Aftermath of breakup

When Pei Yi walked out of Qingyue's counseling room, her fingertips were numb.

Pei Yi has been introverted and quiet since he was a child. He has no friends or family to accompany him. He is not addicted to electronic products like some children.

So when he is bored, he will read books, learn related things, and some extracurricular things.

From various books, he has seen the complicated human nature, so Pei Yi has always felt that there are thousands of personalities without high or low, and every personality is normal.

Especially like himself, it's just simple indifference, nothing special, so Pei Yi himself didn't pay special attention to it.

But did not expect ...

Pei Yi watched the elevator door open, and walked in mechanically.

Before he left, he recalled Yin Shuang's analysis of the cause of this symptom for him.

"I often suppress my emotions, and my personal emotional needs have not been met for a long time...The seeds are often buried in childhood, and as I grow older, they take root and germinate silently, and now, they suddenly cause an uproar."

It hit the nail on the head, and Pei Yi couldn't help but refute.

Later, Yin Shuang also talked about his possible performance.

"In your case, if you encounter stimuli, of course there should be very few that can irritate you, and most of them are related to childhood shadows. After encountering them, you will also start self-protection. Others have many ways to protect themselves , asking for help, telling, facing, venting, etc., and you have only one kind, self-enclosed."

"But it just makes your symptoms worse, it just makes you more and more—"

At that time, Pei Yi just heard this, and couldn't listen to it at all. The feeling of being spied on by everyone was too suffocating. Pei Yi couldn't bear it, so he got up and said goodbye to Yin Shuang.

Fortunately, Yin Shuang didn't stop him.

At this moment, Pei Yi was thinking about a long paragraph of words just now, and felt that the blood all over his body was cold.

Pei Yi raised his eyes inadvertently, and met his own gaze on the elevator mirror.

At that moment, Pei Yi was in a daze, the eyes of the person in the mirror were indifferent and dull, so that the whole person looked like an empty shell neither sad nor happy.

So he usually...is that like this?

Is it the same in front of Duan Xinglian?

Thinking of this, Pei Yi's eyes trembled slightly, and a desolation suddenly appeared in his heart.

Unexpectedly, at this time, the elevator suddenly stopped on the 8th floor, and then the elevator door opened.

Pei Yi subconsciously wanted to stand aside, but before he could move, he met the eyes of the people outside the door.

The other party was obviously surprised when he saw him, and then frowned instantly, his impatient face darkened immediately, and a trace of disgust flashed in his eyes.

But then, for some unknown reason, he walked into the elevator;

Pei Yi didn't expect to see Li Jiang here at all. There are junior and senior high schools in No. [-] Middle School, but the teaching buildings are not together. After Li Jiang was relegated to the junior high school, Pei Yi never saw him again, and almost forgot about him. .

At the same time, before the elevator door closed, Pei Yi looked out, and happened to see a few prominent characters facing the elevator door, Pu Yang Education.

At the moment, Li Jiang is still holding the teaching materials of this organization.

Li Jiang has no children. Obviously, he is here to give extra lessons to the students.

But now tutoring institutions are strictly prohibited, and teachers in school committing crimes are blatant violations.

But Pei Yi is not interested in these, and Li Jiang is no different from a stranger to him.

But at the moment when Pei Yi's mood was surging, he didn't even want to say a pretentious "Mr. Li".

He lowered his head, waited for the elevator to reach the first floor, and then walked out.

But who would have thought that the sound of footsteps behind him caught up, and then there was another strange sentence: "Go and report again."

Hearing this, Pei Yi tilted her head slightly, not understanding what kind of "again" he was talking about.

Before asking questions, Li Jiang made a statement on his own, with a somewhat sinister tone: "Isn't the result of the report last time very good, and you have seen my current fate."

Speaking of this, Pei Yi understood that what he was talking about was the last time he received a gift and was reported.

In the same incident, Bian Guangyang was also punished.

Pei Yi didn't quite understand why Li Jiang was telling him this at first, but after thinking about it later, he vaguely understood.

At that time, the material that reported Li Jiang was very detailed, and most people would never know so much, so the whistleblower was most likely a student in Li Jiang's class.

It just so happened that Pei Yi had been in Li Jiang's class, and he had a quarrel with Li Jiang. Besides, Wei Yun and Pei Yi, who didn't get along with Li Jiang, seemed to have a good teacher-student relationship.

But Pei Yi still thought it was ridiculous, but he didn't think much about it at the moment, so he just said, "Don't be so serious about being persecuted."

After finishing speaking, he no longer cared about Li Jiang's unpredictable gaze, turned around and walked out of the building.

When he came home, Pei Xueyuan was sleeping on the sofa. Pei Xueyuan was always in a bad mood recently.

Pei Yi didn't bother her.

It's just that he looked at Pei Xueyuan's mobile phone on the coffee table, and his eyes moved slightly.

A few days ago, he suddenly received a payment reminder on WeChat.

Pay 10000 yuan, but the remarks column says "gift".

There are two cards tied to Pei Yi's WeChat, one is used by him usually, and his own New Year's money and scholarships are also saved; Not unbind.

That money came from this card.

But after that, Pei Yi didn't receive any more reminders. I don't know if the other party stopped receiving the money for a while, or Pei Xueyuan remembered this and changed the card.

But Pei Yi finally looked away, turned around and entered the room without doing anything.

Ms. Pei is not being taken advantage of, she has a sense of proportion, and since she never thought of telling herself about it, it means that she can bear it, and she feels that she can't help no matter how bad it is.

Pei Yi threw the schoolbag on the chair casually, sat down on the bay window, and stared out of the window in a daze.

Too many things happened recently, but when he thought about it carefully, he couldn't explain why, he only felt a deep sense of powerlessness.

It seems that many things are now out of his control, and everything has become suspended.

Pei Yi leaned his head against the wall and closed his eyes heavily.

-

The next morning, when Pei Yi went to the classroom, he found that Duan Xinglian had already arrived.

The morning light fell on him, making him look much softer.

Pei Yi stood by the door and watched him quietly for a while.

It wasn't until Duan Xinglian raised his head that he seemed to feel something, that Pei Yi clenched his palms, tried hard to get rid of distracting thoughts in his mind, calmed down, and walked towards him.

Pei Yi sat down in the front seat, smiled, and said, "Morning."

Duan Xinglian stared at him for a while, his eyes were inexplicably complicated.

But after a while, Duan Xinglian still pulled up the corners of his mouth and returned a smile that couldn't reach his eyes. He didn't ask anything, but replied restrainedly: "Morning."

Pei Yi couldn't even see through himself at the moment, so naturally he couldn't take into account Duan Xinglian's unclear emotions.

And even if Pei Yi sensed that the atmosphere between the two of them was strangely unfamiliar at this moment, he only thought it was his own problem. After all, it seemed that he was indeed not normal at present.

The next week will also be spent in Pei Yi's self-judgment and struggle.

Even he himself didn't realize how tired he subconsciously revealed.

On Saturday morning, when Pei Yi woke up, he found that Duan Xinglian beside him had already woken up, sat up slightly, and was looking at him silently and intently with downcast eyes.

But as soon as he noticed that he had opened his eyes, he immediately looked away.

And Pei Yi has been suffering from insomnia recently, and always falls asleep very late at night, so he is a little hazy at this moment, and he didn't find anything.

Pei Yi was still sleepy, and beside Duan Xinglian was also a rare moment of peace for him, so he unconsciously moved closer to Duan Xinglian, putting his arms around Duan Xinglian's waist.

Just when he was drowsy and about to fall asleep again, he heard Duan Xing close his mouth, his voice seemed a little muffled: "Aren't you... going home this week?"

Previously, Pei Yi went to visit Yin Shuang every week for a month, but he didn't intend to tell Duan Xinglian, so he could only say that he was going home.

Pei Yi rarely lied, and never thought he would deceive Duan Xinglian because of this.

At this moment, Pei Yi's heart suddenly tightened, and he opened his eyes silently, the previous drowsiness was gone.

Pei Yi was silent for a while in the dark, he was not ready yet, and he was not able to face his unbearable self calmly.

So in the end Pei Yi shook his head.

Then Pei Yi was worried that Duan Xinglian would ask again, but he didn't want to tell more lies to Duan Xinglian, so he chose another tricky and less bright way.

Pei Yi used his strength to turn over and lie on Duan Xinglian's body. Duan Xinglian subconsciously hugged his waist, and then Pei Yi leaned over and kissed him.

It was also at this time that Pei Yi suddenly realized that it seemed that they hadn't kissed seriously for a long time.

Pei Yi kissed Duan Xinglian intimately, and when he became emotional later, his movements became a little eager, Duan Xinglian then hugged him and kissed him back forcefully.

It seems to confirm each other's existence during this kiss.

……

Pei Yi really didn't go back for the next two days, and spent the weekend with Duan Xinglian in the dormitory.

Maybe it's been a long time since such days, Duan Xing clings to Pei Yi firmly for two days, and the mood of worrying about gains and losses for nearly a month before was able to calm down a little.

He thought, he should be thinking too much, he is not the only one in Pei Yi's life, he is seen every day at school, and he should go home every weekend to accompany Aunt Pei, he can't completely occupy Pei Yi.

Besides, he had already learned his lesson before, and he decided to give Pei Yi space in his heart.

And Pei Yi is not a shrinking character, so those things in his family should not be enough to make Pei Yi feel pressured, he is so rational, and he also said that he likes himself.

Duan Xinglian repeatedly confirmed this independently, as if trying to persuade himself.

At this point, Duan Xinglian also forced himself to calm down.

And after such a psychological foreshadowing, when Pei Yi was going home again next week, Duan Xinglian's heart skipped a beat and he quickly returned to normal.

Pei Yi really wanted to go back, but he really couldn't drag it on anymore, he was going to see Yin Shuang.

He can't bear the current state of being in a prison and can't get rid of it. It seems that because of the title of "emotional deficiency disorder", he almost wants to deny all his emotions.

Pei Yi couldn't bear it, and if it continued, Duan Xinglian would find out sooner or later, so he needed a solution.

Xing Lian was with him when he was out of the dormitory, and Duan Xing Lian hadn't come home for a while, so he couldn't stay outside without anyone at home, he had to go back and have a look.

The two walked across the playground all the way, and today, Saturday, there was no one in the school except the boarding students, so Duan Xinglian quietly took Pei Yi's hand.

On the way, Duan Xinglian remembered a recent incident, so he mentioned it to Pei Yi: "Didn't Li Jiang be demoted from junior high school before?"

Pei Yi didn't expect it to be Li Jiang again, he twitched his eyebrows and looked at Duan Xinglian.

Duan Xinglian continued: "Four or five months have passed now, he may feel that the limelight has passed, and he is looking for a relationship recently, and wants to return to teaching in the high school."

Pei Yi listened casually, not interested, but these words came from Duan Xinglian's mouth, and Duan Xinglian would not talk about it easily if there was no follow-up.

So he asked curiously, "Then what?"

"I didn't expect to find my dad's head, but Li Jiang may not know who he found in the end." Duan Xinglian was a little numb thinking about it, mainly because he didn't expect Duan Chengsen to ask him about it, and finally listened to it. His opinion, "My dad told me before dealing with it, and asked me if I thought it was okay."

The Duan family has a huge industry. Although Pei Yi has no specific concept, he has probably heard it mentioned by Pei Xueyuan before. In short, people from all walks of life in Yancheng are very popular, and the only young master of the Duan family is studying in No. [-] Middle School, so even if the Duan family is not on the surface. What does it mean, it must be able to talk in the seventh middle school secretly, so it is not surprising to have such a connection at this moment.

When Pei Yi heard this, he also had some guesses, and hurriedly replied, "You refused?"

Duan Xinglian was silent for a while, then nodded: "En."

After speaking, he was a little afraid that Pei Yi would think that he would take revenge.

Suddenly, I felt that it would be better not to say anything.

Just as he was regretting, he saw Pei Yi suddenly laughing, scratching his palm with his fingertips, and jokingly said: "Brother, you look like a domineering president at a young age, so handsome."

Duan Xinglian was taken aback for a moment, before realizing that he was being teased, his ears felt hot, and he put his hand around Pei Yi's shoulder.

It just so happened that they came to the small garden they used to love to drill, and Duan Xinglian led someone into it.

Duan Xinglian saw that he was smiling, so he laughed too, half-embracing him in his arms, and hooked his chin: "You just laugh, be careful that extreme joy breeds sadness."

"It's okay." Hearing his helpless threat, Pei Yi smiled and flirted, "If you don't sleep together tonight, you can't teach me a lesson."

Duan Xinglian gritted his teeth, not to be outdone, he put his right hand on the back of Pei Yi's head, and began to teach others on the spot.

It can be said to be a lesson, after all, the lips and teeth are gentle.

Pei Yi also put his arms around Duan Xinglian's neck, and raised his head meekly to respond.

The two kissed so intimately and devotedly that they forgot for a moment that this was not a secret space in their 403 dormitory where no one was disturbed.

After a long kiss, the two went out of the school side by side.

Duan Xinglian went straight home, while Pei Yi got off at Huaiyuan Station and then changed to Qingyue.

Pei Yi didn't show up for two weeks, and Yin Shuang didn't bother him during this period, and seeing Pei Yi again at this moment, she wasn't surprised at all, as if she knew he would come sooner or later.

Yin Shuang greeted Pei Yi with a smile, as if they hadn't broken up badly before.

And since Pei Yi came, he no longer twitched, and asked straight to the point: "Can it be cured? This disease."

Yin Shuang will not give people guarantees that she cannot be sure of, lest they give people hope and disappointment, which will only lead to a worse situation.

So she just said conservatively: "It is possible, if you are willing to cooperate."

"How to cooperate." Pei Yi lowered his eyes, "What do I need to do?"

Yin Shuang was not in a hurry, and said eloquently: "I have my mission, I will assist you and apply some psychological healing methods; and you also have your mission, such as finding more things you are interested in, and getting in touch with nature more etc."

Pei Yi nodded, expressing his understanding and not too much resistance.

But then Yin Shuang said: "There is another more important thing. You need to communicate with people a lot, not with me. I am a member of your network, but I can't participate in every aspect of your life, and I can't communicate with you. You have the most timely communication."

Pei Yi's eyes were fixed, Yin Shuang said so directly, there was no reason why he didn't understand.

In other words, he still can't take on this matter alone, at least he needs to find someone to work together.

But at this moment, in Pei Yi's mind, apart from Duan Xinglian, no other candidates appeared at all.

It happened that Yin Shuang reminded at the right time: "Do you have a suitable candidate? I remember that you have a lover with a good relationship."

In fact, Pei Yi didn't mention Duan Xinglian to her very much. "The relationship is very good" is also a suggestive prefix she added. I hope Pei Yi can learn to trust other people.

Sure enough, Pei Yi was completely silent when he heard this.

And Yin Shuang didn't urge him, and said: "You go back and think about it first, and then tell me when you think about it, okay?"

-

After Pei Yi came out of Qingyue, he went home directly, and he also followed Yin Shuang's prompt and thought carefully about the possibility of telling Duan Xinglian about this.

Pei Yi's best hope is of course to solve this matter by himself. He hopes that he will be able to be with Duan Xinglian in a healthy and complete way soon.

But obviously, he can't seem to do it alone.

Besides Duan Xinglian, there was no one else who could help him with this matter.

The others are not related, so it is impossible for Pei Yi to say; and he and Pei Xueyuan don't stay together often, and Pei Xueyuan may not have that patience.

Only Duan Xinglian was close enough to him and gentle enough to him.

It's a very trustworthy candidate.

But Pei Yi was still a little hesitant, he was worried that Duan Xinglian would feel cold after knowing this, or that he would feel tired in the process of changing with him.

He is not Duan Xinglian's responsibility, he does not want to be Duan Xinglian's burden.

Pei Yi struggled with this for two days, during which time she opened her boyfriend's WeChat countless times, but all of them quit.

Always unable to speak.

Not used to bothering others.

Until Monday morning, not long after Pei Yi entered the classroom, Duan Xinglian came, and took out a sandwich from his schoolbag as soon as he arrived.

When Pei Yi saw the ingredients of the sandwich, his eyes lit up instantly: "You made it?"

Pei Yi is picky about food, not eating this or that, but Duan Xinglian handles him well.

Especially the things he made with his own hands, Pei Yi basically ate them.

Duan Xing raised his chin: "Well, I made it this morning, I guess you didn't have a good breakfast."

Pei Yi had a meal, he really didn't eat in the morning, in the past few months, Duan Xing has been in charge of him, so he can have three regular meals, and he basically doesn't eat breakfast after returning home.

But Pei Yi was looking at the sandwich in his hand at this moment, but his heart was agitated. At this unexpected early morning moment, he suddenly figured it out, and all the previous entanglements disappeared immediately.

He thought, he really should tell Duan Xinglian.

Duan Xinglian's liking should give him enough confidence, and Duan Xinglian should not be someone else who is excluded from him.

"Eat, I'll be doing self-study later." Seeing him in a daze, Duan Xinglian reminded him.

Pei Yi blinked, opened the package of the sandwich, thought while chewing, and told him when he got back at night.

Once a decision was made, Pei Yi felt a little more relaxed, and suddenly felt that the road ahead was very bright and hopeful.

He thought that when he was cured, he would definitely be able to learn how to like Duan Xinglian well, and he also looked forward to maintaining a long-term and stable relationship with Duan Xinglian.

Thinking of this, Pei Yi's mood that had been depressed for a month finally cleared up.

Even Chu Yifan felt it, and said curiously: "Oh, little fairy, what good thing are you doing?"

Duan Xinglian also leaned on the back of the chair and looked at him with a smile, but didn't speak to him.

The two of them have formed a tacit agreement now, and they will go back to the dormitory to talk about anything.

Pei Yi just smiled at this and didn't say much.

Chu Yifan didn't mind, and continued to say: "Then after the class meeting, would you like to sing a few words on stage?"

Every Monday afternoon in the last class meeting, Wei Yun would give them some entertainment, idiom solitaire singing, watching movies and so on, which was the only adjustment in their boring study life.

What Wei Yun prepared this week seems to be a fun quiz, the kind where there is a small gift for a correct answer, and a talent show for a wrong answer.

At this moment, Chen Weizhi was preparing to play the PPT on the podium.

Although Chen Weizhi's character is inconspicuous at first glance, he has always been very active in front of the teacher. After he transferred to the first class, except for looking for a sense of existence in front of Pei Yi from time to time to impress Pei Yi, he actively helped the teacher with things in his spare time .

Classes will start soon.

After Wei Yun entered the classroom, he presided over it. It happened that Wei Yun's remote control laser pointer was broken, so Chen Weizhi sat on the side as a ppt tool.

The first few questions were quite simple, and the students who raised their hands quickly got small gifts such as keychains, night lights, crystal balls, etc.; after the later questions were more difficult, some people began to perform, such as crosstalk, rap, and magic. , everyone was very happy.

After Chu Yifan got the wrong answer and went on stage to dance a girl group dance, the atmosphere in the class was at its peak, and some people were screaming and slapping the table below to cheer.

When Chu Yifan covered his face and went back to his seat, even Pei Yi smiled back, and found that Duan Xinglian was also looking at him with a smile.

But the next moment, without warning, the smile on Duan Xinglian's face froze instantly, his eyes were fixed on the podium, his jawline collapsed, and his expression was as cold as ice.

At the same time, Wei Yun's voice, "Let's see the next one—" came to an abrupt end.

And the originally high-pitched atmosphere in the class also froze at this moment, and the classroom suddenly became silent, as if seeing some incredible scene suddenly.

Seeing this, Pei Yi's heart trembled suddenly, and suddenly he had a bad feeling, he turned his head slowly with his neck stiff.

Then he saw a photo instead on the projection screen that was supposed to be the next quiz.

——The photo of him and Duan Xinglian kissing.

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