Overwhelmed

I noticed that Big Brother Bai was looking at the sea not far away, I followed his gaze and found that Xiao Xiao was hugging Xiao Ya's neck, pointing to Caesar Barabara swimming in front of them and saying something.

This girl has this kind of ability, even if she is just playing around with two dogs, she can still enjoy herself so much that others can feel the joy.

Not pretentious, not pretentious, she has always lived a wanton and real life, it's no wonder that Big Brother Bai has been protecting her so much.

"Raising children is a very labor-intensive thing." He said softly, rubbing Zheng Baobao's little head, his eyes still fell on Xiaoxiao.

"When it's hot in summer, I'm worried about her getting heatstroke, and when it's cold in winter, I'm afraid she'll catch a cold;

When she first learned to crawl, she was not allowed to have any angular things within her range of activities;

When I staggered and started to walk, I was protecting her behind me, but I was still worried that she would fall and hurt if she accidentally lost her footing..."

"When Xiaoxiao was three years old..."

Turning sideways on the reclining chair, I quietly watched Big Brother Bai go out of his way and recount every detail of Xiaoxiao's life in these years like a few treasures.

I have always known that in the bottom of this person's heart, there is a pure land that exists only for the small, but I can't help but get lost in his rare and unguarded extreme gentleness, knowing that it is not at this moment. Not blooming for me, but still throbbing.

Until Brother Bai's voice stopped for a long time, I didn't recover from that soft voice, and I was still staring at his side face in a daze.

"Uncle Lu~" I was patted on the face by a small meaty hand, and I suddenly came back to my senses, and subconsciously grabbed Zheng Baobao's small hand and took a bite.

There are two exquisite faces, one large and one small in front of me, the big one is smiling, but there is a bit of playfulness and warmth in his eyes, the small one is frowning with faint little eyebrows, and the voice of a baby is serious Said to me, "Uncle Lu, baby's hands are not tasty ~ Uncle Bai said we should eat this first ~"

As he spoke, he pointed to the yellow peach and white fungus soup that was delivered at an unknown time.

I silently put down his little fleshy hand, turned my head and coughed a few times, I felt that I was caught by Brother Bai just now when he was in a state of fascination, and he was still in front of this little bun. It seems to be getting hotter.

Big brother Bai smiled and rubbed the child's hair, then turned his wrist and landed on my head again, asking me as if he didn't notice anything, "Why is this coughing up, get up and drink some white fungus soup to moisten your throat, It’s not good if you have a fever and a cold.”

After finishing speaking, he took a bowl of white fungus soup from the table, but instead of eating it, he carefully fed Zheng Baobao in his arms.

Hearing what he said, I really felt that my throat was a little dry, so I arched it twice, took a bowl of iced tremella soup and drank it.

As I drank and drank, I watched him take care of Zheng Baobao carefully, and I was a little distracted, "Brother Bai, you really like children..."

"Huh?" He raised his head slightly, with faint doubts in his eyes.

I thought for a while, "Didn't you notice? Just now when you mentioned those things in Xiaoxiao's childhood, the corners of your eyes were bent." As I said that, I pulled up the end of my eyes with my fingers.

"Also, when we first met Xiao Luyu in the orphanage, you also ran to play with him in the sand. At that time, I was so shocked that I couldn't speak, but later I found that you seemed to be having a good time. , I couldn’t help but follow into the sea.”

That was the first time I noticed that this person had such a childlike side, so the impression was naturally very deep.

"Later when we went to the Bai family's orphanage together, I found that those children were also very clingy to you and stained your clothes. You never cared about it, and you still smiled gently at them."

After placing Xiao Luyu in the Bai family's orphanage, Brother Bai and I visited him several times. The environment there is very good, and the lives of the children are also very good. When we saw Brother Bai, we didn't see any intentional flattery and cowardice.The reason why those sensitive children are so close to Big Brother Bai is because they really felt the unpretentious kindness from Big Brother Bai.

"And this little guy," stretched out his hand and poked Baby Zheng's bulging face. He poked a hole, and the back of his hand was quickly slapped down by Big Brother Bai. It didn't hurt, but it made me feel more confident. Su Suo thought, "It's been less than 24 hours since you met, and the real contact time is only for such a short time, look at you, this puts him on...!"

Complaining half-truthfully, I looked at Big Brother Bai's smiling eyes, and couldn't help curling my lips, "If I still can't see that you like children, then what I just did was really in vain."

Brother Bai finally chuckled, "Ming Yuan, are you jealous?"

I snorted at him angrily, lowered my head and continued to eat the white fungus soup, but my heart gradually felt a little heavy.

Out of the corner of my eye, I caught sight of Big Brother Bai's gentle and meticulous movements, and I was a little dazed. How could I realize this problem...?

Brother Bai likes children, and he seems to like them very much.

And we are all men, if we are really together, we are destined not to have children belonging to us.

When I thought of this, my heart suddenly felt like it was being pricked by a needle.

Before today, I never seemed to think about what would happen to us in the future.

I just thought, this person is so nice and makes people feel distressed, so I always want to be with him soon, try every means to make him have a good impression of me, want to occupy a place in his life, want to Let him only look at me, want to make him happy, make him happy... but forgot to ask him what kind of life he wants in the future.

For some reason, I suddenly remembered what Wan Qi and Huo Shu had said. They both said that Brother Bai and Tang Yuan are different.

How could they have ignored the obvious worry on Wan Qi's face and Huo Shu's obviously frustrated attitude?

It was as if my head had been enlightened suddenly, and while my heart was colder than ever, I also understood the unfinished meaning of what they said.

Maybe they already understood that sooner or later, Tang Yuan and I will die without a medical cause. Whether he rejects me or we are really together, there will be no results.

Although I have amnesia, and I don't know what I thought before, but only from what I saw from Tang Yuan later, I can understand that even if we are really together, the deep-rooted cleanliness of feelings in my bones And demanding, sooner or later we will be separated, maybe even my relatives will take the initiative to help me see what kind of person he is.

Brother Bai is completely different.

This person is attracted to me for no reason. I can't resist him with his gentleness, his thoughtfulness, his casual smile, and everything about him. I can only sink myself deeper and deeper day by day. .

I like him.

But it was only just now that he really realized that this man is the head of the Bai family, and even the only son of the Bai family.

The continuation of the Bai family needs him.

He may also need a truly complete family, with a gentle and beautiful wife, and a well-behaved and lovely child like Zheng Baobao.

He will be a loving father.

And all of this, I can't give him.

When I first thought about this, other possibilities that I had never thought of before flooded into my mind.

How could I have thought so naively before that we would be together after all.

Even if Big Brother Bai really likes me in the future, it may be impossible for the Lu family and the Bai family to allow us to be together.

As for the hostess of the Bai family who has been bedridden for many years, even though I only had a brief contact with her once, I dare not underestimate her influence on Brother Bai, and I will not really forget that woman like most people in the outside world. What kind of cruel methods were used to make the Bai family stand firmly at the top of the upper class after losing their male master.

I don't know her well, but I can understand that she is almost using her life to protect everything in the Bai family.

She will not allow her only son to be with a man.

With the status and influence of the Bai family today, such a scandal cannot be tolerated at all.

I also can't bear to let Big Brother Bai suffer even the slightest bit of harm.

I obviously just simply like him and want to be with him, but it turns out that it's not just that he likes me too.

Between us, there is so much resistance.

Together, it is almost impossible.

Suddenly realizing this, my chest was so stuffy that I couldn't breathe, and the sockets of my eyes suddenly became hot, and something was about to come out almost immediately.

I didn't even have the courage to look at him again, so I immediately turned around and got off the deck chair, ran wildly on the beach, and almost cried out at the bottom of the water when I sank into the blue water.

I feel like I'm going crazy, my heart hurts like crazy.

We can't be together.

This almost doomed result seemed to tear my soul and body apart. My soul was crying uncontrollably, but my body could only use this almost self-abuse method to cover people up.

It was only then that I realized that my feelings for Big Brother Bai had already reached such an extreme.

……

When I was fished out of the sea by Huo Shu and Wan Qi, the two people who were bouncing happily laughed at me mercilessly for my diving method, which was worse than that of a three-year-old child.

I wiped my dripping hair and eyes vigorously, laughed and slapped the surface of the sea a few times, splashing the sea water on the two of them, and then the three immediately laughed and cursed into a mess.

After throwing Zheng Jingren on the rubber boat into the sea, I rubbed my face sore from a smile, looked at the fiery red sunset at the end of the sea, and slightly pulled the corners of my lips.

It turned out that trying to laugh again was not as difficult as imagined.

As the stars began to twinkle overhead, our group started to have a bonfire by the beach.

Since it is by the sea, it is natural to eat the freshest seafood.

The chef here is obviously very good at cooking seafood, and after a while, the rich and fresh fragrance wafts in this small area.

Huo Shu and Wan Qi had already set up the barbecue grill, Tao Le and I quickly took advantage of the favorable terrain, and let the two of them yell at each other, not giving way to life and death, and watched with smiles as they stood on the opposite side angrily. He set up two shelves, and then spread all kinds of seafood on the shelves angrily and started roasting.

Xiaoxiao took Zheng Baobao, and in the soft and waxy voice of the child, gave him one by one science popularization about what this seafood is called, which seafood is more delicious, and I will help the young lady to grab some delicious food from someone who is so cute... …

Zheng Jingren, on the other hand, still looked like a grandpa, lying on the recliner in flowery underpants, waiting for the chefs to serve him, which made people feel itchy.

"Ming Yuan, are you and Mr. Bai having trouble?" Just as he was turning over the sizzling squid, Tao Le asked casually.

My hands paused, and after I sprinkled some salt on the squid, I shook my head, "No, why did you ask me so suddenly?"

"You even watched the soup cook over there four or five times this night, but you didn't even look at Mr. Bai once. Any fool knows something is wrong."

I bit my lip and took a few deep breaths, only to find it less difficult to breathe.

Picking the corner of my eyes, I smiled and hugged Tao Le's neck, and blew softly in his ear, "Observe me so carefully, huh? Could it be that you have finally discovered my charm, young master, and are planning to bow down to me?" Are your suit pants down?"

Tao Le snorted lightly, rolled his eyes at me, and bumped his elbow on my stomach, "Fuck off, just because of your tone-deaf voice, you want me to fall in love with you, when you can sing me the tone Let’s talk later.”

"...Who was the one who cried and shouted that I, a 'tony-deaf' person, should sing those treasures that he regards as his life?!"

This guy is really terribly realistic. Since he kidnapped me, it is almost impossible to hear a good word from him.

"Praise me, I'll die, bastard TvT!"

"I really want me to praise you, but you sing really well! Every time I ask you to practice, I push three times and four times. With the current progress, can I finish half of the recording by the end of the year?!"

As soon as I heard him talk about this, I immediately felt a little guilty.

Although I promised to practice with him before and help him find inspiration by the way, I always had to refuse because I wanted to date...Brother Bai.

"It won't happen in the future." I assured Tao Le softly, then met his probing and disbelieving eyes, thought for a while, and then said, "Why don't we start practicing tomorrow."

"you sure?"

"Of course." I nodded vigorously.

Only then did Tao Le show a relaxed smile, and stretched out his hand, "To reward you for being so active, I'll give you this skewer of grilled fish!"

I looked down at the fish that was almost as black as charcoal, and asked him with black lines all over his head, "Are you sure if you eat this thing, can I still see the sun tomorrow?!"

Tao Le blinked his eyes, then regretfully gave the lump of "coke" to Xiaoya who was waiting behind him, and Xiaoya grinned, chewing and swallowing the lump of coke Stomach.

...How do I remember that I didn't abuse this stupid dog? If it really hurts my stomach, I won't care about you, hey!

I'm starving now because I've expended so much energy today.

Carrying the grilled squid around the grills and behind the chef, there is a grilled oyster here, and a king crab leg there.

It was a bit uncomfortable to eat too much, I said hello to everyone, and went upstairs to lie on the bed, moaning and rubbing my stomach to digest food.

My mind was blank, I had just had a full meal, but I still felt very tired.

After an unknown amount of time, there was a slight knock on the door, "Knock, knock..."

I closed my eyes, knowing who the person outside the door was, and clearly being separated by a door, but subconsciously held my breath, a little afraid that he would find out that I was actually still asleep.

It wasn't until the sound finally stopped and the people outside the door left that I slowly relaxed my nerves and took a few deep breaths.

The stomach seemed to be throbbing and painful, and even the heart, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys were involved as if they had been pricked by a needle, and the pain was so painful that people almost burst into tears.