real thing

Tangyu Court:

Really broke up.

Chen Xi and I really broke up. Apart from the intervention of a third party, there are many ways to break up a relationship, such as dripping water through a rock. Sometimes the parties may not even know where the dripping water came from. Maybe this is the so-called The authorities are confused.

In fact, I thought about this day, I thought that Chen Xi would mention it to me, or that the person who broke up with me was me.

Before I had time to think about what a breakup is, what it would be like after the breakup, and what life would be like without Chen Xi, I received a call from my dad as soon as I got out of Ye San'er, saying that my mother had a car accident, and now I was being rescued in the hospital, and I directly booked a flight home.

When I arrived at the hospital, my mother was out of danger. The driver who hit her was drunk driving, and I was seriously injured. If the traffic police hadn't stopped me, I would have rushed in and beat her up.

My mother had surgery on her left lung and a plaster cast on her right leg. The doctor said that she was lucky to be alive.

When I arrived at the hospital, my dad was alone in the ward. I haven't seen my parents for almost half a year. I feel that they are getting older, and my dad has a lot of gray hair.

My mother woke up, and the first thing she said when she saw me was that I was fine. My nose was sore and I felt uncomfortable.

Many times, I feel sorry for them, not by their side, and not living according to their ideas, but I also know that there are some things that cannot be changed.

I handle things remotely at work, and have been accompanying my dad in the hospital. Fortunately, my mom is getting better day by day, but my dad is also haggard a lot.

They still didn't talk much. I hired a female nurse for my mother, but my dad only asked the nurse to do the laundry and pour some water. My dad was the one who fed my mother and wiped her body and face.

In the past few days, I have seen my dad cry secretly, every time outside the ward or in the bathroom of the hospital.

I didn't understand before that their relationship was irreparable, why they didn't get divorced, at that moment I understood a little bit.

Some injuries are irreparable, but pain can not only be superimposed, pain can also dilute pain.

Because my mother is in good health, and my father took good care of her, my mother recovered quickly, and she didn't have to stay in bed for a week. Every day at noon, she sat in a wheelchair. I pushed her to the hospital yard to get some air.

After I answered a work call, my mother urged me to go back: "Call me at work, I'm almost fine, go back to work."

"I'm not busy with work," I turned off the phone directly, "I'll stay with you at home this time, and I'll go back to work after you're fully recovered and discharged from the hospital."

My mother was in good spirits, and she chatted with me about some work matters. The topic changed several times, and finally turned around to my love life.

In the first year I was with Chen Xi, I came out with my family. The process was tortuous and complicated, painful and embarrassing. Not to mention, my parents still can’t accept me being with a man. Few parents can accept it .

Especially my mother, always wanted to introduce girls to me and let me go on a blind date, but I don't like girls, it's impossible to harm others, and I can't do things that are sorry for Chen Xi.

My parents disagree, and my mother often asks me to go on a blind date. Chen Xi doesn't know, and I haven't told him.

The year before last, I wanted to take my parents to live in Beijing. The house was ready for them, but they only lived in Beijing for ten days, saying that they didn’t adapt to the life in Beijing. In fact, there was another reason. They didn’t want to look at me. Live with Chen Xi.

In the third year that I was with Chen Xi, I took Chen Xi to meet them and had a meal, so I officially met the parents.

Before that meal, I had a harsh word with my parents, whether they accepted it or not, the meal must be finished well, I was afraid that Chen Xi would be wronged.

I lied to Chen Xi before, saying that my parents like him very much, I just don't want to put pressure on Chen Xi, because Chen Xi's father doesn't agree with him being with me, Jian Tian'er persuaded Chen Xi to break up with me.

When I come here, I don’t want to put more pressure on Chen Xi. I can take care of my own affairs. There is no need for two people to bear it. Such a day will not last long with two more people, although We didn't last long after all.

Seven years, whether it is long or not, whether it is short or not.

I read a saying before that, biologically speaking, the cells in the human body have been replaced in seven years. Does it mean that we are now the same as a different person?He and I in the past are no longer me and him now.

Why is it different from before?Obviously still the same.

This question is too philosophical for me to figure it out.

My mother asked about me and Chen Xi again. I only told my mother that Chen Xi and I were fine, and that Chen Xi sent a message to ask her about her situation.

I know that if I tell her that Chen Xi and I have broken up, she will definitely have to make trouble to introduce someone to me. To be honest, I am annoyed by that, but my mother is still in the hospital, so I can't do anything about it. I can only lie to her first.

After hearing what I said, my mother faltered for a long time, but didn't say anything else in the end.

I know that Chen Xi went to Yunnan for location shooting.

Of course Chen Xi didn't tell me about this, and Ye San'er didn't know about it either. I have A Jiang's WeChat, and it was A Jiang who came to ask me jokingly one day, whether Chen Xi was on a business trip or not.

I just replied to him: he decides about Chen Xi himself.

After all, I have nothing to do with Chen Xi now, and of course I can't control it anymore.

A Jiang posted a Moments that night, saying that the team had arrived in Dali, and provided a picture. Although Chen Xi only had a black camera bag and three fingers in the mirror, I could still recognize him because he was so familiar. Even the few moles on his body are clear.

Half a month after we broke up, we didn't contact each other. He sent me a message to ask about my mother's situation. I knew it was Ye Saner who told him. After Chen Xi called Ye Saner, Ye Saner immediately said told me.

I didn't reply when I saw the message because I didn't know how to reply properly.

The word suitable itself is cold, suitable means measure, and measure means distance.

My mother said it before, she said she looked at it from the perspective of someone who has experienced it, and Chen Xi and I were not suitable. I refuted her at the time, how could it be called suitable?How can it be called inappropriate?

She said that we have the same personality, we are both twisted and stubborn people in our bones, and such two people will live together, not too long.

I disagreed with her statement at the time, but now I am a little shaken. Maybe she is right.

Chen Xi and I are not suitable!

In this case, I don't know how to respond properly.

I sat on a bench in the corridor of the hospital with my mobile phone in my hand. I typed for a long time, and then deleted, and then typed and deleted. After repeating several times, I sent six words.

My six words are stabbed, and I can’t tell whether they are appropriate or not. Ever since I met Chen Xi, I don’t seem to have spoken like this, so I also know that those words are stabbing people. Prick me.

It took another ten days for my mother to be discharged from the hospital with a plaster cast on her leg. My father took good care of me and there was too much work in the company. I stayed at home for another two days and had to leave.

Before I left, I asked my parents if they wanted to move to Beijing to live, but they still refused.

The elderly are used to living in Chengdu, so they can live wherever they feel comfortable, and I will just make a few more trips in the future.

The relationship between my parents is better than before, and I feel a little relieved.

Before I got on the plane, my dad chatted with me as usual and asked me if I had any plans to go back to Chengdu for development. Before, I would have said no, but this time I hesitated.

The company has already formed, and it is not so easy to come back.

I know that my half-second hesitation was not because of work, but because of Chen Xi.

Chen Xi has been back, and I saw it as soon as I entered the house.

My car keys are on the shoe cabinet. Chen Xi's car keys are missing. He should have cleaned the house.

I looked from room to room, and the house was quite empty, and some of Chen Xi's things were taken away, but after all, we have lived together for so long, and the traces cannot be erased at once.

After I came back, I worked overtime day and night to deal with the things that had accumulated before. Sometimes it was too late, and I just fell asleep in the lounge.

Afterwards, he participated in several drinking games in a row, and was dazed and drunk all day long.

Life doesn't seem to have changed much, except that no one bathes me after drinking, and when I sleep, my arms are empty, and my hands are cold to the touch.

I live alone, I don’t like to cook over a fire, and I eat at the company most of the time, even when I go home, I just order takeaway. I often eat half of it before I realize that what I ordered is very light, and it seems that Chen Xi likes it.

People's tastes will change. Chen Xi can't eat Sichuan food. I follow him, and I eat a lot less spicy food.

Ye San'er came frequently, and when he came, he asked me when Chen Xi would come back, and when I would go to find Chen Xi.

"Old Tang, I thought you broke up with Chen Xi, and you must have gone to him right away."

"He's got his business to do," I said, "I've got mine to do."

"He's probably in Yunnan."

"Well, I was in Dali a few days ago, and now I'm in Kunming." I still know about it from A Jiang's circle of friends.

Ye San'er scratched her head, "I used to think that you two should be emotional people, irrational, I didn't expect you to break up, so... how should I put it, be peaceful, I was wrong before?"

I smiled and responded to him: "Maybe I misread it."

I can't answer Ye San'er's question, Chen Xi and I are right about being emotional or rational.

Chen Xi doesn’t like posting to Moments very much. WeChat has been set to be visible for three days. After clicking on it, there is only a horizontal line. The profile picture is a photo he took before, which is the sunset on the seaside of Qingdao. never changed.

Our chat records are still on the message he sent me last time, and the last message I sent was "Thank you for your concern, everything is fine".

I don't know why I'm hypocritical. I didn't feel anything when I posted it. Looking at it now, the base of my nose is swollen.

Some people say that after breaking up, it will definitely be a difficult time. I don't know what kind of hardship is considered, and how long this time will last...

I didn't want to contact Chen Xi, but I still wanted to go to Yunnan. It wasn't that I wanted to find Chen Xi, it was A Jiang who called me one night and said that Chen Xi had entered the hospital.

I drank wine that night, and after listening to it for a long time, I finally figured out that Chen Xi had an allergic reaction when shooting a group of small animals. It wasn’t serious, so I didn’t tell others. In the evening, I went to eat local food with the team. The characteristic fungus, as a result, there was a slight poisoning, and now he is in the hospital.

I don't know how I got out of the house, my mind was full of Chen Xi's allergies, Chen Xi was poisoned by eating fungus, and Chen Xi went to the hospital.

I asked my assistant to book the air ticket to Yunnan. Before boarding the plane, Ye Saner called me. He had a business introduction for me. I told him that I was going to Yunnan.

Ye San'er scoffed at me, and said, "I knew it a long time ago, you will definitely go."

I told Ye San'er that even if we broke up, Chen Xi and I were still friends. Now that something happened to him, I couldn't stand by and act as if I didn't know anything, and I couldn't ignore it.

A Jiang also told me that two people in the team were also poisoned after eating mushrooms. They definitely couldn't take care of Chen Xi.

Chen Xi is like this, obviously he is allergic to animal hair, but as long as it is necessary for work, he will endure it as long as he can. He never complains at work, and usually he just flirts with me, that's right, he doesn't flirt with me. Reckless?

He is not vague at all in his work. He used to shoot for some geographic magazines, and he has also experienced particularly harsh environments.

Once he was going to take pictures of waterfalls. Before he left, he told me that he was going to take pictures of mountains and rivers. As a result, his feet were slippery and he accidentally fell into the pool. Fortunately, the team brought two professional rescuers just in case. The water quality is good, so Chen Xi was rescued.

After he came back, he didn't dare to tell me, because he choked on water in his lungs and coughed for half a month. He only told me that he had a cold, and I discovered it when he went to the hospital for a reexamination.

That time I beat Chen Xi, it was real, I took off his pants and slapped his butt for a long time.

Chen Xi's two butts were slapped by me. He even kicked and kicked, and then I beat him to tears. He coughed and cried, scolded me while crying, called me domestic violence, and clamored to break up with me. , He also said that he would call the police and let the police arrest me.

I also yelled at him, and I threw the phone to him, saying that you call the police, and the police came and I asked the police to comment.

He cried and acted like a baby at me again, and in the end he twitched, and he promised that he would never lie to me again.

That night Chen Xi slept on his stomach with no underwear on. I held a small fan and kept fanning his butt cool. He was lying on the pillow, and the pillow towel was soaked with tears.

As soon as I fanned him slowly, he frowned and moaned twice, and I fanned him twice more quickly, and didn't sleep until the middle of the night.

That time I was really angry, I hit him, he hurt me, and I was not only hurt, but more afraid.

Another time was in the first year of the epidemic, when he went on location, he was taken to quarantine as soon as he got off the plane. At first it was said to be 14 days, and then it was directly 28 days. After that time, I restricted him and did not allow him to shoot outside locations.

Chen Xi always said that I think he is too strict, that I want to control too much, that I am too domineering, and I don’t give him space. I admit this, there is a little bit, maybe more than a little bit, there are many.

very many……