The great waves surging in life

There is no cure, and the drug cannot be stopped arbitrarily, and there are many things to pay attention to at ordinary times. 25 to 40 years old, especially women, is the high incidence period.The autoimmune system of systemic lupus erythematosus is abnormal, and it is easy to involve other organs and cause complications.

"Well. My mother." Yang Shan said her mother, her eyes dimmed.

"Miss Yang, why don't you do a systematic examination first, okay?" the doctor asked, unable to hide his regret.

"En." Yang Shan's face remained calm, but her heart was on the verge of despair.A person who has never known warmth will not be afraid of coldness, but once he has warmth, he will know the taste.

After helping Yang Shan to lie down, Li Aiyun climbed onto the accompanying bed next to her.In the room with the lights off, only the light from the corridor outside the door seeps in through the crack of the door, reflecting a silvery white floor.The room was so quiet that only the ticking of the wall clock on the wall could be heard.Li Aiyun didn't feel sleepy, tossing and turning on the bed, feeling surrounded by boundless emptiness, unable to find a breakthrough.Yang Shan was right next to her, and being unable to hug her and feel her body temperature was even more torturous than missing her when she was not around.

"Li Aiyun." Yang Shan's voice came from the darkness.

"Ok?"

"I want to eat biscuits."

"Ah?" Li Aiyun was surprised at first, and then had trouble, "It's so late, where can I buy sesame seed cakes?"

"Aren't you ironing?"

"..." Ganqing Yang Shan said that the biscuits were the self who tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep? "You are a patient, and patients cannot...eat sesame seed cakes." Li Aiyun said, his face was hot again, but fortunately he was hidden by the night, so he was not so embarrassed.

"Well. I'm a patient." Yang Shan felt dejected when she thought of systemic lupus erythematosus.While undiagnosed, she was all too aware of the symptoms.She is not afraid of death, if she has not met Li Aiyun.Before living arrogantly and alone, didn't she just want to see how big waves her life could make?Life really did not fail her, she already felt that the turbulent waves were brewing an opportunity, roaring towards her.

"Wait until you are discharged from the hospital... and then... eat again." Li Aiyun quickly hid under the covers as soon as he finished speaking, thinking to himself that he was too indecisive.Yang Shan lifted the quilt, got out of bed quietly, climbed onto Li Aiyun's bed, got into the quilt, and hugged her.

"You..." Li Aiyun fell into Yang Shan's arms, so you couldn't come out.She misses this embrace so much, every time she nests in her arms, she only strongly hopes that time can freeze, and only strongly hopes that she can parasitize on her body.

"Li Aiyun, fate has treated me well, let me meet you." Yang Shan said ventriloquically.

"Mom, I'm very busy." I answered my mother's call in the morning, blaming Li Aiyun for not going home on weekends.

"What can you be busy with? Don't think I don't know. It's been a long time since you went to the store. What do you say you're busy with?" Mother Li asked.

"I really have something to do now, so I can't leave."

"Are you at Yang Shan's place?" Li's mother knew it, but she still wanted to ask. If she got a negative answer by accident, she would be relieved.

"Yes." Li Aiyun hesitated for a while before answering.Although the mother is not overly tough, she can feel her pressing every step of the way.Li Aiyun was in a dilemma. She only hoped that her persistence could soften her mother's attitude. She only hoped that in time, her mother would see her sincere heart and compromise for her happiness.

"Yun'er, you don't have to work for that woman now, huh? You don't want the shop, you don't want the house, huh?" Mother Li was disappointed and angry.

"mom……"

"Don't you want your parents now?"

"I'll go back, I can't go back." Li Aiyun was a little depressed seeing her mother's words getting more and more outrageous, thinking that Yang Shan was fine, so she might as well get away and go home, and bring some soup with her.

fourteen

The nurse took Yang Shan's temperature routinely. Seeing that Yang Shan's high fever persisted, she frowned.Li Aiyun returned to the ward after making the phone call. Seeing that the nurse had just checked Yang Shan, she hurried out. Before Li Aiyun could ask her about the situation, she had already disappeared.

"Yang Shan, how was the inspection?"

"Normal." Yang Shan responded, seeing Li Aiyun frowning, said: "Why worry?"

"It's okay, I'll make soup for you when I go home, what soup do you want?"

"You decide."

"Don't you have anything you particularly like to eat?" Li Aiyun wondered, who wouldn't have a favorite food, but she never saw Yang Shan have any preferences.

"Yes." Yang Shan stared at Li Aiyun closely and said, "You."

"..." Li Aiyun blushed and said angrily, "Not serious."

"I like to eat marshmallows and biscuits." Yang Shan said, pretending to be thinking, "Is it serious to say that?"

"..."

"Xiao Lan." The store had just opened, and there were no customers yet, only Xiao Lan was cleaning the table.

"Auntie, why are you here so early today?" Seeing the visitor, Xiaolan turned over the rag in her hand and began to wipe it again.I wondered why I kept running to the store these days, but I rarely came here before.

"Well. Don't be too busy. Auntie asked you something." Li's mother looked at the bar and knew that Li Aiyun was not in the store again.

"What's the matter?" Xiaolan put down the rag.

"Do you know a woman named Yang Shan?"

"Oh, you said that ice cube, I know it, what's the matter?" Xiaolan asked curiously.

"Then do you know where she lives?"

"do not know."

"Do you have her phone number?"

"Telephone? It should be there, let me see." Xiaolan became more and more suspicious, and if she wanted to find Yang Shan, she could just ask Sister Yun directly.I remember that Sister Yun would write the contacts in the notepad in the drawer, and Xiaolan didn't ask too much, and went to the bar to look.After a while, "Auntie, I have it, I'll copy it for you." He picked up a pen and wrote a series of numbers on the sticky note.

"Xiaolan, don't tell Yun'er about this, you know?" Mother Li took the note, looked at the number, then looked at Xiaolan, and explained like this.

"Oh. Understood." Little Lan murmured.

She is still in her prime.The afternoon sunlight came in from the window of the ward, and a lazy atmosphere spread in the room.She gently pushed open the window and looked at the light source through the kapok leaves outside the window. The mottled light spots made her feel a little dazzling.Yang Shan raised her hand, trying to block the glare of the light, but through her fingers, she seemed to see a distant prehistoric place, wondering where the soul would go and whether there was a host.There is a glass vase standing on the bedside table, with a few tulips protruding from the mouth of the bottle, blooming freely in the sun.She lifted her fat hospital gown, barefoot, and danced freely in the pale ward.There are roundabouts, tiptoe jumps, no music.Her long hair fluttered in the air with the dance steps, letting a few strands fall on her lips, and she didn't bother to smooth them out.She danced silently, and the white gauze on her forehead was her most beautiful headgear.In this leisurely spring afternoon, the kapok tree outside the window is her audience, the tulips are her audience, and the medical certificate on the bed cabinet is her audience. "Diagnosed with systemic lupus erythematosus." The doctor's words echoed in my ears, over and over again, becoming a sad tune.The spring sun in April is really bright, the sun is so warm, but it will hurt her, she is a person who is afraid of light.In direct sunlight, ultraviolet rays will accelerate the activity of the source of disease in the body and aggravate the condition.The sun is her enemy, she has to live in darkness, the past, and the future.Yang Shan insisted on drawing the curtains and opening the windows, insisting on standing in the sun and accepting any gift from life.

After returning from the trip to Guilin, immediately after Yang Shan had an accident, Li Aiyun hadn't taken care of the business in the store for half a month.When Yang Shan was discharged from the hospital, there was already a pile of messy accounts in the store.Outside the window, there is a gentle wind and light rain, and the rain falls silently, wrapping the city in a peaceful place.Yang Shan propped up her chin with one hand, and rested on Li Aiyun's fingernails with the other, watching Li Aiyun who was busy in the calculation, tapping lightly irregularly.

"Yang Shan, are you typing Morse code?" After a long time, Li Aiyun raised his head and said, "My account is not even right."

"You're bad at arithmetic, how can you blame me."

"..." People use a calculator to do the math, okay? It's none of my business. "Knocking so hard I can't concentrate."

"I didn't hold your hand." Yang Shan still tapped lightly and said, "You don't know how to move it?"

"..." They were reluctant to move away.Li Aiyun was speechless, grabbed Yang Shan's troublesome hand and held it in the palm of his hand. "Aren't your dead hands warm?"

"What is a corpse hand?" Yang Shan was puzzled.

"Dead hands."

"Hmm." Yang Shan's eyes flashed with regret, and she said, "Li Aiyun, don't forget the temperature of this finger."

"……"finger?Li Aiyun's face suddenly became hot, he felt that Yang Shan's words were extremely ambiguous, so he quickly lowered his head to reconcile.

The moonlight was hazy, and there were two twinkling stars hanging on the horizon, like a pair of curious eyes, quietly looking at the entangled people on the bed from the window.Under the moonlight, Yang Shan's face was covered with a layer of soft white light, as if she had stepped on the moon.She stared deeply at Li Aiyun, who had a peach blossom face, and untied the shackles on the two of them, forgetting all the ties in the world, only each other in her eyes.There is no need for sweet words, silence is better than sound at this time, carving the appearance of the other party on the tip of the heart bit by bit, as if completing a perfect work of art, sacred and pious.The light in the pupils ranges from gentle to affectionate, from hot to blurred, and the body and mind are inseparable and inseparable.The union of soul and flesh, the delicate and depressing groaning, is the highest ritual of worshiping love, just to grasp the deepest happiness in the heart.After a passionate rubbing of ears and temples, the two of them have sweated finely, and the smell of lust in the quilt and the fragrance of each other's bodies are intoxicating.

"Turn on the light." Yang Shan smelled the strong smell of blood in her nose, she covered her nose, it was sticky, and sat up suddenly.Li Aiyun groped to turn on the bedside lamp, looked sideways at Yang Shan, saw Yang Shan covering her nose, scarlet blood seeping from her fingers, feeling startled and flustered, hurriedly took the tissue from the bedside table and handed it to Yang Shan, Jumped out of bed, didn't care about being naked at the moment, went to the bathroom to wet a hair