To rely on others is to promise each other

"Let's go back."

Pei Yi didn't go forward to help him, but walked straight past Pei Shanqing, and opened the security door a little, "The medicine should be changed, he can't leave anyone now."

The door lock was gently closed, Pei Shanqing couldn't hold back the tears anymore, he covered his cheeks with his hands tightly, trying not to cry, but the tears flowed out as usual, slipped down his wrists, and wet his sleeves.

When he returned to the ward again, Pei Yi was sitting on the accompanying bed and processing documents, without raising his head, he said softly: "He is asleep, I have to go out to deal with some things later, you can stay here with him."

Pei Shanqing hummed, and stood at the foot of the bed staring at Jiang Yubai's face. His originally rosy lips turned pale from blood loss at this moment, and his long and soft eyelashes drooped down, blocking the exposed water.

Pei Yi closed the laptop, stood up and walked out, persuading him as he passed by: "Don't just stare here, you didn't sleep on the way here, the dark circles under your eyes almost fell to your chin, go to sleep for a while."

Although Pei Yi said this on purpose to ease the atmosphere, Pei Shanqing didn't let go of the boulder in his heart. As soon as his eyes touched the white gauze on Jiang Yubai's wrist, his whole body felt like an electric shock.

Pei Shanqing squatted beside the hospital bed, and stretched out his fingers to brush Jiang Yubai's eyebrows, nose tip, and lip beads, and finally stopped on his chin. Jiang Yubai might not have slept very well, so he curled up his fingers on his chest, and fell down. For a second, Pei Shanqing gently held her and kissed her fingertips.

The more he looked at Jiang Yubai's silent appearance, the more anxious Pei Shanqing became. He tried his best to control his movements more gently, and promised not to wake him up, but his beating heart couldn't bear it after the reunion.

The sound of the heartbeat was pounding, almost deafening, Pei Shanqing closed his sour eyes, kissed his forehead at last, and then took a step back.

The one-sided intimacy caused ripples in his heart, and he couldn't calm down after sitting on the side of the escort's bed for a long time.Suddenly, a familiar diary on the bedside table attracted Pei Shanqing's attention.

It may have existed for a long time, and the edges of the outer skin of the brown soft bag have been worn away. From the side view, most of the pages inside may have been used.

Pei Shanqing vaguely remembered that this was the diary he was curious about when he accompanied Jiang Yubai home to pack his personal belongings, but he hadn't read it with his own eyes.

Driven by curiosity, Pei Shanqing picked up the notebook, and at the same time glanced at Jiang Yubai guilty. Seeing that he was still asleep, he let out a long breath as if he had fully prepared himself, and opened the title page .

Pei Shanqing knew for a long time that Jiang Yubai had the habit of writing letters to him, but since he returned to China, he never received any letters.At the same time, he fell into a deadlock, indulging in the feeling of being criticized and unable to extricate himself.

As the party who had a crush on him, he could read the attachment in Jiang Yubai's tone when he wrote the letter, and while he was ecstatic, under the hindrance of his identity, he began to worry that the other party had the same thoughts as himself.

Therefore, in those days when the letter was not received, Pei Shanqing spent most of the time rejoicing - fortunate that Jiang Yubai was not as entangled as he was.

But when he saw it with his own eyes and read the contents of the diary silently word by word, Pei Shanqing realized that he was wrong from the beginning.

"Today is the first day back home, and I went to a new school with my parents, only a few hundred meters away from my brother's school.

I sneaked in while the security guard wasn't paying attention, and looked for several teaching buildings before I took a look at him from a distance in the corridor. He seemed to have grown taller, and the bridge of his nose was straighter.Maybe it's my illusion?I mean, he can be anything.

I wanted to say hello to him, but he didn't notice me, and left talking and laughing with my classmates.I hope that one day I can go home from school with him, but it seems unrealistic. "

In the school corridor, Yu Hui stretched out the figure, and Pei Shanqing's shadow quietly slipped in front of Jiang Yubai, but he himself didn't know anything, tilting his head and smiling to discuss the thesis homework left in class with his classmates.

Jiang Yubai was mixed in the crowd, with a slight smile on his white face, his eyes fell on Pei Shanqing's back, and a fingertip of the hand hanging by his side was quietly poked out, as if he was afraid of disturbing him, and poked him lightly. shadow.

But how did Pei Shanqing respond to him at that time?

He buried all the unspeakable secrets in his heart, read the letters from Jiang Yubai over and over again every lonely night, and carefully broke the sporadic sweetness into pieces. In the past tense, just swallow a little as a consolation.

Pei Shanqing didn't even dare to face him face to face, for fear that his longing would show signs, and even hugging him in the name of his brother would appear to be malicious.

As everyone knows, during the two years when he was selfishly escaping, most of the time there would be a child wearing a junior high school uniform not far behind him. He used the hurrying pedestrians as a cover to accompany him to smell the fragrance of spring flowers and blow through midsummer. The evening wind, stepping over the fallen leaves in early autumn, and walking through the snow in winter.

Pei Shanqing is used to dealing with problems by himself, but the moment when he found the truth by accident made that dark time suddenly bright.

Jiang Yu Bai Junxiu's handwriting recorded everything unknown, he wrote——

"I always watch his back and let him be swallowed by the darkness in the distance. If I can, I want to fall with him, even if the depth is bottomless."

Pei Shanqing turned the pages unconsciously with his hand, and the edge of the paper was embedded in the center of the fingertips. The tingling feeling was transmitted all the way along the arm through the nerve center to the brain, and then paralyzed the whole body, as if there was only a fresh heart left in his body.

Jiang Yubai didn't have any hopes at all. As far as he was concerned, he was extremely lucky to be able to follow in his brother's footsteps and accompany him indirectly.

However, the sky fails to fulfill people's wishes, and the family that already had gaps invisibly fell apart, breaking Jiang Yubai's last line of defense. He came to Pei Shanqing's side and began to wander endlessly between the two extremes.

For example, one day, he would abruptly and nonsensically persuade himself to give up in his diary. Pei Shanqing tried hard to recall what happened that day, but only a closed door appeared in his mind. Jiang Yubai stood outside and knocked on the door. In mid-air, he leaned against the door panel and sat inside.

Pei Shanqing couldn't count how many times his tears overflowed, and how many times they fell, but they just hit the ink stain drop by drop, smearing a black water stain.

"elder brother."

Jiang Yubai didn't know when he woke up. He half sat on the bed, squinted his eyes and looked at him through the dim bedside lamp, and called him stubbornly again, "Brother."

Pei Shanqing closed the notebook, stood up and walked over, raised his hand to wipe away the tears on his face, and sat in front of him with a smile, "What's wrong? Are your hands uncomfortable?"

Jiang Yubai moved the fingers of his left hand, his eyes wandered, he glanced at the diary on the bed, and whispered, "Don't read it."

"Why can't I read it?" Pei Shanqing caressed his cheek, "Whether it's a wound or a letter, it's all for me, isn't it?"

Jiang Yubai hummed in a nasal voice, and as if greedy for the temperature of his palm, he tilted his head and kissed his fingers quickly.

"Then why can't I watch it?" Pei Shanqing asked him, "Do you want me to know nothing?"

Jiang Yubai was stunned there, his eyes unable to see the light, he murmured, "You have never shown it to me, and you have kept many things from me, it's not fair."

Pei Shanqing's heart ached beyond words at this moment. His hand slowly slid down and covered Jiang Yubai's shoulders and neck. Then he held his lower lip with his trembling lips, and slowly moistened the warm tip of his tongue.

Jiang Yubai's eyelashes trembled slightly, and the roots were covered with a layer of crystal water, like the dewy treetops in the morning. He stepped back a little, with one hand behind his back, but Pei Shanqing quickly held him down.

Pei Shanqing kissed and pressed his whole body up. He reached out to turn off the bedside lamp, bent one knee and knelt beside him, hugged Jiang Yubai in his arms again, and opened his teeth to touch him. palate.

This was unexpected by Jiang Yubai. He lightly pressed his injured hand on Pei Shanqing's chest, half-opened his eyelids to look at him, but the next second his eyes were covered, and he was forced to devote himself to the kiss.

It is impossible to tell whose tears came out first, the slightly bitter and astringent tears were repeatedly crushed between the lips, evaporated under the bright moonlight, and disappeared in mid-air.

Panting, Jiang Yubai pushed him away, frowned and asked, "What is this?"

"Coax you."

Fortunately, the light was turned off just now, so Pei Shan's blushing cheeks couldn't be seen clearly, but he had a good attitude of admitting his mistake, "Hey, it was my mistake."

Jiang Yubai turned his head away from looking at him, Pei Shanqing leaned forward and hugged him, resting his chin on his shoulder, tilted his head and said again: "I was wrong."

Jiang Yubai's eyes fell on the gauze on his left wrist, he got up and moved his right hand slightly, and said, "You are right."

Pei Shanqing didn't want to argue with him like the elementary school students, but returned to the original question: "Why did you wake up just now? Are your hands uncomfortable?"

Jiang Yubai shook his head lightly, and Pei Shanqing asked again: "Are you still sleepy? Continue to sleep?"

After being admitted to the hospital, Jiang Yubai became a little dazed, but Pei Shanqing thought he was cuter than usual. He thought for a while before saying, "I don't want to sleep anymore."

Although Jiang Yubai showed resistance to Fang Cai's unclear kiss, it didn't mean he wasn't afraid of Pei Shanqing walking away, just like now he quietly grabbed Pei Shanqing's clothes corner.

"May I hold you and lie down for a while?" Pei Shanqing persuasively said, "My hands will hurt if I hold you like this for a long time."

"……it is good."

Pei Shanqing leaned against the head of the bed, and stretched out an arm for Jiang Yubai to use as a pillow. Jiang Yubai lay in his arms, poking Pei Shanqing's face from time to time.

"Why poke me?" Pei Shanqing asked.

Jiang Yubai replied honestly: "It doesn't feel real."

Pei Shanqing took the diary and put it on his lap, kissed his hot ear, "I haven't finished reading it just now, can I continue to read it?"

"...If I say no, will you not watch it?"

Pei Shanqing couldn't help laughing, "No, I'll watch it at another time."

Jiang Yubai pursed his thin lips lightly, looking dissatisfied, but instead of grabbing the notebook in his hand forcefully, he asked, "Where did you see it?"

"Here." Pei Shanqing turned over one of the pages, and tapped his handwriting with his fingertips, "Should it be written after I went abroad?"

When Jiang Yubai heard this, he immediately closed the book, buried his head in his neck and rubbed it, and said in a soft tone, "I'm sleepy, can you sleep?"

"It's useful to act like a baby, but not now." Pei Shanqing patted him on the back and coaxed, "Since it's written for me, can you read it to me?"

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I really like to let young couples kiss T_T