war sickness [planet]

He won't express it explicitly, but secretly wants to keep himself farther away from me.

I really am a selfish person.I said this to myself, I guess Wen Yizhi must think of me the same way, because I was so desperate for him that he had no choice but to say, stay away from me, yes, stay away from me.And the personality born from my body also exposed me mercilessly.

That personality said to me, you are such a waste, a coward, and if you can't do it, leave it to him.I said yes, you can do it for me, as long as... as long as Wen Yizhi becomes mine.

I can no longer deny my selfishness.If you are selfish, be selfish. Isn't that what unrequited love is all about.Wen Yizhi doesn't like me, but I can't take the initiative to give in.He should call me Ice Cube in his heart, a pervert who clings to people, but as long as he doesn't tell me directly, it's enough for me to see you, can you get out of here, then I will Should I continue to hold on to him, or why I didn't get anything, and the person who caused me such distress didn't affect anything?

To Wen Yizhi, I am just his companion, a very important companion.I like "Very Important" but not "Companions".I joined the ability group because of him. I didn’t care about this ability before, but now I think it’s great to be a bridge to get close...Of course, it would be even better if I wasn’t an ice-type ability user up.

In that way, Wen Yizhi must be able to like me.

I am of the ice type, which probably has something to do with my temperament, it seems to be so cold that it wants to take away all my emotions.I have no feelings for my relatives, nor for this country. In fact, if I hadn’t met Wen Yizhi, I probably would have never known that I could have such fiery feelings in my life. My heart would be burned dry. The body, only the desire for him remained.I can only act like a human being with normal feelings in front of him.

But I can't do anything like this, because I can't imagine that I can have anything to do with Wen Yizhi under such circumstances.I can't do it, as long as I'm still an ice-type power user, there will be absolutely no possibility between me and Wen Yizhi.

It is precisely because I know that the current situation has no hope for me, so when I tried to cultivate the fire ability but something went wrong, even though I could have saved it, I still let that crazy laughing personality, from now on. I was born in my body, and even handed over my body, but this personality, this additional product I cultivated, a personality that shares my body but is much more decisive than me, simply made the decision for me.

When I become a completely different person with a cheerful personality and a warm body, Wen Yi knows him, and he will definitely like me, right?

This is what I thought, even if I was ridiculed by that personality, I had no plan to stop him, and only appeared when he needed me to appear.

But I didn't expect that the last time I faced Wen Yizhi with my original face would be like this.But surprisingly, I don't think I'm too sad.What does it matter if the plan fails?Now this is not important.I didn't get him, but he didn't get anyone else, and I got at least a few hugs from him, a few nights.My heart is cold, my blood is cold, but all my emotions are boiling.I know I'm going to die, but I know even more that Wen Yizhi won't live either.

He can die by my side, we are together!I'm just happy with that fact.

I don't regret it.

Extra Story of the Guardian (Plane [-])

Would you believe me if I said I was a zombie?

When I was wearing a coat and trousers, my head was wrapped in the hat of the coat, my fingers were curled up in the sleeves, and I lowered my head slightly, you must think that I am harmless to humans and animals.When you stood in front of me and asked me why I stopped in front of you, and I pointed at my hidden lips with the fingers wrapped in my sleeves and shook my head, you would definitely be full of sympathy, Ah, it turned out to be a mute, no wonder she had to cover her whole body with such low self-esteem.

At this time, if someone tells you that I am a zombie like this, you will definitely say stop joking, how can such a person be a zombie?

You will think, how can a zombie wear human clothes neatly, stand in front of humans without showing agitated and bloodthirsty appearance, understand your words, and shake his head at you?

Unfortunately, I'm still a zombie.

If I take off my hat, revealing my blue-gray face, without pupils, just the white of my eyes and the fangs between my lips, curled fingers protruding from the sleeves, and let you see my long, sharp, curved, blue-gray nails, You will definitely turn pale with fright. In the staggering scream and retreat, you must think, how is it possible, how can it be possible to shake your head slightly to make people feel pity, is it really a zombie?Have zombies evolved to this point?

If it is possible to hunt in this way, it will definitely save a lot of trouble, take advantage of the lack of vigilance of human beings, and then take advantage of the situation to catch such a naive and cute human being, tear his body, drink his blood, and use the smallest strength to achieve fullness. The purpose of the stomach must be something that can make me happy.We zombies can also use tactics to achieve our goals, instead of just relying on brute force to solve everything.

It is a pity that this is only a hypothesis, and the picture that has been imagined thousands of times in my mind can only be a hypothesis.Unfortunately, I retracted my vocal cords, so I could only let out a whimpering throat and sigh, and continued to suck the spiritual power that Wen Yizhi poured into me from Wen Yizhi's hand-this is the only thing I can use to fill my stomach now.

This kind of life is much worse than what I have lived before.I almost forgot the memory of when I first became a zombie, but I know that I haven't eaten human flesh yet.Zombies are all cannibals, but unfortunately I haven't eaten them yet, I must be a different kind of zombie, but who made me Wen Yizhi's zombie?

As an outlier among zombies, I have eaten zombies.The meat of zombies is also good, although it smells of no appetite and no temptation, but under Wen Yizhi's persecution, I really ate it, and found that it was not bad, at least it could fill my stomach, and I fantasized that what I ate was actually the flesh of a living person Meat, too, can bring me some satisfaction.

For zombies, it is already delicious to have something to fill in and enjoy the feeling of biting and swallowing.Oh, don't ask me where all the things I swallow have been digested, to be honest, I don't know, I'm not a scholar-type zombie, I'm just a zombie who is easy to know.

So now I can only rely on Wen Yizhi's spiritual power to fill my stomach. Even if it can improve my wisdom and ability, how can that nothingness, the feeling of nothing passing by my throat, be worth something real? What about the feeling of satiety?If this is someone else treating me like this, I must be angry. Isn't this abusing zombies?It's a pity that this is Wen Yizhi, but it's Wen Yizhi's zombie.

But in fact, I'm not that dissatisfied, after all, the price in exchange for not being able to eat is that I can live alone with Wen Yizhi in a place where there are no zombies or humans.Oh, I almost forgot about Wei Yan, but well, it doesn't matter, this human being who has no power to interfere with me.

Without humans, I don't worry that there will be humans that will interest Wen Yizhi, and without zombies, I don't worry that any zombies will replace my position with Wen Yizhi.I am Wen Yizhi's zombie. Naturally, Wen Yizhi will not only raise me, but if he raises others, I will not be the only one who can call himself "Wen Yizhi's zombie". I want to be Wen Yizhi's unique zombie, and no one can replace him. , this is the best.

It is precisely because of this that I don't call Wen Yizhi "Master".When he talks to me, he always calls himself like this, but "Master" is not a unique title that cannot be mistaken. Wen Yizhi is the one, just like I attach great importance to the title "Wei Shu".

The master said that Wei Shu was my name when I was still alive and hadn't turned into a zombie.I like this name very much. This name is as unique as "Wen Yizhi's Zombie". As long as you say it, you will know it refers to me.I like to be called Wei Shu by Wen Yizhi, just like I like to call him Wen Yizhi in my heart.

But if Wen Yizhi knew that I was yelling in my heart, he would definitely be very angry, but fortunately I can't speak, I can only use whimpering and roaring zombie language, so don't worry about me accidentally slipping my mouth.

Sometimes Wen Yizhi doesn't seem to like me very much. According to my inference with my gradually increasing IQ, it seems that I did something wrong to him when I was still a human being, but although I am very angry, I dare to do such a thing as a human being. Things that made him angry, but he was very happy that Wen Yizhi didn't abandon me, but allowed me to survive as Wen Yizhi's zombie.Wen Yizhi must still care about me, it must be so.

What the hell did I do as a human being?As my IQ slowly increased, I have been trying to remember this thing.I don't know how smart I am now, and I haven't told the master that I'm still evolving.I know that the master likes my ignorant zombie appearance. It is good if I can understand his simple words and follow his simple instructions. If I become smarter, he will definitely dislike me. After all, zombies still have to look like zombies, so I have always shown the child's IQ level, which made Wen Yizhi feel at ease.

One day when Wen Yizhi poured me spiritual power again, I upgraded again, and this time I got the memory of being a human.But I have nothing to do with the previous Wei Shu, so I was looking through his memory with curiosity.

Well, the reluctance when living together with Wen Yizhi, and the slight reliance afterwards, it turned out that "he" had such thoughts at that time.After that……

Ha, how ridiculous, it really is a human being who is extremely fragile from body to heart, except of course Wen Yizhi, who is not comparable to ordinary humans.

Do you want to find his brother Wei Yan because you think Wen Yizhi is dead?Food is a reserve food saved just in case?From my perspective as a zombie, I can't even figure out the logic. I am self-assertive and self-righteous, and I have no scruples to criticize that guy.It is because of this guy that Wen Yizhi sometimes doesn't like me, but if he doesn't do this, it seems that I don't exist?

After all, I stepped on his corpse and took over his past to appear. In this way, I should thank him?

I didn't intend to tell Wen Yizhi that I knew about the past, it would not help.Anyway, there are only me and Wen Yizhi in this place, just ignore that Wei Yan.For a lifetime, Wen Yizhi would always cut "sometimes he doesn't like me" out of his thinking, right?

And I will not just wait, of course I will fight for it with my own efforts.I'm Wen Yizhi's zombie!

The seat Qi outside the episode (Plane [-])

Sincerely fearful, sincerely fearful, sincerely fearful.

These four words are probably the true portrayal of my life.

And the saddest thing is that by the time I die, I don't have enough judgment to prove that I am wrong or right, just like when everyone says I have imposter syndrome, I am wrong in many judgments I still can't believe them when they're wrong.

No, or it should be said that I forced myself not to believe them, but to completely believe in myself.Otherwise, what am I?And what did I do before?Am I not a big joke?

One wrong step, one wrong step, one wrong step, and I am still talking about it.

The first time I met Wen Yizhi was not the obsession I told him I had with him at a charity gala.At that time, he was just a small star, and even though he had great potential, he still hadn't fully realized it. As for me, I had already accepted the influence of everyone. I was not a rookie, but had worked hard in the business for many years. Dare to say that I am based on the inheritance of my ancestors. They all say that I am the best successor in the three generations of my family.

I accepted their praise frankly, without a guilty conscience.I am such a person, there is no need to say "admit it", "be polite" and so on.My grandpa once said that I was too tough, no matter in character or in dealing with things, he told me to be softer, saying that I could go further in this way.At that time, I didn't take it seriously, so what if it was harder?I don't need to please other people, let alone bend my face, just for the sake of politeness.

At that time, my disapproval made my grandpa just sigh, but he didn't care anymore.Everyone has their own fate, he probably thinks so, but I don't know, but in the end, I completely softened for that person, whether it was the face or the body, I softened completely.However, I also don't know, hard and hard are not good, and soft and soft are not good, because I was too soft, lowered myself, and lost my sense of normalcy, so...

So you all know, I lost him.

I knew Wen Yizhi earlier.I stared at his sideways head in a daze for a moment at the charity gala, but it wasn't the first time I behaved like this.Our status at that time was very different, so naturally we would not have the seats to sit together.That's right, I sat next to him, I deliberately arranged it, and I also knew why he appeared there, and even wanted to direct a hero to save the beauty by myself, so that those who dared to think about him would know how powerful it is.But as soon as I sat next to him, I dismissed that notion.Helping him solve everything is what I should do, and taking credit for him will undoubtedly label our relationship as a price.

Although I still bag = raise him.The advantage of this is that I can be by his side with peace of mind, arrange everything for him, and accept his kisses and hugs, but the disadvantage is that the relationship between us is like a contract, one size fits all. is in another world.But I can't wait, I have enough patience, but the premise is that I have already got him, before I get him, I can't wait at all.

I am very old, my body is very old, and my heart is also very old, but I am still alive.I'm still waiting for him, but I don't know if he will come, or which one will come, and if it is him.

You see, I am really old.I don't know who he really is, but I never did when I was young.It was probably old by then.

I am very old, my memory is confused, sometimes I think about a scene over and over again, sometimes I can't remember it at all.I was still thinking about the first time I met him, but I thought about it over and over again, but finally forgot to say it.

But what's the point of saying this?The bitter fruit I have made is my own to taste.I am much more miserable than those who lost their lovers because of misunderstanding. I will never know whether my judgment is still correct, and I don't know whether the misunderstanding is really a misunderstanding.Sometimes I feel that I am miserable enough, my reason and emotion are separated, but it is different from others, they are rational enough, and their feelings are emotional enough, but what about me...

I don't believe he is him intellectually, but I do emotionally.So you all know what kind of consequences I faced in the end.

Oh, it's about time I first met him.That first time was really embarrassing and not romantic.At that time, I was still a tough character. It rained heavily that day and the car broke down. My clothes were soaked in the heavy rain, and the clothes were covered with mud spots.That was the first time in my life that I was in such a mess, and there were a lot of embarrassments later, but they were all because of him.

It was so embarrassing, I couldn't even hide in the car, because my phone also died, and I had to go down and find someone to borrow a phone for my family to pick me up.He was not yet an actor at that time, and he was still running his coffee shop.I embarrassedly went in and asked him to borrow the phone, not daring to look at my horrible appearance on the glass with my hair limp and sticking to my scalp.

Then I fell in love at first sight, because the way he lowered his head and wiped the coffee machine made people feel so excited, full of concentration, full of affection, as I said to him later, saying that falling in love The curvature of one side of his head -- no matter whether he bows his head or tilts his head, it's beautiful.What I said to him was just to advance the time quietly, because I was too embarrassed at that time, and it was two extremes when I appeared in front of him later. The man who asked you to borrow the phone?

At any rate, we got on the right track later, and a change that I couldn't predict began to happen.

I don't want to think about what happened afterwards.I have suffered two major blows in my life. Once I saw him lying on the sick g through the glass, and once I was knocked unconscious by him on that day.And the days after that are a real nightmare for me, I don't want to think about it, but it keeps playing in a loop in my mind.

The psychiatrist said that I was too unconfident.I know, I'm too soft.However, my senses are still deceiving me, and I am immersed in two completely different cognitions, which makes me mentally and mentally haggard, aging rapidly, and unable to resist.

You probably don't want to know what happened to me afterwards, anyway, it's my own fault, so there's no need to talk about it.

I only know that I have been waiting for him, until I can no longer hold on, I believe that I will see him sooner or later, and then I will get the answer from him.

This time I decided that when I asked him again, "Are you Wen Yizhi?" and he gave me an affirmative answer, I would firmly believe him, I swear.

... But ah, I have never waited for him until the end of my life.

Ilusen (Plane [-])

From that moment on, my life was completely shattered.

Since I stretched out my hand to hold my wand, and chanted the incantation I know well, what I did was obviously to destroy the enemy in front of me, but I personally took the disaster into my arms.

I didn't care at the time, and I didn't discover this fact until afterward the disaster took its toll on me.When I blamed myself in regret for being useless to my twisted senses, I took out my despair on my companions.

I hate cunning humans who don't do anything, I hate arrogant dragons who sit on the sidelines, I hate dwarves who only drink and laugh, and I hate orcs who say that's the type I'm best at. The people who sent us a group of five people to solve the loopholes in the continental barrier 200 years ago would never have imagined that this team composed of five different races actually had a lot of conflicts, but it was just a harmonious relationship on the surface, which led to the fact that when facing the tower When I was fighting the little devil, I was the only one who moved.

Of course, I hate myself for not being vigilant enough, and I also hate that when I was studying in the clan, I thought that demons would never be encountered, so I didn't seriously study the relevant identification courses.But what's the use of hating and hating?It's better to be strong yourself - if the elf goddess shows up, she will only say such things to me.

I did try to be strong, but the process was too long, too long, so long that I just wanted to spend my whole life pretending to be nothing, but met someone who forced me to tell the old things frankly people who come out.

The curses I encountered were not immediate.I still remember when my magic hit the little devil, it gave me an ominous look that I didn't care about, and then the body quickly weathered, and then I put away my magic wand and moved on.In those few nights, I only felt that my body was a little strange, but I didn't observe it carefully. Who would take a closer look at their own body when they have nothing to do?

Until we have reached the last stop, the dividing point of the barrier between the Gome continent and the Demon Realm, we fought against the demons who were trapped and unable to move freely because they wanted to protect the loopholes in the barrier.

The curse in me began to spread silently on my body because of being attracted by the magic. I gradually found that the hand holding the magic wand slowly began to disappear. First, the color and existence that the skin should have faded from the fingertips. Then the back of the hand, the arm.I was terrified, but because the battle was too urgent, I could only pretend to be calm, and the thing that comforted me the most was that my magic wand did not fall from my disappearing hand.

At first I just thought I was under an illusion, so I just put a few layers of spiritual magic on myself to try to break it.But it was useless, the battle was too intense, I had to keep fighting, even though I could already feel that both arms had disappeared, and this feeling was still spreading deep.

After the battle, I hurried to see myself, and found that my body had returned to its original state. I thought it was the demon who cast illusions that had been eliminated by us, and I was greatly relieved. After all, a part of my body disappeared before my eyes. This scene It's too scary.My companion and I started the return journey.

However, this is just the beginning.On the first night of camping, I watched my fingertips disappear again under the magic lighting. At this time, I was only thankful that because of the cleanliness of the elves, I lived in a tent by myself, and no one else could know.I thought a lot in my mind at the time, but the first thing I thought of was that I couldn't let my companion know.

Now that the barrier of Gome Continent has been repaired, all ethnic groups are no longer in a situation where they need to be united, and at the same time, their interests will be re-divided.I know what the consequences will be if my companions find out about my current situation, they will put a big hat on me, say that I have been infected with a curse, and this curse will continue to infect, or directly say that I am possessed, and then It can't be saved, so I took the opportunity to win benefits from the elves.Then what is there to think about?I will never live back.

I had no choice but to make up an excuse and leave before their suspicious and probing eyes.

Many people know what happened afterwards.According to the story, the heroes of the elves roamed the continent, their whereabouts were uncertain. How did they know that I wandered around the world helplessly and sadly, and finally had to stay in the Erni Forest?

Erni Forest, one of the five forbidden places in the Gome continent, is said to be the place where everything is isolated.At that time, I didn't dare to appear in the crowd, for fear that they would discover my secret.At that time, as time passed, when I stood in front of the mirror, I could no longer see anything remaining on my body, only a void, and the clothes covering it that were empty but puffed out in the shape of a human body.At that time, I thought, the Erni Forest is isolated from everything, and there is no entry and no exit. Isn't it suitable for people like me?I don't care if I will die if I go there, I just know that this place is perfect for me.

The environment inside is also really suitable for me.Due to the change of mood, I lost my identity as a pure white elf, but I did not completely fade into a dark elf.I gave myself the name of a new race: gray elves.There is gray between white and black. Now I can only live in the cracks. It is precisely because of this elf quality that I have settled down in Erni Forest safely.

For people like me who dare not face the crowd, Erni Forest is indeed a good place.I have lived for over 100 years and have never seen a single person of any other race.I regard this place as my territory, and come out to inspect it day and night when I am bored.I dare not let myself sit dry, for fear that the experience of bodily sensations will attack me to the point where I cannot turn back.

Then I met Wen Yizhi, such a special person to me.In the beginning, I just felt sorry for him, but I also thought that I hadn't spoken for a long time, and I didn't bother to talk to myself, so I might as well be a companion first, and if he accidentally discovered my secret, I would simply kill him. Unexpectedly, this time as a companion, I have been with him for many years, until I can no longer let him go.

This trend probably started very early on, when I couldn't stand him leaving the Erni Forest and I stayed where I was, and ended up going out with him and facing people I didn't want to face.I think he also has a charter for me in his heart, otherwise I would not have agreed so tacitly and naturally without all his premeditation.

Because this person is the only person in the world who can see me.I can't even see my existence, I can only see a void, but he can. Is there anyone else in the world who is more important than him?

of course not.So in the end, he said to me, let's go together, of course I readily agreed.

Without you, the whole world would be empty, emptier than my empty body.