Confession

Jiang Yang used his Weibo to post the recording at the entrance of the hotel that night. Coincidentally, he intended to prevent the two from playing riddles. He was afraid that he would eavesdrop on the key content, so he turned on the recording and wanted to listen to it repeatedly in private. Let's see if we can find out their grievances back then, but I didn't expect this to help Lin Xu.

With Jin Congyun's professional public relations team controlling the direction of public opinion, this audio once again caused an uproar in the literary circle, not only for the truth of the plagiarism incident, but also for the relationship between Jiang Yang and Xu Tian.

Jiang Yang released the recording in the name of protecting his boyfriend, and very seriously asked everyone to stop the cyberbullying and see the truth clearly.

Not only that, there are also some entertainment marketing big V, who got the news from nowhere, "picked up" Mo An's real personal information, photo, name, phone number, address, graduated school, company where he worked, without any privacy It can be said that it was completely exposed in Two-dimensional.

Someone followed the clues and found out the indiscretions in his private life. For a while, the name "Mo An" became a disgusting word in the literary circles, and it was the object of everyone's resistance.

But Lin Xu no longer has the energy to see them.

Lin Xu has been in a bad state for the past few days. At first, he was lethargic. After waking up, he sat on the edge of Lele's kennel, holding the dog-smelling cushion in a daze. After a while, his eyes turned red, and then tears welled up out, his face was covered with a paste.

The smell of dog is not pleasant, but for Lin Xu, it is a memory point. This smell is full of five years of memories, making the pictures in his mind vivid, and it is a key for him to recall the past.

Jiang Yang came over with a porcelain pot in his hands, put it in front of Lin Xu, wiped his face with a tissue, and said in a low voice, "Don't cry, Xu Xu."

Lin Xu looked at the things in front of him and vaguely guessed something, tears flowed even more fiercely.

Jiang Yang kissed his eyes, tears moistened Jiang Yang's lips, tasted the bitterness and saltiness, "It has been with you in another way, it will always be there."

"But I don't want this way..." Lin Xu trembled badly, and fell into Jiang Yang's arms, not daring to look at the jar, and said in a hoarse voice, "I want to hold it, touch it, and kiss it. I think it's within my reach...I miss it, Jiang Yang. What should I do...I miss it so much, it's my Lele..."

Jiang Yang panicked in his heart, kissed Lin Xu's hair, without revealing his emotions, and comforted the person in his arms with a more calm attitude, "It's okay Lin Xu, it's okay. It hasn't left, it will stay with you, I Yes, I will always be with you."

In the end, Lin Xu was tired from crying, and fell asleep in Jiang Yang's arms, with tears hanging from his eyelashes. Qing Jun's face had lost a lot of weight in just a few days, and the tip of his nose and the end of his eyes were red, showing A fragile feeling of brokenness, obviously sleeping a lot, but his eyes are very black and blue, as if he hasn't slept in a long time, every time he opens his eyes, he looks haggard and tired.

Jiang Yang hugged the person and looked at the porcelain pot with complicated emotions.

The house without Lele is indeed too quiet, even he can't adapt quickly, how could Lin Xu get out of it easily after five years of raising it.

Lele is not only a pet that accompanied Lin Xu, but also a witness who witnessed him walk out of the shadows. Now that it is gone, the spiritual pillar that supported Lin Xu's past also collapsed. Buried in the dark ground.

Jiang Yang felt distressed and helpless.

He didn't know what to do to make Lin Xu let go, and he didn't dare to provoke him, and he didn't even dare to mention "Guo Shule" again.

He took care of his lover carefully and like walking on thin ice. Seeing Lin Xu's getting thinner and listless, he felt anxious.

Yang Xiaoling came a few times on the way, and every time Lin Xu was asleep, he couldn't bear to see Lin Xu crying in his sleep, and his eyes turned red.

"When will he wake up?" Yang Xiaoling sat on the sofa wiping tears.

Jiang Yang smoked a cigarette, pressed the center of his brows tiredly, and his clean and magnetic voice became hoarse, "I don't know, he is awake for less and less time, before he could stay awake for most of the day, and now he even needs to eat I wake him up."

Yang Xiaoling frowned, "It's not normal for him to be in such a situation, how can anyone sleep all the time?"

"I know," Jiang Yang sighed, hooked his body slightly, his eyes were serious, "except for Lele, he kept silent about Guo Shule, and that was the root cause of everything. He never said anything, and I also I dare not say it lightly, the longer this matter is kept in his heart, the greater the impact it will have on him."

The more you care about things, the more often you will keep your mouth shut.

Let the wound fester in my heart, ooze pus and stink, let the pain spread, torture myself self-abuse, want to use this pain to suppress the despair of losing Lele.

To fight poison with poison, you still hurt yourself.

"He was not like this before," Yang Xiaoling said, "At that time he suffered from insomnia, he couldn't fall asleep all night long, and kept his eyes open until dawn."

Jiang Yang asked: "Then what happened afterwards?"

"He saw a psychiatrist." Yang Xiaoling recalled. "I came to see him a few times later. He was not in good condition. There were many medicines for depression and some sleeping pills on the table."

"Do you want to try to take him to see a doctor?" Yang Xiaoling suggested, "He has been sleeping, and his mental state is so bad. Since he doesn't want to tell you, let the doctor talk to him, after all, they are professionals. "

Jiang Yang nodded, "I know, I still have to ask his opinion when he wakes up."

"Take good care of him." Yang Xiaoling frowned, "Call me if you need anything. I wanted to be with him before, but he wouldn't let me. Now that I have you, at least it won't be as difficult as it was five years ago. "

After Jiang Yang smoked a cigarette, he looked up at Yang Xiaoling, "He told me about you before, he really cares about you, otherwise he wouldn't be so heartbroken."

Yang Xiaoling's eyes were very red, and he forced out a smile, "I know, I was the one who said what I said back then... But I really cherish him, after all, I have known him for so many years, and there will never be someone like him again We are close friends who are familiar with each other.”

"Do you really cherish it, or do you realize the importance of Lin Xu only after you lose it?" Jiang Yang asked lightly.

"Both." Yang Xiaoling's face was very pale, and he said bitterly, "But it's meaningless to dwell on the past now. I value my friend Xu Xu very much. I hurt him too much back then. I know there is no way to make up, but ..."

He hesitated for a long time but didn't say anything, and finally he could only sigh helplessly: "Forget it, I'll just treat him well, remember to tell him that I have seen him, let him know that he is not alone, and someone misses him. "

Jiang Yang nodded, "I will."

Lin Xu has no parents, and has lost Lele. Perhaps in the eyes of others, caring for him is insignificant, but it is very important comfort for Lin Xu.

After Yang Xiaoling left, the room became quiet again. Jiang Yang's temples throbbed and he heard the buzzing in his ears, as if he was in the bottom of the sea, the pressure squeezed his lungs, his breathing was difficult, and his heart was numb.

The porcelain jar containing Lele's ashes was placed on the tea table. The body of the jar was icy cold. The haze of death enveloped the heart, and a trembling chill ran up the spine.

Jiang Yang thought gloomily and thankfully that it was fortunate that Lele was missing.

If it was Lin Xu who had the accident, he might go crazy.

Jiang Yang wiped his face, suppressed this distorted and dark thought, and planned to go into the house to sleep with Lin Xu.

At this time, the phone rang, Jiang Yang had to stop, glanced at the caller, and went to answer the phone by the French window.

"Hello, Liangda." Jiang Yang said.

Ah Liang's side was very quiet. After hearing his voice, he paused for a second before speaking: "Your voice is so hoarse, how many cigarettes have you smoked?"

"No, one a day." Jiang Yang cleared his throat, "I only smoke when I can't help it. I have a measure."

A Liang sighed, "Is Lin Xu okay?"

"Not good." Jiang Yang didn't hide anything, "Liangda, even if you don't call me, I will ask for leave for you. I have to accompany him during this time, and my work may be suspended temporarily."

"The radio dramas you have received are all big IPs, and the film and television team has also replied to me and appointed you." A Liang's voice was particularly mellow at night, "Your career is on the rise, are you sure you want to give up such a job?" Good chance?"

"..." Jiang Yang stared at the colorful neon lights in the distance, his eyes dark and unclear.

"There are a steady stream of newcomers in this circle. Your timbre is very distinctive and textured. Judging from the current resources, your future development will definitely surpass me." A Liang said, "Jiang Yang, you have to think about it. "

"I know, this is already the result of my deliberation." Jiang Yang's voice was stained by smoke, adding a bit of vicissitudes that did not meet his age, "Liang Da, I know that you promoted me, and I also know that you have promoted me. Resources are so rare. Maybe you want to say that I am in love with brains, but the scale in my heart is always leaning towards Lin Xu."

"He is my lover, and now he is experiencing such a severe cyberbullying, and the dog that accompanied him for five years is gone. The whole person is in a very bad state, confused, sleeping except for sleep, becoming autistic, listless, In tears, crying in sleep, eyes swollen like walnuts. Do you think I can leave him in this situation and focus on my career?"

A Liang sighed, and understood Jiang Yang's helplessness, "In this case, take good care of him. The work of the film and television team will be in about two months. I will help you for the time being. Don't worry. But you The existing big IP script in my hand, I can only give it to others."

"Here, the studio is much better than mine," Jiang Yang said calmly, "It doesn't matter whoever plays, it's all our studio's drama anyway."

"That's different." A Liang said, "Once some opportunities are missed, they will never be there again."

The transparent glass window showed Jiang Yang's deep and stern face, with a slight smile on the corner of his mouth, looking very plain, "Liang Da, people are always faced with various choices in life, and no one can tell right from wrong, so I think Follow your heart."

"What if you regret it later? What if you break up with Lin Xu later?"

"I don't think I will break up with him." Jiang Yang smiled, "I don't know if I will regret it in the future, but at least he is more important now, and nothing can compare to him. I didn't accompany him five years ago. He, now that I'm his boyfriend, it's even more impossible to let him go."

A Liang was silent for a while, then smiled, "Okay, I respect your decision, spend more time with Lin Xu, he should... have depression."

"How do you know?" Jiang Yang asked.

When he and Lin Xu were still in an ambiguous period before, A Liang had told him to treat Lin Xu well, and now A Liang should have known about it early on.

A Liang: "I guess, all the creators I know basically have psychological problems. Lin Xu is indifferent and withdrawn. He used to be taciturn when eating together. Several times I saw him take medicine after meals. It’s in English, I paid attention to it, it’s a medicine to relieve anxiety.”

"He does, and I will take good care of him." Jiang Yang said, "When he is in better condition, I will go back to the studio, and I won't embarrass you."

"It's okay, let's get over the limelight first."

After hanging up the phone, Jiang Yang stood quietly for a while, his head empty.

Time ticked by, the traffic was like a dragon, and the night was still silent, as if nothing had changed, but the invisible track deviated from the original track under his decision.

He recalled what A Liang said just now, and felt that it was a pity that it was false.

At his age, he is in the prime of his life and working hard for his career. It would be a little bit reconciled for him to give up a great opportunity and return to peace.

As A Liang said, once some opportunities are missed, there will be no such good luck to pick them up again.

Jiang Yang smiled meaninglessly, feeling both regretful and relaxed.

He planned to go back to his room to look at Lin Xu, but when he turned around, he met a pair of calm and sad eyes.

—— Lin Xu stood quietly by the door, I don't know how long he has been listening.