Horse riding in the snow

18

Said it was the last side, it was the last side.

Not two days after Luo Shengchao returned home with Dai Xu in his arms, Guan Chi brought the news of Dai Jianwen's death.Luo Shengchao was startled when he heard the news, and hurried to check Dai Xu's face beside him, but Dai Xu just lowered his eyelashes, his eyes were a little empty, and there was no expression on his pale face.He sat down next to Dai Xu, touched his lover's hand tightly, felt that the other's hand did not suddenly become cold or trembling, and saw that Dai Xu's lips were not abnormal, so he relied on experience Take it easy.

Even Guan Chi, who is usually warm and eloquent, is inevitably at a loss in this situation of life and death.Mr. Dai was a very complicated existence for him. If Mr. Dai hadn't funded him back then, he would not have been able to complete his studies, let alone become a doctor with good qualifications. However, he had also witnessed Mr. Dai as a father. Thousands of mistakes have been made.

It's just that no matter how much he has witnessed, he is far less qualified than Dai Xu to speak out about Dai Jianwen's departure. After all, Dai Xu is Dai Jianwen's closest relative in the world, but he is also that person's most distant "enemy".

Dai Xu remained silent for a long time, and finally opened his mouth when Luo Shengchao couldn't help but want to ask.His voice was a little hoarse, and his tone was full of confusion: "Father... has he passed away?"

Luo Shengchao didn't know how to answer, so he said "um", and could not utter the remaining half sentence "don't be too sad".

Dai Xu really didn't seem too sad, his eyes were red after being silent for so long, and his reaction ability, which had become dull due to long-term depression and fear, helped him, making his first reaction when he was hit was to be stunned. , It wasn't until the buffer time was long enough that I really understood what my father's death meant.

Their last meeting was too hasty, and his father didn't even look at him, and he didn't even say a few words to him—there was really nothing to talk about between them. Here, it seems that there is really no need for any sense of ritual.

But he is his father after all, and Dai Xu's last and only blood relative in the world. Dai Xu has received very little warmth in the past 20 years, and in the beginning, Dai Jianwen was also a member of these fireflies.

Dai Xu looked at Luo Shengchao, his eyes were a little radiant, his mood was too chaotic to express it, but fortunately Luo Shengchao was smart enough to put all his thoughts on him, and he could understand it with just one look. Dai Xu's meaning.

"Xuxu, do you want to see him off?"

Dai Xu was silent, then raised his head to Guan Chidao: "Brother Guan Chi, I will choose a piece of... land for him, please talk to the nursing home when the time comes, and then he will be buried there."

The news of Dai Jianwen's death quickly spread throughout the business circle in just a few days. The huge change in Dai's shareholding distribution caused the stock price to fluctuate somewhat. Dai Xu didn't have much time to deal with heavy emotional entanglements, and quickly devoted himself to work.Luo Shengchao couldn't help with matters related to finance and business management. He could only do a good job as a "good wife" every day, so that Dai Xu's body could last for such a long time.

Serious men are the most handsome. Luo Shengchao quietly took a few photos while Dai Xu was concentrating on his official duties. Almost all of them were profiles. The beautiful moles on the corners of the young man's eyes were faintly visible under the faint backlight.Holding the phone in his hand, he couldn't help kissing the screen of the phone like an idiot. When he realized his actions, he was extremely embarrassed, but he was a little moved——

His boyfriend was still as amazing as when he first met, and he walked into his heart immediately.

Dai Xu didn't know anything about what he had done, and after slowly realizing the gaze that had been on him for a long time, he just turned his head and slowly smiled at Luo Shengchao.He was too busy these two days, or maybe he was too leisurely these days to recover from his illness, and his efficiency was not high, so it took two days to choose a place for his father.

Dai Jianwen was finally buried in a cemetery at the foot of the mountain in the west of the city. I heard that when the location of the cemetery was selected, a Feng Shui master was specially invited to see it. Some decent characters.He walked in this world in a grand manner, and left in a grand manner. As for those cruel things that were not known to the public, they were also buried in the loess along with Dai Xu's silence.

Dai Xu also came to the scene of Dai Jianwen's funeral. It was raining lightly and the sky was very dark. Luo Shengchao was worried that the moisture would erode Dai Xu's already fragile and thin body, so he wrapped him tightly in the spring scenery, and added two clothes to his black suit. Three layers of clothing.Dai Xu hired a professional to preside over the funeral. He stood in a corner and watched the whole process silently. His face was so hot that it turned a rare and healthy blush, like a newborn.

Dai Xu came to Dai Jianwen's tomb when all the people who came to see Mr. Dai off had all dispersed and the intermittent rain finally ended.

The face of the man on the tombstone stayed at the most youthful and youthful moment, with a wide smile and bright eyes, and Dai Xu's impression of him also stayed here.

Dai Xu lowered his body and presented a bunch of baby's breath stars to his father.

Luo Shengchao stood half a step behind him, and his tone couldn't hide his worry: "Xuxu... are you okay?"

He still can't let go of his anxiety, even though his lover has been very calm these few days, and Dai Xu's calm and gentle "I'm fine" in response showed a shot in the arm, and he finally breathed a sigh of relief.

He stood quietly and solemnly with Dai Xu for a while, and then said: "I thought your emotions would fluctuate a lot... After all, if venting your emotions can make you feel better, Xu Xu, I am willing to accompany you." your."

Dai Xu tilted his head slightly, his thoughtful look softened his cold facial features, making him look a little cute.

"Venting out...it will be uncomfortable, and it will cause trouble for you, Sheng Chao." He still remembered the attack just a few days ago, and the physical pain stabbed hard at the superficial part of his memory, "and ……He is dead."

After all, Dai Jianwen is dead, and he drew the period, so it seems unnecessary to stir up too many emotions for this person.

This can't be regarded as forgiveness, but since then, he doesn't have to remember many things.

Slowly forgetting, slowly letting go, slowly pushing the unworthy people out of the next stage of life... For ordinary people, this is already rare luck.

The days after that became dull. Dai Xu, who had been in a daze to actively rely on Luo Shengchao because of seeing Dai Jianwen a few days ago, seemed to be a flash in the pan, but it was a good phenomenon after all.After that, Xie Zihui increased the frequency of coming to the apartment to communicate with Dai Xu, and every time he came, he would bring Guan Chi with him for the reason of checking his body.The relationship between Guan Chi and Xie Zihui seems to be different from when Luo Shengchao first met them. Now Guan Chi hardly interacts with Xie Zihui, and rarely answers for Xie Zihui, but for Dai Xu However, he still said a few more words along the way.

"Sheng Chao, if you have no intention of leaving him, then don't worry too much. It took him 20 years for this situation to erupt. Thinking about it this way, even if it takes another 20 years to recover, it's not too much, right? What’s more, although Young Master Dai still keeps a little distance from you most of the time, as you said last time he asked for a hug... I think it’s probably because his subconscious mind has accepted you, which is a great thing .”

Xie Zihui added from the side: "Dai is always competing with himself, and he probably still can't allow himself to rely on you so much."

Although Luo Shengchao never said that he thought that person's fragile body was a burden, Dai Xu had already distorted the concept under the influence of Dai Jianwen, and the seeds of self-loathing planted by peeing have grown into towering trees so far.He knew that Dai Xu had worked hard enough, no matter whether the starting point was to make him happy or to really think about himself, Dai Xu would try to perform better every day than the day before.

The feedback Luo Shengchao gave was also very positive. On the day Dai Xu swallowed a small bowl of vegetable porridge smoothly for the first time, Luo Shengchao happily hugged him and kissed him on the neck at least a dozen times. The eyes of many people are blurred and they don't let go.After that lunch, he even hummed while washing the dishes. His joy was beyond words, and Dai Xu, who was sitting far away on the sofa for infusion, couldn't help laughing.

Dai Xu didn't ask for much, and his self-denial for a long time was not only because of the disgust expressed by others, but also because he often couldn't bring any good things to those he cared about.His body is naturally sick and weak, and he is a burden. His identity put him on the shelf, which brought a lot of pressure and troubles to Luo Shengchao. Later, when they reunited, he always made people around him frown... But at this moment, Luo Shengchao Because he smiled from the bottom of his heart, he was genuinely happy because of him. This is the purest and most direct recognition and affirmation. Dai Xu also found the meaning of his existence in this kind of positive communication. .

Although such thoughts are not very correct and positive, they are a good start.

Luo Shengchao has been employed for less than ten years, and his annual leave is only five days. In addition, he took too much leave during the days when Dai Xu was hospitalized after surgery. He spent the last time with Dai Xu again. Over the weekend, he sent a message to Guan Chi to explain the situation, and finally resumed his daily work in the new week.

On Monday morning, he went out early, and returned to his long-lost home before the morning rush hour.Dai Xu was still in the hospital when he came back last time, he just cleaned Dai Xu's blood in the living room and took a nap overnight before leaving, and never came back again; In the love nest that was built and full of memories, I have to pack my luggage when I come back this time.

Luo Shengchao quickly packed the documents and other items, stood silently in the living room for a moment, went into the room and opened the drawer.He carefully wrapped up the ceramic shards he put in the cabinet with paper towels, found a bag and put it in it, and then left the house he had rented for three years with the bag.

He wasn't going to let Dai Xu see these fragments—at least not yet.Dai Xu's mental state is still a bit erratic until now, Luo Shengchao dare not relax his vigilance all the time, and he doesn't want Dai Xu to feel sad when he sees these wreckages...

But he can't forget.He can't forget, this is the evidence that he has hurt his lover severely, he can't forget.

Luo Shengchao put away the pieces of the porcelain doll, saved his lunch break by eating bread for several days, and put the pieces back together as much as possible to their original appearance.The porcelain doll in his hand has changed from the white, fat, beautiful, naive appearance in the past to a horrible appearance full of cracks, and even one or two hollows appear from time to time because of missing porcelain pieces, but Luo Shengchao is unwilling to let go.He stroked the porcelain doll's face with his fingers cut by the edge of the broken porcelain, thankful that at least the corner of its upturned mouth was preserved.

He finally restored the doll to its vague former appearance with his own ability, and this quiet and lovely face finally brought back more memories of details in him.

In memory, the appearance of this porcelain doll itself is gradually becoming clear.

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You can't see you when you turn around the mountain circuit, and stay in the horse riding place above the snow.Luo Shengchao recalled Dai Xu, the relatively healthy Dai Xu left warm and sweet traces in the world.

Dai Xu said thank you for your support and waiting all the time, thank you for being tolerant and loving yourself.

The author said that I will never write xp so detailed next time that I will write a 7w character circle story. At first, I just wrote the plot of falling dolls and Dai Xu waking up because of a dream, but because of obsessive-compulsive disorder, I went to "pay off debts" every day day.

Leave the extra episode for Guan Chi and Xie Zihui, see you in the next story!