love too early

I was awakened by the knocking on the door in the middle of the night.

The old wooden door could not withstand the violent hammering. In the dead of night, the cracking and rumbling sound of the wooden planks was deafening, which made me tremble in my sleep.

I opened my eyes and sat up from the bed, only to find that Shen Nanyu was not by my side, and then I heard the sound of fighting from outside, punching to the flesh, more chilling than the slamming door just now.

With all kinds of chaotic crashing sounds, I gradually realized what happened, but my body was weak and weak, and when I wanted to get up and go out, my legs went limp and I fell back on the bed.

With a bang, the bedroom door was knocked open.

The light from the outside poured in from the door frame, casting a backlit figure, with four eyes facing each other, I saw him stagger suddenly, grabbing the door frame at hand so as not to fall down.

It was Fu Zhiheng.

The moment I saw him, I stopped breathing for a few seconds, and then my nose was sore.

From the corner of the eye, I saw Shen Nanyu at the back, kneeling on the ground held down by two men who looked like bodyguards. There was blood on the corner of his mouth, and a piece of skin was scratched on his face. Although he was embarrassed, his expression was calm, and he even smiled weakly at me. For a moment, as if to comfort me.

I withdrew my gaze and looked at Fu Zhiheng in front of me. He didn't seem to dare to get close, even breathing carefully.

"Xiao Lu..." Before he could speak, his eyes turned red.

I haven't heard his voice for a long time, and I don't know why, but I feel very sad.Less than two meters away, Fu Zhiheng walked extremely hard, every step was like stepping on shards of glass, when he finally walked in front of me, I saw tears welling up in his eyes.

"baby……"

He fell down with a bang and half knelt on the ground, crying so painfully for the first time.

"Sorry……"

I opened my mouth and made a weak voice: "Zhiheng."

Hearing me call his name, Fu Zhiheng froze, he wanted to hug me but didn't dare to use force.I knew I looked bad, wearing only a baggy white shirt that barely covered the bottom of my legs, and my face was ugly, which probably scared him.So I took the initiative to hug him and said, "I'm fine."

"Baby, I'm sorry..." Fu Zhiheng finally couldn't control his crying, and hugged me tightly, like holding a lost and found treasure.I've never seen him cry so much before, his pride and strength seemed to disappear overnight.

I heard heartbreak in his voice, but also pain and regret.

Maybe he has long since regretted, regretted choosing freedom, regretted letting Shen Nanyu come to my side, regret making concessions... All of these add up to create today's situation.

Whether right or wrong, none of us are innocent.

"I don't blame you..." I patted Fu Zhiheng's back lightly, and said, "It's okay."

After a long time, Fu Zhiheng let me go, there were still tears on his face, and his voice was low and harsh: "What did he do to you?"

I lowered my eyes and didn't answer. With the light outside the door, the messy marks on my body were clearly visible.

Fu Zhiheng saw it too, his fingertips were trembling, as if he was afraid of breaking me, he held my hand carefully, and slowly stroked the red mark on my wrist from the friction of the chain, his eyes were red again.

Raising his head, a big tear rolled down from his eyes, he choked up and asked, "Baby... don't let him go, okay?"

Don't... Shen Nanyu?

I unconsciously raised my eyes and looked out the door. Shen Nanyu was still kneeling, his shoulders were pressed to the ground by the bodyguards, without any dignity at all.But he didn't struggle or resist, he wasn't even angry, he just stared at me deeply, his eyes were full of sadness and regret, as if he was asking, "Do you still want me?"

I closed my eyes and didn't speak.

Fu Zhiheng couldn't wait for my answer. After a long time, he slowly stood up from the ground, took off his coat, wrapped me up, and said, "I'll take you home."

His voice was hoarse and dry, like a handful of crushed traditional Chinese medicine dregs pushed to my heart. When I heard the word "home", my eyes even got hot for a moment.

I grabbed the corner of Fu Zhiheng's clothes and said softly "Yes".

He hugged me horizontally, I don't know if it was an illusion, but I felt his body shake.

"Zhiheng..." I finally noticed that his face was abnormally pale, and I felt a great uneasiness in my heart, "What's wrong with you?"

Fu Zhiheng looked down at me, showed a weak smile, and said, "I'm fine."

After finishing speaking, he kissed my forehead lightly and said, "Let's go home."

Passing by outside bodyguards cast questioning glances, I was worried that Fu Zhiheng would make an irrational decision in a fit of anger, and unconsciously grasp the clothes on his chest.

Fu Zhiheng noticed my movement, took a deep breath, and said to the bodyguard: "Take me away first."

The bodyguard didn't say much, but nodded and said yes.

From the beginning to the end, I didn't look at Shen Nanyu again, but I could feel a gaze closely following me, as if every glance now was the last between us.Finally, when Fu Zhiheng walked to the door, behind him Shen Nanyu said softly: "Shi Lu."

Fu Zhiheng paused, I was in his arms, I looked up and saw his dim eyes.

"Do you hate me?" Shen Nanyu asked.

My heart tightened, something pressed me hard, and my whole chest was stuffy.Fu Zhiheng noticed my strangeness and hugged me even tighter, as if this would prevent me from hearing Shen Nanyu's voice.

I grabbed his sleeve and signaled that I was fine.Looking back at Shen Nanyu, the person who was always clean and clear in his memory was in a state of embarrassment, covered in dust and blood. He looked at me, with pain and unwillingness in his eyes, and deep despair and powerlessness in his eyes .

After staring at each other in silence for a long time, I said in the calmest voice I could make: "There is hatred only when there is emotion."

At that moment, I saw the last light in Shen Nanyu's eyes go out, and the throbbing and longing somewhere in my heart went out together.

Some things are good, but if they make me sad, I'd rather not have them.

For the first time in days I left the cabin.It turned out that the outside was not as empty as I saw from the window. Behind the hut stood a lonely orphanage, and behind it, there were a few scattered houses.

I think Shen Nanyu must be ready to end before bringing me here.

The cold wind was biting at night in the depths of winter, and my exposed skin was in contact with the icy air, which made me tremble all over, and it was not until I got into the car that I gradually recovered.

Fu Zhiheng took out the prepared medicine box, held my ankle, and asked, "Does it hurt?"

There was a faint red mark there, it was the hot porridge splashed today, luckily it wasn't directly splashed on it, so it didn't hurt too much afterwards.

I shook my head and said, "It doesn't hurt."

"What about here?" He touched another finger mark.

"Yeah." I lowered my eyes, "A little bit."

After the initial anger subsided, only pity remained on Fu Zhiheng's expression. I don't know how he got here in the past few days. Looking at his face carefully now, I found that he seemed to have lost a lot of weight.

He held my calf and blew lightly on the bruise, then pressed his warm lips against my skin and kissed me carefully.

I don't know how long it took, a tear rolled from his eye, slipped across the bridge of his nose and landed on my lap.

I opened my mouth, "Zhiheng..."

"Why did you say that?" Fu Zhiheng raised his head, his eyes were red, "I know that's not your truth...for me?"

I froze for a moment, then realized what he was asking.

I shook my head, looked away from the window, and said, "I just think it's good for him, and it's also good for me."

"Little Heron..."

Fu Zhiheng was about to say something when there was a sudden bang, and before I had time to react, I saw him fall headfirst to the ground, and incidentally overturned the medicine box on the seat, spilling the contents on the floor.

"Zhiheng?" My pupils shrank, "What's wrong with you, Zhiheng!"