Don't move the old man's bounty

After staying with Xiao Jiang for more than half a month, Chen Shiling officially made friends with Jiang Juan.

He made tea on a sunny afternoon and made some not-so-tasty desserts. The matcha cakes had the unique bitterness of tea leaves, which is hard for people who are used to sweets to get used to.

Sure enough, Jiang Juan only took a sip, and put the refreshment with the crescent moon on the side of the plate, waiting for Xiao Shi to pick up his leftovers.

"Eating sweets can promote the secretion of dopamine and make people feel happy." Chen Shiling looked at him with a smile.

Jiang Juan said, "But this refreshment..."

"Because life is not so sweet, the effect of temporary happiness is too weak, like sparks, fleeting, easily destroyed, unable to solve the problem. Only when you really get this happiness, it will is yours."

Chen Shiling poured tea for Jiang Juan, and said softly, "The help I can give you is limited. As the saying goes, it is better to teach a man to fish than to give him a fish. I don't like feeding patients by the handful. Medicine, the effect is not obvious except for accelerating hair loss, you need to understand that in your long life, the doctor can't accompany you forever, the only thing that can heal you is yourself, and those emotions that are worthy of being cherished in your palm."

Jiang Juan lowered his eyes, staring at the green and clear tea soup, "I agree with what you said."

Chen Shiling smiled, "If the help a psychiatrist can give you is limited, then what I can give you is even more limited, because I'm not talented, and the research direction has always been criminal psychology. Your illness is not my specialty. I I don't often study... well, normal people."

He used this word to describe Jiang Juan, which surprised Jiang Juan and asked him in amazement, "Do you think... I am a normal person?"

"Yes, your experience is just a bit rougher than that of ordinary people. It is different from those villains who have lived in disorder and chaos since childhood, with corrupt morals and degraded humanity. My specialization has always been the study of criminal brains. Crime is closely related to the abnormality of the brain, but the brain has plasticity, which is also in line with Xunzi's theory of sexual evil."

Chen Shiling did not avoid issues that are relatively sensitive to other doctors, and he could even be said to be very frank, "To tell you the truth, my research subjects recently are acquaintances you also know."

"Which one?"

"Jiang Yu." Chen Shiling took a sip of tea, "There is a high probability that the abnormality of the brain will be inherited, but his father Jiang Yu was a criminal, and because of the special experience, he lacked paternal love since childhood, and He shows the characteristics of extremely poor empathy and empathy. He can't understand the suffering and all the emotions suffered by others, and it is easy to impose unimaginable pain on others. According to the theory I insist, the probability of him committing a crime is as high as More than 60%, but he chose to become a policeman and stick to his heart, which made me very interested in him."

Chen Shiling changed the subject and smiled gently at Jiang Juan: "You are the same, humans are greedy animals, and it is easy to lose their heart when faced with temptation, but you did not collude in the harsh environment you have experienced in the past. Until the end, you completed the original mission goal, which surprised me."

He was not stingy with his praise, "Jiang Juan, you are an admirable policeman, you are worthy of being remembered and praised, everything you have given is meaningful, don't belittle yourself, you are stronger than you imagined, you have experienced a lot You who have lived through this should be treated kindly."

"But Daoist, can I really return to society now?" Jiang Juan couldn't bear to look directly at his scarred arms, and covered his eyes overwhelmed, "A person who can't hold back the pain in his heart may hurt people around him at any time. Anyone who poses a threat and even hurts himself is dangerous, right?"

"I know that you are very concerned about the period when you just finished an undercover mission and became very stressed. Your attitude hurt you, so you've been hypersensitive ever since."

"... At that time, I was able to survive because my brother was by my side. I was far less magnanimous than I looked. I not only hated those who hurt me, but even hated them because of the disgusting eyes of strangers... I I know that my mind and spirit are not healthy, but I don't want to admit that I am a patient... But what is it that I am not a patient? What is the difference between such a sick mind and a criminal?"

"Think about it this way, Jiang Juan. No criminal will cut himself with a knife. The biggest difference between you and them is that they impose pain on others, while you just seal yourself up and torture yourself."

Chen Shiling conducted psychological counseling for Jiang Juan for several hours, during which Xiao Shi fidgeted and paced around the room, wanting to listen to their conversation, but because of Chen Shiling's reminder, he could only stay in the living room and wait for them with Xiaotian in his arms .

When the two came back together, he just heard a tail: "...Chen Daochang, thank you so much today, I talked with you, I seem to understand the meaning of my life, I believe everything will be fine in the future .”

Jiang Juan couldn't say what Jiang Juan said before the long talk, Xiao Shi was relieved when he heard this.

He quickly said to Chen Shiling: "However, the minor punishment may disappoint Daoist Chen. Judging from the results of my current investigation, his father Jiang Yu may not be a criminal. Before there is no result, I hope Daoist Be careful when you mention this to him."

"Okay, I will pay attention." Chen Shiling turned his head and waved to Xiao Shi, "His problem is solved, it's your turn."

Xiao Shi thought that Chen Shiling would explain to him the precautions after treatment, but he never expected that after Chen Shiling brought him into the room and closed the door, he would ask bluntly: "You two are together, you should be on top, right?"

Xiao Shi was stunned, he couldn't answer these words at all.

But Chen Shiling misunderstood that he didn't express himself clearly, and explained it thoughtfully: "Up and down may not be important, so it should be said to be inside? You young people should call it a lot, Gong? 1? That's almost what it means."

Xiao Shi was a little confused by this sudden question, so he bit his head and nodded.

"Sure enough, I guess so, this kind of relationship is the most harmonious." Chen Shiling stroked his beard and looked at Xiao Shi.

"what do you mean……"

"Don't take me as an old antique. I still understand a little bit about you young people. In my opinion, the attacking side represents demand, aggression, and occupies a dominant position, while the receiving side often represents tolerance, giving, and is plundered. One side, of course, this is not absolute, it varies from person to person. From what I know of your past experiences, whether it is physical comfort or spiritual emotional comfort you get from him is better than him. many."

Xiao Shi was speechless.

This question was very personal, and he didn't want to admit it, but rationally he knew that what Chen Shiling said was right.

"I analyzed your experience and came to a conclusion that Jiang Juan accepted. The reason why you did that to him back then was ultimately because of your inner fear. You were afraid that he would leave you even if you cared about him." Instead, he desperately wanted to keep him, but chose the most brutal way in a panic, constantly drawing warmth from him who was almost exhausted."

Chen Shiling's voice is very gentle, even such a sharp truth is not unacceptable.

"In fact, such behavior is a kind of torture for both of you. He was hurt and felt bad for you, and you hurt him, but you didn't get pleasure. What you had was guilt and self-blame, and this These two emotions tormented you for many years to come, beat your nerves, and made you choose to avoid them against your will."

For Xiao Shi in the past, Jiang Juan was always his hidden pain that could not be mentioned, and this point was also seen through by Chen Shiling.

"You are kind, but you didn't choose the right way. It's very insecure. When you vent to him, it's not because those desires are so unbearable. It's just that you want to feel the reality that he is still by your side, and you want to use violence. The way you bring him to his knees, keep him with you, and you're afraid of losing him."

"……Yes."

Xiao Shi admitted.

He was lonely and helpless in his childhood, without the company of his parents, and living in the shadow of his father being a villain. He lacked love and care, and when he saw the happy and happy Jiang family, he would uncontrollably have the idea of ​​blending into it.

For him, Jiang Zhu was the benefactor who saved him from death and purgatory, and being pushed to the altar by him was an inviolable holiness.

Compared with Jiang Zhu, who is always gentle and melancholy, as distant as a god, Jiang Juan is more "popular", will have emotions, anger, sorrow, and joy, and will show all his true emotions in front of him.

Perhaps Xiao Shi was indeed attracted by Jiang Zhu back then, but what really moved his heart was always the glimpse of Jiang Juan back then, which warmed the long lonely years.

He will never forget Jiang Juan who gave him warmth in the first place, and now he is doing his best to repay him

"It may be redundant to say this now, but I still think it would be better to remind you. Don't get me wrong, Jiang Juan didn't mean to blame you, nor did I. It's just that as a doctor, I have to dig deep into the source of the problem before I can solve it. Uproot the illness. I believe that you will no longer do that kind of stupid thing now, and there will be a long time in the future, and you will have a lot of time to witness each other's feelings."

Chen Shiling took out a matcha cake with a bitten crescent moon from behind, handed it to Xiao Shi, and said to him with a smile, "Try it."

Xiao Shi didn't know what kind of medicine was sold in his gourd, so he tried to take a bite, and immediately understood after tasting the bitter taste on the tip of his tongue.

"His cat tongue is afraid of being hot and bitter, so he can't eat this, no wonder he put it down after one bite."

"Bread is bitter, but life is sweet. Take care of him in the future. You have a long time in the future. You can come to me at any time if you have any questions, but I sincerely hope that you will come to me. Because there is a problem."

Chen Shiling completed Shen Jinsu's request and returned to Wudang.

After another half a month of recuperation in Su'an, Jiang Juan and Xiao Shi returned to Yanxi when autumn was approaching.

They are idlers now, one handed in his resignation letter, the other verbally said he wanted to resign, but Lao Gao refused to approve them all, but approved their sick leave, and now the two are still well-known in the city bureau.

When the Gao Bureau called to express condolences, Xiao Shi let Ge You collapse on the sofa and said listlessly: "Old Gao, to tell you the truth, I was still quite scared of the dead body. I came to the City Bureau purely because I wanted to get my ex-wife away." After chasing it back, now that we are reunited, we don’t need to deal with all those bells and whistles, to be honest, I want to have a soft meal at home.”

His soft food didn't make Jiang Juan poor, but Gao Ju got a few white hairs and two blisters around his mouth, so he asked Di Zhen to bring the whole criminal detective to visit him that day.

Jiang Juan hadn't fully recovered yet, and was still lethargic. As soon as he opened his eyes, he saw familiar faces crowded in front of him, looking at him eagerly like a panda.

"I'm sick, not born. Can you stop acting like you're here to send me a wreath."

Xiao Shi patted his thigh, "Let you talk nonsense!"

Di Zhen brought Bai Jiaojiao, Wen Xingchuan, and more than a dozen criminal policemen to stand at attention, and saluted Jiang Juan respectfully.

Jiang Juan was taken aback by the battle, and quickly sat up, looking at the person in front of him with a dazed expression, wondering if he was dreaming again.

"Brother Jiang, there is some good news. Although I shouldn't be the one to tell it, in order to let you know earlier, I'm here to give you a spoiler. This is also the meaning of Gao Ju."

Di Zhen licked his lips, his eyes were red because he felt sorry for Jiang Juan's past experience.

"On behalf of the Gaoju Bureau, Brother Jiang, and everyone in our city bureau, I'm here to tell you... The old cases of your father Jiang Xun and brother Jiang Zhu have been rehabilitated, and their heroic qualifications have been approved."