Horse riding in the snow

02

The fate between people is sometimes like a rope, the two sides lead the two ends, even if one party lets go, the other party can find it along the rope.

From the bottom of his heart, Luo Shengchao hoped that everything about Dai Xu would stop at memories, but after all, he was just an ordinary white-collar worker, and he was soft-spoken. How could he stop his wealthy ex who insisted on coming?

Objectively speaking, Dai Xu was quite considerate of him - that person didn't block his door to give him an early wake-up suprise, nor did the hapless boss who forced him to invest with Dai's family sign some unbeatable arms agreement , just waited quietly in the coffee bar in the lobby of the company's office building, facing the direction of the elevator, and didn't even send him a message in advance... That's right, having witnessed Dai Xu's betrayal two years ago, he had already put Dai Xu's contact information was completely deleted.But it was not difficult for Mr. Dai to find a social account, but Dai Xu didn't do that. He seemed to be stuck in a marginal area where he didn't want to disturb Luo Shengchao, but hoped that Luo Shengchao could see him. The tall figure was nestled on the sofa. , darkly wilting.

Although he hadn't seen him for three years, Luo Shengchao recognized Dai Xu just by his outline. He stood there silent for a while, and finally found an excuse to shirk the lunch invitation from his colleagues around him, and walked towards Dai Xu step by step. go.

Dai Xu raised his head almost when the toe of Luo Shengchao's shoe approached his eyes. His reaction seemed a little slow, and it took a few seconds for those beautiful pupils to focus and gradually shine again.

"Sheng Chao...?" He saw the person in front of him clearly, the corners of his mouth twitched, and finally he smiled, "You're here."

Luo Shengchao watched him prop up the armrest of the sofa and stood up. The distance between the two of them was so close, and the photos he saw in the tabloids last night were too blurry. Only then did he see how much Dai Xu had changed in the past few years. how big.

Dai Xu was too thin. The black shirt he wore inside was not fully buttoned. When he got up, Luo Shengchao could even see his bony collarbone and even a little sternum from the loose collar. The size of the shirt was not suitable. During the activities, the shoulder line even moved a little forward, and no matter how high-end clothes were covered on his body, it seemed that he couldn't hide his embarrassment.But this poor nutrition did not stop the young man from twitching. His Dai Xu was as tall as Luo Shengchao, and three years later, Dai Xu is now a little taller than Luo Shengchao.

Luo Shengchao didn't respond, he slowly clenched his fists, letting his nails pierce the soft flesh of his palm.

Dai Xu seemed to have become a little stupid, but he was still sharp when facing Luo Shengchao. He noticed the stiff expression on Luo Shengchao's face, and took a step back slightly, rubbing his fingers against the edge of the windbreaker, and then said in a deep voice : "I just... want to come over to see if you are doing well."

Looking at his affectionate, almost humble appearance, Luo Shengchao sneered, trying to restrain the pain in his heart, and there was no lack of self-mockery in his tone: "Am I doing well? Of course I am doing well, and no one will ask me to chase after you." Month, we have been together for more than a year, and finally gave me a green light and dumped me without shame." He still remembered that he was in the company lobby, taking a deep breath and barely maintaining his appearance, "Young Master Dai, you What do you want to do now? What happened back then is not your problem alone. To that extent, there must be reasons for my lack of attractiveness, so I hope that the intersection between us will stop here."

After a long speech, Luo Shengchao himself felt a little embarrassed, but the young man in front of him seemed to have only heard the phrase "living well", and replied after a while, "That's good."

Those three simple words didn't have the slightest hint of anger or perfunctory, and the aura around him even became soft and warm with these three words.Seeing his relieved appearance, Luo Shengchao felt inexplicably blocked, his eyes were fixed on his slightly pale face, and suddenly he didn't quite understand what was the point of them torturing each other face to face——

"I've had a good life without you" is of course false, and the seemingly let go of "that's good" also seems false, but Luo Shengchao is familiar with every expression on his face and knows that those two eyes The smile in Li is real, but this truth makes people even more annoying.

The knuckles of his fists crackled.

"Dai Xu." Luo Shengchao laughed suddenly, his voice was very low, but the pain in it was fully revealed, "You blocked the door of my company just to hear me say 'have a good time'? Why, hurt Others, if you see that the consequences are not serious, you can turn the page, and you don’t have to feel guilty, and you have a good plan.”

His eyes are scarlet, and the love affair three years ago was so vigorous that it can be said to have carried his entire youth: "But what can I say other than 'living well'? Say that I dare not fall in love again after you leave, I don’t dare to show kindness to other people casually, I miss you every day and night, and I still can’t be calm when I think of you now?”

No one can have no complaints about the white moonlight that has been gained and lost again, let alone a piece of moonlight that has become rice grains.

Luo Shengchao's chest fluctuated violently with his emotions. All the grievances and reluctance of the past three years were accumulated in his heart. He opened and closed his lips several times. He wanted to continue to say a few words but was stopped by the muffled cough of the person in front of him. broken.

A few casual eaters around turned their heads and looked over. Luo Shengchao thought that Dai Xu was a well-known public figure in the business district, so before he had time to think about it, he turned sideways to block the view for others.

Dai Xu's coughing and panting came suddenly, and his whole body seemed to be hit hard by someone, and his chest quickly hunched up. His legs seemed to be a little weak, and when his upper body leaned forward, he began to tremble and slide uncontrollably. Luo Shengchao hadn't reacted yet. , the body has subconsciously rushed forward and hugged Dai Xu in his arms. Only after this hug did he feel how thin the man who was still wearing a heavy windbreaker in mid-spring was.

He helped Dai Xu back to the sofa with a gentleness that he didn't realize.Seeing that Dai Xu's originally pale face was turning red at the moment, and his lips turned the familiar purple color, he couldn't help frowning.

Why does it feel like his body is worse than before?

"Where's the medicine? Dai Xu, let me ask you where you put the medicine?"

Dai Xu didn't answer him, and tried his best to hold his mouth and nose tightly and coughed stuffily. He coughed and couldn't help retching a few times, but as if he was afraid that Luo Shengchao would dislike him, his muscles were so painful that his whole body became numb. Stiff and trembling but still refused to let go of the hand covering his mouth.Luo Shengchao was in a hurry, he groped around his body unceremoniously with one hand, and pulled his hand from his mouth with the other forcefully.

Of course Dai Xu didn't spit out anything, his palm was clean, he just subconsciously covered it up, his half-closed eyes were empty and lifeless.The moment his hand was pulled off by Luo Shengchao, his mouth and nose came into contact with the fresh air, and he let out a scalp-numbing inhalation sound, his whole body trembled again, and he relaxed as if he had lost all strength. His hands trembled even more.

Luo Shengchao hurriedly helped him stretch his body, knelt down and skillfully raised his hands to massage his chest, but he didn't expect that the moment he touched Dai Xu's skin, the man let out a painful muffled sound.

Luo Shengchao was taken aback, and immediately forgot the romantic pain between the two of them, and quickly asked him, "What's wrong with you? Where does it hurt?"

Dai Xu couldn't describe exactly where the pain was. He only felt pain in every inch of his body, blood and muscles. This kind of pain usually lasted for a while and would pass. As long as he was not touched by others, it would not intensify.He wanted to comfort Luo Shengchao who was squatting beside him, but when he opened his mouth, he felt as if he had lost his ability to speak. After thinking hard for a long time, he whispered "I'm sorry" while panting.

An apology, just like when Luo Shengchao saw him fall ill for the first time.

Fortunately, this time Dai Xu's heart just had a simple palpitation, even if he didn't take the medicine, he gradually calmed down after a while. Luo Shengchao didn't realize that he was holding on to him unconsciously until he saw the purple color on his lips fade. She hugged him, and hastily shook off that bony hand.

He moved his eyes away, just in time to see the hair on the back of Dai Xu's neck slipped to his shoulders during the struggle just now.It was a very long strand of hair, and Luo Shengchao estimated that it would be long enough to cover his back, but Dai Xu pressed all of it under his clothes, as if he didn't want people to see it.

This is so weird.Although Dai Xu is good-looking, he has always disliked neutral elements.He was born into a wealthy family and received a lot of etiquette training and nurturing since he was a child. But it may be because the Dai family has been in the arms business. He yearns for and loves the original fierceness and roughness of men.In the two years we were together, Dai Xu always wore cool and calm clothes under his school uniform jacket. When they went to the amusement park, Luo Shengchao even saw him shooting a gun.

Dai Xu's marksmanship is very good, and although he is thin, his body and bones are in good shape. When the toy rifle is placed on his broad shoulders, he looks not to mention how majestic and heroic.

Why...you have long hair now?

Dai Xu didn't give him more time to think sideways. He was never good at troubling others. He just pulled Luo Shengchao's arm first after struggling from the chaotic and confused thoughts and unbearable pain. I don't want him to squat and kneel like that for a second.His movements were light and without much strength, but Luo Shengchao couldn't help but stood up following his movements, and just looked down at Dai Xu, watching him wipe the cold sweat off his forehead with his hands.

Dai Xu seemed to have regained his normal ability to communicate with people, his pupils rolled slowly, and finally understood all the hatred and concerns contained in Luo Shengchao's long string of words just now.

"I'm not... looking for comfort." He said each word with difficulty and hoarsely, "I really hope you are well. If you feel better, I can..."

As he spoke, he raised his head and looked at Luo Shengchao, who was behind the yellow light of the coffee bar. The arcs at the end of his eyes made his eyes soft and shiny as if filled with water.Luo Shengchao's wrist felt the clamminess of his palm, but his face felt the warmth of his eyes, which were no longer blazing, still carefully shaking the candlelight for him.

"There is a chance to get you back."

Before Dai Xu could finish his sentence, the expression on Luo Shengchao's face had returned to freezing in an instant. His brain was "booming" hot, and he suddenly raised his hand and shook off the weak palm on his wrist.

"You're dreaming." Luo Shengchao took two steps back like a frightened bird, away from the reach of Dai Xu's raised hand.At this moment, he finally found an excuse for Dai Xu's current humbleness and cowardice. When all of Dai Xu's abnormalities turned into plots, those worries and anxieties would no longer bother him.

"It's impossible for the two of us. You made your choice three years ago." Luo Shengchao said in a deep voice, even reassuringly adding some pleasure of revenge in his tone, "Dai Xu, you were also an adult at that time, you should take care of yourself Act responsibly. Stop being willful."

Stop being willful.It was only when Luo Shengchao said it that he felt that this sentence was not accurate enough. After all, Dai Xu had never been willful.Dai Xu was calm and gentle back in high school, but now he is even quieter. How could he say the word "Zai"?

But the words have been spoken, as if something has already happened, which cannot be erased.

Dai Xu didn't seem to be too surprised by this result. Sitting on the soft sofa, he seemed to have fallen into a quagmire, his eyelashes slowly drooping down, like dark clouds covering the few sparse stars like water.He didn't speak, just stared at his hand that touched Luo Shengchao's wrist in a daze.

The two of them stood and sat for a while without talking, and Luo Shengchao gradually felt a little tired and tired of this process of coming and going.Today's Dai Xu is too silent. The young man who was still in school and begged him for mercy is now like a gray mushroom that can't speak. He can't hear his heartfelt voice, let alone understand Dai Xu's betrayal. After that, I still think about the behavior of turning back.

In fact, Luo Shengchao was vaguely looking forward to what Dai Xu would say - such a gray, thin, long-haired Dai Xu was too strange, but until his patience ran out, Dai Xu just stared at him blankly His hands were in a daze, and he didn't say another word.

Luo Shengchao sighed silently, finally getting tired of it.

"Don't come to me again." He made the final sentence.