Fenghua Zhengmao

Chapter 20

This undefinable meal lasted for two hours, during which Lin Hua added more dishes three times, the waiter looked at him from surprise to indifference, and instead looked at Feng Lei with a touch of pity.

Coming out of the private room, the waiter at the lobby told Fenglei that the celebration was over and most of the guests had already driven away. He also told him that the old man and Qi Ji had left first, so he didn't have to worry.

When he heard these words, Fenglei subconsciously looked at Linhua, seeing him looking at him quietly, his heart sank, but he didn't say anything, just let people go down first.

This time, there were really only the two of them left in the entire VIP area.

"What's the next arrangement?" Feng Lei leaned against the wall. He hadn't smoked for two years and suddenly wanted to have one.

clatter--

With a cigarette in her mouth, Lin Hua tilted her head to light the lighter, and the next second a pleasant smell of tobacco permeated the air.

"Where do you live now?" Lin Hua casually asked while smoking a cigarette.

Feng Lei took a deep breath, "In the original apartment."

Lin Hua nodded, watching Feng Lei only smoked and didn't speak, until he extinguished the cigarette with the last puff, he continued, "Follow me to pack my luggage, I'll move there."

Feng Lei silently repeated what he said just now, the smell of smoke still lingered faintly, and these words lingered just like the cigarette.

--I'll be with you.

—I will move over.

The two sentences seemed to have the same meaning, but he was just not sure what the meaning was.

"Hurry up, there's still something to buy."

Lin Hua, who was about to walk to the elevator, said Shi Ran, Feng Lei stepped up to keep up, and raised his eyebrows when he saw the smoke alarm above his head.

Lin Hua still lives in the apartment opposite the school.

Feng Lei was waiting downstairs, looking at the opposite university gate from the car window.

Lin Hua's luggage was already loaded in the car, and at this moment, he was coming out of the school gate, holding the same kraft paper bag in his hand as when he was about to leave.

"Okay, let's go." Lin Hua opened the door and got into the car, Feng Lei couldn't help but look at him with the chill brought in by the action, just this one glance also made Lin Hua stop the action of fastening her seat belt.

"what happened?"

As soon as the words came out, Lin Hua had anticipated what he would say, so before he could say anything, she turned around and said coldly, "Drive."

Feng Lei opened his mouth and said nothing.

This road seems to be the beginning and end of everything for the two of them, and this car carries too many things between them. Every movement, every point of overlap with the past will trigger too many memories , and memories are often the scariest.

Fenglei drove the car quietly. On the motorway where there were not many vehicles, his speed could be called leisurely. Unexpectedly, Linhua didn't say anything about it, or he didn't care.

Does Fenglei love Linhua?

Of course love!

The indisputability of this would allow him to do many things, including living with him again without knowing what the situation was.

Two years is enough for him to understand what he wants, what he should do, how to face when he needs to make a choice, and the emotional precipitation after the impulse is gone, and the time and time again he wants to Determine what to do if what happens.

But with so much psychological construction, after all, it was no match for the shock that Linhua brought him in just four hours.

He thought a lot, thought that he still didn't forgive himself, thought that he had a new companion, thought that he hated himself and took revenge because of this, even thought that Lin Hua would never come back and appear again in this life, but Living a life in the United States or somewhere else that he will never be able to participate in again.

But he alone forgot, he will change.

Everyone changes, it's just that he forgot.

Lin Hua's changes made him feel at a loss and deeply disturbed.

If it was a revenge, Linhua was with him and then dumped him after kicking him hard one day, he felt that he should be the same as before and let him be fooled; if it meant forgiveness, Then those words clearly expressing no forgiveness are like warning lights, reminding myself not to daydream; but if this is what he does not forgive, who would be so unforgiving to himself?

It's like a riddle, the questioner expresses the riddle with a code that only he understands, and he, the riddle guesser, can't even understand the question.

Parking, storage.

Fenglei and Linhua got off the car and carried their luggage into the elevator room, and then they stood side by side in the elevator and went up to the apartment.

Open the door, the decoration inside is the same as before.

Feng Lei put down his things, and watched Lin Hua put down his things too. In an instant, he felt that the feeling of the room changed, the cold and strange feeling of suffocation, because of the person in front of him, gradually rubbed into safety and warmth.

The safety and warmth that you can sleep soundly without having to turn on the lights all night.

Fenglei couldn't see Linhua's expression, because of the dazzling sunset outside, he couldn't even see the outline of his back now, but he knew that he was there, a real and palpable existence, not how many times he dreamed back at midnight or rubbed shoulders Phantoms from peripheral vision.

That's enough, isn't it?

"That's enough." Fenglei said it, speaking to Linhua, and speaking to himself.

"Ok?"

Lin Hua turned around, the former self brought up by memories or nostalgia on her face hadn't had time to restrain herself.

Feng Lei smiled when he saw it, "You are here."

This is enough.

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