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Who knows?But it seems that I really drank too much, he kept asking! "Xu Chun seemed to become irritable again, and he quickly stuck to my body, "Isn't it just doing it?He can do the same, but everyone has the right to know the truth. "
What the fuck drank too much, this man couldn't be more sober, "You don't need to know, it will only cause trouble, don't you fucking understand?"
"Yes! There is trouble. Why the hell are you going out to do it when you are in trouble?" He grabbed my collar and asked loudly, as if I was Qi Sheng.His eyes are still big and clean, but there is anger and helplessness in them that I have never seen before.
For a moment, I thought I could see Yu Xiao's thoughts through him, but in a trance, I seemed to understand something, but I didn't seem to have anything at all.
"Shit!" I pushed him away, "You think you're doing the right thing? Or are you fucking here too?" I don't know if it was to match our quarrel, the man who walked into the bathroom was also there Come out at this time and greet me with a smile.Who the hell does he think he is?
I wanted him to go away, but Xu Chun waved his hand, generously took out a few banknotes and put them in the man's hand, and exchanged a kiss passionately.The strange man smiled and left with a fucking disgusting expression on his face.
Xu Chun suddenly raised his hand to touch my face, that face was nakedly provocative, "I'm doing it too, but unlike you, I pay for it."
"You pay? Pay someone else to do it?" I easily waved him away, and Xu Chun lay on the bed with a numb face, looking up at me, "You are really cheap to a certain extent."
"Yeah, I'm cheap." He replied calmly, not like him at all, "What about you? You think you are good, and when you see passable people, you think they will accompany you to bed for nothing, so you're not fucking cheap .”
I'm speechless by him, I don't know what's wrong with me, I've been fucking fucked up for the past two days, and I don't even want to be like this, it's like my whole life has been depressed to some extent.But these are unexpectedly contradictory, isn't life like this?
Sex and money, if you have them, and don't need any responsibility.
"Su Chen, do you really care about Yu Xiao?" He asked, lying on the pure white wrinkled sheets, his pale skin seemed to be turning blue, "If you don't care, why are you together?"
I should answer him, I care about it, and even really imagined how to explain it to my parents in the future.But this does not mean that during the period, I have to take the initiative to promise something, or restrain myself from having fun.Is this also wrong?But I didn't say anything, there is no need to explain to Xu Chun.
Before I left, I felt a trance in front of my eyes, Xu Chun seemed to be crying, and the tears fell on the white bed sheet, but no trace was left.His soul was floating in mid-air, constantly wandering and wanting to leave like crazy.I know this must be my illusion.
Everything is intertwined in front of my eyes, unrealistic, in fact, my brain can't think calmly at all.I wanted to figure it out, but felt that all of this happened too suddenly. Before yesterday, weren't we still fine?Or, these problems just haven't had time to solve.
"Are you back? How was the blind date today?"
Oh, I should really thank her for reminding me.But what is she waiting for?Even if you have a son and a grandson, it can't be done in a while, right?
"I'm asking you something, what's the matter? Are you unhappy?" She followed closely behind me, suddenly feeling out of breath.I'm 26 years old, why does she still interfere in everything, refuse to withdraw from my life and let me have a quiet time?
"You go back first, I'm very annoying." Although she wanted to ignore her altogether, it didn't work at all.She is my mother, and that will never change.
"Su Chen? Could it be that Han Zhu..."
"Can you stop asking? I'm really annoying now! If you can, please leave here now and let me stay by myself for a while!" I turned around and said, just in time to see her surprised and unbelievable eyes.yes!It's all my fucking fault for failing so many people.Friends, family, and him.
Growing up, I never lost my temper with her like that, but I don't want to go back and make her happy, or apologize to her.I just hope she realizes that there are times when all I need is a space to be free.Even if her intentions are good, she still shouldn't decide anything for me.
Actually, I thought she would lose her temper with me, but she just nodded with a forced smile, turned and left.Also on this day, I found that she also had gray hair.
There is guilt in my heart, and for her, it is more because I feel relaxed about her leaving.I can't even tell if I'm starting to hate my parents, although I know it's completely inappropriate.But sometimes, such absurd thoughts can't be restrained at all.
Fortunately, her departure finally made me think about what to do with Yu Xiao.I understand that what I said today was too much, and what I did was wrong.The only difficulty is that I just care about him and don't want him to leave me.
What's even more haunting is that I know why he's coming back.Because tomorrow is my birthday.
059. Sexually Derived Questions 1
Maybe I should call him first, after all, I was the one who made the mistake first, but I feel a little embarrassing.Yu Xiao, I understand, as long as he calms down, everything can be discussed.Thinking about it now, he must care about me to get so angry.
It was a bit awkward when I opened the door of his house. After all, this is his home, even if I have my key.Suddenly feel that one day, we will have another brand new home that belongs to us.I, myself, was horrified by the thought.I admit that I am not prepared to hold hands with anyone for the rest of my life, not even him.
Even if he is always in Shenyang, his room is always very clean, and I will always come to take care of it regularly, or simply live here.
I always feel that even if he is not here, he still feels more comfortable than his own home, which seems like a terrible habit.
Here, there is still no change, only the suitcase at the door.
If he was there, I would definitely laugh at him for always going back and forth like this, where are there so many things?And always 'fighting' about it.In the end, I was asked to help him rearrange.
Every time such a result, I feel very unwilling, but he is not here now, I still help him organize it, which is also a habit.But this doesn't prove anything, or make me feel at ease, instead, I have a kind of anxiety.
Does this prove that, to some extent, I depend on his existence?
Opening the suitcase, I found an exquisite gift box at the bottom.Well, I'm starting to doubt again, or if I find a lot of fruity and colorful Durex in it, then I must be mad.
It was like a child opening the first porn in his life, his heart was beating like it was going to pop out of his chest.I know it's a little shameful, and even a voice in my heart keeps telling me that peeking at other people's things is too shameless.Count, count, I have done too many shameless things, and this one is not bad.
It’s fine if it’s Durex inside, but if it’s a collector’s edition gift from someone, I’ll definitely throw it away without hesitation, as if I don’t know anything.
As soon as I made up my mind, the voice behind me made my hands tremble. If I didn't pay attention, the gift box fell to the ground.
This is so fucking unmanly, and this sound is just imaginary because I was too nervous.
When I turned around again, I just saw a piece of paper fall from the gift box.There seemed to be something written on that piece of paper, very neatly.it is as expected!How dare you write a love letter?Damn love letter?How old are you, a pure teenager pretending to be a fuck?
I bent down to pick him up, but I felt like something was blocked in my heart, with mixed feelings.
I don't know who else had a birthday recently, and it said happy birthday.I will not admit the neat handwriting on it, it is Yu Xiao.
In there is a watch that we saw in a magazine last month and I just dropped a liking at the time.It was just random really, and now it's not random because of him.
This may be a little shameless, but right now I really couldn't be happier.Kind of like a child who has been waiting for a gift for a long time.
"I don't have time to play mahjong right now." Just when he wanted to call Yu Xiao, Qi Sheng just called.Nothing else, besides playing mahjong, drinking or clubbing, I really can't think of anything else at this time.
"Do you want to go alone? Yu Xiao is here!"
"Did you ask me for help?"
"Don't worry, even if I, Qi Cheng, encounter something that can't be solved, I will never ask you for help!" He paused, and then asked, "Has Xu Chun said anything to you recently, or have you found out why he so weird?"
Everything I saw in the morning flashed through my mind, "No!" I hung up the phone, tried to ignore the emotion that could not be called guilt, and hurried to the single line.On the way, I couldn't help thinking about what to do if Yu Xiao played his temper with me again. I don't know if it would be useful to pretend to be pitiful at the critical moment. I just hope that there are not too many people traveling alone.
The location here is a bit biased, unlike bars deliberately chosen in bustling areas, this city is still not tolerant of same-sex people, and most people will not choose to be exposed.And recently, I always feel that more and more people gather together in a single row.
The lights seem to be more bizarre, blue and green are intertwined, and everything in front of me begins to blur.Laughter and jokes, and the smell of tobacco that seems to hang in the air forever.
Everyone starts to be more unrestrained, looking for excitement and sex here, or a relationship that is considered curious or new.No one really knows what it is they want.
If I'm like this too... probably not, I came here just to find him.
In fact I almost fucking passed him!
With a skeptical attitude, I turned around and saw him hugging another man, talking and laughing.That man obviously had a tendency to flatter him, and he stuck to him with a flattering face!This person must be no different from the one in Xu Chun's room this morning!
Should I just turn around and leave?Pretend you didn't see anything?Fuck the farts!If this goes away, is it still a man?
"What are you doing?" I raised the volume to keep my voice from being drowned out by the music, but my throat was unspeakably dry.
Yu Xiao finally raised her head, with one hand still hanging on the shoulder of the strange man. There was a Yang Yi back then, but now there is a No. [-] Yang Yi? "What are you doing here?" He said, letting go of his hand a little tiredly, a small piece of white arm was exposed under the rolled up black sweater, which glowed strangely under the colorful lights.
"I asked what are you doing?" No man would care about this, let alone his perfunctory look?
Unexpectedly, he was sitting on the bar chair, looking up at me condescendingly, the corners of his eyes drooping as if showing disdain for me, "Did you come here just to quarrel with me?" Why do these words sound so familiar?Did I say the same thing today? "What are you in a hurry for? There is nothing."
He said, slowly shaking the exquisite cocktail in his hand, his black and white eyes seemed to be able to see through something, "Someone told you I'm here?"
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Qi Cheng who was about to turn around and leave in time, "He." I betrayed him without hesitation, that's the best way, so that Yu Xiao's teeth would itch with hatred when he saw him, lest he destroy us in the future relationship opportunities.
"Don't blame me! When I was on the phone just now, you were just sitting here by yourself!" Qi Cheng was not polite, leaning against the bar with a cigarette in his mouth.
"So what if I'm not sitting here?" He stared at the cocktail glass and asked, turned the bar chair slightly, and carefully placed the cocktail on the bar.
060. Sexually Derived Questions 2
"What do you mean? I'm still here, you just talk to other men... Are you going too far?"
"What did you see? It's just a few words, Su Chen, can you correct your narrow-mindedness?" He smiled, no doubt a sneer, and took out two cigarettes with his slender fingers and held them between his fingertips, as if Pass the gossip to Qi Cheng as usual.Under the light, the cigarette seems to be surrounded by colorful mist, which makes people dizzy for a while.
"What? Are you making a noise here?" Just as I was about to speak, Xu Chun came out from the side, put one hand on Yu Xiao's shoulder, and took another cigarette from his hand and held it to his mouth, "Don't make trouble Alright, I'm treating guests to a drink today."
Xu Chun didn't look at me when he said these words, and was about to turn around to get some wine when a noisy voice came from behind, "What are you talking about?"
Damn, it turned out to be him!If the man who sold Xu Chun this morning was smart, he must shut up now.
It seems that there are countless circles of light floating back and forth in front of my eyes, so unreal.If I have to say something, I can't even tell what happened in the last two months.But I know that something is starting to change, and what was once carefully managed is crumbling.
Those sources of change and every tiny detail are silently piled up bit by bit until they collapse.
Except for my turning a blind eye, everyone is not friendly enough to look at this person. He will realize something, and then turn around and leave. Before Xu Chun speaks, I am very sure.
"Come and sit, these are my friends." Xu Chun said with a smile, walking between the man and me, "Didn't you guys meet today?" Those big innocent eyes just looked at him My tone was as gloomy as a ghost in a horror movie.
His tone was so weird that anyone would think it was wrong, Qi Cheng was no exception, he smoked hard, looked at us suspiciously, moved his lips, as if he was about to open his mouth to ask something, "Qi Cheng, Do you want to know who he is?" Xu Chun spoke first, then turned to look at Qi Cheng, with provocative affection, then tiptoed to kiss the man's lips.
This time, even Yu Xiao turned his head, just watching what happened in front of him with an expression that had nothing to do with him.
They kissed deeply in front of everyone, and also took away everyone's ability to breathe and think, "That's it, we did it today." Xu Chun stood in front of Qi Cheng with a smile again, pulling Qi Cheng with a slutty gesture. Sheng's collar, "Yesterday and the day before yesterday, I also had sex with other people, but not the same one."
Qi Sheng lowered his head, unexpectedly just kept silent, he stood there smoking continuously, behind him was everyone's most erosive posture and expression, "You mean, you guys are kidding me?" He sternly I clenched my fist and the half of the burning cigarette butt, those of them naturally included me.
Now, he is looking at us with a look of resentment, but he is holding back and suppressing it.
Xu Chun seemed to be really afraid that the world would not be chaotic, and said with a smile, "This is our relationship Qi Cheng, you mess with you, and I mess with mine." He opened his hands and shouted loudly, "I, Xu Chun, can't do anything to you." What did you say? You took off your pants and yelled welcome?" His tone was full of self-deprecation, so sharp that it seemed to pierce the eardrum.
"So? That's why you fucking teamed up to lie to me?" Qi Sheng raised his hand and threw away the cigarette butt in his hand, pulled Xu Chun's hair and cursed, "You and Su Chen teamed up to lie to me, didn't you? If you don’t admit that you haven’t done it, I’ll fuck you! A fucked up guy, and you…”
He paused, looked at me, and still pulled Xu Chun's hair.If it was in the past, no, if it was two months ago, I would return everything for Xu Chun.But now, Xu Chun stared at me with a numb expression, and there was disgust and hatred in those eyes that I couldn't understand.
"And you, one day you will end up with nothing!"
"Oh, thank you for reminding me." I heard my calm voice, and felt my stomach start to hurt. With the beating of my stomach, I seemed to notice something, nothing?I looked at Yu Xiao who was silent all the time, he was picking up the cocktail glass and sipping.I suddenly feel tired. The tension and pressure of these days have all turned into a large and shaped object, making me breathless.
He put down his wine glass lightly, seemed to see him smile at me in a trance, then turned and left.
I don't know why Qi Cheng and Xu Chun are still arguing and arguing in my ears, isn't it okay to just let them go?I don't know what happened to Xu Chun, or what they think of me, it's up to them.I just, just suddenly felt that Yu Xiao had never changed, leaving me with a seemingly free and easy back as before, as if he didn't plan to come back.
The winter in the north is always long and tiresome, and the bitter wind seems to be able to blow away all the heat.There is also this equally boring city, the feeling of familiarity and strangeness will always make people feel helpless.
The changes in this city are beyond anyone's control, but standing in this place that has been in and out for many years, it is suddenly strange to the point of confusion.
I think, I am flustered, and I want to find him in a panic.
Why is it late at night, but people are still walking up and down the road without taking a break?Like the numb and hurried faces during the day, those greedy and rotten faces are really fucking disgusting.They will always block the distance between us, even if it is very small, it is enough to stop.
I hurried across the corner and saw him leaning against a telephone pole.
He put his hands in his pockets, raised his head slightly, and looked at the snow that was scattered by the wind and fell on the building.
The streetlights were very bright, illuminating everything around him, the old street, and the crystal snow fluttering above his head.The halo formed an unintentional circle under his feet, and it was difficult for me to take a step forward as he stood inside.
I thought that I would look at him quietly like this, thinking about those abstract concepts without knowing the so-called, until I died.
I don't know if it's an illusion, but the simple lines on his face are very soft, not like the sloppy and casual at home, nor the serious and strict prohibition at work, nor the drunken charm in the bar, but another him that he has never seen before. .
This is not my illusion, he is looking at me now, and smiled quietly.At this moment, I can't help but think about whether he also had this expression when he prepared a gift for me.
"Su Chen." He called my name very softly, "There's no need for us to go until the day we want to see each other and hate each other, right?"
061. Don't Wait To Look At Each Other
"What do you mean?" I asked him in a low voice, afraid that speaking too loudly would dissipate all the good things in front of me in an instant.
"I've thought about it a lot in the past two months." He turned his head again and looked down at his own shadow on the ground, "I also think we might go a long way." He smiled lowly, with a sense of helplessness, " How far away? So far away that I don’t want to see the other party again, or wish that the other party disappears from this world.”
He finally took his hand out of his pocket, and the empty cigarette case.The white cigarette case was squeezed into a ball in his hand, and was thrown to the ground with the arc of his wrist, "Look, it's like it, you know it's gone, so you should throw it away, and you're still holding it in your hand What are you doing? Waiting to be disgusted?"
He, is he talking about me?Say that the relationship between us should be thrown away like an empty cigarette case?No, I haven't done anything for him yet.
"Don't think so much, how could it be?" I said, I don't know whether to comfort him or tell myself, "Go, go home." I didn't dare to look at his face, and I didn't dare to take the initiative to promise anything. He was disappointed, and he didn't want those promises to become shackles that could not be fulfilled one day.
But I really want to do something for him.
"I'm sorry." He still spoke softly, which was too rare in my memory. I would rather he get angry at me, and then say what he wanted to say bluntly.It was also his apology that made my hand hang in the air, and I didn't have the courage to hold him, "I'm sorry I lost my temper with you today, but I won't do it in the future." He said, forcing me to see him.
"We won't have that day." I told him with certainty that I couldn't be more sure, and I would not allow us to go to that day.His eyes told me that he was also shaking and hesitating.All these gave me a glimmer of hope. As long as I open my mouth to keep him, he will be the same as before, and he will.
"Yeah, let's break it up, and that day won't happen."
He turned around, and the nostalgia in the corner of his eyes gave me the courage to grab him, "You don't want me, don't lose your temper, okay? It won't happen in the future." I tried to keep my tone as calm as possible, not wanting him to see my humbleness .
I know I was wrong and made him sad, can't I correct it in the future?It's not like you don't even give me a chance.
He broke free from my hand, but he didn't have any strength. It was just this movement that made me dare not use force, for fear of crushing what was left between us.
"Yeah, Su Chen, you can see clearly, you can see that I, Yu Xiao, love you so I can do whatever I want?" When he said this, there was no anger at all, but something swirled in his eyes, "I tell you , since I am willing today, there is no future, since you know me well, you should understand that what I say will never fail to count."
"What are you angry about? Do whatever you want, just for those irrelevant women?"
"Yeah, those women are irrelevant, damn it." He shook his head and scolded, too much helplessness and bitterness for me to look directly at, "The important thing is how you do it! You fucking make me feel that I don't Like myself!"
I know, I know, it must be because I didn't give him what he wanted, and he wanted someone to focus on, "In the future..."
"That's enough, don't fool me with the same way you fool women, Su Chen, fuck you, I said we don't have a future!" He opened my mouth angrily again and I wanted to hold his hand, "I'm just now I think it's not worth changing for you!"
It's not worth changing for me... This sentence disrupted all my thoughts and erased all the words that made me want to say from my mind.not worth.If he doesn't want to believe me once, what's the use of saying more?
"Let's go, have you nothing to say to me?"
"No more." I heard myself answer him, not even wanting to look at him again, since nothing is worth saying.I'm not so cheap as to make fun of myself, this time, I turned around and left first.
My body seemed to be getting heavy, and I wanted to leave here quickly, but I felt like I was being pressed down by something, and it was difficult to take a step.
He will leave my world like this, without hesitation or nostalgia.
There seemed to be a sudden noise behind him. In this not silent night, there was also the sharp sound of car horns.My blood started to freeze, and I had to turn around in fear.
It's half a street away, so I can't see clearly what happened not far away.What happened, why did those people stand there and watch?He wanted to leave, but it was difficult to move as if he was nailed in place.
Something the fuck must have happened while I'm standing here like an idiot.I ran back like crazy and parted the crowd.He lay quietly on the cold ground, eyes open but unconscious, blood was spreading around him, should this be called death, warm and desperate.
For the first time, I found that I could also be so flustered, I didn't know what to do, or what kind of reaction to do, and I didn't even dare to touch him.His eyes were half open, and those eyes began to slacken under the insignificant gaze of those people.
"It's okay, it's okay Yu Xiao, should we break up? We'll break up, right?" I said incoherently, knelt in front of him, took out my phone tremblingly, and finally pressed the emergency number, but couldn't tell where it was.
Can't tell like a fucking idiot.
It seemed that someone around me snatched the phone and kept saying something.And a voice in my head kept telling me that I was actually reluctant to let him leave, and I couldn't let him leave.He has to live, and then I have to do something.
When I thought this way, I slapped myself hard, so that I could be more rational.
In fact, the first time I was scared to death, but I had to pretend that I could handle everything.I know he won't just leave me like this.I told myself over and over again that my body was covered with his blood, and that smell made me feel sick.
That day, I don't remember how I sat outside the door of the emergency room, my mind was full of those words before the accident, and I kept replaying them back and forth, accusing me over and over again of how sorry I was for him.
If he really has something, how can I pay it back?How can I pay back what I owe him?
Also from this moment on, I never hated myself.All I could think about was responsibility, if something happened to him, would it be my responsibility?No, no, it's not as bad as it is, it's just that the driver ran a red light, and it has nothing to do with me.
That day, I was eager to get rid of the responsibility because I knew I couldn't afford it.
I would never have imagined that, in fact, earlier, he had become my 'responsibility', an inseparable part of my life.What's even more unexpected is that one day, this inability to let go is so heavy that I can't bear it or let it go.
062. Qi Sheng's Troubled Things
That night, I stayed up all night, sitting in front of his hospital bed, although the doctor said he would be fine.He was lying quietly in front of me, except for the slight breathing that proved that he was indeed alive, his face was pale and frightening.
No matter how hard I try to get rid of myself, I still can't get rid of the shadowy guilt.My mind is also in a mess. I feel that I really can't handle this matter, and I can't play it.But there is no one around.The only one who will always be by my side is lying here, just saying goodbye to me.
That night I thought of Xu Chun, and even unexpectedly Qi Sheng.What exactly is a friend?Those who meet and flatter, only seen at the wine table, or those who are noisy but know everything about you?
What is a lover?Even if you are asleep, can you still keep it in your heart?Who do I keep in my heart?
His hand was on the edge of the bed, but he couldn't hold me when I needed it most.His hands are very cold, even if I take the initiative to hold him this time, I can't feel any warmth.His hands are beautiful, and there is a not-so-clear mark on the back of his hand.
That trace was left many years ago, so long that I almost forgot.We were only ten years old at that time. Thinking about it now, we didn't get along very well at that time. I bit his hand and watched him standing there crying.
In the evening he dropped another box of earthworms on my head and made me run home crying.Thinking about it now, those stupid things are warmer than anything else at the moment.
If we were still friends, would it be like before, talking and laughing together, waiting for him to ask me for an excuse in the middle of the night?Or when I can't handle those flamboyant girlfriends, I ask him for help.
"Yu Xiao, how do you know that we will hate each other?"
He won't answer me, but it's enough to make me happy. It's better to be silent than to listen to his confirmation.
There are times when even I can't tell the difference between my feelings for him.I know his facial expressions, his words and deeds well.Thinking about it now, except for the joy when we were just together, everything seems to have not changed, the way we get along, the way we quarrel and make up.
Now, I dare not say that I know him well. What he said and did when he came back this time made me completely confused, and I seemed to understand what he meant.Is it because he accommodated me too much in getting along and made him tired?
But why can't I feel anything?If you get bored now, why not before.Or, he just simply doesn't love me anymore.
"Hey, tell yourself, do you still care about me?" He kept silent like this, which made me afraid. If he really had something today...I didn't dare to think about it myself, and even wanted to ignore him. In such a situation, I simply pulled out his eyelashes one by one, and let him open his eyes and look at me now.
By the way, this is fucking like me, since he will be fine, don't feel sorry for yourself like a bitch, I will give him a surprise, the surprise he wants.
When I thought about it like this, I felt a little better, as if I had fallen asleep lying in front of the window, and I felt sleepy and restless.The mobile phone, which was set to vibrate, dawdled back and forth on the table. In order not to disturb his rest, I barely opened my eyes. I felt so tired and my head was groggy.
"The quarrel is over?" When I picked up the phone, I didn't expect myself to say that. It was Qi Cheng. Thinking about the battle of the century between him and Xu Chun last night, I felt a lot more at ease. If it was said that Xu Chun in the past would suffer , now it is not likely that no matter how bad they are, they will be able to draw with him.
"It's over, Xu Chun is on his knees." He said, using very indecent adjectives, but it made me feel very heavy, as if he was deliberately suppressing something.
"Kneel in seconds? You are waiting for me to kneel now, and then enshrine your prophecy come true, right?"
"That's right." He laughed, "Where are you now? I have something I want to discuss with you, and I can't make up my mind." After he finished speaking, I heard a faint breathing sound, as if he was smoking Bar.
"I'm in the Municipal People's Hospital." I told him that he couldn't leave here, but unexpectedly there was still something Qi Cheng couldn't make up his mind about, so he actually gave a narrow smile.
"You don't have to laugh at me this time, and you're not much better."
When he said that, I couldn't help smiling wryly, looking at Yu Xiao who was lying inside, wishing I was lying there by myself.
Half an hour later, Qi Cheng rushed over with messy hair, a bloody gash on his face, and stubble on his chin. He probably hadn't slept all night.Although I tried my best to endure it, I may have expressed a little bit of gloating.
"When did Xu Chun's skills develop like this?" We said as we walked out, and sat on the chairs in the sanatorium.
"Fuck, don't mention it, that man helped Xu Chun yesterday." He started smoking again, which gave me even more headaches. I don't know what happened. One or two people around me are all smokers. Don't they watch smoking cessation videos? Are you afraid of getting lung cancer in the future? "But what's the matter with you? It's not hurt..." He looked around and asked seriously.
"Don't fucking think about it, it's Yu Xiao who's inside." I said, and I also felt hairy in my heart, what if one day Yu Xiao was really cruel and cut off the only treasure in my life who was more precious than him.
"It's not decent for you to do this, but Yu Xiao doesn't seem like a good stubble either." He rubbed his chin and said.
"Fuck you, he was scratched by a car last night." I tried to keep it simple, and I didn't want them to make a fuss.
"How is it? Is it serious?" He asked, still feeling casual, but serious.
"It's not serious, it will get better soon." I don't want to mention this matter, not to mention that he can't help, "What are you looking for? Ask me how I know Xu Chun is with that person?"
He lowered his head and stared at the burning cigarette with interest. The profile of his face was smooth and capable, very masculine. No wonder Xu Xiaochun fell in love with him.
"It counts as one."
"I went to ask him about Yu Xiao, and I just ran into him."
"I believe this. I know that you have problems with Xu Chun recently, and he seems to be prejudiced against you." He said, throwing the cigarette butt in the trash can, "Do you know that he is now drug?"
He began to rub his temples with his hands, he was haggard like never before, and the dark circles under his eyes were like fucking reincarnated eyes, and they couldn't be counted.
I don't know how to answer him. In fact, yesterday I felt that Xu Chun was a bit strange, and I vaguely imagined it, but I haven't had time to pay attention to it.Thinking about it carefully, this friend of mine is really a failure.
063. Su Chen's Little Thoughts
Just after five o'clock, the sky is still dark, and the end is boundless gray.Because the weather is so cold, there is almost no food in the sanatorium.
What the fuck drank too much, this man couldn't be more sober, "You don't need to know, it will only cause trouble, don't you fucking understand?"
"Yes! There is trouble. Why the hell are you going out to do it when you are in trouble?" He grabbed my collar and asked loudly, as if I was Qi Sheng.His eyes are still big and clean, but there is anger and helplessness in them that I have never seen before.
For a moment, I thought I could see Yu Xiao's thoughts through him, but in a trance, I seemed to understand something, but I didn't seem to have anything at all.
"Shit!" I pushed him away, "You think you're doing the right thing? Or are you fucking here too?" I don't know if it was to match our quarrel, the man who walked into the bathroom was also there Come out at this time and greet me with a smile.Who the hell does he think he is?
I wanted him to go away, but Xu Chun waved his hand, generously took out a few banknotes and put them in the man's hand, and exchanged a kiss passionately.The strange man smiled and left with a fucking disgusting expression on his face.
Xu Chun suddenly raised his hand to touch my face, that face was nakedly provocative, "I'm doing it too, but unlike you, I pay for it."
"You pay? Pay someone else to do it?" I easily waved him away, and Xu Chun lay on the bed with a numb face, looking up at me, "You are really cheap to a certain extent."
"Yeah, I'm cheap." He replied calmly, not like him at all, "What about you? You think you are good, and when you see passable people, you think they will accompany you to bed for nothing, so you're not fucking cheap .”
I'm speechless by him, I don't know what's wrong with me, I've been fucking fucked up for the past two days, and I don't even want to be like this, it's like my whole life has been depressed to some extent.But these are unexpectedly contradictory, isn't life like this?
Sex and money, if you have them, and don't need any responsibility.
"Su Chen, do you really care about Yu Xiao?" He asked, lying on the pure white wrinkled sheets, his pale skin seemed to be turning blue, "If you don't care, why are you together?"
I should answer him, I care about it, and even really imagined how to explain it to my parents in the future.But this does not mean that during the period, I have to take the initiative to promise something, or restrain myself from having fun.Is this also wrong?But I didn't say anything, there is no need to explain to Xu Chun.
Before I left, I felt a trance in front of my eyes, Xu Chun seemed to be crying, and the tears fell on the white bed sheet, but no trace was left.His soul was floating in mid-air, constantly wandering and wanting to leave like crazy.I know this must be my illusion.
Everything is intertwined in front of my eyes, unrealistic, in fact, my brain can't think calmly at all.I wanted to figure it out, but felt that all of this happened too suddenly. Before yesterday, weren't we still fine?Or, these problems just haven't had time to solve.
"Are you back? How was the blind date today?"
Oh, I should really thank her for reminding me.But what is she waiting for?Even if you have a son and a grandson, it can't be done in a while, right?
"I'm asking you something, what's the matter? Are you unhappy?" She followed closely behind me, suddenly feeling out of breath.I'm 26 years old, why does she still interfere in everything, refuse to withdraw from my life and let me have a quiet time?
"You go back first, I'm very annoying." Although she wanted to ignore her altogether, it didn't work at all.She is my mother, and that will never change.
"Su Chen? Could it be that Han Zhu..."
"Can you stop asking? I'm really annoying now! If you can, please leave here now and let me stay by myself for a while!" I turned around and said, just in time to see her surprised and unbelievable eyes.yes!It's all my fucking fault for failing so many people.Friends, family, and him.
Growing up, I never lost my temper with her like that, but I don't want to go back and make her happy, or apologize to her.I just hope she realizes that there are times when all I need is a space to be free.Even if her intentions are good, she still shouldn't decide anything for me.
Actually, I thought she would lose her temper with me, but she just nodded with a forced smile, turned and left.Also on this day, I found that she also had gray hair.
There is guilt in my heart, and for her, it is more because I feel relaxed about her leaving.I can't even tell if I'm starting to hate my parents, although I know it's completely inappropriate.But sometimes, such absurd thoughts can't be restrained at all.
Fortunately, her departure finally made me think about what to do with Yu Xiao.I understand that what I said today was too much, and what I did was wrong.The only difficulty is that I just care about him and don't want him to leave me.
What's even more haunting is that I know why he's coming back.Because tomorrow is my birthday.
059. Sexually Derived Questions 1
Maybe I should call him first, after all, I was the one who made the mistake first, but I feel a little embarrassing.Yu Xiao, I understand, as long as he calms down, everything can be discussed.Thinking about it now, he must care about me to get so angry.
It was a bit awkward when I opened the door of his house. After all, this is his home, even if I have my key.Suddenly feel that one day, we will have another brand new home that belongs to us.I, myself, was horrified by the thought.I admit that I am not prepared to hold hands with anyone for the rest of my life, not even him.
Even if he is always in Shenyang, his room is always very clean, and I will always come to take care of it regularly, or simply live here.
I always feel that even if he is not here, he still feels more comfortable than his own home, which seems like a terrible habit.
Here, there is still no change, only the suitcase at the door.
If he was there, I would definitely laugh at him for always going back and forth like this, where are there so many things?And always 'fighting' about it.In the end, I was asked to help him rearrange.
Every time such a result, I feel very unwilling, but he is not here now, I still help him organize it, which is also a habit.But this doesn't prove anything, or make me feel at ease, instead, I have a kind of anxiety.
Does this prove that, to some extent, I depend on his existence?
Opening the suitcase, I found an exquisite gift box at the bottom.Well, I'm starting to doubt again, or if I find a lot of fruity and colorful Durex in it, then I must be mad.
It was like a child opening the first porn in his life, his heart was beating like it was going to pop out of his chest.I know it's a little shameful, and even a voice in my heart keeps telling me that peeking at other people's things is too shameless.Count, count, I have done too many shameless things, and this one is not bad.
It’s fine if it’s Durex inside, but if it’s a collector’s edition gift from someone, I’ll definitely throw it away without hesitation, as if I don’t know anything.
As soon as I made up my mind, the voice behind me made my hands tremble. If I didn't pay attention, the gift box fell to the ground.
This is so fucking unmanly, and this sound is just imaginary because I was too nervous.
When I turned around again, I just saw a piece of paper fall from the gift box.There seemed to be something written on that piece of paper, very neatly.it is as expected!How dare you write a love letter?Damn love letter?How old are you, a pure teenager pretending to be a fuck?
I bent down to pick him up, but I felt like something was blocked in my heart, with mixed feelings.
I don't know who else had a birthday recently, and it said happy birthday.I will not admit the neat handwriting on it, it is Yu Xiao.
In there is a watch that we saw in a magazine last month and I just dropped a liking at the time.It was just random really, and now it's not random because of him.
This may be a little shameless, but right now I really couldn't be happier.Kind of like a child who has been waiting for a gift for a long time.
"I don't have time to play mahjong right now." Just when he wanted to call Yu Xiao, Qi Sheng just called.Nothing else, besides playing mahjong, drinking or clubbing, I really can't think of anything else at this time.
"Do you want to go alone? Yu Xiao is here!"
"Did you ask me for help?"
"Don't worry, even if I, Qi Cheng, encounter something that can't be solved, I will never ask you for help!" He paused, and then asked, "Has Xu Chun said anything to you recently, or have you found out why he so weird?"
Everything I saw in the morning flashed through my mind, "No!" I hung up the phone, tried to ignore the emotion that could not be called guilt, and hurried to the single line.On the way, I couldn't help thinking about what to do if Yu Xiao played his temper with me again. I don't know if it would be useful to pretend to be pitiful at the critical moment. I just hope that there are not too many people traveling alone.
The location here is a bit biased, unlike bars deliberately chosen in bustling areas, this city is still not tolerant of same-sex people, and most people will not choose to be exposed.And recently, I always feel that more and more people gather together in a single row.
The lights seem to be more bizarre, blue and green are intertwined, and everything in front of me begins to blur.Laughter and jokes, and the smell of tobacco that seems to hang in the air forever.
Everyone starts to be more unrestrained, looking for excitement and sex here, or a relationship that is considered curious or new.No one really knows what it is they want.
If I'm like this too... probably not, I came here just to find him.
In fact I almost fucking passed him!
With a skeptical attitude, I turned around and saw him hugging another man, talking and laughing.That man obviously had a tendency to flatter him, and he stuck to him with a flattering face!This person must be no different from the one in Xu Chun's room this morning!
Should I just turn around and leave?Pretend you didn't see anything?Fuck the farts!If this goes away, is it still a man?
"What are you doing?" I raised the volume to keep my voice from being drowned out by the music, but my throat was unspeakably dry.
Yu Xiao finally raised her head, with one hand still hanging on the shoulder of the strange man. There was a Yang Yi back then, but now there is a No. [-] Yang Yi? "What are you doing here?" He said, letting go of his hand a little tiredly, a small piece of white arm was exposed under the rolled up black sweater, which glowed strangely under the colorful lights.
"I asked what are you doing?" No man would care about this, let alone his perfunctory look?
Unexpectedly, he was sitting on the bar chair, looking up at me condescendingly, the corners of his eyes drooping as if showing disdain for me, "Did you come here just to quarrel with me?" Why do these words sound so familiar?Did I say the same thing today? "What are you in a hurry for? There is nothing."
He said, slowly shaking the exquisite cocktail in his hand, his black and white eyes seemed to be able to see through something, "Someone told you I'm here?"
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Qi Cheng who was about to turn around and leave in time, "He." I betrayed him without hesitation, that's the best way, so that Yu Xiao's teeth would itch with hatred when he saw him, lest he destroy us in the future relationship opportunities.
"Don't blame me! When I was on the phone just now, you were just sitting here by yourself!" Qi Cheng was not polite, leaning against the bar with a cigarette in his mouth.
"So what if I'm not sitting here?" He stared at the cocktail glass and asked, turned the bar chair slightly, and carefully placed the cocktail on the bar.
060. Sexually Derived Questions 2
"What do you mean? I'm still here, you just talk to other men... Are you going too far?"
"What did you see? It's just a few words, Su Chen, can you correct your narrow-mindedness?" He smiled, no doubt a sneer, and took out two cigarettes with his slender fingers and held them between his fingertips, as if Pass the gossip to Qi Cheng as usual.Under the light, the cigarette seems to be surrounded by colorful mist, which makes people dizzy for a while.
"What? Are you making a noise here?" Just as I was about to speak, Xu Chun came out from the side, put one hand on Yu Xiao's shoulder, and took another cigarette from his hand and held it to his mouth, "Don't make trouble Alright, I'm treating guests to a drink today."
Xu Chun didn't look at me when he said these words, and was about to turn around to get some wine when a noisy voice came from behind, "What are you talking about?"
Damn, it turned out to be him!If the man who sold Xu Chun this morning was smart, he must shut up now.
It seems that there are countless circles of light floating back and forth in front of my eyes, so unreal.If I have to say something, I can't even tell what happened in the last two months.But I know that something is starting to change, and what was once carefully managed is crumbling.
Those sources of change and every tiny detail are silently piled up bit by bit until they collapse.
Except for my turning a blind eye, everyone is not friendly enough to look at this person. He will realize something, and then turn around and leave. Before Xu Chun speaks, I am very sure.
"Come and sit, these are my friends." Xu Chun said with a smile, walking between the man and me, "Didn't you guys meet today?" Those big innocent eyes just looked at him My tone was as gloomy as a ghost in a horror movie.
His tone was so weird that anyone would think it was wrong, Qi Cheng was no exception, he smoked hard, looked at us suspiciously, moved his lips, as if he was about to open his mouth to ask something, "Qi Cheng, Do you want to know who he is?" Xu Chun spoke first, then turned to look at Qi Cheng, with provocative affection, then tiptoed to kiss the man's lips.
This time, even Yu Xiao turned his head, just watching what happened in front of him with an expression that had nothing to do with him.
They kissed deeply in front of everyone, and also took away everyone's ability to breathe and think, "That's it, we did it today." Xu Chun stood in front of Qi Cheng with a smile again, pulling Qi Cheng with a slutty gesture. Sheng's collar, "Yesterday and the day before yesterday, I also had sex with other people, but not the same one."
Qi Sheng lowered his head, unexpectedly just kept silent, he stood there smoking continuously, behind him was everyone's most erosive posture and expression, "You mean, you guys are kidding me?" He sternly I clenched my fist and the half of the burning cigarette butt, those of them naturally included me.
Now, he is looking at us with a look of resentment, but he is holding back and suppressing it.
Xu Chun seemed to be really afraid that the world would not be chaotic, and said with a smile, "This is our relationship Qi Cheng, you mess with you, and I mess with mine." He opened his hands and shouted loudly, "I, Xu Chun, can't do anything to you." What did you say? You took off your pants and yelled welcome?" His tone was full of self-deprecation, so sharp that it seemed to pierce the eardrum.
"So? That's why you fucking teamed up to lie to me?" Qi Sheng raised his hand and threw away the cigarette butt in his hand, pulled Xu Chun's hair and cursed, "You and Su Chen teamed up to lie to me, didn't you? If you don’t admit that you haven’t done it, I’ll fuck you! A fucked up guy, and you…”
He paused, looked at me, and still pulled Xu Chun's hair.If it was in the past, no, if it was two months ago, I would return everything for Xu Chun.But now, Xu Chun stared at me with a numb expression, and there was disgust and hatred in those eyes that I couldn't understand.
"And you, one day you will end up with nothing!"
"Oh, thank you for reminding me." I heard my calm voice, and felt my stomach start to hurt. With the beating of my stomach, I seemed to notice something, nothing?I looked at Yu Xiao who was silent all the time, he was picking up the cocktail glass and sipping.I suddenly feel tired. The tension and pressure of these days have all turned into a large and shaped object, making me breathless.
He put down his wine glass lightly, seemed to see him smile at me in a trance, then turned and left.
I don't know why Qi Cheng and Xu Chun are still arguing and arguing in my ears, isn't it okay to just let them go?I don't know what happened to Xu Chun, or what they think of me, it's up to them.I just, just suddenly felt that Yu Xiao had never changed, leaving me with a seemingly free and easy back as before, as if he didn't plan to come back.
The winter in the north is always long and tiresome, and the bitter wind seems to be able to blow away all the heat.There is also this equally boring city, the feeling of familiarity and strangeness will always make people feel helpless.
The changes in this city are beyond anyone's control, but standing in this place that has been in and out for many years, it is suddenly strange to the point of confusion.
I think, I am flustered, and I want to find him in a panic.
Why is it late at night, but people are still walking up and down the road without taking a break?Like the numb and hurried faces during the day, those greedy and rotten faces are really fucking disgusting.They will always block the distance between us, even if it is very small, it is enough to stop.
I hurried across the corner and saw him leaning against a telephone pole.
He put his hands in his pockets, raised his head slightly, and looked at the snow that was scattered by the wind and fell on the building.
The streetlights were very bright, illuminating everything around him, the old street, and the crystal snow fluttering above his head.The halo formed an unintentional circle under his feet, and it was difficult for me to take a step forward as he stood inside.
I thought that I would look at him quietly like this, thinking about those abstract concepts without knowing the so-called, until I died.
I don't know if it's an illusion, but the simple lines on his face are very soft, not like the sloppy and casual at home, nor the serious and strict prohibition at work, nor the drunken charm in the bar, but another him that he has never seen before. .
This is not my illusion, he is looking at me now, and smiled quietly.At this moment, I can't help but think about whether he also had this expression when he prepared a gift for me.
"Su Chen." He called my name very softly, "There's no need for us to go until the day we want to see each other and hate each other, right?"
061. Don't Wait To Look At Each Other
"What do you mean?" I asked him in a low voice, afraid that speaking too loudly would dissipate all the good things in front of me in an instant.
"I've thought about it a lot in the past two months." He turned his head again and looked down at his own shadow on the ground, "I also think we might go a long way." He smiled lowly, with a sense of helplessness, " How far away? So far away that I don’t want to see the other party again, or wish that the other party disappears from this world.”
He finally took his hand out of his pocket, and the empty cigarette case.The white cigarette case was squeezed into a ball in his hand, and was thrown to the ground with the arc of his wrist, "Look, it's like it, you know it's gone, so you should throw it away, and you're still holding it in your hand What are you doing? Waiting to be disgusted?"
He, is he talking about me?Say that the relationship between us should be thrown away like an empty cigarette case?No, I haven't done anything for him yet.
"Don't think so much, how could it be?" I said, I don't know whether to comfort him or tell myself, "Go, go home." I didn't dare to look at his face, and I didn't dare to take the initiative to promise anything. He was disappointed, and he didn't want those promises to become shackles that could not be fulfilled one day.
But I really want to do something for him.
"I'm sorry." He still spoke softly, which was too rare in my memory. I would rather he get angry at me, and then say what he wanted to say bluntly.It was also his apology that made my hand hang in the air, and I didn't have the courage to hold him, "I'm sorry I lost my temper with you today, but I won't do it in the future." He said, forcing me to see him.
"We won't have that day." I told him with certainty that I couldn't be more sure, and I would not allow us to go to that day.His eyes told me that he was also shaking and hesitating.All these gave me a glimmer of hope. As long as I open my mouth to keep him, he will be the same as before, and he will.
"Yeah, let's break it up, and that day won't happen."
He turned around, and the nostalgia in the corner of his eyes gave me the courage to grab him, "You don't want me, don't lose your temper, okay? It won't happen in the future." I tried to keep my tone as calm as possible, not wanting him to see my humbleness .
I know I was wrong and made him sad, can't I correct it in the future?It's not like you don't even give me a chance.
He broke free from my hand, but he didn't have any strength. It was just this movement that made me dare not use force, for fear of crushing what was left between us.
"Yeah, Su Chen, you can see clearly, you can see that I, Yu Xiao, love you so I can do whatever I want?" When he said this, there was no anger at all, but something swirled in his eyes, "I tell you , since I am willing today, there is no future, since you know me well, you should understand that what I say will never fail to count."
"What are you angry about? Do whatever you want, just for those irrelevant women?"
"Yeah, those women are irrelevant, damn it." He shook his head and scolded, too much helplessness and bitterness for me to look directly at, "The important thing is how you do it! You fucking make me feel that I don't Like myself!"
I know, I know, it must be because I didn't give him what he wanted, and he wanted someone to focus on, "In the future..."
"That's enough, don't fool me with the same way you fool women, Su Chen, fuck you, I said we don't have a future!" He opened my mouth angrily again and I wanted to hold his hand, "I'm just now I think it's not worth changing for you!"
It's not worth changing for me... This sentence disrupted all my thoughts and erased all the words that made me want to say from my mind.not worth.If he doesn't want to believe me once, what's the use of saying more?
"Let's go, have you nothing to say to me?"
"No more." I heard myself answer him, not even wanting to look at him again, since nothing is worth saying.I'm not so cheap as to make fun of myself, this time, I turned around and left first.
My body seemed to be getting heavy, and I wanted to leave here quickly, but I felt like I was being pressed down by something, and it was difficult to take a step.
He will leave my world like this, without hesitation or nostalgia.
There seemed to be a sudden noise behind him. In this not silent night, there was also the sharp sound of car horns.My blood started to freeze, and I had to turn around in fear.
It's half a street away, so I can't see clearly what happened not far away.What happened, why did those people stand there and watch?He wanted to leave, but it was difficult to move as if he was nailed in place.
Something the fuck must have happened while I'm standing here like an idiot.I ran back like crazy and parted the crowd.He lay quietly on the cold ground, eyes open but unconscious, blood was spreading around him, should this be called death, warm and desperate.
For the first time, I found that I could also be so flustered, I didn't know what to do, or what kind of reaction to do, and I didn't even dare to touch him.His eyes were half open, and those eyes began to slacken under the insignificant gaze of those people.
"It's okay, it's okay Yu Xiao, should we break up? We'll break up, right?" I said incoherently, knelt in front of him, took out my phone tremblingly, and finally pressed the emergency number, but couldn't tell where it was.
Can't tell like a fucking idiot.
It seemed that someone around me snatched the phone and kept saying something.And a voice in my head kept telling me that I was actually reluctant to let him leave, and I couldn't let him leave.He has to live, and then I have to do something.
When I thought this way, I slapped myself hard, so that I could be more rational.
In fact, the first time I was scared to death, but I had to pretend that I could handle everything.I know he won't just leave me like this.I told myself over and over again that my body was covered with his blood, and that smell made me feel sick.
That day, I don't remember how I sat outside the door of the emergency room, my mind was full of those words before the accident, and I kept replaying them back and forth, accusing me over and over again of how sorry I was for him.
If he really has something, how can I pay it back?How can I pay back what I owe him?
Also from this moment on, I never hated myself.All I could think about was responsibility, if something happened to him, would it be my responsibility?No, no, it's not as bad as it is, it's just that the driver ran a red light, and it has nothing to do with me.
That day, I was eager to get rid of the responsibility because I knew I couldn't afford it.
I would never have imagined that, in fact, earlier, he had become my 'responsibility', an inseparable part of my life.What's even more unexpected is that one day, this inability to let go is so heavy that I can't bear it or let it go.
062. Qi Sheng's Troubled Things
That night, I stayed up all night, sitting in front of his hospital bed, although the doctor said he would be fine.He was lying quietly in front of me, except for the slight breathing that proved that he was indeed alive, his face was pale and frightening.
No matter how hard I try to get rid of myself, I still can't get rid of the shadowy guilt.My mind is also in a mess. I feel that I really can't handle this matter, and I can't play it.But there is no one around.The only one who will always be by my side is lying here, just saying goodbye to me.
That night I thought of Xu Chun, and even unexpectedly Qi Sheng.What exactly is a friend?Those who meet and flatter, only seen at the wine table, or those who are noisy but know everything about you?
What is a lover?Even if you are asleep, can you still keep it in your heart?Who do I keep in my heart?
His hand was on the edge of the bed, but he couldn't hold me when I needed it most.His hands are very cold, even if I take the initiative to hold him this time, I can't feel any warmth.His hands are beautiful, and there is a not-so-clear mark on the back of his hand.
That trace was left many years ago, so long that I almost forgot.We were only ten years old at that time. Thinking about it now, we didn't get along very well at that time. I bit his hand and watched him standing there crying.
In the evening he dropped another box of earthworms on my head and made me run home crying.Thinking about it now, those stupid things are warmer than anything else at the moment.
If we were still friends, would it be like before, talking and laughing together, waiting for him to ask me for an excuse in the middle of the night?Or when I can't handle those flamboyant girlfriends, I ask him for help.
"Yu Xiao, how do you know that we will hate each other?"
He won't answer me, but it's enough to make me happy. It's better to be silent than to listen to his confirmation.
There are times when even I can't tell the difference between my feelings for him.I know his facial expressions, his words and deeds well.Thinking about it now, except for the joy when we were just together, everything seems to have not changed, the way we get along, the way we quarrel and make up.
Now, I dare not say that I know him well. What he said and did when he came back this time made me completely confused, and I seemed to understand what he meant.Is it because he accommodated me too much in getting along and made him tired?
But why can't I feel anything?If you get bored now, why not before.Or, he just simply doesn't love me anymore.
"Hey, tell yourself, do you still care about me?" He kept silent like this, which made me afraid. If he really had something today...I didn't dare to think about it myself, and even wanted to ignore him. In such a situation, I simply pulled out his eyelashes one by one, and let him open his eyes and look at me now.
By the way, this is fucking like me, since he will be fine, don't feel sorry for yourself like a bitch, I will give him a surprise, the surprise he wants.
When I thought about it like this, I felt a little better, as if I had fallen asleep lying in front of the window, and I felt sleepy and restless.The mobile phone, which was set to vibrate, dawdled back and forth on the table. In order not to disturb his rest, I barely opened my eyes. I felt so tired and my head was groggy.
"The quarrel is over?" When I picked up the phone, I didn't expect myself to say that. It was Qi Cheng. Thinking about the battle of the century between him and Xu Chun last night, I felt a lot more at ease. If it was said that Xu Chun in the past would suffer , now it is not likely that no matter how bad they are, they will be able to draw with him.
"It's over, Xu Chun is on his knees." He said, using very indecent adjectives, but it made me feel very heavy, as if he was deliberately suppressing something.
"Kneel in seconds? You are waiting for me to kneel now, and then enshrine your prophecy come true, right?"
"That's right." He laughed, "Where are you now? I have something I want to discuss with you, and I can't make up my mind." After he finished speaking, I heard a faint breathing sound, as if he was smoking Bar.
"I'm in the Municipal People's Hospital." I told him that he couldn't leave here, but unexpectedly there was still something Qi Cheng couldn't make up his mind about, so he actually gave a narrow smile.
"You don't have to laugh at me this time, and you're not much better."
When he said that, I couldn't help smiling wryly, looking at Yu Xiao who was lying inside, wishing I was lying there by myself.
Half an hour later, Qi Cheng rushed over with messy hair, a bloody gash on his face, and stubble on his chin. He probably hadn't slept all night.Although I tried my best to endure it, I may have expressed a little bit of gloating.
"When did Xu Chun's skills develop like this?" We said as we walked out, and sat on the chairs in the sanatorium.
"Fuck, don't mention it, that man helped Xu Chun yesterday." He started smoking again, which gave me even more headaches. I don't know what happened. One or two people around me are all smokers. Don't they watch smoking cessation videos? Are you afraid of getting lung cancer in the future? "But what's the matter with you? It's not hurt..." He looked around and asked seriously.
"Don't fucking think about it, it's Yu Xiao who's inside." I said, and I also felt hairy in my heart, what if one day Yu Xiao was really cruel and cut off the only treasure in my life who was more precious than him.
"It's not decent for you to do this, but Yu Xiao doesn't seem like a good stubble either." He rubbed his chin and said.
"Fuck you, he was scratched by a car last night." I tried to keep it simple, and I didn't want them to make a fuss.
"How is it? Is it serious?" He asked, still feeling casual, but serious.
"It's not serious, it will get better soon." I don't want to mention this matter, not to mention that he can't help, "What are you looking for? Ask me how I know Xu Chun is with that person?"
He lowered his head and stared at the burning cigarette with interest. The profile of his face was smooth and capable, very masculine. No wonder Xu Xiaochun fell in love with him.
"It counts as one."
"I went to ask him about Yu Xiao, and I just ran into him."
"I believe this. I know that you have problems with Xu Chun recently, and he seems to be prejudiced against you." He said, throwing the cigarette butt in the trash can, "Do you know that he is now drug?"
He began to rub his temples with his hands, he was haggard like never before, and the dark circles under his eyes were like fucking reincarnated eyes, and they couldn't be counted.
I don't know how to answer him. In fact, yesterday I felt that Xu Chun was a bit strange, and I vaguely imagined it, but I haven't had time to pay attention to it.Thinking about it carefully, this friend of mine is really a failure.
063. Su Chen's Little Thoughts
Just after five o'clock, the sky is still dark, and the end is boundless gray.Because the weather is so cold, there is almost no food in the sanatorium.
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