Confession

The summer wind feels dry and hot on the body, and the emerald green ginkgo leaves hang down in strings, lush and refreshing.

The sky is as blue as washing, without a single cloud. The river across the city is sparkling with blue waves. The blue sky is imprinted on the bottom of the lake. The lake is as blue as if swallowing a huge gemstone. The light refracts and the water ripples.

They walked through the bustling streets and bustling crowds, from the urban area full of car exhaust to the playground with laughter and laughter. Cute cartoon dolls stood at the door in heavy and big costumes and took photos with the children.

Today is a working day, but it has not affected the flow of people in the playground at all. Most of the people who come here are adults.

Lin Xu was taken away by Jiang Yang, and he didn't say where he was going. When he saw the playground, he asked, "Is this the romantic place you said on the road?"

Seeing his disapproval, Jiang Yang was confident: "That's right, why isn't this romantic?"

"This is where children play." Lin Xu said.

Jiang Yang disagreed, "What's wrong with the kids? Obviously there are many adults, seniors, you are all writers of novels, so you should know how important it is to maintain a childlike innocence. You are only 26 years old, okay? Make yourself old-fashioned? It is true to find inspiration outside more!"

Lin Xu felt that what Jiang Yang said was fallacious. He didn't go out, didn't look for inspiration, and still wrote so many novels, and all of them were loved by readers.

He saw the exaggerated costumes and the crowded crowd inside. He hadn't experienced such a "group" activity for a long time, and Lin Xu retreated in his heart.

"Jiang Yang, I think..."

Before he finished speaking, Jiang Yang grabbed Lin Xu's hand and walked quickly towards the gate, "Let's go senior! I bought the ticket on the way here, come here! Don't have fun Give it a shot!"

Lin Xu was dragged away, and quickly followed Jiang Yang's speed. In a daze, he stepped into the world of fireworks that he hadn't set foot in for five years.

Laughter lingers in the ears, the park is spacious and luxurious, the exquisite castle rockery is made lifelike, and the green vegetation is trimmed into cute cartoon animal images. Everyone wears a headband on their head and holds a cute doll in their hands. Both men and women have beautifully painted faces.

Here, there is no distinction between adults and children, separated by a door, from reality to fairy tales, childhood dreams come true, this is the place where dreams begin.

Lin Xu's heart moved slightly, infected by the laughter, his eyes were soft.

People are always afraid of the unknown. In fact, as long as you take that step, you will find that nothing has changed. You just use your eyes to discover the beauty that you have never noticed before.

Jiang Yang took a map and explained it to Lin Xu, "I have been here once before, but the whole park is actually not very big, if it is fast, it can be finished in a day, and there will be performances at certain times, I will try my best to show you through it , come here. Are you afraid of heights? Do you dare to sit..."

He babbled a lot, turned around and found that Lin Xu didn't listen to him, but stared at a painting booth.

"Will the paint they use not wash off?" Lin Xu asked curiously.

"Of course not," Jiang Yang raised his eyebrows, "Do you want to draw? Come on, let's draw one."

Lin Xu shook his head, "No, I don't want to. I just..."

"I want to draw!" Jiang Yang said, if there was a big tail behind him, he would definitely wag, "Can the senior accompany me? Otherwise, it would be too embarrassing for me to draw alone."

He said this with a smile in his eyes, not out of fear of embarrassment, he was clearly sure that Lin Xu would not reject him.

"However, it's too strange for me to draw these cartoon patterns." Lin Xu also wanted to try, hesitantly looked at the example pictures on the booth.

"Then don't draw cartoons," Jiang Yang pulled Lin Xu to sit down in front of the small table, "Boss, let's draw a rainbow on our face."

The rainbow itself means beautiful and beautiful, but it has a different meaning when placed on two men. It represents diversity and tolerance. The colorful colors can be integrated to form a bright brilliance. It is more often used to refer to LGBT.

The owner of the store is a girl. After hearing that the rainbow was going to be painted, they looked at them differently, with a smile on her face, "Okay, where to draw?"

"Cheek." Jiang Yang sat on the side, resting his chin in one hand, and looked at him with a smile, "Senior is good-looking, and his painted face looks whiter."

Lin Xu's earlobe turned red, and he didn't know whether it was from being sunburned or ashamed.

The boss laughed and said, "Yes, you two are so handsome, it must look good in the painting."

The girl dipped in paint and painted a rainbow on Lin Xu's cheeks.

Lin Xu felt itchy on his face. Looking at the girl who was close at hand, he didn't know where to look. Jiang Yang's burning eyes kept staring at him, making him even more uncomfortable.

"Don't look at me." Lin Xu whispered.

Jiang Yang: "Why can't you look at it? You have such a beautiful face, are you still afraid of being seen?"

The girls all laughed and praised, "Yeah, little brother, you are too modest. If my boyfriend had such a face, he would have gone to heaven a long time ago, okay? He is like a butterfly hooking up with other girls everywhere gone."

"That's right, senior." Jiang Yang echoed, watching the rainbow on Lin Xu's cheeks painted in one stroke, adding a touch of beauty to his clean face.

Lin Xu was embarrassed by the praise. If it was in the past, he would show a gentle smile and thank the other party for the compliment.

Five years later, he is not very good at dealing with this kind of warm and sincere affection for him, but he likes it in his heart, his heart is burning hot, his lips are pursed into a line, and the corners of his mouth are overflowing with a smile.

"Okay!" The girl looked at her work with satisfaction, and handed the mirror to Lin Xu, "Have a look?"

The person in the mirror was wearing a white T-shirt, his eyes were slightly squinted by the glare of the sun, and there was a bright rainbow on his clear face. The girl did not draw seven distinct colors as in the traditional sense. The filter blooming is very natural, and the painting is cute and beautiful.

The girl proudly said, "Isn't it pretty?"

Lin Xu nodded, turned his head, and looked at it from a different angle.

Jiang Yang smiled and took the initiative to sit over, "It's my turn."

Lin Xu's rainbow is on the left side of the cheek, and Jiang Yang specially told the girl to draw it on the right side.

After finishing the painting, Jiang Yang didn't look in the mirror, but turned around and asked, "Senior, is it good?"

Lin Xu replied truthfully, "It's prettier than mine."

"Really?" Jiang Yang smiled, "I think the senior's looks better."

The girl laughed out loud, and stuffed a little bear pendant into their hands, "You all look good! I give you two small gifts, and I wish you a long and lasting relationship! Love, love, love!"

Lin Xu glanced at Jiang Yang and stuffed the little bear into his trouser pocket as if he didn't hear it.

He liked this misunderstanding and didn't want to explain it, nor did he want Jiang Yang to explain it.

Jiang Yang didn't say much, he paid the money and waved at the girl, "Let's go first, I wish you a prosperous business."

The two caught the attention of many people as they walked on the road. They were already handsome, and walking together became a beautiful landscape. Others didn't bother to watch, but when they walked face to face, they would pay more attention to the rainbow on their faces.

Jiang Yang stared at the map and took Lin Xu to experience the fun facilities, not paying attention to other people's eyes.

Lin Xu is not used to it, although he is well-known on the Internet, but after all, he is two-dimensional across the screen, being watched in three dimensions, the eyes of strangers are curious, inquiring and offended, as if they are looking at something Very new things, as if they were different.

As a BL writer and LGBT supporter, Lin Xu dislikes these gazes very much, even if they are not malicious.

"Senior, are you afraid of heights?" Jiang Yang asked while biting a popsicle, "Do you dare to ride a roller coaster?"

"I've never sat before, but I can give it a try." Lin Xu looked at the young man, the cream in his mouth melted, and the taste of sweet taro lingered in his mouth, "Jiang Yang, why...why do you want to draw a rainbow?"

Jiang Yang smiled, "Because it looks good, why?"

"You must know the meaning of the rainbow." Lin Xu stared at the two girls in front of them who secretly took pictures of them, "Aren't you worried about being exposed on the Internet, and someone criticizes you?"

Jiang Yang asked vaguely: "What are you criticizing?"

"Calling you..." Lin Xu's voice was so soft that it disappeared with the wind, "Homosexuality."

If the previous live broadcast was an accident and everyone has no substantive evidence, it can be interpreted as a friendship.

But now, they're wearing misleading black-and-white T-shirts with LGTB rainbows painted on their faces, playing playgrounds together.

Although their relationship has not made substantial progress, they are just simple friends, but in the eyes of outsiders, all this is definitely ambiguous. At least what is certain is that Jiang Yang, a well-known newcomer in the dubbing circle, is gay.

Jiang Yang was helpless, "Why do you always care about this matter? Obviously you are too."

"Because I am, so I know how scary the rumors are." Lin Xu walked slowly and spoke softly. The sun shone on the ground generously. He was still transparent and lustrous like a piece of jade. , without sweating, "Homosexuality is not accepted by the public. If you make such a big fanfare and don't hide or hide it, you will be caught. It's okay if you don't make a mistake. Once you make a mistake, you will be nailed to the pillar of shame. Sexual orientation It would also be a mistake."

Jiang Yang didn't think so, took a deep breath, "Senior, you are worrying for nothing."

Lin Xu said calmly: "You have a place in the dubbing circle, so you will definitely bear this."

As long as it appears in the eyes of the public, it is a process of being constantly compared, questioned, and abused.

No matter how well you do it, it will always fail to meet your expectations; no matter how perfect the work is, you will still be accused of not being good enough.

Lin Xu has personally experienced being accused of sexual orientation, so he knows that once he confesses, he will become a target. Before the accident, it will be a small mark. If there is any disturbance in the future, it will be a murder. sword.

"It's true that the general public has not accepted these things, but groups like ours always exist." Jiang Yang walked into the shade of a tree, and the wind picked up, and he was cool without being exposed to the sun, "Whether I have exposed my sexuality or not Orientation, there will be a lot of attacks and doubts on the Internet. This is just an excuse for them. Senior, I have never been afraid of spittle and rumors, otherwise I would not have confessed to my parents. I can bear the beatings of my relatives. Curse, do you think I care about the words of those strangers?"

Lin Xu stared wide-eyed, and looked at Jiang Yang in surprise, "Did your parents beat you?"

"It's normal." Jiang Yang laughed, "After all, people of their generation are conservative in thinking. Compared with the deliberate abuse of netizens, they really can't accept it."

Lin Xu's gaze depicts Jiang Yang's handsome facial features and outline. He is obviously older than him, but he is not as transparent as Jiang Yang in this aspect.

"Senior," Jiang Yang asked, "Will you be afraid if you walk with me with the rainbow on your face?"

Lin Xu looked at the crowd around him and shook his head.

"So, you are not even afraid of other people's strange eyes, so why bother with the opinions of those people you don't know online?" Jiang Yang ate the last bit of cream on the popsicle and licked his cold lips, "Network cable One pinch, one turn off the phone, the world is quiet."

Lin Xu laughed, it was really that simple.

In the virtual world, as long as you disconnect the Internet, it is equivalent to sealing your heart and love, and you will not be affected by any words, just like wearing armor, so that the sharp sword has nowhere to pierce.

This principle is not difficult, and later Lin Xu realized it himself, but he didn't understand it five years ago, and even if he understood it, he was still stuck in the quagmire and couldn't get out.

He appreciates Jiang Yang's magnanimity and chicness, this is the unruly and conceited 20-year-old should have - he is the center of the world, and he doesn't bother and doesn't want to listen to the evaluation of the outside world.

Whether you are conceited or arrogant, this is the way to live for yourself.

"Okay, don't talk about this." Jiang Yang threw away the small wooden stick, and pulled Lin Xu towards the direction of the roller coaster, "We are here to play, why are we standing here discussing these things? Hurry up! Hurry up! You have to line up!"

Lin Xu was pulled into the sunlight by Jiang Yang, the rainbows on their faces were bright and colorful.

His smile spread to the corners of his eyes and eyebrows, facing the wind and sunshine.

——Actually, there is no need to worry too much, as long as you are close enough to the light, you will find that the rainbow must be close at hand and within reach.