adult restriction

Eye circles vomited, and a few words were clearly written on the face - I am a libertine, "Without me, how will Xu Chun live?"

Don't bother to refute him, why is Qi Cheng not conceited?He thought he was Xu Chun's only one, but he never imagined that Xu Chun can still live well without him now.

But is his divorce entirely for Xu Chun?To be honest, I doubt it. I knew when they started organizing the wedding that something happened to Cheng Hui's father, and she was no longer that proud swan, the eldest lady of the municipal party committee.

049. Incarnation of Positive Food

Having said that, looking at Xu Chun's mental disorder recently, it is not unreasonable.In the end, I told him where Xu Chun was.For nothing else, if he could really be nice to Xu Chun this time, why wouldn't it be a good thing?

I know Xu Chun too well, he can't let go of Qi Cheng.

There is another point that cannot be ignored. I believe that he cares about Xu Chun.He left in a hurry, as if saying thank you, but I couldn't hear clearly.

Recently, I always feel that I don't care about many things, live in a trance, and don't want to admit that this is indeed related to his going to Shenyang.While we all try our best to pretend that nothing has changed.

He also kept quiet about the matter, not like he would talk about it when he had something to say.However, there is no need for two big men to say some farewell speeches.

Once I have free time, I will help him pack the things he should bring, and he is no different from usual.Watch boxing or tennis broadcasts with me in the middle of the night, commenting from time to time.

When we disagreed, we would still yell like we used to, just like when we were friends.

The weather was good on the day he left, which happened to be Sunday, and I sent him to the airport.

Looking at the surging crowd and the numb faces of strangers, I suddenly had a kind of courage and wanted to hold his hand tightly.I did, and he looked at me in surprise.

I am very satisfied in my heart, maybe it will always be the same as now, who will pay attention to the two men who have blended into the strange crowd?

"What are you doing? Do you want to follow me?" He joked and looked at me proudly.

"Let's go." I looked at him shamelessly, "I just happened to go to Shenyang for a tour, if it's good, I'll settle there with you."

He lowered his head and smiled, then raised his head abruptly, staring at my face with bright eyes, and kissed my lips the next moment, very briefly, even I myself doubted the authenticity of this matter.

He continued to walk forward as if nothing had happened, and I subconsciously looked around at the people around me, but no one noticed.That's not the point, if it's him, how about just a light touch?

I took his hand, turned around and stood in front of him, "So reserved today?" I teased him, cupped his face and kissed him deeply.

——Whatever, they have half a dime relationship with Su Chen?

This should be a romantic thing, how could I have thought that while he was kissing absent-mindedly, he raised his left hand to check the time, and his wide eyes proved that things were not good.

Before I could hide, he slapped me hard on the head, "Damn it, Su Chen, I'm going to be late!"

"......"late?You'll hit me on the head later, and interrupt such a romantic thing?

But I still held his hand tightly and ran to the ticket gate.I felt the gazes around me, but it wasn't as sharp as I imagined, because I don't care, so let's take it as a blessing.

What happened next was so tight that it caused a headache. After he fumbled for 5 minutes, his face was pale, and he looked at me anxiously, "I seem to have forgotten to bring the ticket."

In fact, I was hesitant to take the ticket out of my pocket, because with his temper... "Why didn't you say it earlier!" He looked at me angrily.

"You didn't ask, how do I know what you're looking for? It's hard to guarantee that you're not looking for Durex!"

"...Shit!" He raised his middle finger and cursed, then turned and left after pushing me.

It was not at all what I imagined, but I have no regrets, he walked easily, and so did I.If two people can be together without suffocating each other, is there anything more rare than this?

When I turned around, I realized that it was only four o'clock in the afternoon, and maybe I had time to rush over to see another person off.

It's not because of how important Yang Yi is to me. One is that there is enough time. Another point is that he looked terrible that night, not even comparable to Xu Chun. I want to tell him everything I know about Si Wen .

Of course I am not so kind, it was Yu Xiao who convinced me with his point of view.

On the way to the airport, I was still quite dissatisfied.Why is the unit's travel never more comfortable than that of an individual?Why didn't the leader of Yu Xiao's unit arrange for him to fly directly to Shenyang? It's so fucking stingy.

Now is not the peak period of travel, and there are not too many people. This made me see Yang Yi sitting in the corner at a glance. He sat there with a blank expression, and most of his delicate face gradually faded away. , the edges and corners become sharp, which makes people feel strange.

I sat quietly beside him, watching silly with him.

In fact, I just don't know how to speak. Maybe it's better for him to speak first.

After about a few minutes, he noticed my existence, "...don't appear so scary all of a sudden, okay?" He did look a little dazed.

"I've been sitting here for over 3 minutes."

He frowned and smiled secretly, "Oh! I see!"

"what do you know?"

"Did you come to see me off because of what happened that night?"

"What am I guilty of? Didn't I help you in the end?"

He snorted dissatisfiedly, stood up and straightened the folds on his clothes.

"Yang Yi, I can tell you about Si Wen."

"I know all about it." He said, standing still and scratching his hair, "I'm hungry, there are two hours left, treat me to dinner." Although I want to refuse him, but I believe that if I refuse to invite a foodie to dinner , is equivalent to not cherishing one's own life.

We found a restaurant at random, and he ordered a table of dishes bluntly, and started to eat, "Delicious, delicious." He kept saying, almost spraying rice grains on my face, "Su Chen, Why don't you eat?"

"I'm full." I said so insincerely that he didn't notice?What's even more exaggerated is that he ate up two bowls of rice in 10 minutes without saying a word, or he was simply the embodiment of gluttony.

Just watching other people eat is not a good entertainment. Just when I was about to sit and fall asleep, he wiped his mouth with a tissue, and he didn't look like he was wolfing down just now.

"Actually, I know all about it."

--what do you know?This was my first reaction, he changed the subject faster than I could keep up.He turned his head and looked out the window, looking like he was at the airport again, looking at something, but he didn't seem to see anything.

"He never liked me, who am I like, right?"

"You ask me, do you want to know who that person is?"

He shook his head and smiled self-deprecatingly, "I want to hear you deny it, but soon I figured it out, what's the point of deceiving yourself? I'm not Xu Chun, and I can't give too much to a relationship that doesn't pay at all."

050. Secrets that have nothing to do with me

In fact, I wanted to comfort him a few words, but unexpectedly, he asked me a question seriously, "Are you not eating it?" I must not have answered, I didn't say I would not eat it!But he didn't want to listen to me at all, so he took away the untouched rice in front of me, and started to eat again.

This guy is too careless about the location, many guests around have already looked over.I'm not old, am I?Right?No one will think that I abused my son, which caused him to eat desperately, right?

In order to let him leave quickly, I paid the bill immediately and dutifully sent him back to the airport.What if he exercises too much after a meal and causes acute appendicitis?Acute appendicitis is not the point. If he doesn't leave, there is no guarantee that what happened today will not happen again.

However, his ability to resist blows was surprisingly good, and he seemed to be falling asleep on the co-pilot.I have to convey this matter to Yu Xiao, the decision to send Yang Yi off was a big mistake.

He couldn't stop laughing all the way because of the half-meat and corny jokes.

It wasn't until he walked to the waiting room that I breathed a sigh of relief.Unexpectedly, he turned around suddenly, walked up to me and gave me a firm hug.

"Thank you, Su Chen, for proving that I still lived in this city." He said, without giving me a chance to be polite, and turned around again. I don't know why, but the endless glass on the opposite side attracted my attention Notice.

Inside, I saw him with his head slightly lowered, and tears all over his face.

Proof that he lived in this city?Yes, fortunately I am here.Even to a stranger, there is no reason to be too cruel.

When the plane took off, there was a huge roar, as if the sky would be shaken down.At this moment, she misses Yu Xiao inexplicably and wants to hear his voice.

Just before pressing the dial button, the phone rang, and my palms started to sweat when I saw the caller ID.I'm not exaggerating at all. Since I saw Yu's mother last time, I feel my legs are weak when I mention him. Even if I can't see the real body now, it still gives me great pressure invisibly.

"you......"

"Come to the city hospital to take a look and help me with the payment procedures."

"What's the matter with you? Or what's the matter with you?" I asked while starting the car, not noticing my language problems at all.

"I twisted my ankle, or I twisted my ankle..." Her humorous answer made me blush, and I hummed awkwardly before hanging up the phone in a hurry.

Isn't this embarrassing enough?It's hard to guarantee that I won't ask in the next sentence: Did you twist your left foot or your left foot......

Fortunately, the matter is not serious, otherwise Yu Xiao must be worried to death. Although he didn't say anything, he could easily see that he cared about her.

I didn't dare to talk too much, I hurriedly helped her make up the formalities, and then rushed back without stopping.

The doctor was walking away leisurely, "What's the matter? Is it serious? Do you need to take a film or something?"

"What are you in a hurry for? Are you a doctor or am I a doctor?" He answered unhurriedly, and that sentence was even more of a slap in the face. Fortunately, I am qualified enough, so I shut up and listened to him quietly. explain.

These days, there are three professions that no one can afford to mess with. A doctor—do you still want your family to recover and leave the hospital?One is a teacher—do you still want to make your child a success?One is the urban management—it’s not easy for you to be the king of heaven.

So in the past two years, I have always wondered why the rate of illness and death is so high, the dropout rate remains high, and the roadside vendors are constantly injured and disabled.

Just when I was slandering the strange things about Tianchao, the doctor left without farting.When I tried my best not to get angry, the little nurse behind him stood in front of me with a smile, big breasts, hips, and loli face.

Most of the anger disappeared in an instant. Well, the high probability of death may be because no one can bear the more tired and better overall quality of nurses swaying in front of them when they are seriously ill.

"Don't worry, Auntie is fine, she'll get better after a few days of rest, but it's always understandable for parents!"

Guiltyly, I glanced behind me, and Yu's mother sat there with no expression on her face, and said while eating an apple, "He's not my son!" After finishing speaking, she gave the little nurse a look, how innocent is the nurse?

Unexpectedly, the little nurse let out an ah, covered her mouth, and kept rolling her eyes on my mother and me, "Oh! I got it!" Then she ran out.

she knows?Know what?Does Lao Tzu look like a little boy?

Looking at Yu's mother, he smiled calmly and said, "It's better to say it's my son."

What does it mean?Does my appearance insult her aesthetics?Woman, woman.Although Yu's mother's attitude is hot and cold, but she should have accepted me from the bottom of her heart, otherwise she couldn't call me at this time, right?

While thinking about self-comfort, he went to prepare lunch for her.

When walking past the brain surgery office on the fourth floor, Si Wen suddenly thought of him. Did he know that Yang Yi was leaving today?Now that you're here, can you always say hello?

I knocked on the tightly closed door twice, and saw one lying in front of the computer watching the old version of Journey to the West, and instantly felt that it was not unreasonable for the quality of doctors to be so high now.

"Is Si Wen there?"

As if I said some terrible name, he turned his head to look at me, and he heard the heart-piercing cry of the monkey on the screen, "Master, don't read it!"master! '

"Are you looking for Si Wen?"

"Yes." Isn't that nonsense?

"Who are you?"

"..." I looked at him speechlessly, he seemed to find himself asking a boring question, would he come to him if he didn't know him?He pushed up his glasses and turned his head to look at the screen again.Damn, isn't it just a monkey rolling on the ground?Just that pretty?

"He just resigned. He just left." He said with certainty, and pointed in the air, "He went over there."

Resign?Will someone let go of a job with such a high salary?When I turned around, the doctor said another sentence, "It's actually a pity." He also sighed very much.

"Why do you say it's a pity?" I don't know why, but I always feel like I missed something.

Who knew that he rolled his eyes and said, "Are you finished? Talk to Si Wen if you have something to say, don't delay my work."

After hearing what he said, I slammed the door hard as if venting my anger.And returned to the first floor with the fastest speed, and saw the thin and lonely figure at the corner of the hospital gate.

"Si Wen!" I called his name, he seemed to have turned around, and just for a moment, he smiled faintly.I'm not sure, because when I arrived at the door, there were people coming and going, but there was no Si Wen.

I don't know why, it's like a kind of intuition, different from Yang Yi's uncertainty, Si Wen seems to have left forever.

This strange feeling only haunted me for a short while, and then disappeared.Even if he has a big secret, it should have nothing to do with me.

The phone rang again, it was Yu Xiao.

We are just getting started.

051. Si Wenpian Ring Mark 1

Secretary articles - acceptable, acceptable.

From that day on, I can only hide in a dark corner, spying on this seemingly still bright world.When he opened his eyes, the whole world was blood red.I would have preferred to be asleep all the time, relying on copious amounts of sleeping pills and occasionally sleeping soundly.

For a while, I even thought I would never live again, but it was an instinct and I couldn't get rid of it.

Breathe, live, and work as if nothing has changed.

The only thing that has changed is that my left ring finger is empty, replaced by ring marks and that ugly scar.That ring was buried with him by me.

But why won't the traces disappear?Only I know, not because I have brought him for a long time, but because every sleepless night, I keep wrapping it with a silk thread.What I wanted to get rid of at the beginning is what I can't lose today.

Most of the time, I don't know what I'm doing, it seems that the whole person is wandering aimlessly all the time.

Until one day, I found a single line. Here, I am still lonely, but it seems that I am no longer lonely.

All kinds of people can entertain me, but I never take the initiative, because it is difficult for me to distinguish different faces under the light.Until one day, a man took the initiative to sit in front of me.

He is very young, and the teeth that show when he smiles are very neat, a little bit bad, and very fresh.Very vivid life, completely different from those seen in the hospital.

"I like to be direct." Tell him clearly, he frowned after hearing this, looking very serious, as if he was thinking about a serious issue.

Just when I thought he would turn and leave, he laughed again, "Me too." That kind of smile made me feel glaring, but I couldn't say no.

What else is there to lose?

What I didn't expect was that he chose to take me back to his home, and it was only in the corridor that I could really see what he looked like.Neat short hair, wheat-colored skin, and thin lips under the straight bridge of the nose.

His eyeballs are very dark, and his eyelashes are not long but extremely thick, giving him a very serious feeling when he is not speaking.It is not difficult to judge from his clothes and age, either he has a decent job, or he has a good family background.

"Su Chen." When I looked at him, he looked at me and said.

I also told him my name out of courtesy.We were equally amazed when we walked into his house, two men were making love on the sofa in the living room.

For a moment, I began to doubt this person's character, but when he turned his head again, his face was full of anger.

He dragged me across the living room, and maybe I shouldn't have looked back at that one look, one of the men, and it left me cold.

All kinds of things from the past keep appearing in front of my eyes. I urgently need a kind of warmth. Now, Su Chen can give it to me.

In fact, I can't distinguish the person in front of me, just whoever he is to get rid of the blood red in front of me.I thought that I was the only one who didn't care about this sex, but when I looked into those eyes, I realized that he was the same.

It's not that he didn't hide it well, it's just that he didn't want to.That is, inadvertently, I discovered a secret.He cared about one of the two men.

Or maybe I shouldn't have said it, he looked at me with a look of contempt.Or he didn't know it himself, the way he slightly raised the corner of his mouth could make people easily angry.

At this point, I can almost judge his exceptional family.

Maybe I underestimated him. Before I left, he didn't say anything, and he didn't get angry at me as he imagined.And I am eager to get out of here.

When I walked past the empty sofa again, I thought that everything just now was my own illusion.

Shang Ke has already died, before my eyes, he left this world without any regrets.Every time I think of him, I feel a headache, the scar on my left hand is burning, and I feel like I have forgotten some important link.

Or, this is just a side effect of long-term use of sleeping pills. As a doctor, I should know it best.

For a while, I would often go to Su Chen's place to make love, or just do their own things quietly, or talk about irrelevant things about our different lives.

From his eyes, I could easily see distrust.Su Chen won't trust anyone easily, and he can't bear any betrayal. He just got along with him for a short time, and he completely exposed his selfish side to me.

But I think he has his own disguise, the reason why he doesn't hide it from me may be the same as how I see him, we are different, even if we sleep in the same bed now, it is just a passing passerby in the other's life.

To such a person, why can't he just say something casually?

Not afraid of secrets that might be revealed, nor of secrets being revealed.

In addition, there is another more important reason for me to be nostalgic here, and I will see Yang Yi.After that, I didn't know her name. Su Chen didn't show any expression when she said his name.

To me, it's different, they are so similar that as long as they see Yang Yi, they have an illusion that nothing happened in the past.

For a long time, Su Chen must have suspected that my appearance was just a purposeful deception, but it was not.If there is anything I manipulated, it is absolutely nothing.I just see through that Yu Xiao's choice is not Yang Yi after all.

I think, I am still conceited, because of my conceit, I didn't see through that I would have a not-so-long relationship with Yang Yi, and then regret it again, because I hurt another 'him'.

Everything started from the one-way party.

When Yang Yi sat in the middle of the stage, playing the guitar and chuckling, and that unscrupulous look, they all coincided with another person.The freedom they have is both the same and different.

That day, he drank too much, I don't know what Yu Xiao thought of him, but he easily left him drunk so alone.

Me, just happened to be home from him.

I always tell myself that these are just coincidences, huh, maybe.

"Go home? I don't have a home!" In the car, he danced and said, laughing heartlessly.

My heart suddenly started to throb, as if I was about to die.Those blurred fragments of memory flashed one by one, the only difference is that this time I can see clearly.

He is in my mind, the coffee shop where we met for the first time, he put down the camera, and looked at me who suddenly appeared with a curious expression, "Shang Ke." He said, took a sip of coffee, and pushed it away again. to my face.

This should be somewhat ambiguous, but we are the same kind of people. Out of interest in him, I have no reason to refuse. When my lips touch the coffee cup, it is the unique mellow aroma of coffee and the light lavender smell on his body, " Go up."

At that time, I also responded to him with a smile.

052. Siwen Chapter 2

Si Wenpian - Can't Sleep

I thought that I would stop breathing in the long memories, until he who was sitting next to him spoke again, there was no trace of drunkenness in his eyes, "Actually, I know that Yu Xiao doesn't love me."

His expression was finally no longer relaxed, he lowered his eyes, and buried himself in his palm, "I know that he loves me, and I can't be so fucking clear in my heart!" His voice was tinged with tears, and I took it for granted that He is crying.

Wanting to comfort him, he heard his self-deprecating low laughter, "Are we all stupid? Si Wen, why are you by Su Chen's side?"

He asked, mocking viciously, those delicate eyes were unexpectedly firm and bright, I think, they are completely different. "because of you."

Yang Yi looked at me in surprise, suddenly snorted, shook his head and said, "Actually, we are all the same, we keep telling lies, who do we want to deceive?"

He wouldn't believe what I said, and I didn't believe it myself, it was too sudden and without any basis.It's not like something I would do, but I don't regret it.

"Why don't you leave Yu Xiao?"

"Why?" He repeated strangely, "Because I love him!" He said it too naturally, shrugged and opened the car door indifferently.I have no reason to keep him and don't want to.

Because he is lying, he doesn't love anyone, he is just fulfilling the conditions of his so-called freedom.A person who can prove the existence of his love, what he loves is only himself.

That's great... How great would it be if Shang Ke looked like this?

That day, I sat quietly in the car all night by myself.The not-so-bustling streets were unexpectedly desolate because of the heavy snow, and the covered whiteness was dyed gray by the night.

This world that I once thought was in my hands is becoming more and more strange. Everyone chooses people who don't understand at all to explain the deepest secrets in their hearts, but refuses to be honest with the people they love.

Is the world wrong, or are we wrong?

And I'm really starting to age, thinking about answers that will never make sense.No matter how the world changes, we will still live here, and there is no way to escape.

leave the city?Hehe, this is a simple idea. The sewers in the whole world have a kind of smell. It is hidden under the ground of every city, invisible and real.

The scar on my left hand began to hurt violently. I knew that this was just my imagination, and there was no way to restrain it.There is an unshakable coldness on the back of these ugly hands, so what about the palms?

In fact, I never held anything.

If forgetting is not a disappointment, then what about not being able to forget?Does it also mean that he will not leave this world with peace of mind?

For some reason, starting from that night, even the sleeping pills lost their supposed benefits.In front of me, it was the day he left. I forgot, and I forgot one of the most critical links.

Something keeps telling me, to think of it, that is the key to my downfall.

The more this is the case, the more chaotic my mind becomes.

On a certain day, memories flooded in. From the day we met, scenes appeared in front of my eyes, unexpectedly clear, and I would not miss every detail.

It was also because of this that the sense of fear was magnified infinitely, and I went to Su Chen's house again, because I was afraid that I would die at home at some point, rot and no one would know.

This fear, I will not tell anyone.

Fortunately, Su Chen is not a very curious person.

Yeah, who cares about insignificant people?

He is not in a good mood either, because Yu Xiao, I have no doubts about this.He may not care about anyone, but he always puts Yu Xiao first.

This also surprised me, it was not long ago, when he was making breakfast, he subconsciously brought out Yu Xiao's portion, and then sent it to the opposite side.I also asked him at the time, "You are quite suitable to be a husband, isn't it tiring to take care of others?"

While gesturing for me to open the door, he replied indifferently, "It's just a meal, nothing."

I later learned that this is a habit they have left over since they were in high school.Sometimes, people like Su Chen would be stupid, how could Yu Xiao see the care and concern that he didn't even care about?

When it becomes a habit, it will also turn into numbness. That afternoon, a man named Zhao En came to see Su Chen. I was even more sure of this.It turned out that he also wanted to help take care of Yu Xiao's troublesome cousin, but he never asked for anything in return.

I want to remind him that this habit is terrible, just like Shang Ke used to take care of me meticulously, but I don't feel it.It wasn't until he left that I realized how miserable life would be without him.

I didn't have time to say those words because he quit the bar to say what he always wanted to say.

In the end, I was the only one left.But it shouldn't be too bad, if I die here, Su Chen will find out.

I don't remember how much I drank, but I probably fell asleep in the end, and fell into a dream again.This time, the smiling Shang Ke and the cowardly Shang Ke were gone. He stood in front of the shattered glass and shouted heart-piercingly.

The shards of glass under the sun glowed with a shocking cold light, and the blood stains on them were even more shocking.This is my marriage, no, it's the end of our marriage.

"Si Wen, if you don't love me, why don't you let me go! Why do you torture me like this?" He shouted loudly and threw the divorce agreement out of the window.

Yes, I forgot, I didn't file for divorce, it was his choice.

But is this me?What did you do?

His tears kept rolling down his cheeks, "I'm tired, Si Wen, and I don't have the energy to play kite-flying games with you anymore. You play outside, I admit, you can ignore me here, I admit! You are here Bed, our bed fucks with other men! But why did you touch my sister? And let her be pregnant with your child?"

He stands there, teetering, he will fall to his death!Yes, he was right. I shouldn't have touched his sister, but it was just an accident. Damn, how did I know that woman would keep that child?

I rushed up to him and grabbed his hand.He struggled desperately, and the shards of glass scratched my left hand, "But you can't leave me! No matter what happens, I won't let you leave me? You want me to sign, right? I won't sign, you are mine, Always will be!"

No, no, Si Wen, you are wrong, if you only make him hurt, why don't you let go!

But I can't stop it, these are all memories, and now I am standing outside the memories, the memories that are within reach through the invisible air, and there is no way to change them forever.

I just don't have the guts to face it again because I killed him.

053. Siwen Chapter 3

Si Wenwen - Death Is Near

He was desperate to leave me, his grief and anger turned into a sharp knife, and I lost my mind.I told him to shut up, but he refused, repeating all my past evil deeds.

Only at this moment did I believe that Shang Ke would never come back again.

Even if I don't sign it, he will leave me, this home, this city.I can't allow it, and if that's the end, then he's going to die.

Either I let go, or I applied a little force when I let go.With just one touch, he lost his little balance and control, and fell from the window.

I thought he would look at me with a relieved face, but there was nothing.In just a split second, not even the blink of an eye, he disappeared before me, and the world.

In the dreams after that, he would look at me angrily and unwillingly, crawling towards me with his mutilated body on the ground, and those bloodstains continued to extend, which is my eternal nightmare.

I don't have the courage to tell the truth. To anyone, it will only rot with the dream, and gradually integrate into my body and become an inseparable part.It turns out that this is the part I forgot.

Or in the past, I just refuse to think about it.

At this time, I suddenly felt relieved. If I just leave this world like this, I won't be unwilling.But I still think highly of myself, I have too much unwillingness, and because of it, I did the last stupid thing in my life.

That stupid thing was about Yang Yi.

I don't know what's wrong with me, I know they are not alone, but I still want them desperately.I just need someone with the same body temperature as his to comfort my rapidly deteriorating body.

Because, I am afraid of death.Before that, allow me to catch something, even if it's just a phantom.

I know it's unfair to Yang Yi, but this is my nature.The sanctimonious self in the mirror is the complete opposite of the real self.The ugliness under that appearance is invisible every time he looks in the mirror.

Now, even that veneer is about to be stripped away.I began to lose weight rapidly, at a speed visible to the naked eye, like a skeleton, or a dying dog.

Hehe, a begging dog.

Sometimes, I have an illusion that Yang Yi, who is always energetic, may continue my life.He was always smiling, as if nothing disturbed him.

"Si Wen, do you love me?"

--Do you love me?

--do you still love me?

— have you ever loved me?

A voice kept repeating the question in my mind, "Love." I told 'him' with certainty.Yang Yi blinked and smiled at me.

"It's so good..." He said, lying on my chest with his eyes downcast, under the long eyelashes, what emotion was fleeting, I didn't catch it, but I knew it.

How could Yang Yi believe it?He didn't believe it, but why did I ever believe it?The meaning of these lies is nothing more than deceiving oneself. Sadly, even oneself can easily see through after all.

Just think that Yang Yi is too easy to be satisfied, and he is too greedy.

so what?At least he can still survive in the lies.

I can't give him anything, I just tell him the world I see with my own eyes.Cruel as it may be, but true.He listened quietly and seldom responded, but I know that he kept all these words in his heart.

This may be the final orientation of our relationship, taking what we need from each other, and then separating.

I know that we are destined to be separated, but I didn't expect it to be proposed by him.

This may be destined, the self-righteous me is the one who was abandoned.

That day, he stood in front of me wearing a white T-shirt, and the sun shone on his young face. At this moment, I thought he would never age because of time, "Si Wen, I'm leaving here."

I know, I don't need him to say it, I know it too.It's just that I have nothing to respond to him.This time, I have no reason not to let go, and I have no right to try to keep anything.

"Won't you say something to me?