this predicament, I want to live, but I don't have the strength to leave.I still chose to call Su Chen for the first call. I understand that I don't have much time left. I just want to tell him that we are really just friends, but I hope he can live well, and I hope Yu Xiao will too.
But no matter what I did, there was always a busy tone on the phone, and I didn't even have time to say my blessings, just like many times before, he ignored it.
I don't actually hate him, I just feel like letting go.
But what is there to worry about? It is what I care about most. This should be the last phone call in my life. I choose to call Qi Sheng. Who else is there besides him? "Where are you?" Even if you lie in hot water, The body is also cold.
He didn't speak, but he didn't hang up the phone. The sound of electric current came into his mind, and he was in a daze. I couldn't even control my lips. It took me a long time to say a word, "If I die, will you still forget me?" In fact, I just want to tell him that I love him the most, but I didn't find out earlier, if I die, forget about me.
And I just wanted to find a chance to end it all.
Why did he speak, without leaving me a little fantasy, "No matter what I do, even if you die, I will forget you." This was his answer, which even made me hate him so much.
"Won't Qisheng, you can't forget me, for example, I'm about to die, but you turn a blind eye." These words are so angry and sad when I say them, and I don't have the extra strength to express this emotion, I couldn't even convince him that he was really going to die.But I was always so cowardly, I heard my weak breath, "Will you come?"
I just wanted to see him again, this time I got a busy signal and he hung up the call.I was so scared that I was going to die, so I called Su Chen again. I just hoped to hear someone's voice just before I died, so that I wouldn't die so lonely, and don't hate them until I die.
I lied. In fact, I hate each of them, and I hate myself so much. This is the ending I gave myself, and it is also the indifferent answer they gave.
My fingers had no strength, and I couldn't even hold the phone. It fell to the ground. I seemed to hear a sound, but it was vague, and it seemed like there was nothing.
The water is red, which is very beautiful.
At that moment, I knew that I was really going to leave this world, but many things flashed in my mind, the laughter when I was a child, and the most heart-piercing cry in my memory.
"Xu Xiaochun, why are you always so serious?"
"Xu Chun, in fact, you don't love me at all."
"When I don't care about it, let's go." Qi Sheng's words kept echoing in my mind, and I felt as if I was standing outside this world, as an 'outsider' walking through those things that I have experienced. of.
I stood outside those memories, clearly remembering what was right and what was wrong, but I couldn't change it.I pushed open the door in front of me and walked in. It was me and Qi Sheng.
He sat there quietly, with my favorite food on the table.
By the way, he must be waiting for me, I hurriedly sat in front of him, but he suddenly disappeared, disappearing into my world out of thin air.That was the last memory, and then it was pitch black, and I couldn't see anything.
At the last moment, I seemed to be able to feel something. Someone was calling me, but I couldn’t hear anything clearly. It was an illusion, and no one would come.
And they will never forget me.They will remember what they did today, and choose to ignore it cruelly, or simply ignore it.
This is the end.
Yeah.
Xu Chun finished
103. Yu Xiao's deep love ([-])
I will always love him until one day he doesn't.
"I'm tired, take a nap." He said, closing the bedroom door, I didn't follow in, even though he knew he was in a bad state, but he didn't like being disturbed at this time.
I never told him that his temper really sucks.What I want to ask more is, what am I in his heart, and what is Xu Chun? That day he beat me because of Xu Chun. I don't care, but I admit that I can't ignore Xu Chun's position in his heart.
It is more clear that now is not the time, someday he will give me the answer, not now.
When he returned to the bedroom, he seemed to be asleep, with his back turned to me, he was faking it, even if I was not as smart as him, I would know that his heart was blocked, and he couldn't fall asleep at all.
Sometimes he always said to me, what are you doing so bluntly, I have to say something like a child.I also want to tell him, don't keep everything in your heart, just speak out if you are unhappy.
He's not narrow-minded, it's just that he doesn't want to let go of many things. I mean forget it. He often can't sleep in the middle of the night because of one thing, and he looks quite nervous.
He didn't attend Xu Chun's burial today, but I'm sure he went back, and I saw him wandering around outside the cemetery, and then took him home.I wasn't sure if he needed me, he didn't say a word on the way.Like now, he always makes me feel insecure.
The only thing that can be given to him is to let him be quiet for a while, one night may be enough for him to think clearly.I know I'm stupid, how could Su Chen, who has always been reluctant to part with a single hair of his own, do something stupid?
Even if he knew that I still didn't dare to sleep all night, and didn't fall asleep until dawn, I knew he blamed himself and me.
The next morning I was woken up by the alarm clock, he was not around, so I kind of panicked, ran out of the bedroom shouting his name, and finally found him in the kitchen.
He had just finished serving breakfast, and there was no difference except that his eyes were a little swollen, as if nothing had happened at all, so I didn't dare to talk nonsense.
We had breakfast boringly, and he even asked, "Should I take you to work? I still have time."
It's so weird, and I really can't hold back, "You come back early from get off work today, I have something to tell you." We have to talk.He didn't say anything, just glanced at me and turned to clear the table.
I really want to crush him to death. This person depends on his mood when he speaks. When he is happy, he will cope with your boring words. If he is not happy, he will pretend to be dumb and not speak.No, it was pretending not to hear.
I didn't look for him during the lunch break, but went to Xu Chun's cemetery. I didn't understand why he did this, and what was the meaning of the call to Su Chen at the end. I knew it was meaningless, for Xu Chun It doesn't make sense anymore, but it matters to us all.
No one knows exactly what he died of, a drug overdose or a scar on his wrist.
Su Chen asked me that day, "Do you really hope that Xu Chun is okay?" Of course I hope he is okay, and no one wants to pretend that nothing happened while carrying other people's lives.
And during that phone call, I wanted to ask, did he want to say that he hated Su Chen, or did he want him to live a good life.I don't know what has caused Xu Chun to let it go for so many years, but he loves Qi Sheng, doesn't he?
The human heart is really difficult to understand. I am not him, and the place in my heart will only be given to one person, so I will never understand what he is up to.
And I went to see him because I regarded him as a friend.Except for Su Chen, he has nothing to make me unhappy. Objectively speaking, as a friend, he is no worse than anyone else.
The weather is no longer so cold, but it is rare to see a sunny day. Recently, it has always been cloudy, and the fine light rain is more likely to affect the mood, as if it will always be so dull.
Sure enough, I saw Qi Sheng in front of Xu Chun's tomb. He was sitting on the ground, as if he didn't care about the tall and expensive suit he was wearing. He was sitting there smoking, just keeping his head down, not knowing what he was thinking.
The photo on the tombstone is so young, sometimes I wonder, Xu Chun doesn't seem to have changed at all, just like the first time we met, he still looks like a child, and he really can only be like this forever.
Will he feel sorry?
In the past few days, I always think of the recent days when I was alone. We walked very close, and we sat together for a while, drinking a glass of wine, or chatting about something casually.
Although there are more people in contact, I always feel that I have fewer and fewer friends.So if you have it, you should cherish it, right?Looking at his photo, I suddenly remembered the day when he smiled at me with two rabbit teeth, "People, the most feared thing is not having nothing, but that everyone will forget you without hesitation, as if you never existed .”
Suddenly he seemed to understand again, maybe he just wanted someone to remember him.But he is really stupid, so what if we really can't forget?It has stopped, and the memory of him also stops here.
"Will you forget him?" I knew that Xu Chun must want to hear Qi Sheng's answer the most. As a friend, the only thing I can do is to ask him here, even if he can't hear it.
Qi Sheng sat and looked at me, suddenly sniffed, but didn't say anything, I was waiting for his answer, so I just sat on the ground like him, he handed me the cigarette and smiled, "Help me tell Su Chen I'm sorry, I was the one who said something serious that day."
"What did you say?" Sure enough, it was completely wrong for him to tell me to leave, so how could he and Qi Sheng stay there?
"I don't remember either. At that time, it seemed like I couldn't think. It must have been too much."
Qi Sheng didn't have a good opinion, the most important thing is because of Su Chen, they don't like each other, of course I have no reason to help Qi Sheng, from any standpoint, but now, I can't find a reason to hate him.
"Will you forget him?"
"I can't forget him." Qi Sheng said, took a deep puff of his cigarette, turned his head to look at the photo on the tombstone, his eyes suddenly turned red, I saw tears rolling in his eyes, but they never fell, " But I will not regret it, if it is his choice, I just need to remember him."
Qi Sheng sat for a while, then left.And I wanted to say sorry to Xu Chun, because Su Chen couldn't come to see him off that day.Afterwards, I cried here without image, for Xu Chun and for me, men's lacrimal glands are not for display.
I just hope this matter can end, I know that I have always only favored one person in the choice, and Xu Chun, I will say goodbye to him, since we will not meet again, I would rather believe that the last call he made was to let Su Chen lived a good life.
Su Chen always said to me, don't be soft-hearted to everyone, he doesn't know, never understand, I only soft-hearted for him.
104. Yu Xiao's Deep Love ([-])
I waited until about ten o'clock that night, but he still didn't come back. This man just needs a beating. If only I could hit him casually, and then he could run back like a pug with a wave of my hand. .
But he is not, it has always been my responsibility to find him.
He called him almost without any complaints, and the person who answered was Wang Meng. In Su Chen's words, he was a man who was wearing a green hat by his wife without knowing it.
Generally speaking, people are not bad.Every time Su Chen commented on a person like this, I felt sorry for him. What he meant was: this person is stupid and honest, and bullying is more enjoyable.
"Why don't you come back?"
"Huh? You, who are you?" Before I could speak, Wang Meng gave the answer himself, "Aren't you Brother Chen's father? Are you looking for something with him?"
It would be a lie to say that you are not angry, but then again, who else is the same-sex who is looking for someone to go home in the middle of the night besides Lao Tzu? "Wrong! I am his son and he is my father!" I told him angrily.
I knew that if he didn't come back in the middle of the night, there was an event, and Ula Ula's singing could be heard over there, "Where are you?"
"Brother Zai Chen is on the phone!" Wang Meng shouted over there, then turned his head and said to the phone, "He went to the bathroom."
This is definitely fart. I can hear the magic sound through the phone. It must be Su Chen's two voices, and a woman's voice. It's sweet and greasy. I'm overthinking. Too busy flirting with women.
It's silly, what's the point of asking, there are only a few places where their unit often goes to party, let's find it, in case if he drinks too much and makes others lose their dignity, it's a small thing, and he will feel relieved if his stomach hurts.
I felt that I was really mighty. I found the second one along the route I planned, and I bet on the treasure. As soon as I inquired, I knew that they were regular customers from the Education Bureau. How could they not be high-spending?I really don't know where they all come from for their leisure, co-authors are like Su Chen who don't support their families and have extra money.
He pays for the single line, I knew earlier, the income there is certainly enough for him to live a corrupt life.Even if he didn't, his mother wouldn't want to see him 'not corrupt', even though it was before.
I pushed the door open and walked in, not because I was shy, but Wang Meng is really a good person. When he saw me, he gave me a step down, "Yu Xiao? What a coincidence, did you enter the wrong room!"
I stood where I was and resisted the urge to roll my eyes, "You've seen it all."
But I don't have the time to talk to him. I just want to find him in a group of people. He is sitting on the sofa in the corner with a woman sitting next to him. She is his colleague. I have been talking to him, but I haven't seen him say anything. That woman I don't hate myself
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