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The next day, Bai Zhiwang sat at the narrow dining table and confessed to Qin Zhou: "I want to resign."

Qin Zhou was standing, and he could clearly see the fine lines of the opponent's eyes from the angle of looking down.He used to love Bai Zhiwang's stubbornness in his love of career. Even if there was a deviation in the course, he believed that it was tuition fees. Who would have thought that it would be the end.

"Resign?? Because of me?" Qin Zhou's brain was buzzing, he couldn't think of any other reason, "I said it, the studio really doesn't need your intervention."

"Then who can intervene?" Bai Zhiwang was really stunned, "Brother Di, Xuan Rui, or that barrister?"

Qin Zhou frowned, "What does it have to do with them?"

Both of them were not calm, Bai Zhiwang didn't want to lose his composure, took a deep breath, and continued to chat as peacefully as possible.

"It's okay...it's okay." Bai Zhiwang said in a low voice, "It has nothing to do with my resignation."

Qin Zhou said, "You have to give me a reason."

Bai Zhiwang didn't know where to start.

Want to meet the Qin family's expectations?Probably this is part of the factor. He is as eager to prove himself as Qin Zhou, but he is not good at arranging other parents.

Want to make Qin Zhou's life better?This is inevitable. Qin Zhou used to like to play with those artists. He had all kinds of equipment and his favorite hobby was photography and painting. But since Guo Min fell ill, Qin Zhou didn't dare to play anything.It's true that Bai Zhiwang feels guilty, but he can't tell the other party like this, otherwise Qin Zhou's stubborn temper will definitely explode.

Are you unwilling?Huge knowledge input and value output are always far from a better life.This is someone who can confess to Qin Zhou.

Bai Zhiwang said word by word: "You know, the last time my mother came to see me, she lived in a youth hostel dormitory that cost 90 yuan per night. She didn't want to be hospitalized, but she wanted to go back to her hometown. She just wanted to save the money for the two of us. .”

He raised his head, his eyes were wet, and every word he said was like stabbing a knife in Qin Zhou's heart: "I have been studying for more than 30 years, admitted to the top schools in China, and worked day and night for ten years." He Speaking of this, he has already started to tremble, his voice gradually weakened, like a helpless little animal, "In the end, I ended up living such a failure, and I don't even have the confidence to let my family spend their old age peacefully."

For the first time, Bai Zhiwang showed his dejected image in front of Qin Zhou, showing self-blame, inferiority and unwillingness.

Qin Zhou held his hand and tried to persuade him: "You have handled [-] restoration projects in the Academy of Sciences, and even some well-known museums have sent you thank you letters... Do you call this a failure? If you really Resigned, how difficult is it for the scientific research institute to train another person with your experience?"

Qin Zhou is an idealist through and through. At this time, he is still regretting the loss of talents for the academic circle.

Bai Zhiwang helplessly shook his head.What he loved at the beginning was Qin Zhou's purity, why did he quarrel because of this today?

"Small boat," he suddenly raised his hand, "do you know where we live?"

Qin Zhou followed Bai Zhiwang's fingers and looked out. The skyscrapers were glowing with red and green lights, and a bridge spanned the river.The bridge was bustling with people coming and going, and countless people shuttled through this steel jungle.

Bai Zhiwang said: "Some things you have since you were born, and you may not understand how difficult it is for ordinary foreigners to settle here. Everyone works hard like duckweed, and it may take ten years of social security to collect points. Many people I can’t buy a house for half my life.”

Qin Zhou shook his head, "I know it's difficult, but the career we love can't afford what you said. Now you have a house and a car, and my mother's illness has long since stabilized, and our salary and bonus are completely enough Hua... the most important thing is, there are so many great ideas waiting for you to realize, do you really want to bow your head so quickly?"

Bai Zhiwang was helpless: "Small boat, there are not only two options in the world: being rich and making ends meet. If you refuse to bow your head, and you won't let me bow your head, then do you want money to fall from the sky and hit us?"

Qin Zhou was a little anxious: "Money, it's money again. Bai Zhiwang, do you really want to spend your whole life doing things you don't like, just thinking about making money?"

Qin Zhou spent a lot of money even when he couldn't eat enough. He has been to the most remote mountains and seen the deep blue sea. He has seen all kinds of life.No matter how much Bai Zhiwang catches up, he is still far behind. It is really difficult to explain his ambition to cross the class as an ordinary person, which may be embarrassing to the other party.

"'I only want to make money'..." Bai Zhiwang shrugged in self-deprecating manner, with two tears in his smile, "You said these words so embarrassingly."

Qin Zhou also realized that his tone was not good, and muttered, "I just don't think you were like this before."

"Tell me, what was I like before?" Bai Zhiwang still speaks slowly even if he is excited, this is a habit brought about by being a head of the family and working in the workplace since he was a child.

"Ten years ago, you said that you wanted to make the most cutting-edge technology and repair the most difficult antiques." Qin Zhou felt sad when he thought of these, and he cried a little bit because of grievances, "You have to take the babies out of the cave safely, Then let the whole world see the scenery completely..."

Every word of youthful obsession is like putting a hook in the heart, and the meat is still there when it is pulled out.Bai Zhiwang was full of bitterness and said: "But have you ever thought about it, if this is the case, why I didn't directly study for a Ph. D., but accepted an offer from a scientific research institute?" He paused, "It was because we had a hard time at that time, The large resettlement subsidy given by the hospital is just for emergency."

Qin Zhou was stunned. He never thought that Bai Zhiwang gave up further studies for his own sake.

Bai Zhiwang shrugged mockingly, "Now you know, whether I enter or change careers, I am so vain and powerful from the beginning to the end. Maybe I was never the kind of person you want, after all, I really don't have You are as noble as Digo."

Although it was self-deprecating, Qin Zhou felt the connotation no matter how he heard it.He realized that the two of them really didn't seem to be on the same channel.

Anyone can accuse him of "why not eat minced meat", but why Bai Zhiwang?Obviously only this person knows what he gave up.He is so firm just because he likes him, and he will never turn back if he likes Bai Zhiwang.Art exhibitions and new houses are not necessities, so he doesn't want to exchange anyone's dreams.

Now their state is very similar to that of the Qin family. The couple sacrificed their marriage and freedom. It seems that Qin Zhou became outstanding because of their sacrifice.Qin Zhou has no other choice but to accept first and then be grateful. After all, one cannot stand and stand at the same time.

Qin Zhou looked into his lover's dejected eyes, and thought of Bai Zhiwang who was elated when he joined the job.

"Do you still remember what you told me in Dunhuang?" Qin Zhou's eyes were red, "You said that people will compromise on many things in this life, such as status, family affection, and savings, but you don't want to do that."

"Yeah, I don't want to. Who doesn't want to proudly guard the people and things they like for the rest of their lives?" Bai Zhiwang smiled wryly, "I can bow my head just to love you."

Qin Zhou was stepped on by this sentence, "Don't! Don't do anything for me, I can't bear such a big love, really. You have your dreams, I don't want to become someone's burden in the end... "

Bai Zhiwang still can't understand Qin Zhou's strong sense of boundaries, how can a completely independent couple exist: "But you will obviously compromise for me, even if you don't even want your original social circle, then am I also your burden? I I just want you to be as relaxed as before, is this wrong? Yes, for this, we will pull, grind and even quarrel, but isn't this love?"

"This is not love, Bai Zhiwang. What kind of love have you seen that makes people not see each other for half a month?" Qin Zhou clenched his fists tightly, his palms were pinched out, and his voice was shaking so badly that he could hardly even see each other. Not a complete sentence, "Are you 'loving' me or are you using it as a shield?"

When the emotions are at that point, the words go out without passing through the brain, and it is too late to react.

Several bubbles shattered, frightening the little fish to run around.

The two confronted each other for a long time, Bai Zhiwang pinched his temple in disappointment, picked up a thin coat with one hand and walked out.

Qin Zhou called him to stop.

Bai Zhiwang didn't speak, and closed the door without looking back.

Qin Zhouhong looked around in the bedroom, how could he say such hurtful words?Why did Bai Zhiwang not love him... How could Bai Zhiwang not love him?

Qin Zhou was angry that he didn't have a clue, and also angry that Bai Zhiwang threw himself here, and couldn't help smashing many vases.Porcelain pieces were falling all over the floor, jingling bells were ringing, and no one was laughing at anyone.

Arguing is pointless, and adults know this, but controlling emotions requires a lot of self-control and time, and not everyone can do it perfectly.

Waiting until evening, Bai Zhiwang didn't come home.

There was no one to cook, and Qin Zhou didn't want to be subdued, so he had to gamble and starve.When he was hungry, he was prone to pain, which would burn the upper part of his abdomen, making him even more irritable.

The thesis couldn't be read, and the documentary was too noisy. In Qin Zhou's eyes, every word was distorted into Bai Zhiwang, which made it very popular no matter how you looked at it.

In the end, Qin Zhou's brain became hot, and he put on his shoes and went downstairs.

It was still quite cold to go out. Qin Zhou was only wearing home clothes, hugged himself tightly, and scolded as he walked: "Are you going? It's like who doesn't have long legs and won't run away from home. If we have the ability, we will spend so much time tonight." !"

He clutched his needle-like stomach, hunched over and walked out of the community. The security guard almost tried to stop him, but he stared back.

The journey was not long, but I felt unhappy, and it took extra time to walk.

While trembling, Qin Zhou suddenly felt his shoulders sink.He lowered his head and found that he was wearing an extra coat, which was a familiar color, the one that Bai Zhiwang took before he left.Someone put a warm hand on his stomach, and the body temperature relieved the discomfort very much.

"Not leaving," Bai Zhiwang's voice sounded from behind, tired and gentle, "I just went to buy you flowers."

Qin Zhou turned around and saw Bai Zhiwang with red nose and eyes, holding a bouquet of roses in his hand.

The flower package reads: [Good night, boat. ]