forgotten island

Nan Qing didn't know how long he had been lying on the bed before getting up. He took a bath in numbness, and then called Mo Shen. Only then did he realize that the only person he could tell was always Mo Shen.

When Mo Shen picked up the phone, Nan Qing didn't speak immediately, but just breathed silently.

"Nan Qing?" Mo Shen on the other end of the phone called him strangely.

Nan Qing was afraid that his voice would scare Mo Shen, so he spoke after a few seconds, but still couldn't help sobbing slightly: "Mo Shen, I lost."

When Mo Shen received Nan Qing, Nan Qing's eyes were still red and swollen, and he looked tired. He asked worriedly, "What's wrong with you?"

Nan Qing smiled, leaned back on the chair weakly, looked at the scenery passing by outside the car window, and said firmly: "You are right, I am a fool."

Mo Shen took Nan Qing back home, the two sat on the carpet while drinking and talking, Nan Qing told Mo Shen everything he knew, Mo Shen unexpectedly didn't scold him, nor Zhang Chengyi, Instead, she smiled happily: "So are you going to let go now?"

Nan Qing took a sip of beer: "Yeah, just a little bit, I'm still a little bit closer."

"What do you mean? Are you still planning to leave him? He just treats you as someone else, you can accept that?" Mo Shen raised his voice a little bit, a little excited, but couldn't help scolding Nan Qing, " You are a fucking fool with a love brain."

Nan Qing smiled wryly: "Yes, I am a love brain. But don't worry, I will leave, and Zhang Chengyi will kill me personally."

I don't know if it's because of the alcohol, but Nan Qing's eyes started to turn red again. He looked at Mo Shen and continued, "Mo Shen, I can accept that Zhang Chengyi doesn't love me, and I can accept the constant changing of people around him, but I accept But Zhang Chengyi's only kindness and tenderness to me is a gift from a dead man." He paused, then smiled self-deprecatingly, "Do you know why I can painfully accept Zhang Chengyi's constant replacement?"

Mo Shen looked at Nan Qing who was full of pain, and couldn't help turning his head away: "I don't know."

"Because only in this way can I prove that he has no one he likes, and he will not like anyone. At least in front of those people, I am special. But...but now someone tells me that he Loving others, loving for a long time, loving deeply, my obsessive self-deception is ridiculous."

Nan Qing swallowed his throat, the sore feeling couldn't go away, he sighed: "I finally understand why I can't laugh, why Zhang Chengyi likes me to wear a white shirt, why he always drinks at NO.15 Drunk. You know? Now I feel that all my willingness has become ironic and ridiculous. Like a clown." Nan Qing squeezed the beer can hard, as if to vent something.

The two chatted until very late before Mo Shen sent Nan Qing back.He watched Nanqing's lonely back walking slowly towards the prison, and said silently: "I hope you can escape this time." Xiaoying sighed

It has been a month since Zhang Chengyi came home. Nan Qing was still waiting for him at the door as usual. I don't know if it was an illusion. Zhang Chengyi always felt that Nan Qing had lost a lot of weight, and his eyes looked tired, with loose eyelids. Drooping slumped.

Zhang Chengyi reached out and hugged Nan Qing into his arms, and asked worriedly, "Are you feeling unwell?"

Nan Qing leaned on Zhang Chengyi's chest obediently, and shook his head slightly: "I'll accompany you to drink some wine today." Zhang Chengyi looked in a good mood today, bowed his head and kissed Nan Qing's hair, and said good.

Nan Qing didn't react and led Zhang Chengyi in, then saw Zhang Chengyi was slightly taken aback, and saw a pure white carved tablecloth on the table, a bunch of small red roses in the center, and a The silver candlestick, with flickering candles on it, and the Western food that took a lot of time to make, Zhang Chengyi looked at the arrangement in front of him, raised his eyebrows slightly: "It took a lot of thought. "

Nan Qing hummed, and poured the awakened red wine into the glass.Zhang Chengyi gave a rare smile, and opened the seat in a gentlemanly manner to let Nan Qing sit first. The two of them finished the meal with a sense of ritual, as if they were going on a date.

Nan Qing was a little drunk, his cheeks were flushed, he stood up on the table with dim eyes, Zhang Chengyi saw Nan Qing standing crookedly, immediately got up and walked to him, pinched the wrist that was propped on the table, and moved toward himself A gentle tug over there made him lean on his body: "What's wrong with you today?"

Nan Qing didn't answer Zhang Chengyi's question, his ear was pressed against Zhang Chengyi's chest, feeling his body temperature through the thin shirt.The sound of Zhang Chengyi's heartbeat was passing through everything, unwilling to stop, reaching Nan Qing's ears.

Maybe it was because of drinking, the sound of his heartbeat was extraordinarily bewitching and hollow. Similarly, this drunkenness also gave Nan Qing a lot of courage, but it was not enough for Nan Qing to look directly at Zhang Chengyi.

He didn't listen for too long, he grabbed the corner of Zhang Chengyi's clothes, moved his mouth, and said, "Zhang Chengyi."

Zhang Chengyi noticed Nan Qing's strangeness, and hummed lightly, with doubts.

Nan Qing closed his eyes and asked, "Zhang Chengyi, will you love me?"

When Zhang Chengyi heard this, he subconsciously wanted to push Nan Qing away, but found that Nan Qing was holding him tightly, and the veins on the back of his hand stood up abruptly because of too much force. From Zhang Chengyi's angle, one could see Nan Qing's slightly trembling eyelashes , as if trying to suppress something.

Zhang Chengyi froze, unable to push away for the first time, his tone was a bit cold, the tenderness and patience a few minutes ago had become a thing of the past, like a mirage in the sea, it was fake: "No."

Zhang Chengyi's heart beat faster.

"That's it." Nan Qing bit his lip firmly: "You, will you fall in love with someone else?"

Zhang Chengyi frowned deeply: "What on earth do you want to do?" He pressed Nan Qing's shoulder to push him away again, but after touching Nan Qing's shoulder, Zhang Chengyi didn't move. He looked at Nan Qing with a puzzled face, He found that the person in his arms was trembling, and the whole person shrank in his arms as if he was afraid of something.

"Tell me, do you love others?" The voice was firmly pressed in the throat, very soft.

Zhang Chengyi was stunned for a few seconds, then gradually eased the strength in his hands, he glanced out the window, it was pitch black, only the lights stubbornly illuminated the square inch below, there was fine rain floating under the lights, dense Like flying dust.

It's raining again.

"do not love."

With the appearance of the two words, the sound of Zhang Chengyi's heart beating became more intense, and Nan Qing listened quietly to the frequency of Zhang Chengyi's heart beating.

He lied.

very nice.

He lied.

such……

I can rest assured.

Supporting Zhang Chengyi's body, Nan Qing stood up straight, slowly raised his head, looked at Zhang Chengyi, he smiled, the corners of his eyes were beautifully curved: "This is so good."

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Nanmuzi fish:

Nan Qing smiled in front of Zhang Chengyi