Confession

She slept late last night, but Lin Xu woke up early.

He opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling, replaying everything of last night one by one, Jiang Yang's confession, his crying, and the last kiss like a touch of water.

Lin Xu covered his head in the quilt and rolled around twice, unable to restrain his heartbeat.

When he thought of Jiang Yang's gentleness last night, his cheeks became hot, and the young man stared at him resentfully with his mouth injury and red and swollen cheeks, as if he was like a child who couldn't eat sugar.

Jiang Yang is two years younger than him. He is handsome and tall. He switches between maturity and childishness without any sense of disobedience. He is a steady man who can be relied on for a while, and a big dog full of childishness for a while, rushing like Lele. He acted like a baby.

Lin Xu had seen Jiang Yang fall in love when he was in college before, and the people he dated back then seemed to be a little younger than Jiang Yang, and Jiang Yang would take care of each other like an older brother, caring and gentle.

Therefore, Lin Xu especially liked Jiang Yang's acting like a baby to him. It was a state that no one else had seen or experienced, and it was a state that Jiang Yang would only show in front of him.

Lin Xu turned on the phone, and the top dialog box kept the information past two o'clock last night:

[Yang: Senior, good night, the first day of dating, I hope I can dream of you~]

Lin Xu's mouth twitched when he saw this message. The relationship between the two had changed. He changed Jiang Yang's note to write "boyfriend" and added a blue heart behind it.

It was only ten o'clock in the morning, Lin Xu guessed that Jiang Yang hadn't woken up, so he didn't send him a message, got up and got out of bed to wash up.

He took a shower and stood in front of the closet to choose clothes while toweling his hair.

He has no plans to go out today. According to his past habits at home, he always wears a loose white cotton T-shirt and a pair of knee-length pants underneath.

But now it's different, he's in a relationship, he can't dress casually in front of Jiang Yang, and he can't be too grand, otherwise it will be strange to be too formal at home.

Lin Xu spent a long time choosing among all kinds of clothes but couldn't find a suitable one. He sat on the bed hesitating, his eyes fell on the medicine box in the cabinet, which made him startled.

It was hidden before in order to avoid continuing to rely on drugs, and it is not considered hiding, just put these in the cabinet, cover them with messy clothes, and keep them out of reach, so that he will not want to pass if something goes wrong. Take medicine to regulate mood.

Lin Xu panicked for a moment when he saw these medicine boxes, he lost his thoughts about choosing clothes, and began to think about what to do with these medicines.

These medicines are not just medicines, but also represent his muddled, chaotic and dark past, and are evidence that his life is like mud.

Lin Xu was very afraid of being found out by Jiang Yang, and he didn't want him to know about his past.

He just wanted to hide his embarrassed, desperate, and tortured face, and he had to face Jiang Yang with a perfect look, and those bad looks must not be exposed.

Lin Xu found a box, put piles of medicines in it and hid it under the bed, put it together with many storage boxes, and hid it in it.

When he came out of the bed, he became a little more stable, and after he calmed down for a while, he felt something was wrong, it was too quiet, and something seemed to be missing.

He looked at the bed, and realized where the sense of disobedience was.

Usually Lele would sleep next to him, even if she didn't sleep on the bed, she would sleep on the floor, anyway, she would watch over him, and when she heard him get up, she would jump up and walk behind her, like a little tail .

But today Lele didn't come to the room to sleep at all, and there was no sound of playing around.

Lin Xu felt it was strange, so he went out of the bedroom to look at Lele, and saw that it was lying quietly on the ground, sleeping with its eyes closed, and didn't get up after hearing the movement, its round eyes looked at Lin Xu.

"Lele?" Lin Xu walked over, frowned when he saw the vomit on the ground, knelt down and stroked its head, "What's wrong with you?"

Lele raised her head and licked Lin Xu's hand, she was very quiet and well-behaved, not as lively as usual.

Lin Xu touched the tip of its nose, it was wet, ruled out the possibility of being sick and having a fever.

It's normal for a dog to vomit occasionally. For example, sometimes it's indigestible after eating too much, and Lele often steals snacks, and often retches a bit. Lin Xu can't tell whether Lele is normal through a pool of small vomit.

So he deliberately said: "Lele, let's go out and play."

Normally, Lele would be very excited whenever she heard about going out to play, and this time Lele was no exception, she immediately started wagging her tail, stood up and wanted to go out.

But it gasped and coughed as soon as it stood up, and then began to retch. What it spit out was white foam mixed with undigested dog food.

Now that Lin Xu was sure that something was wrong with it, he touched Lele's body distressedly, trying to appease the discomfort, and began to recall what he ate yesterday in his mind.

He never feeds the dog indiscriminately, but there is a place where he can't control himself, and he wants to try something that smells delicious.

Wait, fragrant...

Lin Xu thought about the cake last night, and Lele's behavior of stealing it.

"I told you to eat it secretly. There's really something wrong with it now." Lin Xu had no choice but to get up and get the leash to take him to the hospital.

Dogs can't eat butter, it will irritate the stomach, Lin Xu knows this, but thinking that he didn't eat much last night, there shouldn't be a problem, so he didn't pay attention to it, and something went wrong in the end.

Lele has a different meaning to Lin Xu. It accompanied Lin Xu through those five dark years, and he has long regarded it as a more important existence than his family.

Lin Xu didn't react much on the surface, but his movements could be seen to be very anxious. When putting on the leash, he moved too fast, and even pulled Lele's hair.

"What's it called?" Lin Xu said bluntly, and his movements were lighter, thinking that its eyes were similar to Jiang Yang's last night, "Why don't you think about getting sick when you steal food?"

Putting the leash on, Lin Xu went back to his room and casually changed into a T-shirt, and hurried out with his mobile phone. When the door opened, he met Jiang Yang who also opened the door.

Jiang Yang was carrying the medicine box, his eyes lit up when he saw him, "Morning, I was going to find you, your hand..."

"Jiang Yang, Lele is sick." Lin Xu rarely showed eagerness, "It should be from the butter last night. I'm taking it to the hospital now."

Jiang Yang's expression froze, and he immediately said, "I'll go with you."

The two went out together, and Lele seemed to be in good spirits, but just after leaving the gate of the community, she had diarrhea and vomited something.

Lin Xu and Jiang Yang used paper towels to dispose of its excrement and vomit, so as not to disturb pedestrians on the road.

After getting in the car, Lele put her head on Lin Xu's lap, and was quiet, not making any noise.

"I'm sorry." Jiang Yang stroked Lele's paw and apologized to Lin Xu.

Lin Xu asked, "Why are you apologizing?"

"After all, I brought the cake, so it's because of me." Jiang Yang was sullen, which was comparable to Lele.

Lin Xu laughed, "Your logic, yesterday was my birthday, so I'm the culprit?"

"No, don't think so." Jiang Yang went to shake Lin Xu's hand, "I feel a little guilty, after all, I said last night what to do if I get sick, and I really got sick in the end."

Jiang Yang's figure is tall, with big palms, slender and shapely fingers, tough and smooth lines, extending from the wrist upwards, when he exerts force, he can feel the explosive force hidden under the texture, full of masculine hormones.

In contrast, Lin Xu's hands were too thin, a full circle smaller, and his skin was a degree whiter than Jiang Yang's, so he was held and played by others.

Jiang Yang's fingers passed through Lin Xu's fingertips, and he held and squeezed Lin Xu's fingertips and rubbed them lightly. This kind of unconscious intimacy made Lin Xu a little distracted.

"...It's beyond your control, it's greedy." Lin Xu's fingertips curled up slightly, and he leaned against Jiang Yang, "It should be something wrong with the stomach, it's not too serious."

"It's okay, even if there is a serious problem, I will take it and treat it well." Jiang Yang said.

Lin Xu smiled, and scratched Jiang Yang's palm, "This is my dog, why should you bring it?"

Jiang Yang calmly said, "It's my dog ​​now, and I have the responsibility to take care of him."

When he said this, his tone was slow, the word "responsibility" was held between his lips, and he uttered it slowly against Lin Xu's ear, with a hot and humid breath, which made his ears numb.

Lin Xu's ears turned red, and he subconsciously looked at the driver. The rearview mirror reflected the driver's eyes, and the two caught off guard and had a stare at each other.

The driver showed no expression and drove quietly.

Lin Xu blushed from embarrassment, put his arm against Jiang Yang, leaned over and said in a breathy voice, "Stop making trouble, the driver saw it."

Jiang Yang imitated Lin Xu's way of speaking, and asked in a low voice, "What did you see?"

"Look... see us together." Lin Xu stammered, not knowing why he was guilty, but subconsciously afraid to show intimacy with Jiang Yang in front of outsiders.

It's like... I'm afraid that others will know their relationship.

Jiang Yang smiled, raised his eyes to look at the rearview mirror, his eyes were cold for a moment, the eyes frightened the driver, he didn't dare to look at them with curious eyes anymore, and drove honestly.

In just a second, Jiang Yang lowered his eyes, his deterrence dissipated, and he resumed his usual laughter, breathing out against Lin Xu's earlobe, "Aren't we always together?"

Lin Xu couldn't resist Jiang Yang's voice, let alone talking close to his ears like this. He closed his eyes and felt the itch in his heart. He leaned against Jiang Yang completely, and buried his face in the young man's stiff chest. Exposed to the light, the neck glowed a faint red, as if unable to bear the heat inspired by shame.

Jiang Yang laughed heartily twice, he rolled down the car window, the wind blew the hair of the two of them, and the glaring hot sun fell on them, illuminating the smile in Jiang Yang's eyes wildly and brightly.

Lin Xu could probably feel that Jiang Yang did it on purpose, deliberately showing intimacy in front of the driver, so that he would not have the psychological burden of fear.

No matter what other people look at, they can stand in the sun, and the rainbow will only appear in the bright sky after the rain.

Lin Xu understands this truth, but if he understands it, he still has some difficulties in actually doing it.

The fear of being criticized lingers in his heart, and Lin Xu always cares about other people's strange eyes.

"Senior, it's okay for you to be so thin-skinned." Jiang Yang put his arms around someone, pinched Lin Xu's small pierced earlobe, lowered his voice, and said in a very ambiguous manner on purpose, "I can't stand biting my ears in front of others? What can I do if I want to do bad things to you in the future? Then you are going to find a crack to get in?"

"...You won't do bad things in front of others." Lin Xu said in a muffled voice.

Jiang Yang: "That's not necessarily the case. With my temperament, what if I kiss you in front of others? Will you refuse?"

Lin Xu's ears turned red, he had never been in love before, like a piece of pure white paper, he was powerless to resist Jiang Yang's deliberate teasing, "I...I..."

Suddenly there was a sharp brake, and the inertia made their bodies lean forward slightly, and then the driver's plain voice sounded: "We're here, you two can get out of the car."

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Driver: I'm still under the car.