Deadly rivals deserve a pair

The old man can still sit up and talk, but the doctor said that his life is only a few days away. This time, some relatives who usually don’t move around are also notified, not only to visit the doctor, but also to prepare for the old man. up.

Listening to the old man's condition, Shen Yu looked down at the old man's hand full of signs of aging, and thought: it's warm.

It's still warm.

After listening silently, his eyes were red, and the old man sighed: "You... you will be fine in the future."

There are so many relatives coming, it is impossible for everyone to be crowded in the hospital all the time. In addition to the wife and son and daughter-in-law, the elderly do not want other people to accompany them at night. Those who do not have a house in the local area will arrange to go to the hotel, and those who have a home will naturally go back to their own home. On the way home, both Shen Yu and Shen Mo were extremely silent.

But when Shen Mo got out of the car and the two of them were alone, when Yan Jin talked to him, there seemed to be nothing wrong.

There was nothing wrong, but Yan Jin raised his vigilance.Some strings cannot be seen when they are stretched, whether it is an ordinary string or whether it is dangerously tense.

Everyone's life is going on. In the vast world, each person has his own story. At the same time, some people are living an ordinary life step by step, while others like Hu Wuguan and Li Changli are struggling, and some are anxiously waiting for a new life. When it comes, there are also old people who are dying quietly waiting for the time.

The sun and the moon change, everything changes alternately, vegetation withers and flourishes, and people come and go.

Three days later, the old man went.

Everyone went to see him off for the last time. Shen Yu and Yan Jin changed into black suits, kept watch for Grandpa at the funeral home, and saw the old man away after dawn.There were a lot of people coming, and from time to time there would be a few crying sounds from some corner, Shen Yu and Yan Jin accompanied Shen Mo, staying not far or near from grandma, although Mo Mo didn't speak, but kept moving with the old man The position, the line of sight is always on her.

Among Shen Yu's cousins ​​of the same generation, some of them already have their own children, some children are noisy, but some children are obedient and quiet, children are always very sensitive to the emotions of adults, the atmosphere is not right, some Some children panic or throw tantrums, while others stay quiet.

There is a cousin who knows how to be a consul, and he is very popular. He greets the relatives and friends who come here. He is also taking his own child. He has something to do now, so he has to leave the child. Of course, he must ask someone to help take care of the child. , he looked left and right, but he didn't find the most suitable person, so he had no choice but to walk in front of Shen Yu, and asked him if he could look at his child for a while.

"Just 10 minutes, just 10 minutes, I'll be right back."

It was a little boy around four or five years old, in the middle of the night, already too sleepy to open his eyes, Shen Yu nodded: "Okay."

The child didn't recognize his birth, so he obediently let Shen Yu hold his lap, and Yan Jin also moved his hands to move the child's feet. The child was obviously so sleepy that he could fall asleep immediately, so his reactions were very slow. He may not know who is holding him at this moment.

Just now my cousin called him Xiao Qi, Shen Yu patted him on the back: "Does Xiao Qi want to sleep?"

Adults can stay up, but growing children are more prone to sleepiness, and... they are too young, even if they can feel the tension, they may not know what is going on, and they don't have the cognition of "I have to stay up all night" and affection.

The child rubbed his eyes and shook his head. He opened his eyes vigorously, looked at Shen Yu, and found that his father was not there. He put his arm around Shen Yu's shoulder and whispered, "Big brother, I want to ask you a question." ...As soon as I asked my father, I was about to cry, I dare not ask him..."

According to seniority, he should call Shen Yu uncle, but Shen Yu didn't correct him, coaxing the child to ask: "Well, you ask."

Probably thought this good-looking big brother was easy to talk to, so the child said: "Father said Zuzu is gone... where did he go? Zuzu gave me the lucky money last year, and I saw him a few days ago. Xiao Qi I like him, where is he going, will he come back to see Xiao Qi?"

Shen Yu patted his hand for a while, and opened his mouth, the voice clearly reached his throat, but for some reason, he couldn't make a sound.At this moment, an arm stretched out and wrapped his shoulders, pulling him to his side.

Yan Jin put Shen Yu on his arms, and rubbed Xiao Qi's head with the other hand: "Zu Zu has gone to a far away place, he must like you too."

Xiao Qi nodded his head again, his eyelids were almost glued together, and his small mouth pouted out the previous question: "Then... come back and see Xiao Qi..."

Before she could finish speaking, Shen Yu glanced at him and said softly: "Fall asleep."

Yan Jin withdrew his hand: "Yes."

Xiao Qi's dumpling is solid, fleshy, Yan Jin also lowered his voice: "Is it heavy, why don't you give me a hug?"

Shen Yu shook his head: "Just for a while, it's okay."

Sure enough, the cousin only took about ten minutes. He came back quickly and carried away the sleeping Xiao Qi. The little guy slept well, and he didn't wake up after moving his arms. Shen Yu watched his cousin and his son walk away, feeling a little lost , Yan Jin leaned against his shoulders, looked at Shen Yu in a daze, and didn't make a sound.

At twilight, they sent the old man to the cemetery, where the old man died as soon as the dust covered him.

After sending off the elderly, we have to arrange for those who come to mourn. There are many things.Shen Yu is Shen's mother's son, not more than three generations old, and is a relative of the same family. Silence can't cope with a crowded place, and it's unbelievable to rely on the uncle and the two families to be busy, so Shen Yu took the place of Silence, and Yan Jin followed him , the two of them help together and fulfill a little responsibility for the younger generation.

It was not until early morning that they bid farewell to the relatives of the Shen family and drove home.From last night to tonight, it is reasonable to say that staying up for one or two nights is not a big deal, but Shen Yu was indescribably exhausted.

After silence, Yan Jin took Shen Yu home, halfway through the drive, Shen Yu said softly in the passenger seat: "Yan Jin, let's buy something to eat by the side of the road, I'm hungry."

He just saw a 24-hour small shop outside the car window, and just passing by, Yan Jin pulled over and said, "Okay, I'll buy something if I want to eat."

"Just buy some bread mats, I can't eat too much." Shen Yu unbuckled his seat belt, "I'll go with you."

The two entered the store and took food from the shelf. Yan Jin paused as Shen Yu glanced across the shelf, and then... took down a pack of hard fruit candies.

Yan Jin asked the shopkeeper, "Do you have any hot drinks?"

The shopkeeper said: "There are instant milk tea and coffee on the shelf, and I have hot water here, so I can help you make it."

Yan Jin asked him to make a cup of milk tea. It was really not suitable for Shen Yu to drink coffee at this time, the two returned to the car, Yan Jin was going to wait for Shen Yu to eat before driving.Shen Yu took a bite of the bread, and had a hard time swallowing the warm drink. It wasn't that it was bad, it was just that his throat was rejecting it.

He managed to swallow a mouthful, put the bread aside, tore open a piece of candy, and stuffed it into his mouth. He held the candy wrapper in his hand and watched, chewing the candy. The night was very quiet, and the car was also quiet. Only the sound of him chewing candy was heard.

After chewing one candy, Shen Yu said, "It's so sticky."

Yan Jin: "Yes."

Shen Yu lowered his head and squeezed the candy paper: "Yan Jin."

Yan Jin: "I'm here, do you want to talk?"

Shen Yu's expression was blank for a moment, as if he didn't know where to start, but he wanted to talk to Yan Jin, but the taste of sugar was still in his mouth, and he didn't know where he got the words, so he opened his mouth like this: "The memory before and after my mother's death is actually very messy. I can't remember it clearly when I think about it later. I... sorry, I didn't want to talk about this," Shen Yu found that his voice seemed to be out of control, and he couldn't help it. Trembling, he wanted to stop, but couldn't, "Obviously you have experienced it too..."

"It's okay." Yan Jin moved from the driver's seat and leaned closer to Shen Yu, "We never intentionally bring up the past, but it's not impossible to mention it, you can say it if you want, I'll listen to you."

"Chaotic... the memory is very messy, but when I think about it carefully, is it because I can't remember, or am I afraid to think about it?"

Shen Yu rubbed the candy wrapper in his hands, he no longer tried to control his voice, because it was useless, he really couldn't suppress it, and... in front of Yan Jin, he could do whatever he wanted.

"Grandpa, he hugged me. When my mother was still there, when my mother just left... Dad couldn't comfort others. I remembered that it was my grandfather who slept with me in his arms when my mother left..."

Yan Jin stretched out his hands to hold Shen Yu's face, Shen Yu's eyes were already red, Yan Jin said softly, "Well, is there anything else, say what you want to say."

"I……"

Shen Yu's voice shattered unknowingly, the old rusty place in the bottom of my heart, after a long absence a few days ago, finally cracked like a spider web, and the rusty armor began to fall off piece by piece. Again, it was smashed.

When Shen's mother was still there, Shen Mo was an ordinary father. Once Shen's mother left, he was entangled in pain, mental illness tortured his fragile nerves, and he didn't even know how to face his son. If Shen Mo didn't get sick, Shen Yu probably wouldn't. Get sick, but he's not doing well as a father.During those dark and chaotic days, it was grandpa who coaxed him to sleep for several nights.

He understood the meaning of death prematurely and the great pain caused by his mother's departure. Since then, he has become a monster in his own eyes, lost many treasures, and grew up numbly.

By the way, one time when my grandfather came to the house, he and his tutor were in class in the house, but no one was there, so they left gifts for him, including food and toys.

It's normal for a seven-year-old to play with toys, but there are no toys in his home, and no one thinks he can still use them.

A child who matures prematurely is nothing more than a forced loss of childhood.

Time has passed, and the child has become a real adult. In the dark night, the shadows of the trees spread their teeth and claws on a car, mottled and faded, and a strange cry came from inside the car, as if a person who had lost his voice for many years finally found his voice. It was hoarse and deafening, bewildered and heartbroken.

It turned out that at Shen's mother's funeral, a child also cried loudly, because he got a conclusion from the people around him: his mother would not come back again.

Yan Jin hugged Shen Yu, pressed him into his arms, and kissed his hair: "Cry, cry out, you don't have to bear it if you want to cry."

Shen Yu was out of breath: "I, I thought I wasn't so... I shouldn't be hurt, ah..."

"Shen Yu," Yan Jin said seriously, "You are better than you imagined."

Shen Yu was crying in confusion, Yan Jin hugged him and murmured: "My family, Shen Yu, is very intelligent and capable; Many good deeds, I don’t know how much charity has done, and helped many people.”

"It's just that he doesn't realize how good he is."

"No... I didn't, this..." Shen Yu's words were shattered by the crying sound, and they were out of order. If outsiders listened to it, they would not be able to hear what he said, but Yan Jin could hear what he wanted to say, and could know how he feels.

"You have, you are so good, no, it's better than this." Yan Jin hugged him, and sighed in his ear, "Shen Yu, Shen Yu..."

Listening to the strange voice in his own throat, Shen Yu followed Yan Jin's voice calling him, and suddenly felt that he was really just a person, not a monster, but a person named Shen Yu.

Hearing his voice gradually lowered, Yan Jin tightened his arms, put his arms around him and said, "Shen Yu is fine, I got such a baby as him, do you think I am lucky?"

作者有话要说：啊这两章写得我……百感交集。感谢在2021-01-1620:59:51~2021-01-1721:31:08期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles of Yanziji;

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