Gaya Street

Before the alarm clock rang, Wu You slowly opened his eyes. In front of him was the old ceiling of the hotel. The off-white wallpaper was slightly yellowed. A little sunlight entered the room through the gaps in the curtains and shone on the reddish-brown wooden furniture in the room. .He lost his drowsiness early on, was mentally awake, and physically sluggish and didn't want to move.

When Wu You was planning this trip, he thought that Kota Kinabalu was not a big place, and he would not make a special trip to go diving on the island. He just walked around casually by himself, and the schedule of five days and four nights was just right.Now, after halfway through the journey, I suddenly feel empty and unsatisfied.

He knew the reason why he was so entangled, Wu You was a person who used to avoid, he came here with escape, now it's time to go back, it's the same.It's just that this time he doesn't want to leave, he doesn't want to leave another unsolved problem, and throw away another person he can't let go of.

He washed and dressed as usual, looked at himself in the mirror, and tried to recall his appearance when he was young. He could hardly remember what he looked like at that time, but he could easily think of Lin Jing.The him in his memory is mixed with the him after reunion. For a while, he is a cool little boy, and for a while he is a smiling but still alienated adult man. The only thing that looks at him is the same, like a series of ten years. The key brings Wu You back and forth between memories and reality.At this moment, Wu You finally realized that he was not just a friend to Lin Jing, but he still couldn't tell where this feeling came from, whether it was the goodwill induced by a few days of travel, the guilt caused by years of misunderstanding, or the relationship with Lin Jing. Like the feelings for myself, it is a young love brewing into a vigorous love.

A few days ago in the rainforest, Lin Jing asked him, today, the separation is approaching again, except for the intensification of reluctance and nostalgia, time seems to have failed to help Wu You as he wished, but made him even more confused.

The last one-day itinerary was to Blue Ring Island not far from Kota Kinabalu.Wu You took the elevator downstairs and walked to the entrance of the hotel. Lin Jing was waiting by the minibus at the entrance of the hotel just like every day before. Wu You approached and handed him the coffee and bread in his hand .

“I don’t have a chance to go to Ipoh, let’s try the white coffee from Old Town.”

I don't know if when Lin Jing said this, he also thought that this day has entered the countdown of Wu You's journey, and it became a reminder of parting in Wu You's ears.He wondered if Lin Jing felt the same way when he knew he was going to study abroad when he was a child. The words of farewell were stuck in his heart, like a thorn stuck in his throat, unable to speak or swallow, it hurt no matter what.

Wu You took the coffee cup half filled with ice cubes from Lin Jing's hand. There were dense water droplets on the outside of the cup wall. Holding it in the palm of his hand, his fingers ached from the cold, and his heart felt desolate as if being chilled by ice cubes.

He suddenly got bored with the boring itinerary he had set. He wanted to ask Lin Jing if he didn’t go today. Take me around this small city and tell me about your past years. Stay with me again, I want to stay with you for a while longer.He raised his head to look at Lin Jing, and when he was on the verge of speaking, he was interrupted by the voice of the guide, urging it to the departure time.

Lin Jing also looked at him, he seemed to understand what Wu You wanted to say, blinked his eyes, concealing the helplessness in his eyes, held Wu You's hand like every day before, "Let's go."

Driving to the pier, and then changing to a speedboat, from Kota Kinabalu to the surrounding islands, it is such a seamless itinerary, but there are very few people on this day, and the speedboats are small and crude. Adults stand in it, waist They can't even stand upright, there are no rows of seats, and there is only a circle of planes around the hull, which will allow a group of more than ten people to sit well.

Wu You and Lin Jing sat side by side, Wu You was not thinking about it, and Lin Jing also kept silent tacitly.The men and women sitting next to each other looked like honeymoon couples. The girl complained that the boy chose a bad destination, and the boy retorted that the girl’s schedule was too rushed. He kept saying one sentence and another, further and further away, and the long-term grievances were impartial. Picking the right time, insisting on erupting in the middle of the sea, the quarrel became louder and louder, and the sound of the speedboat's engine could not be suppressed.

The battle intensified next to him, Wu You listened, the conversation he had planned in the hotel seemed to be disturbed by these daily complaints, he said no, no, no, he looked at Lin Jing as if asking for help, just happened to have a different relationship with him They met with profound eyes.

This scene was both awkward and funny to outsiders, Lin Jing smiled indistinctly, not so much because he was watching the lively expression, but because he was amused by Wu You's cramped movements.He raised his arm, and naturally brushed away the hair blocking Wu You's eyes, revealing his thick eyebrows and beautiful eyes, which seemed to be talking, full of affection and deep affection.

When Wu You stepped back, Lin Jing's hand had just brushed his brow bone.Wu You himself was also surprised by this action. He rarely refused Lin Jing's physical contact. This time, the obvious resistance made Lin Jing's hand freeze in the air, and he stopped for a while before falling down helplessly.

"What's wrong?" Lin Jing asked.

Wu You didn't speak, he just felt that Lin Jing looked so calm, it didn't seem to matter whether Wu You was going to leave or when he was going back, as if he was the only one who was immersed in reluctance, and felt uncomfortable.After thinking about it, he simply said, "I'm leaving tomorrow."

"Yes." Lin Jing replied.

The speedboat moved forward against the waves, and the water splashed and slapped on the boat, making a lot of crackling noises, which almost drowned out Lin Jing's answer. Hearing what he said, Wu You felt that he was thinking too much. Those words, awkwardly, turned into scrapped drafts, rotted in my heart.

He took out the hand that was held by Lin Jing, put his arms on his knees, and looked down at the cabin. There was a puddle of sea water on the ground, reflecting his dull face.

"Is there anything else you want to tell me?"

Lin Jing still spoke calmly, as if he knew the answer and was just waiting for Wu You to say it.Wu You was seduced by him, and wanted to speak his mind, but subtly listened to so many complaints from others, the first thing he wanted to tell Lin Jing was that he didn't want to continue the trip, "I don't want to go to sea anymore," Wu You raised his head and looked at Lin Jing, "I want to talk to you for a while."

The island is surrounded by the sea, and within the light blue water is a golden sandy beach, with dark green forests in between, and a circle of dark brown wooden houses dotted along the coast with coconut trees.The roof is raised high, with wooden doors on all sides, which are opened when the weather is good. The room is like a pavilion supported by beams and columns, and the sea breeze passes through it, blowing away the heat and humidity.

The space on the outside is partitioned and used as a storefront or a back kitchen for preparing meals.Now is not a busy time, and the locals who make a living by this have no customers to patronize, so they set up plastic chairs, put together a few pieces to make a bed, and lie on it for a lazy rest.The rest of the tourists also took the speedboat to the sea, only Wu You and Lin Jing who decided to give up the trip temporarily stayed here.

Towards the afternoon, the sky became cloudy again, and there was probably another rain on the road, and the wind was also violent, blowing the leaves of the coconut palm together, making a rustling sound.

Wu You sat near the door and waited for Lin Jing. When he came back, he held a turquoise coconut with both hands. The top was processed and a red straw was inserted. Lin Jing said that the itinerary was all booked. , this is a gift from the travel agency as non-refundable compensation.

Wu You responded, took the huge and tender fruit from Lin Jing, and placed it on the table in front of him. He didn't think about what to say to Lin Jing, but it was good to be alone with him for a while.

Thinking of other things in his mind, Wu You took a sip of the juice absently, but he didn't expect the taste to be cool and sweet, so he subconsciously looked at Lin Jing and wanted to share it with him.

He looked at him, the sunlight blocked by the clouds loomed, and together with Wu You's gaze fell on Lin Jing's face, turning into a soft, warm yellow halo.The warm sea breeze with moist water vapor blew from behind Wu You, it seemed to pass over his shoulders, and then brushed Lin Jing's temples between his ears, the tips of his hair hung down and swayed in front of Lin Jing's eyes. With his hands, he brushed the disobedient hair up along his forehead.

Wu You looked at him fascinated, thinking of the sunset and mountains and seas he had seen before, compared to this moment, they were not really impressive sights.

Lin Jing put his hands on the seat, tilted his head slightly, and shrugged his shoulders accordingly. The lines of his muscles and collarbone were clearly visible. He pinched the bright red straw with his fingers and put it in his mouth. rolling.Lin Jing finally felt Wu You's gaze, and raised his hair to meet his gaze.

When he was young, Lin Jing still had a little baby fat on his face. When he was not smiling, he had the contrast of a little boy pretending to be cool. As he got older, his face became thinner, and his attitude was less whitewashed. His smile was mean, and his expression was indifferent. It looks very fierce.Wu You stared at the way Lin Jing looked at himself, as if watching a long time-lapse photography, the melting snow turned into dew on the flower buds, and instantly changed from icy cold to warm.

The light golden sunlight fell on his face, like a thin layer of sand covering his wheat-colored skin, Wu You thought of the shells buried in the sand, the hard exterior hides tender soft flesh, very Fortunately, Bei Ke only opened his arms to himself and let go of his guard.Lin Jing's softness belongs exclusively to Wu You.

"Why do you keep looking at me?" Lin Jing smiled embarrassedly, but his shyness was quickly digested by him. With both elbows on the table, he leaned forward and approached Wu You, "Want to tell me What?"

After getting off the dilapidated boat, Wu You has been quiet, and it is the same at this moment.His depressed mood didn't suddenly become intense. When I saw him in the hotel early this morning, he was full of worries. Lin Jing knew that he was his biggest concern.

He should be seriously judging whether he has fallen in love with him, Lin Jing thought, how funny, feelings have become a thing that needs to be racked.

From being friends with Wu You in school, to the hug in the dormitory, to the hot rainy day and the quiet night after that, everything is evidence that Lin Jing loves Wu You, Wu You can think of any of them , and won't be like now, frowning in order to make myself feel at ease.

"Do you still remember the game we played at that time?" Lin Jing leaned down, resting his chin with his hand, looked at his downcast eyes from bottom to top, and reminded Wu You, "You like it very much." that."

Wu You looked at him confusedly and innocently, as if Lin Jing was the indecisive and hesitant person, "Why did you say that all of a sudden?"

"Suddenly remembered, that's it," he continued, ignoring Wu You's confused eyes, "Haven't you played for a long time?"

Wu You sighed, his mind was full of chaotic emotions, and he didn't think about what he said, "You're not here, no one cares about me."

Lin Jing smiled lightly, thinking about how Wu You's unintentional cleverness was always used on her, intentionally or unintentionally using such profound words to confuse herself.

"I've thought about someone, do you want to guess?" Lin Jing put his hand on Wu You's arm and shook it gently. When Wu You played this game that he never got tired of when he was a child, he also Lin Jing was pestered like this.

Wu You was persuaded by him, and as he remembered, he mechanically asked those fixed questions, and finally asked if he knew someone.Lin Jing nodded, and immediately asked after hearing Wu You: "Could it be that you are thinking about yourself again?"

Lin Jing was noncommittal, in exchange for Wu You's helpless smile.

"I only know him, no wonder I can't guess it." Wu You was in a mess, so he used perfunctory excuses to explain why he couldn't guess the answer.

"That's because you missed one question."

Wu You watched him stop drinking the juice, his eyes moved with him, from his lips to the deformed straw, "What?" Wu You asked.

Lin Jing put away his joking expression, and said to Wu You word by word: "You should ask like I did back then, 'Do I like him'."

"Do I like him?" Wu You almost didn't think about it, and repeated it dully.

"If you can't answer, then the answer is not him." Lin Jing's smile almost disappeared, and he slowly spoke more clearly, "It's not Lin Jing."

Wu You was stunned for a while, and after realizing it, as if he was afraid that Lin Jing would not believe it, he unconsciously amplified his volume, and answered him in a positive tone, "I like it." Seeing that Lin Jing just nodded slightly, he added another sentence :"real."

"I understand," Lin Jing finally responded, with a faint smile on his face, as if it would disappear at any moment, "That's really great."

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There are only two more chapters left, and I really want to post them all.

Halfway through the writing of this article, I heard Guo Ding's "Reservation" for the first time. I don't know why, but I feel that this song fits well with what I want to express.There is not much content left before the end, so I recommend this song in this chapter.