quarrel for three days, fight for two days

-1-

Once in high school, the teacher suddenly said that he wanted to silent words. In fact, he mentioned one sentence the day before, but I completely forgot it. At that moment, my heart beat fast.

Then I heard Lu Xiu say "Fuck" next to me.

I also understand his sentence, no wonder I didn’t remember it at all, but if one of us remembers it, it won’t be the case if we take the time to recite it early in the self-study.

The words on the monthly exam paper, the rare words in the corners, scrambled to be the first to be long, and fifteen of them were silent and four were empty.

Lu Xiu nestled at the base of the wall and secretly flipped through the papers, nudged me and told me two more.

After handing in the dictation book, he was still a little depressed. He didn't speak for a class, but Lu Xiu was still active as if nothing happened.

After class, I turned out the paper and found that I had misspelled a word. Lu Xiuxiu was talking to me, but I didn't listen carefully. My attention was all on I guess I had to go to the office and I was silent. I sighed.

Lu Xiu fell silent.

I looked up at him, seeing his stunned look, and wanted to laugh again: "I didn't scold you."

Lu Xiu moved.

He turned to the back table, with his finger still stretched out to hook the hat of the front table: "Fuck, fuck, Lu Ran swears, did you hear me!"

-2-

I really didn't like to swear when I was in middle school, but I knew some of them through my ears and eyes.

Although I'm not used to talking about it, I will yell a lot of shit in my head when I encounter some things, so even if I say it, I don't feel that it is too inconsistent. At most, there will be a strange sense of freshness in my heart.

Although Lu Xiu could speak, he repeated only two or three sentences, which were more of a mantra than a curse.

The teacher will always assign more homework than imagined on a certain day, and he will complain regardless of his complaints, leaving the students to spend most of the evening self-study to write that homework.

Once, Lu Xiu couldn't write any more in the last section of evening self-study, so he dropped his pen and said in an irritable tone, "Who the hell can finish this?"

The subject he wrote first, I finished the other homework and just started to write. Watching him write for a long time, I felt that there was nowhere to go, so I followed him and muttered in a low voice: "Fuck it."

Hearing this, Lu Xiu turned his head to look at me, just looked at me, and didn't speak.

I didn't plan to pay attention to him at first, I was doing calculations quickly, and after a few seconds, I felt that he was still looking at me, so I had to turn my head to look back.

He suddenly stretched out his hand and pinched my face, and said with a smile, "How can you say swear words, kid."

It doesn't matter when I say it myself, but it's a bit embarrassing to be brought up deliberately by others.

I buried my head and continued to do the questions: "Don't you also say it."

"Okay," he was still laughing, "I'll say less in the future."

-3-

I don't know if you know the term "straight men's tricks", which means that he is a straight man but seems to like the same sex.

Lu Xiu has this problem, he likes to stick with others.

Saying "ah, this question is so difficult", I leaned my head over and rubbed it.

I was working on a question, and he was idle, so he would come over and put his head on my arm to read.

"You wrote it like 3."——Pointing Jiangshan and so on.

The state officials are only allowed to set fires and the people are not allowed to light lamps, and others are not allowed to touch him.

Once when I was writing a question, he leaned against me while blaring, and couldn't bear it anymore, so he raised his hand and pinched him.

Lu Xiu yelled and avoided: "Why did you touch me!"

I suddenly realized that he didn't like being touched by others, so I reacted and apologized to him.

As a result, this guy's face became even worse after hearing my apology, and he leaned against the wall, looking at me with straight eyebrows.

I don't know what's wrong, subconsciously feel that he is still angry, this apology has added context: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't touch you."

As he said this, he suddenly didn't know what to do. He was thinking about what Lu Xiu liked to eat in his mind, thinking about how to coax him.

Probably because my expression was too serious, Lu Xiu suddenly stretched out his hand and pinched the side of my neck.

I looked at him, still apprehensive in my heart, and didn't make a sound.

"I'm sorry." This time it was Lu Xiu who came closer, his voice was softer, and he looked at me like a puppy.

His hand was still on the side of my neck, which was so hot that it was hard to ignore. Part of my soul was taken away by the heat, and my eyes were caught by his sight again, and my body tensed subconsciously.

"I don't hate it when you touch me," he said. "I just teased you. Don't apologize to me for that."

There was a sudden movement in my heart, and my attention was suddenly lost. When I came back to my senses, I realized that I had asked the sentence "why".

"Because you are my dear deskmate." He resumed his usual idle manner.

-4-

Occasionally, two people have only one test paper.

The first time I read the test paper with Lu Xiu was in the first year of high school. At that time, it was still the throbbing period of the first love. The teacher took away Lu Xiu's paper and taught it as a sample paper. I put my paper in the middle.

Lu Xiu leaned towards the middle of the table, I pressed one finger on the corner of the test paper, my fingertips turned white due to exertion, the other hand held a red pen, but my eyes fell on Lu Xiu's hand which was spread on my test paper, it was rare to be distracted .

Suddenly he touched me with his arm and pointed to a few words: "The title of this question is wrong, the teacher just asked me to change it."

I hurriedly responded, looked up at the blackboard, but it was empty, and I didn't know what to write.

"Here, wait for the side to wait for the waist." Lu Xiu whispered, with a smile in his tone, "Why are you still distracted, my deskmate."

As I listened, my ears felt a little hot, so I forced myself to listen to the class, but I couldn't understand a point in the last question of the test paper.

The bell rang a long time ago, and the teacher couldn't drag it any longer, so he just asked her after class if there was something she didn't understand.

I also wrote down the notes, but I understood everything before and after, but there was a step in the middle where I couldn't figure it out, and I felt aggrieved and uncomfortable.

Lu Xiu suddenly moved closer to me: "I don't understand, is this?"

He moved the tip of my pen away from mine, touched the circle of steps I marked, and began to tell me step by step.

It was probably at that time that I clearly understood that my liking for Lu Xiu seemed to be no longer limited to the faintly visible feelings.

-5-

The number of times I read books and test papers with Lu Xiu after class division is not uncommon.

At this time, I basically took notes on my side, and he took notes on his side. There were two kinds of handwriting on one paper.

Sometimes when I get home, I will secretly take it out to read, the key point is to read Lu Xiu's writing.

It's a bit shameful to say it, but seeing something that belongs to Lu Xiu in his own room, there is a hidden and joyful sense of happiness.

I kept all these test papers alone, and I was not even willing to throw away the books after the college entrance examination.

I always felt that my mentality seemed a little unhealthy, until I saw my handwriting in the drawer of Lu Xiu's study when he was in high school.