God, I want to sleep with you

Cifuyuan cemetery in the suburbs.

Luo Baiyi squatted alone in front of a tombstone, and a new bouquet of lilies was placed in front of him. On the tombstone were impressively written the words "Xian Kao Luo Wei's Tomb".

The sky has already darkened, and the weather in May is a bit chilly, especially in the cemetery on the mountain, the mountain wind is blowing, mixed with coolness, hitting people's cheeks.

Luo Baiyi didn't even wear a coat, and he was a little cold in short sleeves, but he didn't seem to feel it. He looked at the photo on the tombstone with red eyes. Heroic.He squatted forward and called, "Dad."

Naturally, no one answered him.

His voice suddenly became a little choked up, but he still tried his best to control himself and let himself laugh: "Dad, I swore in my heart that I would never come to you when I was unhappy, and let you see that I am unhappy." . . . but I'm so sad."

"I also know that I'm abnormal. I like the same sex, I like men, I don't like women, but I can't control myself..." He tried to hold back, but tears still fell down, "Just Like my father, getting addicted to drugs is beyond my control... But why did they scold me, why did they scold you..."

He remembered that when he was in junior high school, his father was still there. After those boys found out about his father, they came to laugh at him and insult him after class, saying that his father was a softie, an umbrella of the underworld, and a shameless villain. Otherwise, how could a policeman become addicted to drugs and be forced to rehab?

He was very stubborn at that time, and when he heard what they said, he wanted to fight them desperately, but he was thin and small, and he was not their opponent at all. He was beaten up black and blue by them, but it was his homeroom teacher who sympathized with him and took him into the office , Wash his wounds, and enlighten him, saying, don't care what others say, just be yourself.

So later on he gradually ignored them, but those people got worse and often bullied him secretly...

"Dad, I have worked very hard...but I think this world is unfair." Luo Baiyi sat on the ground with his knees hugged and looked at the already dark sky, "You were born and died to be an anti-drug policeman and an undercover agent, but you After being addicted to drugs, who still remembers you, who still cares about your sacrifices, even your mother has left you, not to mention those people you protect who don’t know you at all... I have also studied hard, I work hard to support myself, but..." The rewards for him are always malice and misfortune...

He said, laughing like self-deprecating: "Do you still remember the boyfriend I met when I was in college? He told me he liked me and wanted to be with me, so I went to work to earn money to buy him a mobile phone Buy a gift, but how did he treat me in the end?"

That scum kicked him away, and said everywhere that it was Luo Baiyi who shamelessly seduced him.

"I like Jiang Bie, and even gave him the first time...but he hates me and thinks I'm disgusting..." Luo Baiyi said, and finally felt cold, hugged himself tightly, and muttered to himself Said, "I don't want to do anything, I just want to find someone to love me, why is it so difficult?"

"Why is it so difficult?"

Luo Baiyi sat quietly for a while by himself, finally got up and patted the dirt on his body, pretending to be relaxed and said: "Okay, Dad, I am not sad anymore, thank you for accompanying me, today's lilies are very fresh Yes, you used to buy it as a gift for your mother, so let it stay with you, I'll go back to have dinner first."

He wiped away the tears from his eyes, and smiled at the man in the photo: "I will come to see you next time, I promise, I will definitely be happy to see you next time, goodbye, Dad!"

He turned his back to the tombstone, took a deep breath, and left.

Night is deep.

Jiang Bie has been staying at the place rented by Shan Jia and Luo Baiyi, lingering and talking nonsense with Shan Jia.

Shan Jia was also puzzled, thinking what happened to my master today, when he first let him in, he refused to come in, and now he just sits and won’t leave, what’s the matter? ...Wait a minute, is it because of the white clothes?

A flash of inspiration flashed in Shan Jia's mind, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt that it was the case, so he tentatively asked Jiang Bie, "Master, are you looking for Bai Yi?"

Jiang Bie was taken aback, then laughed and said, "How is it possible, I don't know him well, why should I ask him?" Then he asked casually, "But speaking of it, I really don't know him at all, Is he our native?"

"Yeah, he is a local, it seems to be from Town F, District C, but his parents have divorced. I asked him, and he said that his father died of illness, and his mother has a new family. He has a half-sister His father’s younger brother, but he doesn’t get close to his mother, so he doesn’t go there very often.” Shan Jia said, feeling a little sympathetic to Luo Baiyi, “His father seems to have passed away when he was in junior high school, and he grew up with his grandma. Yes, his grandma passed away when he was in college, so he didn’t have any relatives... He was watching "My Fair Princess" before, and he said he liked Huang Ama in it very much. I thought he thought that actor was handsome, but later It turns out that he simply thinks that Huang Ama treats little Yanzi very well, and he must be very envious of Little Yanzi having such a father..."

He went home one weekend before, and called Luo Baiyi to go too. Luo Baiyi cried when he came back in the car with him. Originally, he was crying secretly, and he didn't dare to let Shan Jia find out, but Luo Baiyi has a problem , His eyes turn red when he cries, so Shan Jia found out, but he didn't dare to tell the truth, so he pretended he didn't see it, and walked past laughingly.

He felt that this might also be a kind of protection and respect for Bai Yi.

Hearing what Shan Jia said, Jiang Bie felt very uncomfortable. Luo Baiyi had done nothing wrong, he provoked him and fell in love with him, so he blamed all of this on him, and said very exaggerated things to him... …

"Master, do you like white clothes a little bit?" Shan Jia asked cautiously and tentatively.

"Nonsense!" Jiang Bie retorted immediately.

"Why do you react so strongly? If you don't like it, you don't like it." Shan Jia patted his heart, and then said meaningfully, "But Master, I think the man in white is really good. If I didn't like the senior, I would You will definitely like him... So if you really like him, you must seize the opportunity, otherwise you will be snatched away by another man, and you won't be able to cry."

"Nonsense, do you think everyone likes you and likes men?" Just as Jiang Bie finished speaking, he heard the door open, and Luo Baiyi's voice came from the door:

"Jiajia, have you had dinner yet? I brought you a roujiamo..."

As soon as he entered, he saw Jiang Bie sitting on the sofa, and immediately lowered his head, as if avoiding the plague, he hurried into the kitchen.