Confession

Jiang Yang parked the car on the side of the road. There were lush forests on both sides. The sun in the afternoon was always hotter. The light passed through the mist in the forest, dispelling the cold atmosphere.

"Are you sure you want to ask now?" Jiang Yang looked at Lin Xu.

Lin Xu was silent for a moment, leaned his head on the seat in a bit of agitation, and said in a low voice, "I don't know either."

Jiang Yang went to hold Lin Xu's Weiliang hand, his coat sleeves were a bit long, covering half of the back of his hand, but he still didn't warm Lin Xu's hand.

Lin Xu is like an ice cube. When he is alone, he will always be submerged in the coldness. Only Jiang Yang's fiery temperature can warm him up, melting away his protective shell, revealing his blood-stained heart.

"If you don't want to, I can wait until I go back..."

"I'm sure I want to know now." Lin Xu played with the pendant on the bag, "If I go back... I'm not sure if I still have the determination to find out."

Jiang Yang was silent, his jaw line was slightly tense, and his eyes were dark.

"So now, while I still have energy and thirst for knowledge, tell me." Lin Xu's mouth curled up, and he said bitterly, "I'm bored, no matter how long I run away, this matter will always be with me. In my heart, this pimple won't go away just because I don't touch it."

"..."

"This incident happened because of me, because of what happened five years ago," Lin Xu said, "No matter what, I will come forward, while I am in a good state."

Lin Xu noticed that Jiang Yang was more nervous than himself, so he shook his hand and patted it lightly, "With you here, I'll be fine."

Jiang Yang didn't speak, his eyes showed a bit of scrutiny, trying to find out the disguise on Lin Xu's face.

But Lin Xu's eyes were open, and he didn't pretend to be brave at all. He smiled at Jiang Yang, touched the ring on the young man's hand, "Have you forgotten, I have already agreed to your marriage proposal, and I will not abandon myself fiancé's."

Jiang Yang looked slightly relaxed, and asked, "If you feel any discomfort, stop immediately."

Lin Xu didn't understand, but then he saw Jiang Yang rummaging in his bag for a while, and took out his cell phone which he hadn't touched for a long time.

Jiang Yang handed it to him: "If you really want to know, try to understand it yourself."

Lin Xu looked at this small mobile phone, and some bad memories flooded in like a tide, his temples throbbed, and his body's self-protection mechanism made him resist.

Zhao Xiwen communicated with Jiang Yang before, Lin Xu's relapse of depression this time is actually not serious compared to five years ago, as long as he is willing to face and solve the knot in his heart, then he will be fine.

Jiang Yang waited for this day for a long time, but he really couldn't bear to see Lin Xu's body tense and his face turn pale because of the phone again.

Out of health considerations, Jiang Yang hoped that Lin Xu would come out sooner, but if he had to face the online world with PTSD left behind, Jiang Yang would rather that Lin Xu would be protected by him forever, even from the perspective of netizens. Li disappeared completely, and didn't want Lin Xu to be in pain again.

"If not..."

Jiang Yang didn't say anything, Lin Xu had already reached out to take the phone, and decisively pressed the power button, the dark screen lit up.

Jiang Yang was dumbfounded. He used to think that Lin Xu was softer, but he could see a bit of determination from this action.

Lin Xu really didn't want to bear it anymore. He knew how long he had been escaping and had been living in Guo Shule's shadow. This feeling was very disgusting, like countless flies surrounding his heart. more.

These days, Lin Xu has seen everything Jiang Yang does. At the moment when he was put on the ring, an invisible strong light completely illuminated his chaotic and confused world, as if reining in his horse from a precipice.

He didn't want to make Jiang Yang feel bad anymore, and he didn't want to let himself be trapped in the deserted island.

Whether he wants to come out, whether he is willing to come out, is all in his mind.

Jiang Yang led him 99 steps, led him through the thorny grass, covered with midsummer flowers, from the bitter cold winter to the warm prosperity.

Lin Xu didn't want to disappoint Jiang Yang, he also fell in love with the warmth bathed in the sun, he wanted to completely shake off the past, and welcome Jiang Yang to their endless summer.

The phone turned on, and after a few seconds of slow response, it began to vibrate continuously, and a steady stream of WeChat messages popped up. After unlocking, the icon of the WeChat app was marked with a red mark of 99+.

Lin Xu didn't manage WeChat, but opened Weibo first.

It has been more than a month since this incident. In today's era of fast Internet information, if you want to know the past, you can only search by keywords, but once you search, the news that pops up is not filtered, good or bad Words came out, hitting the retina.

Lin Xu was deeply poisoned by the Internet, and even at this point, he felt fear, his fingertips vacantly pressed against the screen, unable to type for a long time.

Jiang Yang saw his fear, and pinched the back of his neck to distract him: "How do you know that I can help you clarify this matter?"

"When I was holding your phone, I saw Jin Congyun sending you a WeChat message," Lin Xu said, "He suggested that you take advantage of the heat to do some marketing, so that you don't have a work for too long and be forgotten by everyone."

Jiang Yang pinned Lin Xu's drooping hair behind his ears, exposing his smooth and delicate neck, and he could see the looming red marks under the neckline, "Then you search me, go to my Weibo, and put it on the top."

Lin Xu thinks it's feasible, Jiang Yang's Weibo is definitely cleaner than the topics in the topic circle, and it won't be too hostile.

He clicked on Jiang Yang's homepage, and the first sentence on Weibo caught his eyes.

[@cv江杨: First of all, Xu Tian is my boyfriend. 】

Just seeing this, Lin Xu's heart skipped a beat.

He glanced at the release time, it was when he was in the worst condition, and it should be the time when he was criticized the most on the Internet, Jiang Yang admitted frankly that he was his boyfriend.

Regardless of the views of the outside world, and don't care whether you will be implicated.

Lin Xu took a breath and continued to look down.

[@cv江杨: Me, Xu Tian and Mo An are alumni of the same university. When I was in school, Xu Tian and I only knew each other, but we were not familiar with his affairs. The relationship was not long ago. Things are also gradually learned in the relationship.

I have seen everyone swearing at my boyfriend. You don’t know the truth. I don’t blame you for your violent words. The more you are excited and scolded, the more ridiculous I find it. Do you really understand the truth?What you see as truth is nothing more than an appearance before your eyes.

Who cares what the truth is?

How many people have read the explanation and explanation of the Word of Silence five years ago?How many are neutral?How many are willing to believe that there is something hidden in it?What exactly is your so-called 'rights defense'?Is it really the rights of the author?Or the 'victim' on the surface?Has anyone ever thought about why Mo Zhiyan still wrote thousands of words of the ins and outs of Mo Zhiyan's personal information under the circumstances of "hard evidence"? Who revealed it?

The truth should not be concealed, and Mo An is the one who should be nailed to the pillar of shame.

I know that the people who scolded Xutian today are the same people who said they loved him in the past. My boyfriend hurts me. From today onwards, Xutian doesn't need you fans who are swaying, and I don't need to hate me. Boyfriend listener. 】

Jiang Yang posted a lengthy article, questioning netizens and unconditionally defending Xu Tian. At the same time, he attached an audio link called "The Belated Truth".

There are tens of thousands of likes and reposts on this Weibo, because the function that only you can comment is turned on, so there are no comments.

Lin Xu turned on the audio and listened to it. It was the sound of his argument with Guo Shule at the entrance of the hotel that night. There was a noisy background sound in the recording. The name, which has personal privacy, was muted, but it did not affect some key points. information.

After listening to the recording, Lin Xu looked at the man driving the car, stared at him quietly for a few seconds, then touched his soft earlobe, "Why is my boyfriend so smart?"

"Aren't you your fiance?" Jiang Yang asked.

Lin Xu laughed, "Yes, it's my fiancé."

"That's because someone didn't tell me anything." Speaking of this, Jiang Yang was very resentful, "I didn't tell me about Guo Shule, and I didn't tell me about depression. I didn't dare to ask because I was afraid that you would be angry. I can investigate by myself, I wanted to record your conversation and think about it in private, but I didn’t expect it to come in handy here.”

Jiang Yang started to feel complacent as he spoke, "How is it? Did you do a good job?"

Lin Xu nodded, unbuckled his seat belt and kissed him, "Reward."

Jiang Yang slightly turned his face towards Lin Xu, "Kiss."

Lin Xu obediently sucked Jiang Yang's mouth lightly.

"Then what happened afterwards?" Lin Xu didn't want to read anything on the Internet, but wanted to hear Jiang Yang's follow-up.

"Later..." Jiang Yang twitched the corners of his mouth and let out a disdainful sneer, "After learning the truth, netizens who were like grass on the wall started to turn against each other again, and turned all the blame on Guo Shule. Taking advantage of this fire, Jin Congyun found someone to go online All of Guo Shule's personal information, phone number, address, and even the company where he worked were exposed."

Lin Xu didn't respond, the matter had come to this point, he didn't want to know about Guo Shule's follow-up, what that person experienced now was what he had experienced before, Lin Xu didn't feel the pleasure of revenge, but was very calm.

This kind of calmness is indifference to irrelevant people, the truth is clear, whether Guo Shule lives or dies has nothing to do with him.

In other words, Lin Xu is not interested in the opinions and explanations of the outside world. He is still living a good life without the Internet. He is not short of money. The amount in his card and the real estate left by his parents are enough to eat and drink for the rest of his life. not finished.

He doesn't need to rely on readers and work data to support himself, and at worst he won't write articles. Whether it's Xu Tian or Mo Zhiyan, he is Lin Xu first, then Jiang Yang's fiancé, and secondly he is wearing a vest and shuttling between Two- Identity in dimension.

In fact, depression is like this. When they fall into a blind spot, maybe it’s just a trivial thing, they will become very sensitive and concerned, immersed in emotions and unable to get out, and they know it’s wrong, but there is no way, they can’t control themselves.

Later, as the state gradually improved, I was relieved to say a big thing. After a while, looking back, I still gritted my teeth and walked through those dark and painful days with tears in my eyes.

There is no need to look back, the front is full of blooming spring.

Lin Xu read Jiang Yang's text several times, and logged into his Weibo account. About half an hour later, Xu Tian, ​​whose fans had been waiting for his return, finally posted.

[@旭天: Hello everyone, I’m Xutian, and I’m also the word of silence five years ago.

Sorry for taking so long to respond to this matter. Some time ago, my depression relapsed and I was in a very bad state. I turned off my phone and didn’t contact any news. Jiang Yang has been with me and taken me on a trip until today Only then did I have the courage to pick up my phone and open Weibo.

After listening to the audio, you should be clear about the ins and outs of the matter. When I was Mo Zhiyan, I also posted a Weibo to explain the whole incident seriously: Mo An and I are college roommates, and he stole My full-text manuscripts were published first, and then they accused me of plagiarism.

But no one believed it.

The internet has hurt me too much, extending from five years ago to five years later.

When I was suffering from depression for the first time, the psychiatrist told me to stay away from the Internet, but because there will be publishing houses to discuss copyright or book publishing, I have never completely cut off from the outside world. I also have a glimmer of hope and want to use The name "Xutian" started from the beginning and won the readers' love again. After all, I am an author, and there is no author who does not want to be recognized, so I still read comments, or read Weibo, and secretly peeped at everyone's opinions on me. manner.

I used to be vain. I wanted to publish books, sell copyrights, and gain a foothold in the literary circle. In this way, I could prove to those who criticize Mozhiyan that there is no plagiarism, and that I can still achieve achievements with my own writing.

But when the scandal was revealed again, the mirage built in the past five years collapsed. I knew that I had never got rid of the name "Words of Silence" from the beginning to the end. The three words were typed back to their original form again.No one believes in Mo Zhiyan and Xu Tian, ​​even the readers who have followed Xu Tian for many years, no one is willing to believe in my character.

Plagiarism is the most serious charge you can make against an author, yet I was wronged like this for five years.Even if the truth is revealed now, perhaps some people still think of plagiarism when they mention Mo Zhiyan. Once this dirty water is splashed, it will never be washed clean.

And now there is a knot because of Jiang Yang's recording, what should I do if I don't have it?Continue to be drowned by the spittle of each of you?Do you continue to bear the sins that don't belong to me?

I can't get an answer.

The period of being disconnected from the internet is the most peaceful time I have ever lived. Xutian is Mo Zhiyan. Since the incident of Mo Zhiyan was exposed, today is the first time I have come into contact with the internet again. Without Two-dimensional things, I will live a better life. will be more comfortable.I know you are all rushing to apologize to me now, but what's the point?Can it undo the damage?Or is it possible to turn back time when nothing ever happened?Can a simple apology undo my loss?

Through the Two-dimensional screen, everyone can speak freely, show the sharpness hidden in their hearts without any scruples, and express their thoughts.You think about everything, but never think about whether your own words will cause harm to others. When you stand on the moral high ground and criticize others, do you still have the reason to look at your own ugly face?

I'm tired and tired, and I don't have the patience to care about readers anymore. I'm just a writer, but I don't rely on this for a living, and I don't want to be angry with it anymore.

I will quit the Internet later, this is my last Weibo, whether I write a book or not depends on my future status.

I don’t want to worry about two-dimensional things, I will be happy in three dimensions, thank you. 】