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. "He said with a smile, showing his white teeth, staring intently at the last ball.

He is very serious, similar to when he was playing games, which is strange, I have never seen him show such an expression when he is sitting in the classroom.

He is a very attractive person when he is serious, but this kind of seriousness never misses the right place. He is steady in this ball, "Su Chen! Isn't that the brother of the class flower?"

"What?" Su Chen said in surprise, his eyes moved, and the ball stopped on the edge of the bag. He turned around and swept around the billiard room, from surprise to anger,

"You must have done it on purpose!"

"Don't bully my junior." Yu Xiao said, smiling at me proudly, shit, he's not doing it for me!But I'm still very grateful to him. Su Chen's bet is not small. For an ordinary person like me, it's half a month's meal money.

Of course it was me who won, Su Chen was unconvinced in every way, and finally fought against Yu Xiao.

They really got serious, the two stared at each other and smirked,

"If you lose, wash my clothes for a month." Yu Xiao said while holding the cue.

"Okay!" Su Chen not only gave a smirk, but also gave people a sense of shamelessness, "You lose, wash clothes for a month and no smoking."

The result was that the two refused to give in for the kick-off, and they quarreled for 3 minutes. In the end, they chose a compromise method, which was rock-paper-scissors.

I think they are the most boring people. In the fourth game, when they played together, no one was interested in this bet.

Where did the big brothers get the tacit understanding? !

"...The last way." Su Chen also looked helpless, and proposed a method that had nothing to do with billiards, arm wrestling.

The result was even more jaw-dropping. At the first moment, Yu Xiao slapped him on the head with his left hand and won the kick-off without any suspense.

"Don't play tricks!"

"I'm lying? Didn't you do the same thing last time when you gambled on football?" Yu Xiao was a little proud of her reaction speed, looked at me and said a wise saying that belonged to him, "For him, you must do everything you can. More shameless than him."

Su Chen simply sat next to me, refusing to look at Yu Xiao's face that was sure to win, "You can't be too shameless, you will suffer retribution." He said, and began to pinch my face again, just like the first time we met, he whispered mysteriously,

"You and Yu Xiao are really not even friends?"

"...you care?" He didn't seem like a very gossip guy.

"As his elder brother, I have the responsibility to help him check it out?" He said with a smile, wondering, when did he become Yu Xiao's elder brother? "I am two months older than him, this cannot be denied, right?"

"You said just now that you can't be too shameless."

"That's all to lie to children!" He showed an expression that you are not stupid, "Isn't it..." He muttered, and immediately turned his head.

What is not it?I turned around and saw a tall man walking in with a group of very strong men, and I had a bad premonition in my heart, "Didn't I come to see you?"

He turned his back to me and muttered, "It's all because of Xiao's crow's mouth."

Well, I have to be fair and just to say that this matter has nothing to do with Yu Xiao. You know, last time he dumped our Banhua, there was a lot of trouble, and the reason was even more unacceptable—he said Ban The flower beds are like wood.

As a result, he was wanted by Banhua's brother everywhere.

"Hey, Yu Xiao, I'm leaving first, you guys are playing!" He whispered, Yu Xiao stared at his back strangely, and then clearly watched that Banhua brother come over.

"Why don't we go too." Seeing this kind of bastard-like person made me dizzy, not to mention that Yu Xiao and Su Chen hang out all day, it's hard to guarantee that this person doesn't know.

"It's okay, it has nothing to do with me." He said with certainty, I don't think one should be too shameless, like Su Chen and him are too shameless.

"Where's Su Chen?" The tall man looked at Yu Xiao and asked.Sure enough, no one didn't know that Su Chen's closest friend was him, so don't run away if something happens!

I held my breath, and when I was about to drag Yu Xiao to run, he said calmly, "I don't know him very well." At that time, I thought it was over, it was really over, and Yu Xiao never knew what it means to be euphemistic when speaking , if this conversation continues, the hooligans will definitely not have such a good temper as me.

096. Xu Chunpian Are Just Friends ([-])

"You fucking liar, hurry up and tell me where Su Chen is now, and you can call him to come over. Anyway, I can't find him today, so don't worry about it."

Damn, it's a rogue, this is a rogue.I feel a little dazed, you know, this is really the first time I have encountered such a thing in person.

"Then lie to ghosts, this matter has nothing to do with me." Yu Xiao put down the cue and said, without any fear, "If you are happy, go find it yourself."

Later, I still admired him and asked him why he was not afraid at all. Yu Xiao told me helplessly, "If you were me, you would only feel impatient. This kind of thing has happened too many times since childhood!"

The sad thing is that the rogue won't feel admiration for him, so he punches him in a very vulgar way, "You don't want to fucking live!"

I want, want to live, absolutely want to live!I don't know about Yu Xiao, he actually responded to the hooligan in front of so many burly men.

To help or not to help, or run away by yourself?No, absolutely not, although we are not even friends, but we know each other after all, right?I mustered all my strength and yelled, "The hooligan hit someone!"

Well, this may be a bit silly, but this is the only thing I can do, even Yu Xiao looked at me in a daze, this is what he wanted. Su Chen, who quietly moved to the door, walked back expressionlessly.He picked up the club on the table and threw it directly at the hooligan, "Damn it! Is he also someone you can hit?"

This time I was stupefied, this guy was so ruthless, the cue broke into two pieces, the bastard staggered and started to bleed from his head.

"Fuck! Hit him, no one will run away today!" The gangster fell to the ground and said, I subconsciously took a step back, watching them fight with that group of people, there is no gain for them, there are too many of them!

But I can't pretend that I'm okay, I admit, this is my first time fighting, my head is a mess, I pick up anything and throw it at the group of hooligans.

I don't know if it was hit or not, but I still feel that I was hit, and there are stars in front of my eyes.Damn, this matter has nothing to do with me!

I thought I would be beaten to death by hooligans, but in fact I was just hiding while being beaten. In the end, I could only circle around the pool table, trying to avoid being beaten a few times. Of course Su Chen was the worst, almost everyone turned to him They greeted each other, and in the end, whoever called the police stopped.

The three of us were miserable, and those few people were not much better.

Fortunately, nothing major happened, at least they were invited to the police station standing up.

I must admit that I am very cramped, this is the first time!The three of us were invited to an office where the statement should be taken. A policeman in uniform sat there and kept asking questions.

"Damn, why is it still bleeding?" Su Chen said while covering her nose,

The policeman glanced at him and said angrily, "I can't die!"

"Then try to leave so much nosebleed!" Yu Xiao said this, "Raise your left hand and have a look." He wiped Su Chen's nosebleed while speaking.

"I can't lift this hand, it hurts." He said, glaring at the policeman viciously, Yu Xiao began to pull his hand,

"Hey! It hurts!"

"What the hell will you do if you don't lift up and keep bleeding?"

"No one will die, will they?"

"..." What the hell are they doing?Yu Xiao helped him lift his arm, and his second uncle seemed to be sitting there, even if he was showing affection, he could see the place, okay?

I sat on the chair and suddenly felt very jealous. They have a world that belongs only to them, and no one can enter it.

"Okay! It's all right! Now tell me why you fought!" said the policeman.

"Because I cheated on her sister." Su Chen said, and let Yu Xiao sit down for a rest. After receiving the policeman's unfriendly gaze, he added viciously, "How do I know why? Either I dumped her, or I said she is not good at bedtime! Or she has virginity complex!"

"I don't beat you much!" The policeman still showed a resentful expression, and he looked at Yu Xiao again and asked, "What about you?"

"Being implicated! Hooligans are unreasonable!" Yu Xiao said, and handed him another clean tissue, "Su Chen, there will be no next time! Don't implicate me every time you make troubles, and you will be afraid if you leave. What are you going to do when you're gone?"

"What about you? What's going on?" The policeman probably lost his patience, and turned to me again.

In fact, I don't know why, because I shouted that sentence-the gangster hit someone? "I just... I don't know."

"Are you friends?"

"...Really." I replied uncertainly.

"Do you want to call someone to bail and pay the fine?"

"Hit..." Su Chen said with a bitter face, and Yu Xiao also showed your self-seeking expression, watching Su Chen walk out with the policeman.

"Are you OK?"

"fine."

He also sighed, probably seeing my depressed mood, "It's okay, he called his dad." He said, looking at the wound on my face, "It's okay, go home and buy some medicinal wine to wipe it off , it’s fine if you don’t hurt your muscles.”

He spoke very lightly, and he didn't try to argue with me, so why did he insist on stabbing me when he spoke, and he was so nice, so I wouldn't always scold him in my heart.

"When you see his father later, just pretend to be aggrieved... That's right, that's the expression!"

"why?"

"He is very accurate at seeing people, and he can tell at a glance whether you are in the same boat or have been implicated."

"Is there any difference?"

"If he was implicated, he wouldn't say anything. If he was complicit, he would basically be as miserable as Su Chen."

It was also at this time that I learned a little about the situation at Su Chen's family. My father worked in the municipal government, and my mother worked in grain and oil a few years ago. I felt tired in the past two years, so I just stayed at home and let my sister do the business.

In short, the family conditions are good, but Su Chen herself is not very promising.

Even this point was confirmed by Yu Xiao. As soon as his father came, he was honest and followed behind his father dejectedly, "Next time if he causes trouble again, you should ignore him and let someone beat him to death." Already!"

"It's not all Su Chen's fault this time." Yu Xiao also helped Su Chen fool him,

"Don't tell me, I don't know who he is? I'm just used to it. I don't care about him if he causes trouble next time. Just lock him up inside!" The middle-aged man nodded to me after finishing speaking, " Come with me!" He whispered, and glanced at Su Chen.

"Farewell." Su Chen turned around and said righteously that his father had completely exploded because of his words, kicked his ass and cursed, "Shut up and see if I don't interrupt you this time." leg!"

Every time I was awakened here, he said goodbye. In fact, he said it to us at that time, but in the dream, he said this to me bitterly, as if he only said to me, "Farewell."

Opening his eyes, it was only five o'clock in the morning, but Qi Sheng was not there.He won't leave me too, will he?I felt a little scared and started running around the house trying to find him.Finally, I found him sitting on the sofa in the living room, looking at something seriously with his back turned to me, holding my diary in his hand.

097. Xu Chunpian Are Just Friends ([-])

At that moment, I had a feeling that nothing was left.There are no more secrets, even Qi Sheng.

I should explain, but there is no way to speak, I am afraid that his questioning will make me feel ashamed, he turned around very slowly, looked at me with a strange look, very cold, so cold that I dare not speak, Afraid of breaking the only little thought.

"Like?" He laughed, "Like him?"

Like, he looks like a naughty smile, but not like that, when he smiles naughty, but he seems to be looking at you seriously, seeing your heart directly.As for Qi Sheng, he was more careless.

I don't know how to answer, what's the point?He gradually restrained his smile, but the arc of the corner of his mouth was still upward, a self-deprecating arc.

He didn't speak any more, and he wasn't even as angry as he imagined. He threw the diary back on the coffee table, turned and left.

I don't want him to go, but there's no reason to stay.

And I also hate him for touching my secret, which should be buried in the sand, but he turned it out with his own hands.I have no way not to find a reason to blame him, I just hope that there is someone who can help me bear this mistake.

He didn't look for me in the few days after that. I once called him, but he answered, but didn't speak. The other end of the phone was a woman's panting.

I don't know what's wrong with me, but he always said to me: Xu Chun, in fact, your temper is really bad.Only Qi Sheng said that, and I really seemed to put all my good temper on Su Chen.

I knew he was angry with me, but he didn't want to bow his head.

It's enough, I only need one copy of humble feelings, I don't want it, and I can't afford a second one.

During those few days, I felt like I was always in a daze, sleeping and eating, and sitting at the bar at night to kill time.It's as if that's the only way to stop thinking about him.

I like to watch people of all kinds and sexes. Most of them are for sex. In fact, there is nothing wrong with this essence. While having sex, they are also looking for pure love.

I think everyone got it wrong.Love only happens for a moment, not even as long as sex.The person you want at that moment may be love.

As for the rest, it is just to give time to grind away the passion, leaving a depressing and trivial life, discovering the unbearable shortcomings of the other party, and then parting ways.

Maybe I was always wrong.

Su Chen was there that night, he often appears here, I am not surprised by him, even though he had no feelings for men, but he loves to play too much, always looking for excitement and novelty, this should be a good opportunity for him pastime.

He didn't see me, he just sat there drinking by himself, not even in the mood to find out if there was anything new, I heard myself laughing ironically, maybe there was only one person who could make him feel unhappy.

But the habit is really scary, I keep telling myself, forget it, he never has you in his heart, but I still sit quietly beside him, look at him quietly like before, or listen to him talk about his recent troubles thing.

And all I could do was say what he wanted to hear.

He never knew that in front of him, it might be the time when I lied the most.All he needs from me is someone who agrees with his ideas.

Besides that I often wondered what I was to him.

He once answered me this question: friend.Is that what he said, really?Maybe he knows better than anyone else, what else.

But he won't say it, and I won't, but no friend will abandon his lover just to pick him up drunk.No friend will ignore his own thoughts and feelings just to make him happy.

Su Chen's confidence is because I love him, so much that I can ignore myself.

And my confidence is because he needs me like this.

As for Qi Sheng, I just relied on his willingness to change for me, ever.

It's like a circle with no end and no beginning.There is no way out, only to be trapped here forever, endlessly.

Habit?It's better to say it's cheap, what you can't get is always what you miss the most in your heart.

In fact, we always think that we missed it, and the scenery behind us is the most beautiful, but why no one remembers, no matter how beautiful it is, it will not be yours after all?

"You're a little weird today."

I don't know if I should be flattered, but he even took the initiative to talk to me when he was in a bad mood. He has changed a lot in the past two years. He no longer spends a lot of time and money on games, no No matter how flamboyantly messing around as in the past, I seldom drink with those cronies until I get home drunk.

And that face also gradually faded away from the youthfulness of the year, making it even more difficult to look away.More often I wonder if I really understand him.

For him, letting go is an easy thing, even if he likes it, as long as he turns around, he will never look back.I don't know and don't want to know how much ruthlessness he has.

"It's nothing, it's been good lately."

He didn't say anything more after hearing this, and started drinking again in a muffled voice, "What's wrong with you? Are you unhappy?"

"Is it that obvious?" He laughed, and touched his face seriously, "It's nothing, it's just about work."

"I thought it was because of Yu Xiao." I couldn't control myself to say that, I just didn't think they were friends, not just friends.As time went on, the feeling only deepened.

"No, he helped feed that little boyfriend during this time, so he doesn't have time to talk to me." He chuckled, unable to see any exact emotion.

Just about to tease him a few words, I saw Qi Sheng walking in, is he looking for me?I think my gaze was so focused that Su Chen even turned her head to take a look.

But he turned his head blankly, they were not familiar with each other, even though everyone thought they would become friends.

Qi Sheng must have drunk too much, I feel that his steps are a bit unsteady.He walked up to me, looking haggard and lost, for a moment I could feel my joy, look, someone still cares about me, right?

He seemed to want to say something to me, but he saw Su Chen sitting on the side, "You want to fuck him?" Qi Sheng said.

I saw Su Chen looking at me with a slightly surprised expression, why did she look at me.At that moment, I really felt that I was too humble. He knew it, always knew it, and I knew it, but why did he make me so sure.

"Get out! Get out!" I pushed Qi Sheng vigorously, hoping that he would leave immediately and leave me with some dignity. Even if he knew it well, I didn't want anyone to expose it.

"Okay! Very good!" Qi Sheng looked down at me, angrily, he just said that, turned and left.

And I just feel tired, I don't even want to look at Su Chen, and I don't want to know what he thinks.

I wanted to rest, but he suddenly took my hand.

098. Xu Chunpian Are Just Friends ([-])

"What happened?" he asked, and I could hear the sullenness in his voice.

"Nothing!" I turned around and shouted at him, "I'm tired and need to rest." I quickly adjusted my tone and said, I have nothing, even if it's just a phantom, I hope he won't turn away go.

Unexpectedly, he suddenly laughed and brought me to him with all his strength. I couldn't take my eyes off my eyes. Those eyes were the same as before, and their dazzling brilliance would not be covered up in the sun.

"Xu Xiaochun." He said, pinching my face and looking at me repeatedly.

I can feel my smile, sometimes it's as simple as, "Su scum." Exactly the same as back then.I thought he would say something else, but he just turned and walked away.

leave me alone.

It's always like this, he gave me the illusion of tenderness, and then left ruthlessly.So unfeeling that I didn't even allow me to turn around first.

It hurts, and I'm always alone.What is there to be nostalgic for? From the very beginning, he chose Yu Xiao instead of me.I know, he loves him.He loves him, as long as there is no one more important than him around Yu Xiao.

Then what am I?

In his sophomore year, he once said he loved me.

That day, he was so drunk that I sent him back to the dormitory.He was lying on the bed, talking about something non-stop, and I was sitting next to him, and only then would I feel satisfied.

When it's just us, he won't have only one other person in his eyes.

I can feel that he has a different feeling for me, different from other friends, but he is not gay, although he does not reject it, but I have too many fantasies about him.

Just like today, he held my hand tightly and gently stroked my face. He only had eyes for me, and he let me fall willingly.

He came close to me, so close that I couldn't breathe, and he kissed me, very lightly, as if probing, I was completely frozen and didn't even know what to do, the tip of his tongue slid over my lips, which made me suddenly Waking up, she pushed him away in a panic.

"Do you know who I am?" His eyes were still bright, even drunk was just an illusion.

I was so anxiously waiting for his answer, "Xu Chun." He said, suddenly felt very happy, this is what I want, in fact, it has never been so simple.

He pulled me over and pressed me on the bed in the dormitory. It was different from the temptation just now, but a very intimate and bold kiss. I found it hard to breathe. He knows this well, and he is with different women.

It's a woman, I have such a moment of hesitation and sadness, but as long as I have him, I don't care.I didn't know what to do, I just hugged him instinctively and kissed him back awkwardly.

Until he tore the buttons of my clothes, I thought it was all a dream.

My willing dream.

If it was a dream, we would still wake up after all, but it was too fast and too sudden. Suddenly someone pushed open the door of the dormitory, and we all looked over in surprise, followed by a long silence.

It was Yu Xiao, who stood there expressionlessly.

He didn't say anything, didn't even show any extra emotion, he just took a deep look at Su Chen when he turned around, and left quietly again.

Su Chen didn't move for a long time, he seemed to be thinking about something, his eyes were lowered, and the emotion in his eyes was blocked by eyelashes, which made me feel scared.

I grabbed him, I knew what he was going to do, I just begged him, "Don't go." Don't leave like this, make me feel so humble, don't leave like this, at least give me a fantasy that I am still important, instead of His whim.

He smiled, a helpless smile, he always likes to pinch my face, "I'm sorry."

"Don't go! Don't go looking for him!" I didn't know where the courage came from, I stopped him in front of the dormitory door, "What am I? What is Yu Xiao in your eyes?"

He sighed, and even scratched his hair in annoyance. Soon, he gave me an explanation, which was also the explanation that I have been concerned about for so many years. He said to me gently, "Xu Chun, I like you, but you know my love. , I will not be devoted to anyone, so I was wrong, isn't it better to be friends? Friends forever."

Forever... friends, if more than friends?He never understands what I want, even if he leaves me in the end, I just hope that one day, one hour, one moment, we are more than just friends.

Suddenly I felt stupid, pathetic, and even uncontrollable. I squatted on the ground and burst into tears without any image. I wanted to give up. After so long, I was tired and tired, so it was just a friend.

Someone pulled me and kept asking me to stand up, I just felt that I was in such a mess, I shouldn't be in such a mess, and Qi Sheng would come back to look for me and see the relaxed me with his own eyes.

"Break up? Let's break up, Qi Sheng, we'll be fine in the future!" I just want to save some dignity for myself, since I'm talking about breaking up, let me speak first, it's really enough, there will always be only a waiting role.

Qi Sheng opened his mouth and sneered, he stared at me, let me clearly see the sadness in his eyes, "Break up? Why do you want to break up? That's it, I'm not your only one, and you're not mine either."

"Then what is this?" I thought I was numb from the pain, but I still felt suffocated, "What the hell is this? What I want, what I want, has always been the only one!"

"What is it?" He murmured in a low voice, more like talking to himself, "Let's see how far we can go, and break up after we can't bear it anymore. I just don't want to have any worries." He suddenly tensed Hugging me tightly, I can only hear his hoarse voice, "I don't want to miss you, until I think of you, I will only feel bored."

What did I miss, he loved me, once, so be it, otherwise what am I left with?I said yes that day and continued our relationship.

Fight, argue, and tire each other out.We can only do this, he keeps bringing different women by his side, and will no longer have any tenderness towards me, but he never said to break up, never.

Does he still love me?This gave me the illusion that I hope he loves me again.I've waited for him, and deliberately provoked him, but it didn't work.

I even deliberately used Su Chen to embarrass him, thinking he would turn around.I thought I was wrong, terribly wrong, and sympatheticly stupid.

Until one day, he was sitting on the sofa with his back to me, "Xu Chun, I'm getting married."

For the first time in these days, he spoke to me calmly, just because he was going to get married, and I was still the one who was abandoned.But this time, I won't stay cowardly anymore.

I didn't say anything, but he just quietly smoked the cigarette in his hand and left without hesitation.He doesn't love me anymore.

099. Xu Chunpian Are Just Friends ([-])

During that time, I felt that I was very relaxed, at least I felt that way, really enough, enough of my cowardly role.Su Chen and Yu Xiao are still together, I find it funny, after all these years, what are they waiting for.

Do you have to wait for someone more important than yourself to appear next to the other party before speaking?

Su Chen rarely came to see me again. I knew that he would spend most of his time with Yu Xiao. Not long after, Yu Xiao told me that he was going to Shenyang for a business trip.

That day he came alone, "How dare you stay outside for a long time, you don't know who he is?" I admit that I was a little gloating.

I didn't expect Yu Xiao to laugh too, just as sinister, which reminded me of the phrase 'student' back then. "So come here to find you, call me if you need anything, he won't lie to you."

"Don't be kidding, he won't lie to me?" Who doesn't lie, he just lies habitually, and no one can do anything about him. It is harder to hear a truth from his mouth than to see a Martian.

Yu Xiao sighed and looked at me helplessly, "Don't worry, you are the one he trusts most."

"Are you mocking me?" What does he mean?Su Chen believed in me, so I never thought I would say it.

"You've been acting weird lately." He wasn't angry either, but just handed me a bottle of beer, "Xu Chun, you should understand that no one just wants to have fun, so what else is there for me to do with him?"

I can't say anything, I seem to understand his feelings, at least I want to play with him, "Do you know what he said most often?"

"what?"

"It's just for fun, so what are you doing seriously?" Yu Xiao said, smiling helplessly, "I'm just afraid, what should I do if one day he says the same to me."

"No, he's serious this time." I don't know if I have the qualifications to comfort him, but I just feel that Su Chen came to see me some time ago, and he asked me if I should go to Yu Xiao.

I gave him an affirmative answer, against my will, because it was the answer he wanted.There was absolutely no way I could break the habit of always saying what he wanted to hear.

In fact, I want to treat him, why bother, is it not good to be a friend?I think he was right when he said that if we were no longer friends, we might have trouble with each other that we never wanted to see again.

I think I'm cranky again, until he says again, "But what's the matter with you lately?"

"What?" I pretended to be surprised.

"Hey, can you polish your eyes for a while? Even if you finally fly Qisheng, at least find a passable one!" He said seriously, and I should have felt angry at first, but his eyes were full of concern .

Suddenly I was relieved, what else is there, I have known Yu Xiao for so many years, but I didn't expect that he was the one who found out that something was 'wrong', and he was the first one to open his mouth to care about me.Although it is still ugly to death.

"Otherwise, what are you looking for? Someone like Su Chen?" I also became interested and started talking nonsense with him.

He didn't look unhappy at all, "Well, then you should be like this."

"Why? Are you afraid that I will snatch him away?"

He snorted and said, "I'm afraid he has no concentration! Let me deal with this kind of disaster."

We looked at each other and smiled, too, five years, isn't five years of entanglement enough for us to be friends?How much love can go through five years?In fact, there are too many things to ignore, not just love.

100. Xu Chunpian is just a friend ([-])

Cry and start over, that's what I've always thought about during that time, and then find another person, fuck with a different person, still can't find it.

I'm just afraid of being lonely, as if I'm always the only one. As for what the family members are like, my memory has begun to blur.

Maybe they only cared about my brother, or maybe he met their ideal requirements, so they could abandon me without hesitation, like a piece of garbage.

Whatever, nothing is mine anyway, not even one-liners, is it?After so many years, the debt has been paid off long ago, but there is still the smell of Su Chen here.

At the beginning, he moved the money his mother had always saved for him, and invested it all here.I don't know what he thought at the time, but when asked later, he only said: It's not better to stay there than to make money.

I want to return this place to him, but I just leave here and break up, so I should be relieved.

I never imagined that Qi Sheng would come back to me on his wedding day.

He was so drunk that he stood in the room and smashed many things, I just watched, that's great, who said I'm the only one in a mess?He even looks like a lunatic.

"Why don't you come? Why don't you come!" he yelled at me.

"What are you going to do? Say congratulations to you?" I really feel tired. Now, what is he still doing when he comes back? "I, Xu Chun, are cheap, but I can't do anything to you!"

He stood there staring at me, it felt like he wanted to kill me, he suddenly let go of the tightly held hands, rushed over to hug me, his arms were still warm, It's also hard to break free.

It was also at this moment that I realized that I wanted him to come back so much. When I looked back at me, he hugged me so tightly that I felt suffocated. He whispered in my ear, "No marriage, no marriage. ...I love you," he said.

There was such a moment of being moved and desperate, he said he loves me, this is the only thing I lack, isn't it?But soon, I felt like I was sneering, do you love me?Or is it because that woman's family background is no longer worthy of him?

"Yeah, I love you too, Qi Sheng." I said, not lying, and I didn't want to expose anything, why don't I love you?It's just that there is more than love in my heart.

In fact, we are all deceiving ourselves and others, and we all know in our hearts that we cannot go back to the past.We fucked, still lingering like lovers, but when our bodies cooled down, we were relatively speechless, more often we went to sleep separately.

Later, he wouldn't even stay anymore, fuck, and leave.

I don't know how sincere he is, I just know that the relationship between him and Su Chen has eased a lot, but he keeps silent about me, he no longer trusts me.

Until one day he was very drunk and came to me. This is the him I was waiting for, the one who will never be sober again.He smiled at me, foolishly presumptuously, pointed at me and said, "Xu Chun, do you know why I came back? Because I still miss you." He said, pointing his head down at his chest, "I still can't let it go here, When one day we no longer miss it, we will break up."

He said, walked in front of me and pulled me to sit on the sofa together, "You know? I still care about you if you don't like it, right? You still care, right?"

He kept repeating, his eyes slowly turned red, and he even cried out. He took my hand, and tears fell on it, "Tell me, when will I not care?" The tears are really hot , the skin hurts.

At that moment, I was so scared