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Do you really love him?

Do you really love love very much?

Jiang Ziling only realized at this moment. He had never had the courage to ask himself such a question. He couldn't find the answer at this moment. He just felt a heart-piercing pain.

Painful.

If you love, why do you want to escape. Why don't you face it.

If you don't love, why should you be sad? Be uncomfortable.

Is it possible that I have to cower and hide like this for the rest of my life.

"Ling...I..." Xi Gongming looked at Jiang Ziling's slightly trembling back. I love you. These three words. Unable to speak.

The repressed pain in each heart permeates in this not-so-rich space. Jiang Ziling knows that if he continues to escape like this, he will miss his whole life.

You've already missed it once. Do you want to miss it a second time?

The question. He choked on the thought.

Maybe. Even if that man really doesn't love himself anymore. Or maybe he never really loved himself at all. Let's end it face to face.

At least that way you can be a complete fool.

Xi Gongming also knows. If he doesn't say it, then this man will never know that he has always loved him. Then he will never have a chance.

Even if you say it, you can no longer be friends. That is the price you need to bear... At least you can release the pressure in your heart...

"Jiang Ziling. When you came here, didn't you ask me what kind of man I like?" Finally, he mustered up the courage. "I'll tell you now. I... love you. Since childhood, you have been living in my heart."

Jiang Ziling turned around. He looked at Xi Gongming with eyes full of surprise. He couldn't believe what he heard. He asked, "What were you talking about just now?"

Xi Gongming looked at the charming Jiang Ziling with firm eyes, and said seriously: "The man I love is you. Forget about that Huangfu Jue who made you sad, hurt your lungs and hurt your lungs. Is it okay to be my man? I will make you happy."

"Heh..." To Xi Gongming's astonishment, Jiang Ziling actually laughed. It was like a sneer when he heard the coldest joke in the world. "Do you think I am so pitiful now?"

Xi Gongming panicked. He didn't mean it. It wasn't because he felt pity for his lost love that he opened his heart. It's because he has always loved this man.

His smile, his handsome face, his unique smell, are all Xi Gongming's fatal wounds. He has sunk into the realm of selflessness.

"No. It's not. Ziling. It's not what you think. You've been living in my heart since I was a child. I play tricks. I mess around. But it's all used to fill the loneliness in my heart. I don't Dare to tell you. I am gay. I love you. I am afraid that after you know, you will think that I am a monster. From then on, we can’t even be friends..." After living for 27 years, Xi Gongming felt so caught off guard for the first time. He Busy explaining. For fear of being misunderstood.

But Jiang Ziling didn't understand. He shook his head in despair. "Without love, I can still live well. So I don't need your pity." He got up from the bed and finally left the room.

"Ziling, Jiang Ziling...it's not what you think." Xi Gongming panicked even more, and immediately chased him out. But no matter how he chased, the man's back kept disappearing in front of him little by little.

No. I really do love you.

This humble heart seems familiar. Yes, it is Austin. Damn. He was infected by that idiot model.

But the more he explained it in this way, the worse he felt. It seemed that this feeling was not due to his fear of not being able to be friends with Jiang Ziling again. Rather, he seemed to have felt the humbleness of that idiot model towards him...

The two extreme emotions made Xi Gongming completely confused. It was like fire and water melting together, leaving him in a state of collapse.

Finally. He couldn't take it anymore. He woke up from the nightmare.

Outside the window, the morning sun shines through the white curtains to illuminate the whole room. It casts colorful shadows on the white wall. On the bed next to the wall, two men are sleeping. The eyebrows of the two men are furrowed tacitly.

Xi Gongming opened his eyes, looked around the room, and finally stopped on the back of the man sleeping next to him.

His head short-circuited for a moment. He didn't know when he fell asleep. The two were so close.

It turned out that everything was just a dream. He still didn't tell this man.

The one-month trip to Tibet is over. With beautiful memories of the scenery, I also return to the original life with lifelong regrets.

One month is not a long time. But for Huangfu Jue, who is stuck in the swamp of longing, it is like a year. The exposed news is gradually subsided. Huangfu Kai's body is also slowly recovering. He is preparing for 7 Yue returned to France to celebrate his 98th birthday.

As for the matter between Jiang Zihao and Huangfu Rui, when Jiang Zihao came to visit Huangfu Kai, Huangfu Jue was not at home, so he didn't know what method Jiang Zihao used to make Huangfu Kai willing to let Huangfu Rui stay in Jiang Zihao That.

This is the consistent skill he wants to learn from Jiang Zihao.

Talk about Jiang Ziling’s going to Tibet this month. How did Huangfu Jue live? Every day he lost himself in the business of the wedding ring company he wanted to start, and ran around the United States and China for three or two days. The rest The time is to soak in the bar.

Live an energetic professional elite during the day and a decadent dick-like life at night.

He started to go back to the night life he used to fuck. He got into cigarettes. He fell in love with alcohol. He rolled in different beds with different men. Ecstasy.

He went to City A to look for Jiang Ziling. But Jiang Tao drove him away. He didn't have the man's contact information, emails, and private messages on Weibo. Jiang Ziling didn't reply to any of them. It was as if the world evaporated and disappeared.

He promised that Xi Gongming would not appear in front of Jiang Ziling again. But at least he had to say goodbye.

Huangfu Jue's fall was noticed by both Huangfu Gongzhen and Chen Nan. Huangfu Gongzhen had advised him a lot, but he didn't listen, not to mention Chen Nan's persuasion.

Maybe as long as it keeps falling, that man will come back.

Huangfu Jue really thinks so.

Finally. On a gloomy noon, Huangfu, who was trying to catch up on sleep, was awakened by the vibration of his mobile phone. He fumbled for the mobile phone. It was an unfamiliar phone number.

"Hi. Hello. JUE."

"Brother Xiaojue. I'm Lele." On the other end of the phone was Jiang Yu's immature voice.

Huangfujue's drowsiness disappeared immediately. "Lele, what's the matter?"

"Brother Xiaojue. My brother will come back from Tibet today. Come and pick me up and pick him up together, okay?"