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Chen Xi:

It's so frustrating.

When I came to Yunnan to go out on location, something happened again. It really didn’t go well. I was allergic to filming, got rashes all over my body, and got poisoned after eating fungus.

I know that I have hallucinations from eating fungus poisoning, I don't know what other people are like, anyway, everything in front of me is distorted.

Moreover, I seem to have seen Tang Yuting.

Tang Yuting became thin and tall, his hair was almost reaching the ceiling, and his body was twisting back and forth, like eating a snake. I wanted him to sit down and stop moving. He dazzled me. I felt dizzy again.

I reached out to him several times, trying to grab the hand closest to me, but I couldn't touch it several times.

"Chen Xi, what are you grabbing?"

"I'm catching Tang Yuting."

I heard a sigh, and it was very obvious when I scratched my ears. My hearing became extremely sensitive. Not only did I have hallucinations, but I also seemed to hear Tang Yuting's words?And the touch of holding my hand is also very familiar.

I had a sore nose and pinched it in his palm.

"Didn't you say it was slightly poisoned?"

"This is considered a mild symptom. You can see that he can still recognize you."

I felt Tang Yuting touching my face, his palms were cold, I turned my head away.

"Why is your face so white?"

"When I first entered the hospital, the doctor induced vomiting."

I did vomit for a long time just now, and the bile was almost spit out. Now the root of my tongue is still numb, my mouth is sour and bitter, and the saliva in my mouth is burning.

The conversation in my ears continued. I covered my head with the quilt, and through the quilt, I could hear my heavy breathing. The voice outside the quilt seemed to be floating on the water, rippling and dripping into my ears.

In fact, their voices are very low, but what I hear now is like shouting with a loudspeaker, and my ears are deafening.

The voice continued: "Did the doctor say anything? Is it serious? When will it be better?"

"The doctor said that Chen Xi is not serious. When he can be discharged from the hospital depends on the situation tomorrow morning."

I still felt noisy, turned over and muttered, "Stop making noise, my ears hurt."

I felt so uncomfortable that when I turned over, I felt my stomach was rolling again. I lay on the bedside and retched a few times, but I couldn't vomit anything.

Tang Yuting patted me on the back and held my hand.

"Don't move, you have a needle in your hand." It should be Tang Yuting's voice.

"It's a retained needle, it's okay." It was A Jiang's voice.

"A Jiang, I seem to have seen Tang Yuting..." I lay down again and said weakly.

"Well, it's me."

"Is your mother feeling better?"

"Okay, I've been discharged from the hospital."

"It'll be fine once you get out of the hospital."

"You rest well, I'm here."

"We both broke up..." After finishing speaking, I felt a sore throat, "A Jiang? Is A Jiang there? A Jiang, I'm a little thirsty, please pour me a glass of water."

I didn't hear Ah Jiang's answer, but the sound of footsteps and the sound of opening and closing the door, and then the sound of pouring water, splashing, Tang Yuting in that hallucination held a water glass, helped me to sit up, and gave me another drink water.

After a while, a warm towel was put on the back of his hand, and he wiped my hands and face, my whole body was warm.

Later I fell asleep in a daze, and I seemed to have said something to Tang Yuting in the hallucination, but I couldn't remember it.

When I opened my eyes again, the sky outside the window was already bright, and the sun was always high.

The sense of distortion in front of my eyes is gone, and there is no other uncomfortable feeling except that the white light tube above my head is still shaking in circles.

As soon as I moved, I felt that my arms were a little heavy. I stretched my neck and saw that Tang Yuting was lying beside my bed, sleeping.

I thought it was still my hallucination, rubbed my eyes, and Tang Yuting woke up when I moved.

Tang Yuting's eyes just woke up were still a little scattered, two layers of double eyelids appeared in both eyes, the eye sockets were black, and there was a layer of stubble on his chin.

I stared blankly at him for a long time, "Tang Yuting, when did you come?"

"Come here last night."

"you……"

"you……"

"You speak first……"

"You speak first……"

We both spoke at the same time, I sat up straight away, and Tang Yuting also sat up a little bit on the stool.

It was still what Tang Yuting said first: "How are you? Do you feel better?"

"Okay, it's time." I looked around, Tang Yuting and I were the only ones in the ward, and A Jiang wasn't there either.

I also smelled the alcohol on Tang Yuting's body, it wasn't heavy, but I could still smell it.

"you've been drinking?"

"There was a party last night."

"Excuse me," I moved my buttocks to find a more comfortable position, "Ah Jiang told you?"

"A Jiang called me."

After he finished speaking, we didn't talk for a long time, as if we had nothing to say, and we didn't know what to say.

The doctor came in to make rounds, looked into my eyes, took my temperature, and asked me about some symptoms. After all the questions were asked, he said that I had to stay in the hospital for observation for another day.

I dawdled for a while and said, "Doctor, can't I be discharged now?"

The doctor glanced at me, "Didn't you just say that you were still a little dizzy and the lights above your head were still shaking?"

"I'm... a little better, and I'm not so dizzy."

Tang Yuting suddenly said: "Doctor, we will stay for another day if we are not hospitalized."

The doctor looked at me and then at Tang Yuting, "Listen to the family members, stay in the hospital for another day for observation."

I sat with my head sullen, and the doctor left for a long time before saying, "I want to be discharged."

"No."

"I just want to get out of the hospital." I raised my voice.

Tang Yuting snorted at me, this time in a loud voice: "No."

After being yelled at by him, I quickly lifted the quilt and wanted to get out of bed, but suddenly got up violently and almost fell off the bed, hitting my head on the ground.

"I'm going out, you don't care about me..." I felt dizzy, and I didn't care what I said.

Tang Yuting supported me, "Chen Xi, what are you screwing up? With your current state, how did you get out of the hospital? Who cares about you when you get out of the hospital?"

"Anyway, I don't care about you."

I don't know if it's because I was dazzled, but I even saw Tang Yuting's forehead twitching, probably because he was very angry.

After a toss, I started to feel uncomfortable again, uncomfortable in my stomach, uncomfortable in my chest, uncomfortable everywhere, and lay down again, with my back facing Tang Yuting.

I heard Tang Yuting gasp, this time in a soft voice, "Who are you messing with?"

I didn’t speak, and he continued: “You are allergic to animal hair, what can you do? What is your company doing as a photographer? I don’t believe it. Before you came to Yunnan, you didn’t know that you were going to take photos of small animals. You knew that you were allergic. , what are you doing here?"

I turned around, "How do you know I'm allergic to animal hair?"

"Chen Xi..." Tang Yuting's eyes widened, as if he thought my question was inconceivable, "I've been with you for seven years, why don't I know?"

"You know I'm allergic, why do you keep talking about getting a dog?"

"Which time do I really want to raise?" Tang Yuting frowned, "I used to, why didn't I accommodate you?"

"One time you were not feeling well and your appetite was always bad. At night, you suddenly told me that you wanted to eat salted duck. I went out to buy it for you in the middle of the night, but what I bought back was not the taste you wanted. I ran out and changed another store. Before I went, I checked on the Internet. The store didn’t close until eleven o’clock in the evening, and the reputation of the taste was also the best. I drove more than ten kilometers, but I still couldn’t catch up. It was closed when I went... "

"I know, you are crazy about eating, so just look for the taste that you ate for the first time. The first time the two of us ate salted duck was in Nanjing. My mother wanted to buy a ticket to Nanjing in the middle of the night to buy it for you... ..."

"Another time, you broke up with your former assistant. You were in a bad mood, and you woke up from a nap at home and had a nightmare. I was on a business trip, and you drove over directly. I put down what I was doing. I’ll go back to the hotel to accompany you, and the last order was released. At that time, the company had just started, and that order was very important to the company.”

"and also……"

Tang Yuting said a lot in one breath, I interrupted him with a sore nose: "Tang Yuting, why didn't you tell me about this before? I don't need you to accommodate me so bottomlessly."

Tang Yuting said: "I didn't think it was a big deal before, but when we quarreled..."

He didn't finish his sentence, so he stopped there. I knew he didn't finish what he said later. During the quarrel, at a certain moment, he regretted his choice at that time.

I still asked him, "Do you know why?"

"why?"

"Because our relationship was just right at that time, no matter what the situation was, you would definitely do that at that time, maybe there was a little bit of hesitation, but at that time you didn't think it was a kind of stumbling, but later, our relationship faded, you You must have thought about it many times, you must think, why did Chen Xi do that at that time, why was he so willful? Why did I just accommodate him like that?"

I had a headache and spoke very slowly, "At the end of the day, only one variable has changed, that is, the relationship between us has changed, so those complaints and hesitation that were backlogged in your heart before are now brought out again to flog the corpse, and again Repeatedly kneading and zooming in on countless memories.”

There was a dead silence in the ward, and Tang Yuting didn't speak.

"Tang Yuting, we have broken up now, thank you for taking care of me last night," I rubbed my eyes on the pillow, "Go back, I don't want what happened last night to happen at some point in your future... It has become a magnified regret..."