love too early

Later, Fu Zhiheng went back to the room early to sleep in a fit of anger, and Shen Nanyu took my hand upstairs.I was about to turn on the light when he gave me a "shh" sign and said, "Come with me."

After the rain, the sun shines, and the light of the moon spills in from the window, spreading generously on the bed and carpet.Shen Nanyu's eyes also looked bright, as if shimmering.

With a faint smile on his lips, he took my hand and walked to the window.Open the floor-to-ceiling windows, and outside is a terrace with two rattan chairs and a small table.

"I found a small terrace outside last night, and the moon can be seen after the rain stops." Shen Nanyu said, "I guess you haven't been here before."

Although this is my own home, I have never been to this terrace.

"I've been back to China not long ago, so I'm still not familiar with it..."

My explanation probably sounded very unfounded, Shen Nanyu snorted and said, "That's great, there's another first time between us."

I didn't react for a moment, "What?"

"For the first time, we went to the terrace on the second floor of your house to watch the moon." He said.

I froze for a moment, and said helplessly, "This kind of trivial matter..."

"No, it's not a trivial matter." Shen Nanyu shook his head seriously, "The most important things are related to you."

His tone was sincere and open, and he looked down at me deeply. Somewhere in my heart was touched. I looked down at our handshake and said softly, "Thank you."

Shen Nanyu was startled, "Why thank me..."

I shook my head and didn't answer.

The moment I said thank you, I actually didn't know what to thank.

Maybe it’s thanks to him for giving me many first experiences, maybe it’s thanks to him for his unreserved sincerity and liking, or maybe it’s just thanks to him for putting me in the most important position in his heart.

There is such a person in the world, which gives me another reason to live a good life.

"I'd rather hear something than thank you," he said.

I know what he's referring to.

I had no way to agree, and he didn't force it.

The terrace is simply furnished and looks like it has been cleaned, and there is no water on the wicker chairs and tables.I suddenly remembered something and asked Shen Nanyu: "When the rain stopped last night, it was almost dawn."

He walked to the railing, leaned on the railing and looked into the distance, saying, "I didn't sleep."

His tone was flat, but there was a faint sense of loss on his face.The young man's stern bones propped up the white long-sleeved T-shirt into a nice shape. Looking at his profile, I suddenly remembered what Fu Zhiheng said. ——"If you add up to 200, you may not be as fond of you as he is."

"Nanyu," I said softly.

"Huh?" Shen Nanyu turned his head to look at me, showing a faint smile, and said slowly: "Actually, I sat by the window last night and kept thinking, what can I give you? Companionship, care, and all material things Fu Zhiheng can give you more of what you want, but like and love sound so empty."

He came over and took my hand, and said in a low voice, "I am replaceable for you, right?"

can replace...

I didn't think about this question, because before him, I never thought that there would be a third person between me and Fu Zhiheng.

"I don't know." I said frankly, "I can't guarantee that there will be someone like you in the future."

Shen Nanyu's eyes darkened, then he smiled again, hugged me and sighed, "Brother...won't you coax me no matter what?"

"I thought you were really asking me..."

"No," he shook his head lightly, "I just want to lie to you that I'm irreplaceable."

Shen Nanyu's many small thoughts, sometimes I can see it, and sometimes I am too slow to judge.He is different from Fu Zhiheng, Fu Zhiheng has everything he thinks written on his face, but he rarely shows his true emotions in front of people other than me.

As if sensing what I was thinking, Shen Nanyu said: "Fu Zhiheng said that I have many thoughts and that I am a liar, do you think so too?"

"I never thought you were a liar," I said.

"But I did lie to you in the first place," he said, "what I put on to you is not the real me."

I raised my head and met his complex and deep eyes, and suddenly felt that although he had a 20-year-old appearance at this moment, he was like a lonely child in his heart. thing, and then said bluntly: "Look, I'm just that bad, don't be nice to me!"

I think, in all his years of growing up, he must have never been so unreasonable to anyone, or so proud of being favored.

So I became more patient, looked at him and asked, "What about now, are you just pretending?"

Shen Nanyu's eyes dodged a little, and he answered me in a low voice, "No."

The moon rose and hung high in the sky. Shen Nanyu lowered his eyes, half of his face was hidden in the night, and the other half was shrouded in a thin layer of moonlight, making him look as deserted as the night.

So I raised my hand and touched his face, it was warm to the touch.

Shen Nanyu grabbed my wrist and said, "Shilu..."

Every time he pronounced my name, there was always a different tone than usual, warm and tender, and the ending sounds like a small hook, scratching my ears gently.

"Your hands are so cold," he said.

In late autumn after rain, the air is full of damp coolness.Shen Nanyu put my two hands together in front of his chest, warming my hands with his body temperature.

"If Fu Zhiheng is here, he will definitely say that I am not careful and considerate enough to cause you a cold wind." He hugged me and said, "It's my fault, but when I saw you, I was so happy that I forgot everything."

His eyes were still clear and bright, he stared at me deeply, and said: "Have you ever raised a puppy, you call it by name, no, you don't need to call it by name, just look at it, and it will run over wagging its tail Yes. If I had a tail too, it would stick up in the air when you kissed me. Like this."

After speaking, his kiss fell on my lips.

This kiss was astringent, when he lightly bit my lips, I seemed to see the back of a person sitting in front of the window with his knees hugged in the pouring rain last night.

Downstairs separated by a wall, I slept peacefully in the arms of another person, and he watched the heavy rain like this all night, until the moonlight broke through the clouds and fell on his rain-stained hair.

I parted my lips slightly, responding to his green kiss.How many times have passed, Shen Nanyu's movements are still unfamiliar, so I have no choice but to guide him more actively, hooking his lips and tongue to occupy me instead.

After the kiss was over, his breathing became unsteady, and the hand holding my hand slipped to my lower back at some point, holding me tightly in his arms.

"Brother..." His eyelashes were wet, and he asked in a low voice, "Do you usually kiss like this?"